【Double Xun】Know what is like

On the eve of the spring of the second year, the superior leaders began to visit the farm one after another. First, to condolences to those educated, second, to inspect their performance, and to release those who showed positive attitudes. the beating.

Labor reeducation farms are different from labor reform farms. The deportees have no punishment, but only need to receive education. They think that you have been educated, so they will be sent back to the original unit.But this kind of education requires everyone to speak actively at the review meeting and to wield a hoe actively when they are hungry.

What is well-educated and what is not well-educated?No one knows.

There were only three people who were praised and released back then, and the eighth team was newly built, so naturally none of them could get their turn, but this news was enough to discourage the entire farm.In addition, the leaders also named and criticized several restless "counter-revolutionary and anti-proletarian" elements, such as Professor Feng.

Professor Feng's two felonies sound ridiculous. The first is that he complained about the living conditions of the farm in his letters to his family, and the second is that he found a grass seed field on the grassy slope in the southeast of the farm.Grass seeds grow about half the height of a person, and they can be eaten after rubbing off the skin and chewing dryly. Apart from some constipation, there are no other serious consequences.Professor Feng carried forward his skills as a botanist and led a group of people to eat up the grass seed field. The leaders thought that he was trying to squeeze the wool of socialism.

Professor Feng was quickly tied backhanded, and the rope was strangling him so that his face was flushed.Tying the rope is a skill that every detainee knows. The bound person's hands are twisted into a strange position. After the rope is tightened, the whole body stretches backward like a convulsion.He probably didn't know where he was wrong, so he could only stammer and explain with his body tilted: "I shouldn't...I shouldn't..."

The reeducation through labor cadre on the side pressed the back of his neck hard: "What should you do? Say it! Say it completely!"

"The farm educated me! Transformed me! I shouldn't complain! I shouldn't eat grass seeds! I shouldn't pluck socialist wool!"

Professor Feng closed his eyes and yelled. His old and hoarse voice echoed repeatedly in the cafeteria, but the cadres were obviously very dissatisfied. They thought that Professor Feng's attitude was not correct, which was more worthy of criticism than his complaints and wool.

There was a large area in front of the cafeteria window, and several reeducation-through-labor cadres took turns taking turns to battle like an old general singing an opera.Professor Feng interspersed a few words from time to time, at first he was angry, but then he begged for mercy.

Xun Yu couldn't bear it, and wanted to go forward to argue for him, but Xun You grabbed him quickly, but fortunately, the two of them stood far away, so no one else noticed anything.Professor Feng's cries were always kept at an eye-catching height, like blunt knives, and it hurt people's ears. Everyone lowered their heads and did not speak, and they all used the "rightist" hat as a shield at this moment.

After the meeting was over, Xun Yu dug out a bottle of medicated oil from the suitcase and sent it to Professor Feng, and came back half an hour later in the night.Xun You waited by the bed, watching Xun Yu close the door and turn off the light.Xun Yu knew that since last time, every time Xun You took the initiative to turn off the lights, he would always hug him in the dark.

This is the unique rubbing between them, most of them have nothing to do with lust, they just like to talk in the dark.

Xun Yu put down the medicinal oil and walked quickly into his arms. His eyes hadn't adapted to the sudden darkness, so he could only stare at the sky blankly.Xun You tightened the arms around his waist, and the kiss fell on his ear like a light feather.

"I haven't arrived yet..."

Xun You only rested his head on his neck, breathing heavily: "I know, I know, I'm just afraid..."

Xun Yu's eyes adjusted for a few minutes, and saw a few strands of black stains from kerosene lamps floating on the roof. They were like overturned peaks, leaving no room for them to breathe.

"What are you afraid of?"

"Afraid of the wind destroying the beautiful trees, afraid of the indiscriminate disaster..." Xun You supported his shoulders and said, "Wen Ruo, they are people who have no reason to worry about it. With their hats down, how can you stand up?"

Xun You spoke quickly and hastily, with a look of anxiety on his face, the goal they wanted to achieve would finally be accomplished on Xun You.It makes people timid, so timid that they dare not argue, dare not contemplate themselves.

Xun Yu touched his face and smiled lightly: "Look at you, you are so anxious, as if I did something wrong."

Seeing that he didn't take it seriously, Xun You pressed his hand on his chest anxiously: "Wen Ruo, the world is like mud, don't step on it. We are still on the shore..."

In the future, there will always be a boat to ferry you and me.

Xun Yu looked at him lingeringly, making him swallow the second half of his sentence.

The waves are clear and the tassels are washed, and the waves are turbid and the feet are washed. Xun Yu should be such a person, but this makes Xun You terrified.He clenched Xun Yu's arm tightly, trying to get a look of approval from his eyes.

"...If our lives count a little thicker, these sufferings and humiliations are worth enduring, aren't they?"

Xun You lowered his voice, not knowing when someone listened to his words.According to the standards of the new era, hunger and cold cannot be called suffering, and judging loyalty cannot be called humiliation.Xun Yu still didn't speak, just kept looking at him, Xun You squeezed his fingertips tightly: "Wen Ruo, are you listening to me?"

"Yes, I'm listening."

"What are you thinking? Tell me, okay?"

Xun Yu's voice has always been as warm as water, which is very comforting to hear, but his words are often sharp: "I'm thinking, starting today, there will be precedents on the farm, and those who they think are guilty will be arrested. Come out to convict, and they judge those who are disloyal and disrespectful, and they don’t even need to argue, they are just disloyal and disrespectful.”

He slowly raised the overlapping hands of the two, and hung them in front of Xun You's eyes: "Gongda, have you ever thought that maybe one day, we will become more heinous sinners than Professor Feng? "

"If that day really comes, and it's you and me on the stage, do you think these humiliations are worth enduring?"

Xun You was terrified when he heard the words, and immediately fell silent. To him, this was a fear beyond his imagination.Their eyes met, and they felt a chilly tremor behind them. After a long time, Xun You opened his mouth cautiously, and there was still a piece of hot blood in his throat.

"It's...it's worth it..."

The blood flowed again, and he could hear his heartbeat again. Xun You already felt exhausted, as if he had fought his way out of hopelessness just 5 minutes ago.

"As long as you live, Wen Ruo, no matter what method you use, as long as you live... everything..."

Everything is worth it.

Xun Yu lowered his head and sniffed, his eyes suddenly became hot, and he suddenly felt that he was too stupid.

How much Xun You wanted him to live, he didn't want him to be a saint who "heard the Tao and died at night", and he didn't want him to be a "strong man trying to save the Tianhe" struggle, he was like every sincere and affectionate lover , I just ask him to live well.Even if he bends his waist and breaks his back, he still wants to live in this wasteland world.