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The two of you looked at me and I looked at you, the air was quiet for two seconds, and suddenly they laughed together.

……

Oops!It's great to have someone who can lead you astray and make you laugh heartlessly along with him!

Xiang An frowned and said angrily, "But I'm a novel writer! It's a singing talent show, what am I doing wrong?"

Qu Li coughed: "It's a writer, a writer~"

"Don't flatter me, I'm very self-aware."

Said to An Zheng.

Hey!This guy can't praise it!Seeing his expression, Qu Li quickly pretended to be serious: "Yes, we still have to be humble."

Xiang An glanced at his silly look, and couldn't help laughing: "Why are you so glib now, Boss Qu? Is it because the days are too moist?"

Qu Li pretended to shake his head: "No, it's not the most nourishing yet." As he said that, he turned over and pressed on Xiang An, and flirted with his forehead against his forehead, "After entering, the most nourishing will be."

Xiang An softened his feet, and immediately surrendered: "Don't flirt, don't flirt, I was wrong, I was wrong."

Hee hee, contented, Qu Li hugged his face hard and kissed him, making his face drool.

Xiang An was so disgusted with it, but he couldn't get angry, so he could only stick to it silently, cheek to cheek and rubbed away from his face.

Xiang An said: "I may have to find another crew to go there in two days."

"Are you going to interview again?"

"What kind of interview, why do you tune in with Jiang Xiaozheng?" Xiang An corrected, "I'm here to observe life and collect materials."

"Okay, you can do whatever you say. But let's agree, don't rely on random people to get involved. I can't stand what happens to you."

"Come on, what could happen?" Xiang Anman said nonchalantly, "Who else could fall in love with me except you?"

"I'm not blind." Qu Li said, "Anyway, take care of yourself for me."

"Ah."

Xiang An nodded obediently.

"Curved away."

"Ok?"

"Aren't you useless for my notebook last time?"

"Which book?"

"The Journey of the Gods."

"Ah—that," Qu Li circled Xiang An's shoulder with his fingers, and thought for a while, "I don't know, are you still stuck in the editorial department? How about I mention a few words and ask them to hurry up?" Change it?"

"Forget it, don't change it," Xiang An thought for a while and said, "Recently, TV dramas have been censored, and they probably think it's too difficult to change this kind of subject matter, so don't make things difficult for them."

"Well, it's been quite strict recently."

Qu Li echoed a few words, and then brought up a new online drama with ancient costumes. After finally finishing the filming, it was sent to the stage and stuck on the stage, saying that it was not convincing. In the end, I had to work overtime and wait for the final stage. Good job The light comedy has turned into a fairy tale for P, and the characters have their own special effects "fairy spirit" as soon as they appear on the stage.

Talking about the previous topic, and then turning back after talking, both of them forgot what was said just now.

Seeing Xiang An feeling depressed, Qu Li pinched his face and asked in a low voice, "What's the matter?"

"I'll try to hurry up. When this book is finished, let's find some time to go abroad to relax, shall we?"

Like an kitten, he raised his head from his shoulder socket, his eyes bright.

"recent?"

Qu Li paused abnormally, and a trace of suspicion flashed across An Xin.But soon, before any strange thoughts popped up, all doubts were dispelled.Qu Li said coquettishly, "But I've been so busy recently, can you wait for me for a few more months? I promise, we will definitely go after I get this pile of things done!"

Hmph, acting like a baby is a good skill, at least it will be of no use to Xiang An.

"Then—" Xiang An rolled his eyes, "Go to Holland!"

"Okay!" Qu Li agreed.

Look how easy it is.

In this way, Xiang An, full of yearning for a trip to the Netherlands, happily went to a certain production team in Ningxia with Jiang Xiaozheng at the end of June.

Before that, he attended the hundred-day banquet of Gu Xiaoran's fat son.

At first Qu Li didn't want him to go, although they both knew the meaning of Zhou Li's existence, but as long as the name was mentioned, Qu Li would still feel awkward like a thorn in his heart. For many years, this person was by Xiang An's side.

But soon his worries were dispelled, because Zhou Li would not be there at all, and he was traveling in Europe with his pretty brother Wei Yutang at this time.

So Qu Li secretly breathed a sigh of relief, but at the same time pretended that he didn't care if he came or not, and agreed to the performance of Xiang An's banquet.

The child of Gu Xiaoran and the secretary has completely inherited the good genes of his parents. He was born white and fat, pink and jade-carved, as beautiful as the little doll on the poster, and it is hard to put it down in his arms.

Like An Duzui, he flicked his tongue like a bird to tease him, while Xiao Liu saw him and started to tease him again: "If you like it so much, you might as well give birth to one."

Xiang An smiled: "I think so,"

After speaking, I realized that I had said the wrong thing, and quickly changed my words, "I don't want to, if someone else's child looks like it, I will suffer if I really let myself raise it."

The words touched Xiao Liu's heart, and he nodded repeatedly, "Yes, yes, yes."

Xiang An smiled, stopped talking, and concentrated on masturbating the baby.

After the luncheon, after seeing off all relatives and friends, the secretary was finally free, and the three roommates went to a nearby bar to drink and catch up.

Calculating carefully, after college, they only got together a few times, and they could count on one hand. It might be even more difficult to see each other in the future.Xiang An said: "It's a pity that Lao Xie is not here, otherwise our dormitory has been together for so many years."

"Leave him alone," Xiao Liu raised a pitcher of wine to clink his glasses, "We'll just be happy when we get together, why don't we care about him... By the way, how are you guys doing these days? Old Cui, how are you? The goddess is married, We have a family of three, so let us express our thoughts and feel sorry for us?"

This skill of changing the subject is really applauded, no, no, trace, trace!

Sure enough, after so many years, Xiao Liu is still the most silly and sweet one, the one who can be seen through at a glance.

Xiang An could clearly see what he wanted to hide in his heart but didn't hide it, so he didn't reveal it, and looked up at the secretary who was called.

Unexpectedly, the secretary had a sad face, took a sip of wine and shook his head: "Don't mention it."

Xiao Liu immediately said cleverly: "Understood, every family has scriptures that are difficult to recite, and it seems that goddesses are not so easy to marry."

Hey!Xiang An was not happy about this. The secretary kept talking about it for so many years, and finally got his wish and married the one he wanted. Gu Xiaoran gave him such a big deal when she gave birth to a child in October, and he still wanted to What do you want?

He raised his head and asked, "What, did you quarrel?"

"It's fine if we quarrel."

what?

More serious than a quarrel?

Xiao Liu didn't mind watching the excitement, so he immediately became interested, stretched his ears and waited for the next article.

The secretary knocked the cup on the table, and asked angrily, "Is it like this for everyone? It's better to find someone who loves you than to find someone who loves you, so you don't have to live a life full of aggrieved stomachs!"

"It's not that serious, is it?" Xiao Liu said.

"You don't know, Gu Xiaoran is a very strong person. She is used to living alone, and she must be independent in every way and must put her career first. You said that you refused to take a vacation when you were pregnant, and it was fine if you procrastinated. Now that you have just given birth to a child, you are non-stop Going to work, what does it matter if people look at it? I am a big man? I have to rely on her, a pregnant woman, to race against time to support me?"

"Old Cui," Xiang An interrupted his speech, "Before you say this, think about it first, are you blaming her for people to gossip and criticize you, or do you feel sorry for her and want to share it for her?"

"I..." The secretary was speechless for a moment.

"Do you really love her?" Xiang An asked again.

"What do you mean?!"

"Have you ever asked yourself, was it because you loved her at the beginning, or was it just because you didn't get it that you were unwilling?"

The secretary was dumbfounded.But Xiang An smiled: "Old Cui, do you still remember that in the dormitory, you counted the probability of Gu Xiaoran passing through the cafeteria to buy yogurt by counting your fingers with joy? You used to really love her and only wanted to spend your whole life I will treat her well."

"Nonsense," the secretary muttered in a low voice, "of course I love her."

"Yes." Xiang An raised his glass to touch him.

He remembered that the night before the wedding, Gu Xiaoran said to Zhou Li——Brother, I feel that I am so lucky to have met Xie Wen. No one has ever loved me so persistently. He made me see the most beautiful love look.

Xiang An said: "Ten years is not easy, she must love you very much."

After hearing this, the secretary was silent while holding the wine glass, and fell into deep thought.

"Then don't think about it so much!" Xiao Liu patted the secretary on the shoulder generously, picked up the wine glass and clinked with him, and drank it boldly, "Let me tell you! Of course it is to find the happiness you love, to find A person who loves himself is not as beautiful as you think!"

He shook his head and sighed boringly, "You know, people's hearts have to change. He loves you today and this year. Who knows when he won't love you anymore? Instead of worrying about being abandoned and worrying about gains and losses, it's better to make up your own mind and think about the day How good is it to love someday? Hey, be content!"

He was staggering drunk, with one hand on the secretary's shoulder and the other waving wildly in the air.

Xiang An grabbed his arm and said, "You're drunk after talking so much."

The author has something to say: The most regrettable thing about my life is that in the past 22 years, I have met many boys and heard many stories, and they all made me feel that love is nothing more than this.

But I know it's not love's fault.

☆、2018 Hanping

In fact, in a certain sense, what Xiao Liu said is not unreasonable.

At least Jiang Xiaozheng only hoped that Lu Yu had never loved her. If that was the case, she would feel better now.

She stayed at home for a month, cheering herself up every day, trying to rely on her thoughts to get herself out of the shadow of broken love, but it was useless.Finally, after listening to Qu Li's suggestion, he invited Lu Yu out, covered his head and beat him up violently, and suddenly he felt relieved, his mood suddenly brightened, and his fighting spirit immediately became high.

Catch up with a newly approved movie called "The World in the Bag", which is currently casting actors, so she went to audition for the role of a noble lady.It is said that this masterpiece has been in preparation for many years and exhausted the hard work of the production team. Now it is also going to spend huge sums of money to create it, inviting many first-line celebrities.It was a great honor for Jiang Xiaozheng to be able to pick a corner in it, and she couldn't help but rejoice for the first time that she was able to take the over-age route.

At the end of June, Xiang An and Jiang Xiaozheng embarked on a journey to the northwest.

Looking down from the plane, the scenery in the northwest of my country is truly spectacular. The vast plain spreads out like a painting on paper, with a view of thousands of miles, and the sky is boundless. Looking down from above is thrilling and shocking.

The filming base of "The World in a Bag" was built in a remote border area, far away from the airport, and it took more than three hours to drive out of the city. It can almost be said to be desolate and isolated from the world.

Xiang An stayed here for less than half a month, and usually followed the tricks, got acquainted with the actors below, mastered what he planned to know, and then set off back to Hanping.

In the past half a month, he has almost lost contact with Qu Li.The base is far away from the urban area, and the signal is very poor. Sometimes Qu Li sends a message, and he has to wait a long time to see it. At night, when the two talk on the phone, they have to climb up the dirt wall to find the signal point.

After struggling for a few days, Xiang An finally gave up and completely shut down the phone and lost contact.

It was already a day before he went home to contact Qu Li again, he squatted on the dirt wall, and Jiang Xiaozheng helped him set up a signal shelf for watching TV at a fellow villager's house.

The moment the phone was connected, Qu Li almost jumped out of the phone, and said angrily, "You still think of me!"

Xiang An knew he was in the wrong, let him vent his anger and scolded him, and finally leaned forward with a cheeky smile: "I know I'm wrong."

Qu Li suddenly lost his temper, and asked sullenly: "Then when will you come back, I will pick you up."

"Tomorrow, I want you to book a plane ticket!"

"tomorrow?"

"Yes~"

Xiang An was still happy, but after waiting for a while, he didn't see Qu Li's response, so he felt something was wrong, "What's wrong?"

"No..." Qu Li seemed to be frowning and contemplating, hesitating, "Just, I have something to do tomorrow, I don't know yet..."

something?What can be connected to a machine that can't be pulled away?

etc--

Wouldn't it be some kind of surprise? !

Xiang An turned his head quickly, sorting out the stickiness of Quli and Quli before they parted, and thought it was possible, and then thought about going to the Netherlands before thinking about it, could it be——? ?

The heartbeat suddenly sounded like thunder.

On the face, he still pretended to be stupid and asked: "What's the matter? Is there someone outside?"

"No!" Qu Li complained, "What nonsense are you talking about!"

Xiang An chuckled, and heard him say, "Tomorrow you have to arrive early, so just wait for me at the airport, and I'll come over when I'm done!"

"Come on! I'm not a kindergarten kid anymore, do I have to pick him up after school?"

He said so, but the smile on his face couldn't stop, holding the phone in one hand, and idly pulling up the hay residue from the earthen wall with the other hand, and when he hung up the phone, the good wall made him bald a little .

Jiang Xiaozheng held up the antenna stand and was impatient for a long time. He turned off the phone and turned to Anfu, only to see a shelf smashed down on his face. I was wrong about you, Lao Xiang, who acted so coquettishly?"

Xiang An blushed and concealed: "Is there? Am I acting like a baby?"

Ah!

Jiang Xiaozheng rolled his eyes, there was no doubt, "Yes!"

It was a beautiful night, the sky in the northwest was as vast as the earth, the night sky full of broken stars hung down like a dome, and the overflowing Milky Way seemed to be clearly visible even the dust, which made people feel like they could touch it when they looked up.

Xiang Anhuo had never seen a more spectacular scenery than here at his age, and when he and Jiang Xiaozheng were lying on the ground, he thought that he must come and see it with Qu Li in the future.

If possible.

Unfortunately, I am afraid there is no chance.

Early the next morning, Xiang An took the crew's material truck to the city, and within four hours, he caught up with the afternoon flight to Hanping.

When he landed the first phone call, he never dreamed who it was.

A person whom he hadn't seen in ten years was so far away in Xiang An's memory that he could hardly find a trace.

When she spoke, Xiang An didn't even recognize who the voice was for several seconds.

Until she said: "Xiao Li didn't pick you up, did he? Why don't we meet and have a meal together?"

There was a buzzing in his mind, and memories from the past flooded in, as if his whole body was in the morning mist of that day again, so cold that even his bones trembled.

He instinctively wanted to refuse, but reason forced him to accept this unfriendly invitation.

After all, that person is Quli his mother. Although he doesn't want to admit it, to a certain extent, they do love the same person.Even for this reason, we should get along well.

Xiang An walked into the agreed restaurant and recognized Ye Xian who was seated by the window without any effort.She is still dressed in that temperament, cheongsam and shawl, as if she can bloom elegant flowers from her fingers with every gesture.

If you get closer, you can still see the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes. Sure enough, no matter how hard you take care of her eyes, the years will still leave traces that should be left.

Xiang An struggled with how to address her for a long time, and finally called: "Mrs. Qu."

But Ye Xian smiled and said: "Don't call me that, I have been separated from Xiaoli's father for a few years, you should call me Auntie Ye."

She still spoke like that, although she smiled but couldn't hear the emotion, as if the divorce had nothing to do with her, as if she was telling someone else's story.

Xiang An didn't open his mouth. He already knew who he was going to face, and he had almost determined the other party's purpose, so he didn't want to spend too much unnecessary talking.

He has already learned Ye Xian's skills from Qu Li, and it is the best policy to respond to all changes with the same.

Sure enough, she smiled and asked, "Have you read the latest news?"

"What content?"

He just came back from a place isolated from the world, and he hasn't connected with the world yet, so how can he know any news?

Ye Xian then said: "About Xiaoli, it seems that the media has heard about you."

? !

Xiang An's first reaction was naturally surprise, and he almost took out his mobile phone to confirm immediately. Fortunately, he stabilized and said calmly, "What do you mean?"

After all, these years of cultivation are not considered in vain.

Seeing him like this, Ye Xian smiled again.This time it's a real joke.

"We, Xiao Li, are not in that circle. You can make troubles as you like, according to your temperament. You don't need to worry about it, but it's different. His career is not stable yet, he needs reputation, you understand?"

"Oh," Xiang An also smiled.He didn't want to be brooding at first, he was afraid that Ye Xian would exaggerate again later, which would make Qu Li feel sad.But he couldn't calm down after all, and he couldn't help but sarcastically said, "Ms. Ye really hasn't changed. I haven't seen you for so many years, and she asked me out in a hurry. It turns out that she is repeating the old trick and wants me to leave your son?"

"Unfortunately, you are not 20 years old anymore."

She didn't deny it, but looked at him with gentle eyes. Those loving and gratifying eyes fell on Xiang An, as if she saw her own child grow up.

Xiang An was unmoved, and retorted: "The son you tried every means to choose from me is already in his thirties."

Complacent, he thought he had occupied the high ground.

Unexpectedly, Ye Xian always had that faint smile in the corner of her mouth, slowly stirring the milk coffee with her hand, lowered her eyes, and shook her head lightly.As if mocking his naivety.

Xiang An was so panicked when he saw her, just at this moment a bell rang, and he answered the phone.

It was Xiang Zijun.

He said hesitantly from the other end of the phone: "Xiang An, Dad may be... getting married."

The hand holding the phone froze, and Xiang An couldn't tell what kind of emotion he was in for a moment.

Xiang Zijun had never disclosed this matter to him before, and it was only when the day approached that he remembered that he had to inform him.Listening to his voice on the phone, Xiang An was in a daze. He always thought that he and his father were each other's last family members, and that they should have a kind of mutual cherish and closeness. Finally learned.

Really, not as good as an outsider.

this feeling...

But still, he said, "Well, fine. I'll come."

After hanging up the phone, when he looked up to see Ye Xian again, his mind went blank.

He couldn't remember a single word he said when he was ready to fight Ye Xian with eloquence. He was in a daze for a while, only to see her lips opening and closing, reacting for a long time and forcing himself to concentrate before hearing the voice again.

"...Xiao Li is indeed very filial. He handles all the preparations for the engagement by himself, and doesn't make us worry at all..."

"Wait," Xiang An said blankly, "What engagement? Who is engaged?"

Seeing his reaction, Ye Xian rolled her eyes, and finally showed a sure-fire smile.

"Oh, of course he won't tell you, but—even if you hide it now, I believe you will find out soon. Why don't I tell you in advance."

Her voice finally had its ups and downs. In Xiang An's ears, it seemed that every word was deliberately emphasized, "In order to alleviate the bad influence you brought, Xiao Li finally decided to get engaged to Shu Han in advance, so that I Announce to the media and draw a line with you."

"What?" Xiang An was completely confused, "No, Shu... who is she? Quli's girlfriend? Did you make it up? How can he have a girlfriend?!"

Ye Xian sighed, and seemed to feel pity for him: "I told you once, Xiaoli loves to play, but he is still sensible and knows what is the limit. You, Xiang An, no matter what the reason is, we have to admit, He really likes you very much, but that's all."

"Life is long, how much love is enough? You are just one of them. It's not worth giving up his career and future."

Xiang An gritted his teeth and clenched his fists, and forced himself to be calm: "I don't believe it!"

He gave Ye Xian a hard look, ignored her annoying smile, took out his phone, and immediately dialed Qu Li.

After connecting for two seconds, a familiar voice came, no different from usual: "Hello?"

Xiang An asked as restrained as possible: "I heard that you are choosing a wedding dress?"

Qu Li paused and said, "My mother went to see you?"

Xiang An's heart sank.

Qu Li anxiously said: "Don't listen to her! She wants to lie to you again! Wait for me to come back..."

Xiang An interrupted him: "Just say, are you getting engaged?"

Qu Li suddenly lost his voice.

Time passed by minutes and seconds, only the soft sound of electricity came from the receiver, as if this moment had been stretched to the end of the century.

Unable to respond, he nodded to An: "Okay, I see."

Qu Li shouted on the phone: "I can explain! You believe me! Xiang An, you believe me!..."

But it was cut off with a ding.

Holding the phone, Xiang An lost his mind for a while.

After a while, he blocked Quli's number, took a deep breath and raised his head, smiled decently at Ye Xian and said, "I'm really sorry to bother you for so long, I'm too naive to bother you."

Ye Xian loosened her fingers leisurely, and the tiny coffee spoon hit the rim of the cup with a ding sound. She looked at Xiang An with a victorious smile, and still said unhurriedly: "It's okay. I hope you can find your own in the future." The direction of life is no longer absurd to waste time all day long, I wish you happiness on behalf of Xiaoli."

Xiang An was stunned for a moment, he didn't know what to think, and suddenly sneered, "Okay." He got up and left.

He didn't know how he got out of that restaurant, and pushed open the glass door. The July sun was so hot that he dazzled his eyes. He raised his hand to cover it, and looked blankly at the chaotic street in front of him, not knowing where he was going for a while.

In the restaurant, Ye Xian was still sitting in her original position, adjusted her shawl, reached out from under the table, took out her mobile phone and put it to her ear: "Hello?"

☆、2018 Hanping

Xiang An walked along the road on the right, and before he knew it, he came to his bookstore.

He pushed the door open and walked into the yard, unlocking the door lock that had been sealed for a long time.

Since he moved to a new house, he seldom comes here. The room is the same as when he left two months ago, with rows of bookshelves standing quietly by the wall.Go through the corridor at the top of the arc and walk to the inside of the round platform.The two vases of flowers on the window sill were all withered last time, and green hairs were growing on the part soaked in the water. He wanted to go to clean it up and throw it away, but he stopped suddenly after taking two steps.

Turn around and fall into the hanging rattan chair.

One toe pointing to the ground, nestled in the rattan chair, staring at the ceiling, swaying aimlessly.

It seemed as if everything outside had disappeared, leaving only this small study room, this small round platform, his small wicker chair, and himself.

He remembered why he was so obsessed with this bookstore.

Thinking of Qu Li once lying on his lap, and dreaming about the future to him—my ideal is to work hard to make money to open a bookstore, with ceiling crystal lights, bright large French windows, rattan chairs behind neat bookshelves, and interior decoration full of With a sense of design, you just sit on the small sofa in front of the window and read a book, and I push the door in after work, and you look up from the layers of books.

He thought of the endless high hills, with the wind blowing, Quli's palm spread out a silver ring to him, and told him, remember to exchange it for a wedding ring in the future.

By the dimly lit river, Qu Li hugged him tightly and said, I will never make you sad again, and I will never leave you alone again!

He remembered everything that was said to be wrong, and he believed everything he said.

But it's more than that.

He still remembers the back view of Qu Li leaving with a sneer, and the lost voice in his heart when Qu Li said "Don't worry, this is not a wedding ring".

Some small details are infinitely magnified at this moment, including when he asked about the whereabouts of his novel, Qu Li chose to cover up the topic, including the phone call they had just the night before, and now it seems that there is nothing wrong with it mean.

In fact, everything has been foreshadowed, right?

If it is true as Ye Xian said, in this relationship, he is the only one who is addicted, confused, and has been dreaming until now?

It's ridiculous!He actually wanted to receive surprises in vain, and looked forward to seeing all the great rivers and mountains together with Qu Li in the future.He actually, was still thinking that he might be able to accompany him for the rest of his life.

He glanced at his mobile phone, there was no missed call, and the screen turned off in disappointment.

I felt very tired for a moment, and my whole body and mind seemed to be stuck in a quagmire.

It's like walking a long and dark road, no matter what, there is no end in sight.

He lay down limply, covering his eyes with his hands.

When people come to this world, the first thing they learn is to cry.This behavior does not need to be taught and cannot be controlled.

Thinking back to the beginning, the first time he noticed Quli was in the sophomore year of high school.

How long is it now?For a long time, probably, so long that even he thought he had forgotten it?

It was an ordinary day, he was hiding under the table reading a novel, when he suddenly noticed someone approaching him from behind, when he raised his head, he just walked past him, the corner of his clothes just brushed against the edge of his table, and a pen fell in response.

Qu Li glanced sideways, bent down to pick up the pen and handed it to him, and said with a smile, "Thank you."

Before he could react, he said in a daze, "You're welcome."

Qu Li laughed again.

The weather was as good as usual that day, the classroom was brightly illuminated by the sun, Qu Li was wearing a hair of instant noodle rolls, with shiny black skin, standing in front of him and grinning brightly at him.

At that moment, there was only one thought in his mind.

——Why is this person... so ugly?

He didn't know when he started to fall in love with Quli, but it seemed that since then, this person's figure has never left his sight.

So that later when Qu Li confessed his love to him for the first time, he ran away in a panic like a frightened little rabbit.And in those panics, only he himself knows what kind of unspeakable joy and entanglement there is.

Time seemed to go back to the day when they sat on the edge of the bed in that twilight room, looked at him from the dim light, and asked in pain: "Do you think I am sick? Xiang An, I like you, Do you think I'm sick?"

At that time, he thought a lot, thought a lot, stepped forward and hugged him all at once!

He once deeply believed in Quli's love for him, to the point that he would not hesitate to exchange everything for him, but now, he only wants to ask himself, like Quli did in the past——

Xiang An, you have liked him for so many years, is it because you are sick?

Suddenly cried out loud.

At four o'clock in the morning, Xiang An arrived in Ningxia. He left his mobile phone in the bookstore, searched all over the crew tents, and asked from house to house, only to see Jiang Xiaozheng, who was rubbing his eyes and was sleepy.

At that moment, as if he finally found a support, he rushed over and hugged her tightly.

"What should I do?--"

A man in his thirties was crying like a child.

"Xiao Qu! Help me! I'm so sad, so sad..."

Jiang Xiaozheng was taken aback, then patted him on the back and coaxed him, "It's okay, it's okay, what's the matter? Tell my sister?"

Xiang An shook his head desperately, sobbing hoarsely.

"They all... don't want me anymore!..."

"……what to do?……"

"I really only have... myself..."

I'm really left with myself—

He cried so miserably that people didn't even know how to comfort him.

☆、2018 Hanping

These are probably the reasons why Xiang An finally chose to give up this world, right?

He once pessimistically thought that he would end his life at the age of 30, because he was afraid of facing the loneliness of the unknown alone.The appearance of Quli rekindled his hope, but after the silly joy, greater despair followed.

So, he really became the person he feared to be ten years ago.

In the end, he still couldn't escape.

Now Xiang An is lying in the hospital closest to his home in Hanping. Except for the cold wall-mounted TV, everything in the ward is lifeless white.

Although the operation was over, he still showed no signs of waking up.

Qu Li stood by the bed, stayed up all night, his eyes were red.

Jiang Xiaozheng came over and handed him a glass of water, telling him to go to sleep for a while, he shook his head tiredly.After hesitating for a moment, she stopped insisting and went out silently.

Qu Li stretched out his hand to hold Xiang An's hand outside the quilt, brought it to himself, bowed his head and kissed it softly, begging in a low voice: "Come back Xiang An, come back."

When waiting outside the operating room in the early morning, Jiang Xiaozheng asked him what the truth of the matter was. He breathed a sigh of relief and clenched his fists to explain clearly, but in the end he couldn't say it.

"What's the use of saying that now?"

He shook his head.

Jiang Xiaozheng asked: "Then why didn't you call him and explain clearly!"

"I called! I ran over there immediately after receiving the call, but I ran all over the restaurant and his house, and I couldn't reach him even after making hundreds of calls! I—"

"Brother Qu," Jiang Xiaozheng interrupted him, "No matter what you were planning to do, or how sad you are at this moment, please remember that my brother loves you very, very, very much, "

"I don't know what you have experienced, but I will always remember what he looked like on the night of July [-]th,"

"You must have never seen him drunk like that, but even when he was so drunk that he lost consciousness and couldn't even get up, he still couldn't stop crying,"

"He said a lot that day, and I just remember one sentence,"

"He said, 'I used all of myself to teach him how to love me, and even though no one knew better than me, we weren't going to end up. It was my fault'."

"There must be no one in the world who can be more sad than Xiang An that day."

Qu Li's fingers trembled, and he suddenly buried his head in his palm and cried loudly.

He remembered tidying up the room when he moved in May, and found the small box hidden in the corner of the closet. When he opened it, there were two rings inside, one was the DR he gave last time, and the other was a small silver ring from ten years ago.

He lifted up the small silver ring in surprise: "Didn't you say throw it away?"

Xiang An poked his head over to take a look, and said with evasive eyes, "Ah, I threw it downstairs, and I still couldn't let it go before I left Hening, so I spent another morning rummaging through the grass to find it."

He laughed again as he spoke, feeling stupid even to himself.

Xiang An really loves him, yeah!Qu Li knew it early on!

In this world, there is no second person who can love him like Xiang An!

In the small world of the ward, Xiang An was always asleep, while Qu Li held his hand tightly and cried bitterly.

"I'm sorry, Xiang An, I was wrong."

"I should just think about loving you and nothing else!"

"I'm sorry, my plan was wrong, please listen to my explanation."

"Come back and give me another chance..."

A gust of wind blew from outside the window, and the white bed curtain was lifted, and the low, distorted voice echoed the hissing cicadas on the banyan tree outside the street.

But Xiang An's world is still silent.

We don't have to guess whether Xiang An woke up in the end, let all the stories stop at this moment.

☆, extra

A bird flew in the sky, its wings and feathers were facing the wind, passing wisps of wandering clouds, and briskly sank into the eaves.From the cluster of buildings on the opposite bank, the dusk leaps into the water, spreading out the gorgeous colors in an instant, like a skirt with gauze and mist, lightly changing the dream.

On the broad road, two slanting figures walked towards the outside of the school.One with flying hair and dancing.With his hands in his pockets, he turned his head and looked at him quietly.

And the world is silent, I don't know whether it is laughter or tears.

Ah, Xiang An,

in case,

I'm not serious.just assume,

If, one day, I want to leave you.I just leave you behind and go somewhere else alone.Like in the movie, we agreed to meet, and you didn't come after waiting for three days, so I left first, what should I do?

Then you will live alone.

ha?

What about you?

what would you do?

I can get along with anyone.

do not,

You have to wait for me, I will definitely come back to find you.You have to know me, let alone three days, I will wait for you for the rest of my life.I'm only going away for a little while and I'll be right back, okay?

no,

Qu Li, you are an adult, you have to bear the consequences when you make a decision,

Change a cup when the tea is cold,

When the candy is gone, buy another one,

How could I stay where I am?

Ok.

Then you must come back to me.

The author has something to say: The story of "Yi Yi Ge" is completely over here, thanks to the little cuties for their support.When I first wrote this story, I didn't envision the ending like this, it should be complete and happy.Ten years together, Qu Li should love Xiang An wholeheartedly.In the process of writing this story, my life has changed a bit,