also sing

Then Gu Xiaoran said goodbye gracefully, pulled the suitcase, and walked towards the entrance.

at this time--

"Hey! Goddess!"

Xiao Liu suddenly called her to stop, and she turned around.

Xiao Liu forced the secretary out and said, "I'll let it go, but Cui Jiewen will give me a hug too? He's been waiting for two years."

The secretary's face immediately turned a liver-colored color, his muscles tensed, and he froze in place at a loss.

Later, when Xiang An secretly read the diary, he understood his mood at the moment.

In the diary, the secretary wrote word by word with the pious care of worshiping the gods:

I stayed there, not daring to look at her, but I couldn't bear to look away.I saw her suddenly smiled again, walked over step by step, opened her hands to me, hugged me generously, and then turned around.

Like a gust of spring breeze blowing across the cliff, the cold flowers on the cliff suddenly bloomed in full bloom, and fell to the ground in an instant.Just like that, like a flower, she took her color and disappeared from my sight.

You said, if you like someone, how long will you like them?

a month?three years?No matter how old you are, if you like someone, can you love for a lifetime?

Like the secretary, who silently planted a person in his heart, even if his waiting would never be answered, he would have no complaints or regrets. Does such a stupid person really exist?

I don't know about others.But I always believe,

Of course,

Of course it exists.

Because there will always be such a beautiful person in the world, who will make you fall and attract you like sunshine. After seeing him, you will never forget him for the rest of your life.

☆、2007 Hening

A week after Gu Xiaoran left, the weather suddenly turned cold, and the autumn in Hening was erratic and short, and it disappeared immediately.

Pulling out the sweater jacket, Xiang An opened the door while checking the reply to the novel posting on the website.Passing the corridor, subconsciously raised his head and glanced at the door of the next room, it was still closed, it seemed that Zhou Li still locked himself at home.

There was no reply from the website, so Xiang An curled his lips and laughed at himself: "It seems to be cold this time." After taking two steps, he said, "It's okay, it's just the beginning, come on!"

After taking another two steps, the phone dinged.Open it, and Xiao Liu's voice came out immediately:

"Xiang An, come and judge!..."

After squeaking for a long time, Xiang An figured out a clue.

It turned out that Xie Wenjun's family had been quiet for half a year. Seeing that the Chinese New Year was coming soon, he started looking for a little girl for him again.According to Lao Xie's family's thinking, eat early rather than late, and serve soup while it is hot rather than cold.What a good age to be in your twenties, find someone to date first, get married right after graduation, hug the two for three years, it's so lively...

Of course, from Xiao Liu's point of view, this is not the case at all.

Although the two of them have just started now, and their relationship is still in the honeymoon period, no matter what, Xie Wenjun still follows him, even if he lets Xiaoxie go and indulge, and meet those blind dates casually, he can be fearless .

The scary thing is, what if?

Even if Xiao Xie's original intention was just to perfunctory the family, to have a meal with the little girls in a formality, it's hard to guarantee that there would be someone who just saw him right?

Xiao Liu usually looks fearless and heartless, but he still can't take it seriously.No, the posture of crying, making trouble and hanging himself made even Xiang An feel a headache for Xie Wenjun.

He hung up the phone and checked the time at [-] o'clock. It happened that Qu Li was too busy to go home for dinner on the weekend. Xiang An sent him a text message, sighed, buttoned his coat, and walked towards the South Gate residential area.

Knocking on the door, I met Xie Wenjun's helpless gaze, and then looked over his shoulder, and I could see Xiao Liu crouching on the sofa, holding a tissue box and smoking.Seeing An Mian, she immediately burst into tears——

"Xiang An, why did you come here! You really want to wrong me to death!"

"I..." Xiang An Yusai felt Xie Wenjun pat his shoulder comfortingly from behind, and then he stepped forward again, "What's wrong with you? Speak well, don't cry."

Xiao Liu jumped up from the sofa, grabbed Xiang An and began to cry: "Do you think he still has my boyfriend in his eyes!"

In the next 10 minutes, Xiang An learned the cause, process and result of the whole incident in detail. Even Xie Wenjun's expression when he answered the phone, Xiao Liu described it vividly as if the scene was reproduced.

But what made Xiang An suffer from myocardial infarction the most was that halfway through the speech, Xie Wenjun poured two cups of warm water, handed one to him, and put the other in front of Xiao Liu, saying, "Baby, drink some water before crying, don't hurt your throat." .”

……

At this moment, Xiang An only has a thousand in his heart!

It’s all like this, Xiao Liu, what else do you want? !

While sobbing, Xiao Liu took the water glass and said thank you, while continuing to complain that Xie Wenjun was too happy when he heard the news that he was going to meet the little girl, and he was not straightforward enough to refuse.

……

Xiang An didn't want to talk, so he took a sip of water silently.

After a while, when it was time for dinner, Xie Wenjun consciously went to the kitchen to cook, while Xiao Liu continued to argue with Xiang An in the living room, but since Xiao Xie entered the kitchen, he stopped crying, and his mood was obviously much more stable.

Xiang An was a little melancholy. He looked at the closed kitchen door to prevent smoke. He couldn't see Xie Wenjun's movements clearly behind the door, but he could hear the sound of neatly chopping and cooking vegetables. Liu, suddenly thought of that sentence: Those who are favored are always confident.

"Xie Wenjun is very good," Xiang An lowered his voice, and said to Xiao Liu, "This matter is not his fault, what do you think you are doing?"

He originally wanted to persuade Xiao Liu that the two of you should be good and don't be too self-willed, but he didn't expect Xiao Liu to say abruptly: "Of course I know it's not his fault, but I have to let him know that I care about him a lot." ,"

"If I clearly care about it in my heart, but hold back and don't say it, the more I try to pretend I don't care, the easier it is to be influenced by this emotion. One day we will go farther and farther, doubt each other, and regret not letting go when we are separated. It was too late for him to understand my intention."

Saying that, Xiao Liu drank his saliva and leaned against Xiang An, "However, our old Xie is really a perfect man, right?"

Xiang An turned his head to look at Xiao Liu's happy little expression, and followed his gaze to look at the kitchen door, and he was stunned for a moment.

Hey, the little guy is so clear, do you dare to come here to be a prop to witness their crookedness?

"How are you and Qu Li recently?" Xiao Liu put down his water glass and started another topic, "I heard from the secretary that last time you pushed us to have a dinner together on your birthday, and you wanted to spend time with him, but he went home gone?"

"He has something to do at home."

"It's up to you," pulled out two pieces of paper, looked at the kitchen door and blew his nose hard, "Anyway, you two are living alone, so we can't say much."

"Yeah." Xiang An nodded silently.

But Xiao Liu just couldn't stop talking. He didn't say much, but he still couldn't hold back:

"However, even the second idiot in the hands of Secretary Gu Xiaoran thinks that Qu Li is unreliable. Anyway, when I look at his character, he is high-spirited and dares to love and hate if he sounds good. If he is bad, he doesn't grow up It’s no big deal, you two probably will have a hard time in the future.”

"Come on, I have the nerve to pick someone with my bad temper?" Xiang An retorted, "Besides, you two don't live with him, how do you know how good he is?"

After a pause, he added another sentence, "He treats me well, I'm tired of you even if I say it."

"Okay, okay, I won't listen." Xiao Liu raised his hands in surrender.

Hey, Xiang An wanted to talk about it, and even raised the ring on his hand: "See? Private life! Qu Li has liked me since high school. If it weren't for the restrictions of the national law, he would have married me immediately to get a certificate and tell the world I keep it for myself, hum."

Xiao Liu quickly confessed: "Understood, I understand, boss, it's because we have eyes that don't know what's going on, so don't make me hurt anymore."

Just at this time, Xie Wenjun came out, holding a plate of chili fried pork with one hand, and handing the phone to Xiao Liu with the other.

Little Liu didn't know why, Xie Wenjun said calmly, "Baby, my mother wants to hear your voice."

This time, not only Xiao Liu, but even Xiang An were taken aback.

what's the situation?Coming out and seeing your parents was done in one go, was it so sudden?

I saw our talkative Xiao Liu took the line, his mouth was glued, and he was panicked, and suddenly he was stupid: "Ah, hello, auntie..."

The two people here held their breaths, watching Xiao Liu completely changed, they just obediently responded with "um", "um" and "okay". After 3 long minutes, they finally hung up with "goodbye, auntie".

Before Xiang An knew it, Xie Wenjun laughed, "Are you relieved now?"

Xiao Liu's watery eyes looked up at him, his mouth narrowed, and he was so moved that he almost cried: "Junjun... Auntie said, if you dare to quarrel with me, tell her, and she will clean you up for me."

"Okay." Xie Wenjun smiled, walked over and took him into his arms, patted his head and comforted him, "Take care of me together."

"She also said, don't take it to your heart when your uncle scolds you, he just hasn't figured it out yet, and she will help us educate." Xiao Liu cried out incoherently, "What should I do, I didn't expect this , how dare you... Didn't you say that Auntie likes children..."

It turned out that Xiao Xie had already planned in his heart how he would introduce Xiao Liu to his family.

When they first got together, they used insinuating stories like "I have a friend who likes a boy" to probe Xie's mother's mouth. When Wan Xiaoliu made such a fuss, he rushed in early rather than late, and took the opportunity of refusing the blind date to confess to his family.

At first, I thought he was an excuse to avoid the blind date, but the more he spoke, the more serious he became, even though Xiao Xie patiently persuaded him with nice words and hoped to be understood, Xie's father still smashed the cup in his hand, "If you dare, don't go home! I will not have your son!"Swish to hang up the phone.

Xiao Xie sadly thought that this matter might be so cold, but who knew that she suddenly received a call from Xie's mother in the kitchen just now...

At this moment, Xiao Xie and Xiao Liu were in a daze, hugging and crouching next to each other.

Xiao Liu said, "Junjun, I was wrong, I didn't even know you did so much secretly."

Xie Wenjun said, "Baby, don't think so, you are mine, I don't think about you, who will think about you."

……

Xiang An was fidgeting next to him, not knowing what the point of his trip today was.After 2 minutes of embarrassment, I couldn't help pretending to have an appointment, and got up to say goodbye.Xie Wenjun held back a few words symbolically, but was glued back to the sofa by Xiao Liu with tears in his eyes.

Good heart plug.

Xiao Liu, who is so affectionate and showy, is almost as fierce as a tiger, which caught him off guard two hundred and five times.

What's worse, look at Xie Wenjun from others, and look at Quli from your own family!

That big fool, after the two of them reconciled, I don't know if I took the wrong medicine or something, it's like a different person, my temper has changed, and it's not smooth here, and it's not smooth there. I used to want to stick to him, but now it's three days The quarrel between the two ends.

Let's just say a few days ago, the two of them were sitting comfortably, but he answered a call from Gu Xiaoran, and said four sentences:

"Hey?"

"Peace is good enough."

"The door of the room has been closed, but I think the milk delivered every morning has been taken in. People should be fine."

"OK, bye."

Really, just four sentences!

Xiang An could repeat these words with his eyes closed.

But after hanging up the phone, he turned his head to look at Qu Li, with an ugly expression on his face: "Gu Xiaoran?"

"Ah."

"Why is she still pestering you after everyone is gone?"

"What do you mean pestering me?" Xiang An didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "She just asked about Zhou Li's situation."

Qu Li's gaze sank, and he said seriously, "I don't like her."

Xiang An wanted to make him happy by following the words, saying "I know, you like me", who would have heard the order: "Delete her number."

"what?"

Tell me about this... I thought it was Qu Li who got involved with others first, what happened all of a sudden?

Xiang An was at a loss, and of course there was no movement for a long time, so a scene he didn't expect happened - Qu Li with a dark face, picked up his mobile phone by himself, found "Gu Xiaoran", selected, blocked, deleted, and clicked The operation is smooth and fast.

"Don't contact her again in the future."

! !

Xiang An immediately became angry: "What do you mean!"

And Qu Li is not cold and indifferent: "Is she important or me?"

"She's a friend!... You can delete it as soon as you delete it, what will others think if you block it?"

Xiang An quickly picked up the phone and fiddled with it, but no matter how blindly he pressed it, it didn't help. He dropped the phone in anger, "Qu Li, you must be sick! What's wrong with you?"

When Qu Li heard it, he turned his head.

That look chilled Xiang An's heart.

So that night, Xiang An experienced for the first time what it was like to be raped.

So grumpy.Qu Li has never been so irritable.

Turning over like a rabbit, he pushed him on the bed and began to take off his clothes. Before Xiang An realized what was going on, Qu Li rode up on him.

An opponent like Xiang An who can't bind a chicken with his hands is not a straight opponent, he has no power to resist, okay?

At first, he was struggling and swearing, but after a while he lost his strength, and collapsed on the bed to be manipulated by others. He asked "Am I important or are they important?" He then answered weakly "You are important" .

Then he rolled his eyes and scolded "big fool" and "smelly hooligan" in his heart!

Afterwards, Xiang An became sulky for two days, and even slept close to the edge of the bed far away. Who knew that Qu Li not only did not approach him cheekily to coax him like before, but acted like a normal person, eating and drinking, I didn't feel like I was doing anything wrong.

After finally making it through yesterday, Qu Li handed him an apple and asked him if he had any plans recently, and he hurriedly walked down the steps to answer the conversation. The two of them were reconciled, and they went out to eat together in the afternoon, just during the meal , something happened again.

Xiang An couldn't figure it out after much deliberation, didn't he just tease the children at the next table for a while, and didn't leave him alone, as for returning home with a cold face all night?

It's fine if you say you have a cold face, and what's even worse is that as soon as he fell asleep, he came over and fumbled to take off his pants while it was dark.

There is no doubt that it succeeded again.

Xiang An was so angry, so wronged.

He wished he could bend Qu Li away, slap him and ask him what he thought of himself?

But Quli put on an extremely aggrieved look, buried his head in his neck, and asked sullenly, "Do you like children very much?"

"?" Xiang An didn't understand, "Is this important?"

Qu Li added: "I'm so afraid of losing you."

The voice was low and hoarse, which made Xiang An feel distressed.

Xiang An said: "How could you lose me? I will always be here."

She turned around and wanted to hug him back, but Quli raised her head and sniffed, turned over and fell asleep on the other side.Another morning of cold war.

Xiang An thought and thought, but still couldn't figure out what he did wrong.

Could it be that when he dragged Qu Li and refused to break up, he acted too painfully and begged too disrespectfully, so that Qu Li mistakenly thought that the more indifferent he was, the more he would love and care?

He rubbed his temples, regretting so much.

☆、2007 Hening

Coming out of the Nanmen community, there was still no news from Qu Li, and the text message column only had the one sent to An an hour ago, and there was no reply.Holding the phone in his arms, Xiang An struggled for a long time whether to send him another step down, but in the end he scolded himself for being too guilty, and went straight home angrily.

It was such a coincidence that just after walking downstairs to the unit, Zhou Li met Zhou Li who was returning home, carrying two large bags of vegetables in his hand.

He wore a blue long-sleeved shirt, the collar and cuffs were neatly folded, the red plate was a little longer, and a little bit of black hair roots could be seen. He wore a silver earring on his right ear, and he was refreshing Cool, looks flamboyant yet clean.

Zhou Li also saw Xiang An, and greeted with a smile: "Have you had lunch yet?"

That smile was bright and youthful, a completely different person from a week ago.

"Not yet." Xiang An was a head shorter than him, and he always felt a little less imposing when walking together, "Go home and take your time."

"Huh? Why don't we get together?" Zhou Li looked very happy, raising his bags in his hands, "I was fooled into buying Pleurotus eryngii by the owner of the vegetable market, only to realize that I don't know how to cook it at all, will you?"

It stands to reason that they haven't gotten to this point yet, and Zhou Li is a little too enthusiastic. Xiang Anben wanted to tactfully refuse, but he couldn't bear it... He really knows this dish, and it just so happens... Qu Li is busy at noon, no Going home for dinner, he was worrying about how to spend time alone.

I don't know how it turned around, so I should come down.

Zhou Li was even happier, and invited Xiang An in, and was busy cleaning tables, chairs and benches, washing vegetables and handing knives.Xiang An stirred the stir-fry under the eyes of great anticipation and admiration, skillfully served vegetables and poured juice, feeling that he had performed a strange show.

"Amazing, awesome..." Zhou Li couldn't help but praise.

This state lasted until the end of lunch, and he was sent out after collecting the bowls and chopsticks for a week, and he was still chanting "Chef is welcome to come to teach me next time". ok ok".

This soulless business nonsense came to an abrupt end the moment the door was opened, and both of them stopped talking suddenly.

Because the moment the door was opened, Xiang An raised his eyes and saw Qu Li who was just going home.

Qu Li was wearing a suit with his tie pulled open. When he went out, his hair, which had been carefully sprayed with hairspray, was a little disheveled. He held the door key in one hand and hadn't opened it yet. He turned sideways after hearing the sound, and met Xiang An's gaze.

But it only stopped for two seconds, then turned around and opened the door, and went into the house.

This scene is as frustrating as being caught having an affair.

Xiang An didn't know what to say for a while, so he quickly thanked Zhou Li and quickly caught up with Qu Li.The moment he entered the door, the atmosphere became freezing cold at a speed visible to the naked eye.

Qu Li still didn't speak, he opened the refrigerator and took out a can of Coke and nestled on the sofa.

Xiang An asked: "Didn't you say that the staff had a dinner after the game? Why did you come back?"

Quli didn't answer.

Xiang An asked again: "Are you too tired?"

Quli didn't answer.

Xiang An asked again: "What do you want to eat? I'll do it."

Quli didn't answer.

Xiang An opened the refrigerator, took out two small tomatoes, walked to the kitchen door, and slowed down:

"Is this interesting?"

"It's boring."

Qu Li finally spoke.

"The text message I received said that you should be at the South Gate now?"

"I'm going! But Xiao Liu and the others are very affectionate and don't need my persuasion." Xiang An weakened, and slowly leaned towards the sofa, "Xie Wenjun came out to the family. Did you know that Xiao Liu made trouble for no reason? Not only is he not angry, he is also..."

Before finishing speaking, Qu Li grabbed him and pressed him on the sofa, pinched his chin, eye to eye: "Do you want me to confess to my family too?"

"No!" Xiang An hurriedly explained, "I just wondered if we could have a good time..."

Qu Li squeezed even tighter.

"I said I never said it, don't, contact Gu Xiaoran again!"

"I don't have any!" Xiang An gritted his teeth in pain, "Zhou Li, please eat, it's just a coincidence, he bought..."

Before he could finish speaking, Qu Li let go of him, sat up and tore off his tie.

Xiang An was nervously thinking on the sofa, it's over, it's over, he's definitely going to be wild again this time, what's wrong with him recently, why does he like to use this way to solve problems?Is this a new method of sex play developed by him?

……

But Quli just glanced at him, and went into the guest room on his own.The person with a cold expression neither believed his explanation nor was bothered to argue with him.

Xiang An lay alone on the sofa for two seconds.Feeling cold.

Well what does that mean! !

Totally on fire.

He rushed to the guest room and grabbed Quli's collar: "I have endured you for a long time! Come! Let's fight!"

He was just dizzy and completely overwhelmed, how could he have played too far?

Qu Li amused him.

"Did you take the wrong medicine?"

Xiang An retorted, "You are the only one who is sick!", and pushed him hard, throwing him on the bed.

"You pushed me?"

"What? Can't you?" He raised his head proudly.

"For Gu Xiaoran, you pushed me?"

Hold the grass!This thing can't get over it!

Xiang An was in a hurry and kicked the door shut in anger.

"Qu Li, how many times do you want me to explain it! Me and Gu Xiaoran, it doesn't matter to us!"

"Then explain to me! Where did you go with her that night!" Qu Li finally lost control, grabbed Xiang An's shirt collar, and bullied him, "Where did you go!"

Without knowing it, Xiang An asked, "What night?"

Qu Li's eyes were red, and he pointed out the door: "That day you said you would love me well, I was so happy, I bought a cake to share with you, but I went to the next door, the door was open, you were not here, I called you Call at night, "

"Tell me, where did you go!"

His whole body occupied Xiang An's sight, his whole body was fierce and terribly gloomy.

"I don't know, Quli, my phone ran out of battery that day, I didn't know you called me."

But now, it's useless to say anything.

"You! Just say it! What the hell did you do!"

Qu Li threw Xiang An onto the bed, rough and angry, and grabbed his hands fiercely, "You drank, what else? Did you confess to her? Did you do it?"

"Quiet!"

Xiang An couldn't listen anymore, but Qu Li still said, "The day she left, you hugged her, didn't you feel sad?"

"Do you miss her these days?"

"Xiang An, do you think I don't know what you have done behind my back?"

Like a devil, he pressed close to Xiang An's ear, speaking the worst words in the gentle voice that Xiang An was most fascinated by.

"Who do you take me for?!"

"Snapped"!

Xiang An was distorted.

A very heavy slap and a very clear sound.Shocked, both of them were stunned for a moment.

Just like the long silence after the explosion, Xiang An looked at his hand in the silence where he couldn't even breathe, it was red, one can imagine how painful it must be.

"Huh?" Qu Li laughed back angrily, stood up and looked down at him, "This is the second time you hit me."

"I..." Xiang An was at a loss, what did he want to say?Say I didn't mean it?I have beaten them all, is it intentional?

He could only caress the pain in a panic, and said repeatedly, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I..."

But no matter what, "I" can't go down.

Qu Li said: "You said you love me, but why is it that others are always more important in your heart?"

"I……"

"Xiang An, remember, do it again and again, never again, you are here with me, there will be no next time."

Qu left his hand and stepped aside from the bed.

The two people looked at each other, Qu Li's eyes were indifferent and alienated, which made Xiang An feel chills, guilt and heartache disappeared, and he suddenly felt so sad.

Qu Li, in the past, when he was beaten, he would hold his hand first and ask him if it hurt, and loved him like that.He didn't know how the two of them ended up like this.

A good relationship has turned into such a bad relationship.

"Why did you not say anything at the time when you cared, and it took so long to accuse me?" Xiang An scratched his hair regretfully, "You have already set up your own fantasy scene in your heart, no matter how I explain it, it will be futile. Useless."

"How do you want me to listen to your explanation? Is it because you hug someone else and have sex, and I have to believe that you love me the most!"

"Qu Li! Listen, have you considered my feelings when you say these hurtful things?"

"Have you considered my feelings when you did those things behind my back!"

"Quiet!"

Raising his hand to An, he was about to land on Qu Li's face again, but he stopped abruptly.

Looking at Qu Li's disdainful expression, he seemed to be saying, it doesn't matter, you can fight, this is the last chance I'll give you.

Tell me, that night under the low-hanging night stars, Xiang An was overjoyed at his childish and ridiculous confession. He never imagined that ten days later, he would pay such a price for this joy.

At this moment, he is really sad and powerless, he wants to go on with Qu Li, but he doesn't know how to change this situation, how can he make Qu Li understand that he really loves him?

"Qu Li, if you apologize, if you apologize, then I don't care about anything."

As if calming down, he took a deep breath and said.

But Qu Li remained silent.

The two looked at each other directly, waiting for the other to compromise.

Always stalemate, not like lovers, but like enemies.

half an hour.

Time passed by little by little, just like the lights on the night when they expressed their hearts to each other, they turned on without warning, and slowly dimmed again.

Finally, Qu Li moved his body, as if he was going to hug Xiang An, but Xiang An had already taken off the ring and said:

"I see. We divide..."

It's just a second faster!

Qu Li froze, unbelievable: "You want to break up with me for someone else?"

Xiang An quickly grabbed his sleeve: "That's not what I meant."

And Qu Li gently shook it off: "Get out!"

Are all feelings so sad?

I remember someone asking this question.

--yes.

Xiang An watched Qu Li walk through the living room, through the kitchen, and reached out to open the door. He couldn't control his whole body trembling, and stopped him: "Qu Li! If you go out of this door today, we will really be finished!"

Qu Li stopped and looked back at him.

Then without the slightest hesitation, he stepped out the door and slammed it down.

The room fell silent, and Xiang An heard his own breathing slowly, slowly, from nothingness to deepness, as if the flood season had come and the raging waves burst the embankment.

The sky outside the window suddenly lost its light, and it was unsightly dark, as if a downpour of rain was accumulating.

Qu Li's half-drunk Coke was still on the low table in the living room.

Xiang An moved and wanted to walk over and throw it into the trash can, but his feet were weak and he couldn't stand up.

He huddled at the foot of the sofa, curled up, there was a hole in his heart, at first he didn't feel pain, but slowly, slowly, with the blood gushing out, a sharp pain arose.

He suddenly came back to his senses, stumbled and got up, and chased downstairs.

Don't take it seriously!Do not take it seriously!

The voice in my heart was clamoring.

But there were no distorted shadows downstairs, people were rushing to and fro, laughing and laughing, there were so many people, but there was no one he was familiar with.

☆、2007 Jincheng

Until the sky was completely dark, the heavy rain fell suddenly, and the lights in the city were dimmed, and Qu Li did not come back.

Xiang An waited with his mobile phone in his arms, but there was no movement.

Several times, he impulsively dialed the phone, but didn't know what to say, and hung up in a hurry as soon as he connected.

He thought that at least he could understand that he was worried about him like this, and maybe he would come back if he softened his heart.

But his phone was silent.

Finally, he decided on his words, organized his words, took a deep breath and dialed the number, beep... beep... was hung up without warning.

Dial again, can't get through.

There is a saying that love is a competition, whoever speaks first and speaks more is the loser.

Xiang An put away her mobile phone, lay on the bed and stared blankly at the ceiling, the glaring incandescent light made the light yellow top of the wall dazzlingly white.

He didn't know what time he fell asleep that night, but in a daze, he kept paying attention to whether there was any sound at the outer door.But Quli didn't come back.

He knew in his heart that he was going back to Jincheng, and secretly laughed at "I knew to hide and go home as soon as something happened, what a brat", but he couldn't help expecting that there would be a sound outside the house, that it was him coming back.

It rained for three days in a row, and the darkness made people feel depressed.

At first, Xiang An kept trying to contact Qu Li, he made up a long paragraph and sent it over, apologizing to Qu Li for talking nonsense, begging Qu Li to forgive him, begging Qu Li to come back, saying that he couldn’t do without him .

However, no matter what I said, whether I sent a text message or called over and over again, there was no response.

Gradually gaining strength, he said to himself, "I love you but you can't come back, what's wrong with this?"

Every day, he should eat, drink, and go to class as usual, but there is one thing, he must put two more locks on the door when he goes out, and he must contact himself when he makes up his mind.

But this brilliant plan didn't work, until November, there was still no news from Qu Li.

So on the day of tidying up the room on the weekend, he dug out the gray plaid scarf, and Xiang An lost control.

His mood was extremely low, he felt like a puppy kept in captivity, teased when he liked it, and abandoned at will when he didn't like it.

Thinking about it this way made me feel more and more uncomfortable. A group of people drank two bottles of beer on the sofa and started chatting again.

He babbled on to himself, one by one, counting the stories that happened between the twists and turns, starting from high school, even the small things like making up nonsense with Zhao Yueyan and cooperating with Zhao Yueyan.

Finally, I started the self-blame mode, and regretted which muscle was wrong at the beginning and insisted on being with this person!Negating the distorted feelings, together with my previous life.

At two o'clock in the night, I wandered to the train station in a drowsy state, and took the earliest train to Jincheng.

He didn't know what he was going to do, and he knew it was useless to go, but he couldn't control himself.

He had to meet Quli, and couldn't help wanting to see him.

He suddenly began to understand Zhou Li, and only when everyone felt that his behavior was childish and crazy did he understand the mood behind him.

In autumn, there was a light layer of fog, and it was cold for a while.

Xiang An stood outside Qu Li's house, in front of the gate of the cage of little green bamboos.

The fog slowly lifted and the sky brightened.As soon as the door lock was turned, there was a crisp sound, and a figure came out of the house.Slowly down the steps, through the garden, to the front.

Xiang An shuddered and paid attention.

But he didn't see Quli after all.The person who came was Ye Xian.

Ye Xian wore a simple and elegant cheongsam that reached to her ankles, a fringed shawl, and a handbag in her hand. She had delicate makeup and light make-up.

Seeing Xiang An, I was a little surprised: "?"

Xiang An greeted hurriedly and cautiously: "Hello, Auntie, is Qu Li at home?"

"Oh," Ye Xian smiled very gently, "Are you looking for Qu Li? He is not at home. He said that he went to Ningxia with his classmates two days ago and hasn't returned yet."

"Ningxia?"

"Yes, this kid thinks about it all the time. Before, he had to learn painting. After studying for a year, he insisted on studying business. Now, he doesn't study anymore, and he doesn't stay at home anymore. He follows a group of young men. The little girl went out to take pictures, talking about looking for lost youth. Look, this is crazy."

"Did he say, when will he be back?"

"That's not to say, what do you want to do with him?"

"No. Excuse me, Auntie." Xiang An said goodbye in disappointment.

He came all the way to look for him, but he went out to play with others. Sure enough, doesn't he care about this relationship at all?

ha.It turned out that the only one who was brooding about the pain was himself.

Ye Xian was silent for a few moments, and after Xiang An took a few steps, she decided to stop him, with an embarrassed expression on her face, as if she couldn't speak but had to explain.

"Xiang An, I'm really sorry about what happened between Xiaoli and you."

"?"

When she mentioned this, Xiang An Hanmao stood on his head in shock.

What?Did Qu Li tell the family?

"Xiaoli, this kid is not determined. He wants to play with it when he thinks it's new, and throws it away when he loses interest. I hurt you unintentionally. I apologize to you for him." Ye Xian turned to Xiang An, gracefully and decently He bowed lightly.

"Aunt……"

"However, don't blame Auntie for saying harsh words. With your family, even if you are a girl, it will be very difficult for you to follow Quli, let alone you are both boys?"

Xiang An's back went numb and he was at a loss.

He heard himself reply inaudibly: "Yeah."

Ye Xian went on to say: "I know you are a very good boy, your Uncle Qu and I both like you very much, but for the sake of Quli and your own future, from now on, you still..."

"Auntie, I know."

"Yeah." Ye Xian smiled with satisfaction.

"When I go back to Hening, I'll pack up the house and move back to the dormitory. When Qu Li returns home, tell him that you can go and get his things anytime."

"No, since Xiaoli decided to make a clean break with the past, I'm afraid he won't go to Hening again. You can live in the house, and treat it as a trivial compensation."

"No, I..."

"Xiao An," Ye Xian stepped forward and took Xiang An's hand, "Auntie really likes you, if you need anything in the future, just tell me, the novel you wrote, "Broken Geese Laughing at the West Wind" is Is it? I've seen it, although it's not... If I recommend it, it shouldn't be