[Xunsi]May Be a Dream

Shinji changed into the school uniform next to his long companion, grabbed the schoolbag on the desk, and hurried downstairs.

The huge house is filled with a warm atmosphere due to the simple and elegant decoration layout in the transparent sunlight.

He sat down at the dining table, a hot breakfast was prepared on the log table, and Kaoru Nagisa was already in place.

"I'm starting..." Picking up the chopsticks, Shinji said to Nagisa Kaoru, "Kunu also hurry up and have breakfast!"

"Is Shinji-kun so sure there is no one else?"

Silently putting the food into his mouth and swallowing it, Shinji looked at the bowl in his hand and said, "There must be no one else. Mother has left, right? Father only cares about his research and mother."

"But here, your father took me in."

"Ah? Is that so?" The setting was completely subverted, and Shinji consciously accepted it.

"Your mother is indeed gone, and your father also went to Tokyo. Only you and I are here to take care of your daily life and food in return. It is not so much a reward as another kind of favor. This feeling is too alright.

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Not daring to touch Nagisa Kaoru's fiery eyes, Shinji absentmindedly ate his breakfast and whispered, "Are you all there?" Ayanami, Asuka, Miss Misato...

"It's all there. But, those things won't happen again." Zhu Kaoru took a deep look at Shinji.

Shinji didn't say a word to Kaoru until the sound of tableware colliding in the kitchen sink.

Accustomed to a breathless life, the sudden relaxation confused Shinji's heart.

The people bound by NERV, EVA, A.T. FIELD, and father's plan are now scattered, and perhaps there will not be too many intersections in their lives.

Everyone is free, Kaoru and I, no, I'm the only one who hasn't come out yet, right?

Kaoru is also free, so there is no need for me to be the center, right?

I was born to meet you.

Too good words, too good redemption.

Is it worth it for someone like me?There is no fate anymore, and there is no need to make a choice for me in the gap between eternal life and death. What reason is there to choose me?

Heart?Why?

How do I go on in the future?Am I still necessary for Kaoru?

He could have chosen more.

It seems that Kaoru and I are no longer necessary for each other.

It's such a bad feeling...

Will there be a day when you won't even feel uncomfortable?

I don't want this.

I'm really useless, I have to face it, I have to face it...

"There are club activities today, bring the cello, Shinji-kun." Nagisa Kaoru said to Shinji on the entrance while putting the plate back in the cupboard.

"Hmm..." After Shinji quickly ran back upstairs to retrieve the cello, the two set off together.

Shinji pushed open the door of the house, still feeling uncomfortable facing the bright sunshine, he looked back at his current residence, the white bungalow stood on the side of the road full of cherry blossoms on both sides.

It is the spring equinox season, and the branches of cherry blossom trees extending along the road are full of clouds of flowers, layer upon layer, pink and white wandering in the clouds, and the warm spring breeze blows the powder snow over the two of them.

Blooming cherry blossoms, clear sky and warm sun, gentle breeze, no devastated ruins, no mind-numbing metal and electronic numbers, no chilling warning lines, the original world should be like this, there are differences everywhere

The life of the form is blooming.

Shinji stopped in his tracks, and couldn't help but praise: "It's so beautiful." He had never seen such a scene since he was a child.

The pink and white flowers are swaying, and Kaoru Nagisa, bathed in the sunlight, is a naturally eye-catching luminous body.

The boy's smile is brighter, more dazzling than the sun, the beauty of the petals seems to be an extension of his existence, an incredible beauty, not a beauty of men or women.

"In front of these scenes, the evolution of human beings seems pale and meaningless, right?" Nagisa Kaoru looked up at the blooming cherry blossoms, and turned to Shinji beside him.

"In fact, the human heart is very small, but it always needs to accommodate some necessary things to survive. It doesn't need too much, but when in contact with others, those small things will always be hurt and change. Therefore, human beings

I will pursue more, to forget loneliness and pain, but too much will cause confusion. Lilin's Complementary Evolution required too much, so everything couldn't take shape.At this moment, I am free, I hope to live, to live for you as a human being, what I need in my heart is just a little bit of you, Shinji-kun, even if one day your heart needs more, I also hope to have such a A small space is in your heart, just feel it, just like human beings always live in groups, but they will not take the initiative to contact each other, just need to feel the existence is enough. "

No, don't do this!Shinji was roaring in his heart, and he couldn't take a moment to think. He opened his mouth and said, "I need Kaoru! A lot, a lot, it will never be just a little bit, so don't ask me to do anything to Kaoru again." Let me be happy.

"Fu" thing. Even if my heart is occupied by Kaoru, there is no...nor a little bit of happiness." His voice became smaller and smaller, until Shinji lowered his head, and Nagisa Kaoru heard a small choked sob.

It was unbearable.

Shinji cried loudly under the cherry tree with his cello on his back, crying more sadly than when he was abandoned by his father.

Because you don't believe it, you will turn a blind eye to the hearts of others, and you will continue to look for a part of yourself from others.

"Don't show such an expression. Don't forget, I was born to meet you, Shinji-kun." Nagisa Kaoru silently stared at the crying Shinji, waiting for the child in front of him to stop crying.