[Xunsi]May Be a Dream

There are two freshly baked omelet rice on the log dining table, one of which is written on the tender yellow egg skin with red tomato juice: Nagisa ヲル.

Before Nagisa Kaoru came out of the room, Shinji had to sit at the dining table and wait.

In the room, Zhu Kaoru dialed Ikari Gento's number with his mobile phone, and before the other party could speak, he joked: "Father, Shinji-kun hung up the phone." The landline is in the corridor, if he calls back with the landline, Shinji will You definitely don't like it.

"The word father is really uncomfortable when it comes out of your mouth." Ikari Gento replied calmly.

"You are Shinji-kun's father, you are a man who is a father, aren't you?" The father who was hated by Shinji-kun.

Shinji-kun, do you hate humans?

I can't say I like it but I don't hate it either, but I hate my father.

This man who wants to become a god for his only wish is still going his own way to realize his wish in this world where the domain of gods has disappeared and the heaven has been closed.

Shinji-kun's dislike also works here.

"The word father doesn't belong to me, and I don't need it. You just need to do your part. It's not a good thing to ask too much."

"And then? What are you calling this time?"

"Don't let him go to Wei's grave recently."

"Why?" He promised Shinji-kun that he would go.

"I want to move Yui's grave to Tokyo. I don't have time to come back often, so I have to do this."

"I think Shinji-kun's mother would prefer to stay with Shinji-kun."

"Construction will start this weekend, Zhu-kun, please pay attention."

Beep beep beep beep...the phone has been cut off.

"Still the same." Doesn't this mean forcing him to tell Shinji-kun?

Slamming the phone on the bed, Kaoru Nagisa left the room, seeing Shinji who was waiting alone at the dining table suddenly wanted to hug him from behind.

Nagisa Kaoru did just that, feeling the body in his arms tense up like he was startled, he hugged Shinji even harder: "Why is my name still written on the omelet rice?"

The embrace behind him became warmer after the other party took a bath, and Shinji couldn't help reaching out to touch Kaoru Nagisa's hand on his body: "Because... I just thought that this is an omelet rice for Kaoru."

"Next time, draw a heart shape. Or just make the omurice into a heart shape." Nagisa Kaoru pecked and kissed the back of Shinji's neck, then moved the plate to the next door to Shinji, and sat down again carelessly.

"I won't do it." Shinji began to eat.

Knowing that the young man would do what he said, Kaoru suddenly wanted to eat omelet rice made by Shinji every day.

Carefully using a spoon to divide the omelet rice into neat pieces and put it into his mouth, Kaoru swallowed a spoonful of delicious and fresh omelet rice with a fresh and sour tomato taste and said: "Shinji-kun, let's go see your mother tomorrow!"

Tomorrow is already Friday, and Ikari Gendu did what he said, and he acted neatly. Probably after tomorrow, there will be only an open space left in Ikari's tomb.

Shinji was puzzled: "Okay, but, didn't Kaoru say to wait for the weather to clear up before going? It seems that it will rain tomorrow too."

"Shinji-kun." Zhu Kaoru still decided to tell Shinji, don't lie to the other party, and there is no way to deceive the other party, he put down the spoon, smiled and said: "Your father decided to move your mother's grave to Tokyo, and the construction will start this weekend." .”

His hands trembled, and the spoon fell to the ground with a loud sound. Shinji felt that a piece of his heart had been dug out in an instant: "Why does he hate me?" Covering his face with trembling hands, his whole waist also bent down, "Why is he my father? Why did you take my mother away? This time, my mother is inside, it's not empty..." The thin body trembled like a leaf in the wind.

Suppressing the severe pain in his heart, Shinji shook his head again, letting the rolling tears wet his thighs, his hands clasped his arms tightly, and there was no trace of blood on his fingertips.

"Why did I give birth? Because my mother is gone, so it doesn't matter?! Then just throw me away! Throw me away! Isn't it good that I don't know anything?" The big house Shinji's wailing was echoing.

Zhu Kaoru wanted to hug Shinji into his arms, but Shinji waved him away: "It doesn't matter, Kaoru is right, whether he loves me or not, I have to face him, it doesn't matter if I am not needed, and I can find myself who needs me." Those who need it will be fine..."

Every frown and smile of this young man has always caused a huge change in Zhu Xun's thoughts, as if he empathized with him. At this moment, he was rejected even for a hug, and Zhu Xun couldn't help feeling sad.

He doesn't have parents, and he doesn't have all the emotions of human beings. At this moment, the heart of a teenager is hard to get close to, and it makes him feel uncomfortable.

"It's okay, it's okay... I can go to Tokyo to find him in the future, and I can go to Tokyo to see my mother." The boy murmured.

The memory of his mother is very vague, almost nonexistent, but in fact he is just deceiving himself. He was also there the day his mother disappeared in the first machine, so the empty tomb there is just a sign.

However, this time the mother is really here, and there is no scary mass-produced doll, and Ayanami just maintains her appearance.

His father still wanted to isolate and abandon him, and even his mother was not allowed to touch him.

The clueless abandonment always split his heart in two.

Hate resentment?All right, he dumped you.

Revere and fear?Yes, he is your father.

"Shinji-kun, I don't know..." Zhu Xun asked softly, the young man's silence made his heart feel strange.

The piercing pain even made him weak.

Suddenly, Shinji turned his tear-stained face and stared at Zhu Xun quietly: "At that time, I once sat on eva for a word of appreciation from my father, but in fact, I didn't really appreciate it at all, and it didn't even matter if I did it or not, it was just nonsense. String puppets. It’s a lie that everything calms down after defeating the apostle, and it’s even more painful afterwards.”

"Shinji-kun, stop talking..."

"I found that everyone was hurt because of Eva, and because of me. In the end, Kaoru was also killed by me." Shinji's sluggish eyes fell on the other party's fair neck.

"I was abandoned by my father, so I even gave up the strength to find a place to live. I just curled up like this and watched everyone leave me. I could only shed a few tears and couldn't do anything."

"That's enough! Stop talking!" Kaoru Nagisa had never been so excited, let alone spoke to Shinji in an overly heavy tone.

"From beginning to end, I'm the only one. Can I be needed?"

"I need Shinji-kun!"

"At that time, it was very painful, very painful, right? When the body was crushed... At that time, Kaoru also showed such an expression. But, I did it anyway."

"It hurts, doesn't it?" Shinji repeated the question almost pleadingly.

"If that kind of despair-like destruction is pain, then I think so, it is pain. Unfortunately, it is not the moment when the body is broken, but Shinji-kun can't cry when he wants to cry, and he has to say what he didn't want to say At that moment, I was thinking, can I really deliver happiness and the future to Shinji-kun?" Kaoru frowned, with a sad face, helplessness, love, pleading, and A little bit of anticipation.

Shinji stood up abruptly, looked down at Nagisa Kaoru who was sitting on the chair: "Kaoru, I want to go out." Now he, the hedgehog, had to leave temporarily.

"Want to escape? You have already done it."

"I can't ignore my father."

"There are always fragile corners in the human heart."

"Kun, I'm sorry, at that time..."

"I will feel pain if you do this, I want to give Shinji-kun happiness."

"I don't want to hurt Kaoru anymore. So, I have to think clearly."

"Will be back, right?"

Shinji nodded vigorously, and said, "I want to be the person Kaoru really needs."

The boy opened the door and walked out.

The door slowly closed again with a dull sound.