I once saw Chu Yixiao

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Chu Yixiao didn't know how he got home. He didn't even have the courage to admit that Gu Chen was the one who saved him. Admitting that Gu Chen saved someone was equivalent to admitting that Gu Chen killed someone.

——"He will always find it," Yu Wushu said to him with a warning tone.

Chu Yixiao covered his ears, trying to sort out the thoughts in his head.

He wanted Gu Chen to appear gracefully in front of his friends, and then he introduced to them proudly and shyly: "This is my boyfriend Gu Chen," and added, "He is very nice", and then waited for Gu Chen and Friends shook hands and talked and laughed in a friendly way.

Chu Yixiao didn't want to have dinner tonight, so he made a fruit salad and a lettuce salad.He placed the lettuce salad across from his seat, and the fruit salad on his own.

He glanced at the opposite side, as if he was looking at Gu Chen, then Chu Yi smiled and lowered his head to eat the fruit salad. When he was about to finish eating, he raised his head and said, "What?"

After speaking, he put the remaining pieces of fruit salad into the bowl of lettuce salad opposite, and said with a smile, "You're welcome."

He stood up slowly, then sat on the seat opposite, and began to eat the lettuce salad, bite by bite.

The last few pieces of fruit left in the bowl, Chu Yi smiled and looked at them in a daze, and murmured: "It's a pity, I ate all of your favorite food in the end"

The room slowly darkened. It turned out that he hadn't turned on the light.He ate the rest of the fruit all at once, wiped his mouth and got up to turn on the light.

The room brightened up again.

Chu Yixiao briskly took two bowls to wash, and went upstairs to get pajamas after washing, went into the bathroom to take a steaming hot shower, and washed away all uncomfortable things.

He was wearing thick wool pajamas, sitting on the sofa in the living room and wiping his dripping hair with a towel.Chu Yixiao doesn't like blowing with a hairdryer, he prefers to dry himself.

He had to wipe his hair clean quickly, and let the hair dry for an hour or two to let the strong smell of shampoo dissipate so that it wouldn't make Gu Chen's face ugly.

After wiping Chu Yixiao's hand, he stopped.

——Gu Chen, he won't come back tonight, nor will he come back in the next few days.

He will spend this evening alone like the countless days and nights in the past seven years when Gu Chen was not by his side.

Chu Yixiao hung up the towel, took out a book and started to read.At first he looked at it seriously, and after two or three hours, he began to look at the wall clock frequently, and finally almost all his thoughts were on the wall clock.He had no choice but to put down the book, and took a big newspaper to cover the wall clock, only the sound of ticking could be heard.

Chu Yixiao didn't sit down, he walked up and down the living room with his chin propped on his hand, as if he was thinking about something.

Gu Chen might push open the door and go home in a second.

As if he had taken a reassurance, he sat down on the sofa again, picked up the book and continued reading.

Chu Yixiao likes to read literary novels, the kind that are more literary, and always feel a little romantic.

When he was in high school, he especially liked tragic novels. He felt that only tragic novels had a timeless and deep-rooted beauty, which made people unforgettable; later, he didn’t remember who told him that life should be brighter, so that he could I hope that he also likes to read cheerful and bright novels now, yearns for a warm and happy simple life, and can no longer tolerate gray tones.

Chu Yixiao didn't know when he fell asleep, the book was placed on his chest, rising and falling with shallow breathing.

He didn't know how long he slept, and when he woke up with his eyes closed, he only felt his head was groggy.Chu Yixiao glanced around and found himself lying on the sofa, feeling a sense of loss in his heart.

He just lay there, opened his eyes and stared at the empty ceiling in a daze, listening to only the ticking of the wall clock in the huge room, like the sound of life passing by.

After being dazed for a while, he sat up, put the book on his chest aside, and walked over to take down the newspaper covered on the wall clock.Three forty.

He took out his phone and looked again.

No news yet.

No latest missed calls.

He turned off the light in the living room, walked into the bedroom, turned on the light, opened the bottom drawer of the bedside table, took out the scattered things inside, and then reached inside to get a photo frame.After getting it, he put the things back neatly and closed the drawer.

He sat on the floor by the window, staring at the two blurred figures inside in a daze.

This is the only photo of them together, so blurry that only the silhouette remains. He has been hiding for more than four years and never dared to show up.

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"Take a photo with me, just one, just one." Chu Yixiao pulled Gu Chen's clothes and said to Gu Chen in a begging tone.

"No." Gu Chen frowned, as cold as ice.

"I can't see you, I miss you"

"Endure it." Gu Chen still looked indifferent, looking down at the document.

Chu Yixiao only saw Gu Chen's photo once, and it was a photo of him with his uncle, aunt, and a man who looked younger than Gu Chen.

It was just seen when I was moving, and Gu Chen snatched it back like a treasure, and slapped my face with a "slap", "Who told you to touch my things?"

After that, I never saw any other traces that could leave him, only a faint smell left on the bed, which may disappear at any time, just like Gu Chen will disappear into his world like a bubble at any time.

Chu Yixiao secretly took a few pictures when Gu Chen was not paying attention, but Gu Chen seemed to have eyes on Chu Yixiao, every time Gu Chen took a sneak shot, he would come over and snatch the phone, and look at him coldly At a glance, after deleting the photo, he threw the phone on the ground, grabbed his collar and shouted angrily: "How many times do you f*ck want me to say that? I said no to take pictures, so I told you to bear it. What? To commemorate? Where the hell do you want to go?"

Chu Yixiao was too frightened to look at him, and whispered, "I'm not going anywhere"

Gu Chen threw him to the ground: "You fucking better remember what you said, or you will feel better." He turned and sat back on the sofa to read the documents.

Chu Yixiao was in pain from the fall, and reached out to reach for the phone, the phone had been dropped and the screen was covered with flowers.

He didn't have the money to buy a new phone, so he could only take it for repairs again and again. After trying a few times, he didn't dare anymore, because Gu Chen became more and more angry every time, and he didn't want to make Gu Chen angry.

Of course Gu Chen had given him money, but he hadn't touched it and kept it intact. Having used Gu Chen's money was like tarnishing his sincerity towards Gu Chen.

Even though Gu Chen would still call him Biao.zi, mentioning the first time they met in a bar, mentioning that they spent the first night in a random hotel, his tone was cold and indifferent, as if he was humiliating him at will, he even He couldn't find a suitable reason to defend himself, and let his words cut his heart bit by bit like a knife.

Chu Yixiao looked at the two figures in the photo frame that were too blurred to see where their faces were. Through a layer of glass, he stretched out his hand to touch gently, and finally his fingertips rested on the tall figure, and his heart surged. There was a burst of indescribable sadness, a sore nose, and two big tears fell from the glass of the picture frame.

"But, Gu Chen, during the many cold nights when I didn't see you, you wouldn't even leave me a shadow, I will go crazy, I will really go crazy"

He held the photo in front of his chest, slowly lay down on the cold floor, raised one hand to cover his eyes, gritted his teeth and wept silently.

Chu Yixiao woke up, the sky was bright, the tears were still there, and his throat was hoarse.

He went to wash up and saw his eyes in the mirror were red and swollen, and his lips were as red as blood. He coughed lightly and made a sound that didn't resemble his own.

He poured water and patted his own face to refresh himself, his eyes were so swollen that he couldn't open it. He poured water again, shook his head vigorously, and cheered up strongly.

After washing up, he went to make breakfast. The breakfast without Gu Chen was extremely simple.

He took out the bread that popped out of the bread machine and placed it on two plates, poured two more cups of hot milk, put one of them on the opposite seat and one in front of himself, sat down, looked up and said: “Eat simple today”

Chu Yixiao ate the bread and drank the milk, then reached out to get the milk and bread on the opposite seat, and said with a smile while taking it: "I can eat it"

He really ate that portion, patted his stomach and said, "Thank you," and then took the plates and cups to wash. After washing, he began to wipe the table and sweep the floor, wash clothes and water the flowers.

Chu Yixiao waters the flowers every day, and he is very happy to see them grow vigorously.