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"Just...before, my family forced me to have a girlfriend, I did."

Xiang An asked lightly, "How big is it?"

"At the age of 26. After talking for three months, neither of them wanted to, so they broke up peacefully."

Xiang An asked, "Is it not good?"

"Being with her, holding hands and thinking of you, kissing and thinking of you, turning off the lights and going to bed, I think of you too. After that, I will accept my fate. I can't want anyone else in my life except you."

"I really love that girl." Xiang An shook his head, regretfully.

"I'm sorry for her, but she doesn't love me either. Three years ago, she had a successful relationship with the little county teacher she always liked, and she sent a text message to thank me for not marrying me."

"..." Xiang An didn't know how to make an evaluation, thought for a while, and said, "Your circle is really chaotic."

Qu Li smiled, hugged him tightly, and rode on him like a monkey, saying coquettishly, "No mess, I've never messed with you before."

"Okay, don't be nasty." Throwing the cigarette butt to An, adjusted his posture and curled up into Qu Li's arms. He couldn't help laughing, "Go to sleep."

"Husband." Qu Li suddenly called out.

Xiang An froze, and his ears immediately perked up.

"I've missed you for ten years."

Xiang An's face turned red, and he buried himself in Qu Li's chest in a disguised manner, and responded in a low voice: "Yes."

Qu Li added: "When I'm done with this period of time, when I have more confidence, let's go to Holland to relax?"

"Ah."

"It's so cute." Qu Li laughed again.

He lowered his head to kiss Xiang An's eyebrows, and stroked his back naturally with his hands, and Xiang An obediently raised his head to kiss him.

He held the back of Xiang An's neck with one hand, skillfully inserted his tongue into his mouth, entangled with his tongue like a slippery loach, and gradually showed an aggression and lust.

The atmosphere is perfect.

Xiang An could feel that Qu Li's body was getting hot gradually, and the kneading force on his buttocks gradually lost control, and he poked his head out somewhere close to his lower body, and he moved his body involuntarily, squeezing more tightly. posted it.

Skin rubbing against skin, hot and seductive, Xiang An instinctively raised his neck, twisting slightly in Quli's passionate embrace.

They are connected with each other, and they both tacitly desire to have another shot.

Xiang Anwei opened his legs, and Quli's hand deftly moved down, penetrating into that wonderful place.

The temperature after the previous pleasure still remained in the acupoint, Quli's fingers turned to go deep in, while patiently and tenderly kissing the corner of Xiang An's ear, biting his neck, but the desire clamored and swelled even more Da Ye became even hotter, impatiently rubbing against Xiang An's legs.

Xiang An pulled out his hand and gasped, "That's enough, come in."

Qu Li knowingly hugged him and turned over, lifted his leg and pressed it up.

They looked at each other and smiled, holding it with their right hand and about to insert it.

Suddenly, someone's phone rang anxiously.

"ca"!Qu Li cursed inwardly, hugged Xiang An and stretched out his hand to touch it. After a long time, when he picked it up, the other party's panicked voice came out immediately.

Qu Li frowned and listened to a few words, then hung up the phone.

"I'm sorry," Qu Li immediately stood up, kissed An's eyes again, and explained, "An artiste in the company had an accident while filming. I have to go and have a look."

"Okay, pay attention to safety on the road, don't worry." Xiang An instructed.

"Ok!"

Qu Li nodded, kept moving, quickly put on his clothes, tidied up briefly, kissed Xiang An goodbye, and left quickly.

After he left, the room seemed extremely quiet. He turned on the stereo and played a song to An, picked up the scattered clothes on the ground, and lit another cigarette.

He also only recently learned about Quli's current situation.

It turns out that he and his cousin founded this company together. He graduated with a master's degree five years ago and went to Qu Huayang Company for two months. Jun Er Media.

Qu’s family is big, and it’s been a few generations. It can be regarded as a good place in Jincheng. In addition, Qu Li and Qu Jingshen are both smart people. The company’s development in Jincheng is good in the early stage. Stand firm in the industry.

After a few more years like this, Qu Li wanted to come to Hanping to run a branch company, so he rushed over in a hurry and plunged into this big pool, stumbled and stumbled until today.

After reuniting with him, Xiang An has been entangled in all kinds of grievances and entanglements, even ignoring the multiple pressures and burdens in his heart, and always thinking that his life is too easy and nourishing, and he has nothing to do when he is full.

Xiang An smoked until one o'clock in the morning, while Qu Li didn't come home until the next night.

After I came back and stood there for a while, I simply packed up my luggage and left without stopping.He didn't say what he was doing, he just said he was going on a business trip for a few days, and told Xiang An to stay at home by himself.

Xiang An worried: "Is the accident serious?"

Qu Li also only said: "It's not serious, don't worry."

How could you not worry!

Xiang An has a stubborn temper. If you tell him everything, he will feel better. If you keep hiding it to keep him from worrying, he will chase after you like a stubborn dog and refuse to let go.

No, as soon as Qu Lifang went out, he called Xiang An and asked for news.

This matter has not been reported yet, and we can only learn from some sporadic information that it was due to negligence in the preparation of props. During the filming, a square lamp fell from the roof of the canopy, which happened to hit the heroine who was speaking.

This girl is a newcomer that Quli's company has been promoting for the past two years. She has attracted a large number of otaku fans with her sweet appearance and cuteness. It is the time when her career is rising to the top, but now she is lying on the hospital bed. Life and death are uncertain.

Among other things, this loss alone is enough to cause headaches for a long time, not to mention a lot of mess that comes with it.

Xiang An knew that he was not a smart person, at least he had no brains in business.In the past, Zhou Li took care of the studio. Even if Zhou Li "retired" later, he had arranged for him in advance, so that he was well organized so that he would not have to worry about the future.

Even if he encounters a major event, there are various executive directors, assistants and other professionals to support him. He only needs to use his brain a little and sign.Even later, he had almost completely handed over the decision-making power to the first deputy, and he himself became the shopkeeper.

It is only now that I realize that it is a blessing that the studio like this has not closed down.

He knew that Qu Li was smarter and more capable than him, so good that he could solve any problem, so he didn't need to worry about him at all.However, just imagining what Qu Li is doing now, he also feels that it must be something he has never experienced before.In this way, just thinking about it makes my heart ache.

Xiang An clenched his phone tightly, gritted his teeth, and secretly made up his mind.

He quickly dialed a number in the address book.

"Old Wang, I...I have an idea, can you listen to it and see if it works?"

After listening to his narration, the other party didn't respond too much, just said "I'll make arrangements first", and quickly ended the conversation.

A week later, Qu Li came home with a haggard face and extremely exhausted.

At this time, Xiang An had already learned about the latest developments of the incident from TV and Weibo. Three days ago, various entertainment news dug up the inside story and rushed to make headlines. The young actor Wen Ruotong was seriously injured while filming. After being rescued, he is now out of danger. .

Although it didn't sound good, it was the best result, and Xiang An breathed a sigh of relief.

Xiang An took Qu Li's suitcase, and while leaning over to help him find his slippers, he suddenly felt a weight on his back, and his whole body was tightly bound by Qu Li.

The blood in his whole body warmed up suddenly, Xiang An maintained that posture, and let Qu Li hug him.

I don't know how long it took, Qu Li finally recovered, and said pitifully with a faint cry: "It's okay, Xiang An, it's okay..."

"Well, it's all over, don't worry, things will get better slowly." Xiang An clapped his hand to comfort him.

But Qu Li said, "Fortunately, you are by my side."

Affirmed to An, his heart suddenly contracted like an electric shock.

"I went to see her, she was lying on the hospital bed, her whole body was so weak..." Qu Li seemed to still have lingering fear, his voice trembling slightly, "I only thought of you, if it was you lying there, I would... I would definitely ...Life is too fragile! ...But it's okay, it's okay, you're fine, you belong to me completely, I'm so lucky!"

"Fool," Xiang An said with a smile, "what can I do if I eat and drink all day? Don't think so much, go take a bath and have a good rest."

"Do not."

Qu Li acted like a baby, "I want to kiss you."

Xiang An had no choice but to say, "Okay, okay, kiss me." He turned around.

Qu Li laughed immediately, his hair was messed up, and the stubble on his chin moved towards Xiang An's face, he pressed him against the shoe cabinet, sucked and licked him, and kissed him to satisfy him.It seems that only by touching the skin can one get the real sense of Xiang An's existence.

In the end, Qu Li was really tired, so Xiang An went to the bathroom to help him put hot water, and he didn't see him in after waiting for a long time, only to find that he was lying on the sofa in the living room, sleeping peacefully, and finally returned to the nest with the old bird It seems to be relaxed and at ease.

Angry and funny, Xiang An walked over and picked him up with some strength, and transferred him to the bed.

☆、2018 Hanping

A good night's dream.

Xiang An has never felt that the city is so peaceful and beautiful. Even the rows of lit lamps, even the shadows of cars speeding through the gaps between the flowers and plants on the balcony, and even the sounds of couples arguing angrily outside the street, seem like something The magic that makes people feel at ease.

For the first time, I have a sense of identity and belonging to the city I live in.

And all of this is because of Quli, the man lying beside him sleeping soundly.

I remembered that ten years ago, they still lived in a rented house outside the Polytechnic Institute. At that time, in summer, both of them liked to lie on the balcony to enjoy the shade, and count how many lights were turned on in the opposite building together.

Although he was also by Quli's side, Xiang An at that age just felt confused and didn't know where to go in the future.And now, the future has arrived.The person who accompanies him now is still the one he loved most ten years ago.

There is no need to worry about new twists and turns in life, and no need to worry about gains and losses. As long as we are together, the future will only be sunny.

When Qu Li woke up, it was already daylight, and the spring sunlight shone into the room through the glass window, making him unable to keep his eyes open.Xiang An was sitting on the bedside reading a book, and when he heard him wake up, he naturally leaned over and kissed him.

Qu Li was stunned for a moment, still not quite used to it, and after realizing it, he was overwhelmed with flattery, and didn't even know how to laugh, so he quickly reached out and hooked Xiang An, and then kissed Xiang An vigorously.

Xiang An couldn't laugh or cry, let him be happy.

This morning Qu Li clings to Xiang An like a child, hugging back and forth, walking step by step, a man in his teens, saying "I want to hug", "I want to kiss" and "Blowing", I don't mind saying it ashamed.

Xiang An was helplessly entangled by him, put down the spoon, turned around and touched his forehead, pretending to be worried and said: "Ah! Look at this, didn't you feel tired and stupid last night?"

Qu Li happily shook his head, taking the opportunity to confess his love.

"No, when you are happy, you have to be happy, when you love you, you just want to love you!"

Hey yo~

It was so numb that Xiang An shook his skin with goosebumps.

Just then, the phone vibrated and a message came.Xiang An opened sideways, and Qu Li's eyes followed from behind.

Read one word at a time: "I have tidied everything that is needed—" Qu Li was puzzled, "What has been tidied up? Did something happen to you?"

Xiang An thought for a while, then turned around and said, "Let me discuss something with you?"

"what happened?"

Qu Li immediately became vigilant and unconsciously took half a step back.

"Don't be so nervous." Xiang An was amused by his reaction, "I don't have any bad decisions to announce."

"Phew!" Qu Li breathed a sigh of relief, and said coquettishly, "I thought... ouch! You scared people to death!"

……

Xiang An tried to slow down his tone, making his expression sound sensible and sober, instead of talking in his sleep when he was awake.Ke Li was still shocked when he heard that.

"What?! Mergers and acquisitions?!"

He waved his hand to An to show him not to be so surprised: "I'm not kidding, you know, I'm not a careerist, you can work harder, promote GDP growth, increase employment rate for the well-being of the people, help me Contribute to the country together.”

He said it lightly, and even deliberately played with humor, but it was still unbelievable.

"It's fine, what's wrong with you?"

It's like letting go of your family's wealth and leaving you alone.

Xiang An shrugged and lied without changing his face: "I did a little calculation, and with my current fan base, I can earn at most two books, and if I go further, I'm afraid I'll have to pay for the publication fee myself. For the long-term plan, I have to set myself a prison cake,"

"So why don't we sign a private agreement. In the future, you will accept all the books I write, no matter whether they are good or bad. Consider me a part-time screenwriter under your banner. In return, I will sell you the studio,"

"Old Wang has arranged everything properly. The remaining writers and management elites are all very talented, and their abilities are no less than those coquettish sluts outside. As long as the salary is in place, you will never suffer."

"How?" Xiang An smiled, as if he was really discussing business with him, "Think about it?"

"It's not a loss," Qu Li muttered, "What are you trying to do like this?"

He shut up immediately after speaking, of course he could guess what Xiang Antu said.After a while, he sighed and pulled Xiang An into his arms: "You don't have to do this."

But Xiang An said: "Then we'll make a deal. I'll give you Wang Duo's phone number. You just need to get in touch with each other. Let me know when I show up."

Qu Li caressed his face, feeling a little distressed: "You gave me all these, what will you do in the future?"

"I have you!" Xiang An smiled without thinking.

When he laughed, his eyes were shining, like the bright spring outside crushed into his pupils, even the smirk carried the intoxicating affection of spring.

Qu Li's heart was so soft that he hugged him tightly, and said firmly: "Yes! You have me!"

Be happy when you are happy, and love you when you are in love.Xiang Anlai thought in Quli's arms, yes, so this is a choice that I will still make no matter how many times I do it again, and it is also worthwhile that I will never regret it no matter what the future result is.

Let's just treat it as a trick that I won't lose, so that I can be tied to him forever.

With such careful thoughts, it didn't take long for He Quli to get tired of it, and spring passed quickly.

Considering the distance from the bookstore to Quli's company, they had a brief discussion and soon moved to a new house in a high-rise apartment not far from Jun'er.

The various procedures for mergers and acquisitions are basically exhausted. Yanyizhi Studio, which once belonged to Xiang An, finally added an orthodox prefix to the company signboard and became a part of Juner.

It seems that because of carrying Xiang An's dream at the same time, Qu Li's work has become more energetic and ambitious. When the early summer came, he was already very busy.

Xiang An also gradually got used to making video calls with him in the middle of the night, and sharing some jokes with each other behind closed doors.You have teased Qu Li so much that on the day he comes back, the two of them will see each other instantly, hug and kiss all the way from the entrance to the room, and then fall on the bedroom floor or the sofa to start a blazing fire.

Ugh.

Xiang An didn't know how Qu Li was so energetic at such a young age!The key is that I have an old face, how can I still be immersed in this desire!

Have all the eight honors and eight disgraces been forgotten in the dog's stomach? !

While feeling guilty, he continued to enjoy the intense pleasure of being with Quli.

Hmm... I can't control myself, what can I do?

At the end of spring and the beginning of summer, the small fence of the flower shop next door began to bloom sporadically. When I passed by occasionally, I saw the frosty white petals stretching day by day, and soon large flowers adorned the branches.

One day Xiang An saw that they were really blooming, so on a whim, he turned into the next yard to ask for two bouquets of flowers.The owner of the store is a young girl, with long black hair tied up loosely, like a gentle breeze on a sunny day. She poked her head out from the bamboo window, looked at Xiang An, and said with a smile, "Sorry, that's not for sale."

Xiang An was a little embarrassed, but finally listened to the recommendation and bought a small bundle of light-colored roses and platycodon.When I hugged and turned into my own yard, the more I walked, the more awkward I became.

You said that he is not a young literary and artistic young man with sentimentality, so why do you think of what flowers to buy?If Qu Li were to meet, maybe he would have to suspect something wrong with him!

Opening the store door, Xiang An took out two open glass bottles, randomly divided the bouquet into two and put them in the bottles, no matter what art or not, they put them on the French window sill.

The sun shines softly on the flower branches, casting a slanting shadow on the floor.

Xiang An's heart softened, and he remembered in a daze that Zhou Li loved to go to the next door to buy flowers in the past. In the leisurely afternoon, he used a pair of scissors to trim and trim by himself.Hyacinths, lilies of the valley, or a few forget-me-nots are placed obliquely in the corners of the bookshelves in beautiful small bottles, and a few bunches of dried roses hang on the walls of the stairs and counters.

Simple, but with a comfortable aesthetic, he is a born artist.

Later Zhou Li left, green algae grew after the flowers withered and no one changed the water, Xiang An asked someone to clean the shop, and even the flowers and bottles were thrown clean. Qi Qi hasn't changed his appearance again, no wonder Xiang An sometimes feels inexplicably that there seems to be something missing.

He folded his hands and frowned, seriously, do you want to go next door and learn how to arrange flowers?

Ah, yes!Speaking of Zhou Li, he had contacted Xiang An some time ago.This was the only half a year after he left, the only time he thought of Xiang An.

At that time, Xiang An was reading a new science fiction novel, curled up in the hanging chair with his legs crossed, fascinated by it, and was biting his fingernails.As soon as the phone rang, I checked the information without warning, and the first thing I saw was the photo sent by Zhou Li.

In the photo, Zhou Li was leaning against a man he had never seen before. Both of them were grinning. Behind them were the low snow-white houses along the mountainside, the bright sunshine and the blue sea in the distance.

Intuition told Xiang An that the man beside him was Wei Yutang.

Sure enough, Zhou Li left a message saying: Yutang’s condition is much better. We arrived in Greece, where the sun is very warm and the scenery is beautiful. When I mentioned you today, Yutang asked me to speak to you on his behalf, thank you.

In just three lines, Xiang An read it at a glance, and then clicked on the photo.

Wei Yutang was very different from what he had imagined.

He thought that the man would look like a modest gentleman, a young talent, and he must have his hair neatly combed, giving people a sharp and serious impression, and maybe even a little unreasonable impression.

But in fact, his hair was longer than his ears, hanging down softly and loosely. He was wearing a loose open-necked linen shirt, revealing his thin collarbone, dark eyebrows and eyes, and a straight nose, which made the whole person appear thinner and paler.

That face was undeniably good-looking, but also haggard and sickly that couldn't be ignored.Between the blue sky and white walls, it looks like an angel who has fallen into the world, elegant and dejected.As if a painting carefully drawn by the hand of art, beautiful and dilapidated, people are unconsciously attracted by it, and people can't help feeling affectionate.

Xiang An suddenly understood what kind of love Zhou Li had been dreaming of for so many years. The rejection and disgust he had felt towards Wei Yutang because of the pain of seeing him die was completely relieved at this moment.

It was as if he suddenly understood the feelings hidden in Wei Yutang's heart.

For Wei Yutang, Zhou Li must also be a thorn in his heart, right?The more I wanted to pull it out, the more I contracted in pain and the deeper the piercing.

Xiang An thought for a while, and replied to Zhou Li: Haha, I just want to thank him.

Whether it's bringing you into my life or letting you go, thank him.

Thinking of this, Xiang An smiled, put away his phone, and continued biting his nails to flip through the novel in his hand.Since then, no news in his world has sounded because of Zhou Li.

☆、2018 Hanping

In June, Quli was very busy. Perhaps because of greater ambition and motivation, the company invested in several new TV shows and variety shows, and more and more artists were signed under it. There were often various meetings to be held. I need to attend various occasions and travel around, so I can't meet Mr. Xiang An.

But Quli has one good thing, that is, he will never lose contact!

No matter how busy he is, he will always send messages to Xiang An in any gap he can squeeze out. Although sometimes his head is dizzy and the sentences he types are confusing and incomprehensible, Xiang An will still patiently reply with an emoji and tell him I'm fine, I'm still here.

Xiang An's previous novel had already been finished, and it was handed over to Qu Li's company's screenwriting department. It had not yet been officially put into use. The other party euphemistically said that there was a problem with the structure and that adjustments needed to be made. Xiang An nodded and let him deal with it.

He has a new idea now, and for some reason, maybe he read some reflective literary works, maybe it’s simply too boring to stay at home, and he wants to go out and communicate with people, anyway, he suddenly wants to borrow The fictional shell of the novel, write something with depth.

For example, explore the vast ocean of the entertainment industry, which is covered with a huge halo, which makes people elusive, dreamy and deified, and maliciously speculate.

He wanted to name this story "Canary", because one day when he was basking in the sun on a bench in a small park two streets away, he saw a long-tailed sparrow flying down from the leaves of another tall tree, Landing on the birdcage hanging from the short tree next to him, he tilted his head and turned his eyes to look at the beautiful little bird in green clothes and blue tail in the cage, and the food box with the "treasure" hanging in front of it.

Maybe it's like a certain manifestation of human nature, always envious of what you can't get.For the unknown world, we always only see the bright or dark side, and we can never look at it with an objective and calm state of mind.

Those outside the cage want to get in, and those inside the cage want to get out.

The beggar cannot feel the pain of being trapped in a cage and cannot get out, and the person in the cage can only see the freedom of the vast world outside the iron net.

But naturally, very few people can really wake up and break through the cage that lies in front of them. Most people just accept the arrangement of fate while harboring vain expectations on the other side of the cage, and still live in their own world.

……

Assi! !

You can think so much just by looking at a bird. Are you tired of living all day long? !

Xiang An scratched his head angrily, closed the book and threw away the empty milk tea jar and was about to leave, but his mind insisted on going against him, and he naturally thought of Jiang Xiaozheng.

Now, she is probably a bird in a cage, exhausted, struggling to fly out, right?

A few days ago, he got the jaw-dropping news from the entertainment news——Lu Yu cheated!

No, maybe the word "cheating" is not appropriate.Because although Lu Yu and Jiang Xiaozheng had been in love before, considering various factors, neither of them announced it to the public. Even if they were photographed by paparazzi, they would tacitly clarify it immediately.

So this time Lu Yu announced the good news of his relationship on Weibo, and confessed his love to Xiaohua, who is now on fire, with sincere and touching words, and his bold and loud vows, which surprised a large number of passers-by Surprised and moved by the little brother next door and the innocent girl in my heart, the destined match finally came to fruition.

But only Xiang An knew that the person he wanted to confess to, the enviable princess in this sweet story, should have been named Jiang Xiaozheng.

As soon as he heard the news, Xiang An picked up his phone and wanted to call Jiang Xiaozheng, but he got connected for a second and then hung up immediately.

In the past, Jiang Xiaozheng would be the first to think of him when encountering any difficulties. Whether it was complaining or crying, he would always be the first to call him, but this time, there was no news at all...

It's so abnormal!

So he stood up, quickly contacted Jiang Xiaozheng's assistant, and after confirming that she didn't have any schedule, he took a taxi directly to her house.

To his surprise, Jiang Xiaozheng, who came to open the door when he heard the bell, didn't look disheveled and disheveled; It's not bad, it doesn't seem to be affected at all.

When I saw him, I was surprised: "Why are you here?"

Xiang An looked past her, scanned the house, and said, "It's okay, come and see you."

"What's interesting about me?" Jiang Xiaozheng smiled, and let him in sideways, "What do you want to drink? Let me tell you first, I only have orange juice at home."

Can you still make a joke?Xiang An frowned.

"Haven't you picked up any new plays recently?" He sat down on the sofa, took the orange juice and asked casually.

"In the upper part of the Republic of China drama, there are a lot of action scenes, various jumps and fights, and running in the blasting scene. I am a little tired and want to rest for a while." Jiang Xiaozheng said.

"It's good to take a break."

Xiang An nodded, turned the glass to look at the stains left by the orange juice, was silent for a while, then suddenly said, "Hey, I've always wanted to ask you, do you really like acting?"

"Why are you asking this all of a sudden?" Jiang Xiaozheng asked puzzled, "Are you going to start recording talk shows?"

"No, I just want to know if I was wrong in persuading you and enlightening you before?"

Jiang Xiaozheng crossed his hands and gave him an exaggerated sideways glance, strangely, then frowned and thought about it carefully, shook his head and smiled wryly: "Hey! Who knows, whether it likes it or not, it's been such a long way. How can I go back?"

After finishing speaking, he sighed annoyedly, "I'm just miserable, I feel that my career in this drama is developing towards the auntie, if this continues, which youth drama would dare to ask me to play the heroine?"

"What's going on?" Xiang An asked.

She shook her head again: "I don't know, it's mourning, it's too sad. I can't break through myself, I can't manage my emotions, I always play deep unconsciously, and put myself into the role. Ah——! How annoying! Maybe Maybe I'm really not suitable for acting!"

Seeing her like this, Xiang An raised his hand to rub her head to comfort her, but felt that it was not appropriate, so he had to say: "Everyone will have this kind of trouble, whether it's acting, writing a book, or doing other things, there will always be troubles. Intermittent self-doubt, momentary confusion."

"No! I really feel that I can't do anything, I can't do anything well, and I'm a useless person! Ahh—!"

She suddenly became manic, scratched her hair a little out of control, and complained to An Dao, "It's all your fault! If you insist on being close to me, the positive energy I have accumulated so hard is gone! His uncle really wants to drink !"

"Then we two uncles will drink?" Xiang An said with a smile.

He knew there must be something wrong, this little girl finally couldn't hold back anymore!

It turned out that before he knew it, the stupid girl who had no brains had grown up, no longer flaunting her teeth and claws, but imitating what the so-called adults did, secretly hiding and licking her wounds.

But that doesn't work.

She suppressed all the pain and grievances in her heart and endured it alone. How could her small body resist it?

So Xiang Qiang Zuo patted his thigh lightly: "Ha! It just so happens that I also want to drink, and I haven't been drunk with anyone for a long time!"

Jiang Xiaozheng turned to look at him, to see his smiling face.

Suddenly his mouth shrunk, and he couldn't help feeling aggrieved and said, "But, I'm afraid I'll cry."

He said, "Don't be afraid, I will cry with you."

That day they drank together until late at night, and both of them got drunk, which caused Xiang An to miss the twisted phone call that he had finally made to go home, but it was not important.

The most important thing is that Jiang Xiaozheng can really cry!

She howled for almost a whole night. With the help of alcohol, she ignored any image, slumped on the blanket like mud, roared and sang and sang, from "Cloudy Sky" to "Comprehension", and even composed " Idiot Go to Death Song", tears burst into tears until my throat became hoarse.

Xiang An was already drunk and passed out halfway through hearing it. She got up with the bottle in hand, wobbled and kicked him:

"It's all your fault! Obviously I can have a good time, but you insist on pulling me to drink!"

"Get up! You obviously said you would cry with me, but what's the matter with falling asleep now! Can't you stay with me for a while?"

Gasping, crying again.

"...You said you would love me forever, why did you fall in love with someone else again!"

"What does it mean that the relationship fades after a long time, what does it mean that I have changed! Where have I changed, you tell me, can I change back?"

She fell powerlessly to the ground, leaning on the sofa with her legs hugged and weeping sadly, as if she was still conscious, knowing that Xiang An was asleep and she was the only one left, so she dared to speak her heart out with confidence.

"Where is she better than me? Whoa, whoa, whoa, my heart really hurts—!"

"Lu Yu, you bastard! You bastard——"

She grabbed her ankle hard, looked up to the sky and cried bitterly, and vented with all her might!

But at the end of the scolding, tears flowed into her hair and ears, sweat soaked her clothes, she still forgot how bastard he was, and humbly begged:

"Don't leave me--woo-woo-oh-you come back--you come back!--"

Even though, Lu Yu would not hear these words at all.

There has never been such a long night in her life, it seems to be long enough to shed all the tears in this life.

Lu Yu was the first person she fell in love with when she lived to be 23 years old, her first love.She gave him all her enthusiasm and tenderness, self-confidence and humility. She had imagined that she would have a family with him, and worked hard to hold hands with him in a fair manner on the street. However, the future played a joke on her.

Some people say that first love is doomed not to last long, and probably this is the curse among them.

She can't cry, and there's nowhere to keep her. What can make you more desperate than someone who once held you on top of his heart and cherishes him suddenly announcing that he no longer loves you?

It would have been nice if I hadn't met him in the first place, but now—but now, how can I erase him from my memory and force myself to move on?

It turns out that losing something after getting it is actually more tormented than never getting it.

She said painfully: "What should I do? Talking about this love with him, I found that I have lost the ability to love someone, and I will never be able to love others again..."

But Xiang An shook his head and said, "Don't say stupid things, the future is still very long."

☆、2018 Hanping

"I love you." Qu Li said.

"I love you too." Xiang An said, obediently kissing the tip of his cheek.

Afterwards, Qu Li felt at ease physically and mentally, lying on the bed with his long arms and legs stretched out, Xiang An rested his arms on his pillow and kneaded his belly boredly, trying in vain to knead the six-pack of looming abdominal muscles into fat.

Qu Li doesn't stop the childish behavior of a three-year-old like him, but enjoys it.

Since he started to get busy a few months ago, and it took him a long time to see each other, Qu Li had the illusion that Xiang An was more dependent and caring for him, not only reluctant to let go of his usual care and warmth, but also more active in bed matters, doing things. After it was over, the two of them lay tenderly together for a long time.

This naturally made Qu Li very satisfied, he couldn't help but think happily: Huh, it really is the distance that produces beauty, and a little goodbye is better than a newlywed. It seems that a man like me who is attractive and loves work is more attractive.

Of course Xiang An didn't know that he was stroking his chin thinking about such a stupid thing, and he was still obsessed with why the flesh on his hand didn't feel soft after touching it for so long.

After staying for a while, he asked An: "Is there anything you want to ask me?"

"what?"

"About the rumors in Jianghu that I am a bad person."

"Did it by me? Hahahaha..." Qu Li is getting more and more courageous now, making naughty jokes smugly, and laughing foolishly when he suddenly felt a murderous sight on the left, and immediately Seriously said, "Those people have nothing to do when they are full! Why do they care?"

Xiang An pursed his lips and remained silent.

……

Qu Li hurriedly hugged him into his arms and coaxed him: "The one who cleans himself cleans himself, we don't care about them like them, oh~"

Xiang An patted him away bored, and said, "A variety show asked me to be a resident guest."

"Oh? How much is it?"

"You only think about money!"

"Well—" Qu Li thought for a while, then asked again, "Is it fun?"

"You!" Xiang An was speechless and kicked him, "Go sleep on the sofa by yourself!"

"Okay, okay, I've got my heart, I've got my heart!" Qu Li hurriedly raised his hands to beg for mercy, acting super serious.

Xiang An was speechless after being treated by him, rolled his eyes and breathed a sigh of relief and was about to speak, but forgot what he wanted to say, raised his head and stared at Qu Li with big eyes, and said aggrievedly, "It's not fun."