[Xunsi]May Be a Dream

Summer is fleeting, autumn is gone and winter is coming again. Since the "reunion" at the seaside, before you know it, Shinji and Kaoru will spend half a year under the same roof.

Day after day, the peaceful days made him feel at ease, and day after day, the status quo that Kaoru was inseparable from him made him feel depressed.

Kaoru chose to return to him, but the white-haired boy had forgotten the sincere words of love he had repeated in the past, and the ambiguous tenderness as before was no longer expressed only for him.

The joy of reuniting with the young man was gradually eroded by the uncontrollable and unspoken emotions that overflowed his heart. He was always passive. He knew that he could not choose to escape or blame himself willfully, but he did not find a proactive way.

He was still the fool who stood there waiting for the boy to turn around, wandering, wandering, recalling what Xun had said to him over and over again, only then did he realize that the distance between Xun and him had always been so close, always so far.

The distance between the hearts is getting closer, but the distance between the two is far away, and the distance between the two is getting closer, but the distance between the hearts is pulled apart abruptly.

The image of intimacy has disappeared from the home, which allows Shinji to realize the distance between the two more than the school.

"It's almost the end of the year..." In the kitchen, Shinji waited for the soup in the pot to boil, and casually glanced at the calendar hanging on the wall.

There is only the last thin page of the calendar, and the red letters representing holidays at the bottom of the page are quite dense. Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, and New Year's Eve, the last day of the year, are all concentrated in this week.

It will be Christmas in two days. He wanted to ask Xun what would be the arrangement, but he lingered for several days and didn't say anything. After school these days, Xun even went out to work, and he was the only one left to return home after school. home, make dinner.

The gurgling sound of the soup pot brought Shinji back to his senses. He stretched out his hand in a panic, and retracted his hand as if struck by lightning as soon as he touched the handle. He squeezed his fingers tightly to try to suppress the sharp pain from the burn.

He immediately turned on the faucet to rinse his scalded fingers, and he frowned unconsciously due to the tingling sensation left by his red fingers under the cold water.

Fortunately, it was only reddened and not swollen, so Shinji put all his energy into making dinner, wrapped up the portion left for Kaoru and put it in the refrigerator before eating dinner.

Shinji was used to doing homework at night while waiting for Kaoru to come home. He didn't know why Kaoru suddenly went out to work, although he asked, Kaoru didn't say a word.

Hey, why did Kaoru suddenly go to work?

I'm sorry, Shinji-kun, I can't accompany you home these days, so I'll make dinner with you.

It's ok……

Is it really okay?

Well, if Kaoru wants to do anything, just do it.

I see.

At that time, Kaoru lost his usual warm and bright smile, and just stared at him expressionlessly, without saying a word.

Suddenly, the other party grabbed his hand and brought it to his lips.

Those thin lips were warm and affectionate, and after imprinting a kiss on the back of his hand, they were still reluctant to leave like infinite nostalgia, and the slightly warm breath and the soft touch sprayed on it.

Kaoru's expression was bitter and helpless.

For a moment, he was timid and wanted to ask why, why did he show such an expression?Why, kiss the back of his hand?

Do you still like him as much as you did back then?

He didn't ask.

As soon as he came out of the bathroom, he heard the sound of the key opening the door. Shinji ran towards the door before he put on his coat and his hair was still wet.

After Zhu Xunfu opened the door, he saw Shinji who answered the door at the entrance. The young man was still damp after bathing, and his clean brown eyes were even more dewy.

"" Shinji-kun won't you be cold?Just run out. "Finally, Kaoru took off his coat and put it on Shinji, his eyes glanced at the pale neck exposed at the neckline of the pajamas, a little bit of crystal water dripped from the black and wet hair, and fell stagnantly along the undulating curve.

Taking Shinji's hands together and exhaling warm air to his lips, Nagisa Kaoru raised his eyes to look at Shinji's slightly surprised expression and his gradually flushed cheeks: "Go to sleep quickly. The part-time job will be busy these days, Shinji-kun won't have to worry about my dinner anymore, I'll take care of it myself."

"It's almost Christmas so you're busy?"

"Yes. But I will resign on Christmas Eve." The coat on his back was full of familiar body temperature and breath, warm, and he gathered the coat.

Shinji quickly asked: "Is this okay?" Great, can he spend Christmas with Kaoru?

Zhu Kaoru walked into the living room, and Shinji immediately poured him a glass of warm water, he took a few sips of water from the glass, and said, "I've made an agreement with the boss from the beginning, it's fine. How does Shinji-kun want to spend Christmas?"

"I..." Shinji glanced at Gu Zuxun's side face, a look of expectation flashed in his eyes, he opened the chair by the dining table and let him sit down: "Xun, can you spend Christmas with me?" He lowered his head, his voice getting smaller and smaller.

Is Kaoru giving him a chance?

Kaoru put down the cup in his hand, turned his head and looked at Shinji silently for a while.

With his head down, Shinji knew that the other party was looking at him, that gaze was not sharp but fixed all his reactions like a nail.

"I thought Shinji-kun would let me wait forever. When I was going to work, Shinji-kun showed a little lonely and discouraged expression, but said it was okay, and now he has a look of anticipation, and he took the initiative to say that he wants me and you Let’s spend Christmas together. In Shinji-kun’s mind, what am I like? Shinji-kun sometimes speaks inappropriately, and sometimes is very active. There are many things in those eyes that cannot be seen clearly, and every move is cautious, I think I am at least special in Shinji-kun's heart, but there are many things I don't understand about Shinji-kun. I want to know more about Shinji-kun." Kaoru Nagisa walked behind Shinji and stretched out his hands to circle Shinji in In his arms, he buried his face in the other's black hair to absorb the fresh body fragrance.

This is the first hug since the reunion on the beach. Shinji took a deep breath, pretending to be relaxed and said: "It's not that I didn't mean it. Why should I object to what Kaoru wants to do? I am alone again. , It's normal to feel a little discouraged. It's not as serious as you said... I also really want to be closer to Kaoru, I want to stay by your side, Kaoru is not only special to me." He couldn't tell Kaoru Those once complicated things, and they will always ferment infinitely in his heart.

"What's that?" Kaoru's voice became softer, with a hint of coaxing.

"...I like it." When Kaoru needs to know his mind, he will reveal his mind.

If he didn't need it in his whole life, he would never say these two words in his whole life.

The people behind him hugged him even tighter, Shinji seemed to have lost all perception and even forgot to breathe, and sat on the chair dumbfounded.

It doesn't matter if you don't get a response, everything has been restarted and changed.

"Shinji-kun should have been more straightforward in the first place. That's not bad, it deserves my favor."

Shinji tremblingly grasped the hands holding him tightly: "Thank you, Kaoru...Thank you..."

My heart hurts with ecstasy.

Being liked by this person has turned into a painful and sweet entanglement, and the words "worth the favor" have captured his heart forever from the beginning.