go too far

[Warning: This chapter involves old age, sickness and death, but it is an opportunity for Xiaojiang's mentality to change. If you can't accept the specific description, you can directly watch tomorrow's update]

Even though he was prepared, Jiang Yu still suffocated suddenly when he saw the text message.

He Lin took two steps on his own, and found that there was no one around him. Looking back, Jiang Yu was standing there, with his head down, staring at the phone screen.The bangs hang down naturally, as if covering the whole face with a layer of gloom.

He Lin suddenly had hallucinations, and felt that the person in front of him seemed to be drained of all his strength for a moment when he didn't pay attention, dangling, and was about to fall down.

His heart tightened, he stepped forward, unconsciously grabbed the opponent's upper arm, and asked, "What's wrong?"

After a while, Jiang Yu said, "I'm not going home, I'm going to the hospital."

Later, he added: "Maybe we won't go together after that."

He Lin frowned: "What?"

"Grandpa fell."

Although Jiang Yu said no, He Lin followed him to the hospital.

Grandpa Jiang had just finished the operation and was falling asleep.Seeing them, Yu Ningyin, who was watching over her, put her finger on her lips and let out a "hush" sound. She checked the remaining half of the drip, so she motioned to the two of them and went out to talk.

As soon as the door was closed, she scolded He Lin in dissatisfaction: "Why are you here too? Hurry up and go back to review your homework."

"Aunt Yu," He Lin called out, "I am also very worried about Grandpa Jiang's health. What's going on?"

Yu Ningyin sighed, and said, "I fell down, and there is a blood clot in my brain, which was just removed by surgery."

"Then since the surgery has been done, there shouldn't be any problem?" He Lin asked.

Yu Ningyin nodded: "It should be, but the doctor said that it needs to be observed for a while."

Jiang Yu stood aside and kept silent.

It still happened.

He was so annoyed that he reminded him over and over again after returning home every day, but he still couldn't change what happened in the end.

Even the cause and development are the same - wrestling, cerebral hemorrhage, surgery.

So in the future, will it also...

He suddenly felt cold all over his body.

He Lin saw that his face was dull and pale, and he touched his hand lightly, which was cold.Regardless of whether he was in front of Yu Ningyin, he circled the hand and found that he was still shaking.

"Jiang Yu!" He shouted hastily, as if frightened by his own volume, he lowered his voice, "Auntie has already said, it should be fine, don't worry, ah."

Jiang Yu looked at him, and said with embarrassment: "I..."

He just uttered a short syllable, and he couldn't go on.The simple words "I'm fine" stuck in the throat, and the tone turned into gravel, stirring up anxiety and uneasiness.

Yu Ningyin also patted him on the back and said, "Your grandfather probably won't wake up today, so go in and have a look later, so go back early."

Then, she rushed to He Lin again: "Have you told your parents that you will be home late? You go back first, you are all high school seniors, and time is tight."

He Lin shook his head: "Auntie, I will stay for a while, let's go with Jiang Yu."

Yu Ningyin couldn't compete, so she just sighed: "Okay, don't come back too late, it's useless to stay here."

"Where's grandma?" Jiang Yu asked suddenly.

"She stayed with her for a day and asked your father to take her home first."

Jiang Yu nodded, covered his face with his hands, took a deep breath, turned around and opened the door to enter the ward.

The anesthesia hadn't passed yet, Grandpa Jiang was in a deep sleep, and the heaving of his chest was barely visible.Jiang Yu grasped his wrist, feeling the warmth under his palm and the beating pulse under his fingertips, and he was able to exhale all the breath held in his chest.

He couldn't make a sound, and he couldn't make a sound, he could only say silently in his heart:

Grandpa, please...

Please make it through this time...

After sitting for about half an hour, Yu Ningyin sternly drove them back home.

He Lin opened the door, Jiang Yu mechanically followed him into the corridor, went straight to the door of the first floor, took out the key, just inserted the key into a bar, He Lin grabbed his wrist.

"Jiang Yu." He called out.

Hearing the sound, Jiang Yu raised his head, smiled at him, and said hoarsely, "It's okay, I'll go in and see grandma."

He Lin stared at him intently for a while, and then wrapped his arms around him and embraced him.

Gentle comfort was applied to the back of the heart, and He Lin said slowly: "It's okay, it's okay."

Jiang Yu pressed his forehead against his shoulder, and after a while, he murmured "Mmm".

The room was dark.

Jiang Yu didn't wear slippers, and stepped on the marble floor leading to the corridor leading to the room. Even though he was wearing socks, he still couldn't resist the coolness from seeping into his body from the soles of his feet, into his bones.He concealed the sound of footsteps and went to the master bedroom, but saw that there was no light inside.Peeping around, there was a person curled up on the bed, probably grandma had already fallen asleep.

He turned around and was about to go out, but he heard a voice behind him: "Are you back?"

Looking back, grandma half propped up her upper body and turned on the lamp on the bedside table.

"Grandma," he called out, "it was me. Sorry for waking you up."

"Xiao Yu." Grandma Jiang rubbed her eyes, then waved to him again, "Come here, sit for a while."

Jiang Yu went to sit down, paused for a second, and then put his head on Grandma Jiang's lap.

Grandma Jiang chuckled, covered his hair with her hands, and stroked it along the strands.She said softly: "Xiao Yu has also grown up. The last time you slept on grandma's legs like this, you were only so tall. You have grown so big in an instant."

Jiang Yu remained silent and closed his eyes.

Grandma Jiang didn't mind his non-response, and continued talking, as if she had finally found a partner, and poured out all the words she had been holding back for a day: "Your grandfather, you have a tough bone, and you are used to doing it yourself. You feel that you are not old yet. If you talk about him, he will still be angry with you. I always tell him, is it so difficult to admit that you are old. This time, it can be regarded as a lesson for him. "

"But..." Grandma Jiang suddenly fell silent, even stopping the movement of her hands.Jiang Yu got up, and instead he circled Grandma Jiang's hands.

"But he, why is he so careless, what a stupid old man."

"Grandma..." Jiang Yu called, but didn't know how to comfort her.He hated his lack of language at this time, so he could only imitate what He Lin taught him, patted the back of Grandma Jiang's hand, and repeated: "It's okay, it will be fine."

He just said it, and even he himself felt powerless.

Grandma Jiang smiled slightly: "Xiaoyu has to go back, so don't waste time with grandma, grandma is asleep too."

Jiang Yu looked at her for a long time, nodded, and took care of her: "Grandma, you should also pay attention to your health."

Then, after she lay down, she helped to tuck in the corner of the quilt, turned off the bedside lamp, and then left.

The next day, Grandpa Jiang woke up, and recovered to normal for a few days, but after all, he had a knife on his body, and after eating liquid food for a few days, he quickly lost weight several times.

Jiang Yuben insisted on going to see his grandfather every day, but it was very late when he got to the hospital after school, and most of the time, his grandfather was already asleep. Later, Yu Ningyin scolded him and asked him to go home directly on weekdays, so as not to waste the time spent on the road. time.

The day before the National Day holiday, school closed early. When Jiang Yu arrived at the hospital, Grandpa Jiang was still awake. He even thought that he had been lying down for too long and his body was inflexible. He was standing by the bed and turning around.

"Grandpa, don't torment yourself." Seeing Grandpa Jiang, Jiang Yu began to scold him like his parents.

He Lin followed behind him, supporting Grandpa Jiang: "It's not good for Grandpa to lie down all day, but it's fine to get up and move easily, right Grandpa?"

"He Lin is here too." Grandpa Jiang smiled and said, "You still listen to your speech, lying down makes me feel stupid."

"Grandpa!" Jiang Yu scolded, then softened his tone and tried to calm down, saying, "Grandpa, your 66th birthday is coming soon, Liuliu Dashun, let's have a birthday for you."

Grandpa Jiang looked at him with a smile, and answered after a while: "Okay."

It was clearly an affirmative answer, but Jiang Yu's eyes shivered instantly after hearing the voice.

People may really be able to detect it before they are about to fail.

In normal times, if Jiang Yu made such a proposal to his grandfather, he might be spit on immediately, and his grandfather might even reprimand him: "It's not an integer birthday, so there is nothing to do, don't waste energy and time."

But now, he responded: OK.

When he originally thought that his grandfather had passed that hurdle and was gradually recovering, Grandpa Jiang uncharacteristically proposed that he wanted to have a birthday.

"I... I'm going to see my mother. Why haven't I come back after going to a nurse's station for so long?"

Fearing that he couldn't restrain his emotions, Jiang Yu fled and left the ward as if, causing Grandpa Jiang to scold helplessly behind his back: "This kid, why is he so frizzy now?"

Grandpa Jiang's birthday is on the same day as the motherland.

On this day, he always gets up early in the morning, and after routinely taking care of the flowers and plants in the courtyard, he stands in front of the TV, watching the military parade hale and hearty, witnessing the growth of the motherland year after year.

But this year, there are no flowers and plants in the courtyard, only a few carnations on the bedside. Fortunately, it is a single ward, and there is a TV that broadcasts live as usual.

There is a microwave oven in the ward, Yu Ningyin cooked some dishes, brought them in a lunch box, and ordered a big cake, which was sent directly to the hospital at noon.

Because it was a temporary birthday, and it was simple, I didn't specially invite any other relatives.Distant relatives are gone, but neighbors are here.He Lin's family had a close relationship with them, and they had troubled Grandpa Jiang before, knowing that he was hospitalized, they came to visit him together.

The ward was busier than ever, and there were not enough chairs, so everyone stood around the bed.There was no need to be particular about it, the curtains were not closed, and the room was still bright. Jiang Yu put candles on the cake, pushed it in front of Grandpa Jiang, and said, "Grandpa, please make a birthday wish."

"Hey, what's there to promise, you just believe in this non-existent thing." Grandpa Jiang waved his hand, disapproving.

It was rare for Jiang Jingshuo to interject at such a time: "Dad, you can just promise one."

"Oh," Grandpa Jiang sighed again, "That's all, you can do whatever you want."

He propped his hands on both sides of his side, and his eyes passed by the encirclement one by one. He obviously had a smile on his face all the time, but when he saw Jiang Yu's eyes, it became a catalyst for the formation of tears.

Today is grandpa's birthday, and everyone came to wish him well with the idea that his body will recover, so how could he cry.

Jiang Yu thought so, but still took a step back involuntarily, hiding behind the person, not wanting others to see his red eye sockets.

He Lin was beside him, he turned his head to look at him, then put his hands behind his back and held him tightly.

"As for me, I just have one wish." After a long silence, Grandpa Jiang said.

"Dad, birthday wishes are said in the heart, and it is forbidden to say them out." Jiang Jingshuo interrupted him.

Grandpa Jiang gave a "tsk" sound: "If you say it, you say it. Where are there so many rules?"

Jiang Jingshuo shook his head helplessly, exchanged a glance with Yu Ningyin, and fell silent, everything followed the birthday boy.

Grandpa Jiang continued: "I just hope..."

"You guys can all be healthy and live a long life, ah."

Xu Shi hadn't blown out candles for too long, and failed to blow out two candles at once, so Grandpa Jiang had to blow out another breath, and the second candle light flicked twice and went out too.

During the entire National Day holiday, Jiang Yu insisted on coming to the hospital every day, and Yu Ningyin always asked him to go home and review carefully, so he brought all the papers to the hospital and wrote them in the ward.

Grandpa Jiang seemed to be in good spirits. As a layman, Jiang Yu could not see any signs of disease, but Grandpa Jiang had been sleeping for a long time recently, and he occasionally had a headache.

He asked Yu Ningyin, and the other party said that it was a sequelae of the operation, so don't worry too much.

But before he was relieved for a few days, Grandpa Jiang was admitted to the ICU without any warning.

It also means that there are not many days left.

The ICU does not allow family members to visit too many times a day, and Jiang Yu is still at school during the stipulated visiting time, so he can only go home after school.

He remembered this day very clearly.The last extra class was chemistry, and I kept a set of exam papers from the previous year in Pudong New Area for homework.He went downstairs to find He Lin, left the school gate, and asked Yu Ningyin about her grandfather's situation on the way to the subway station. The answer he got from Yu Ningyin was that everything was as usual, and she would go home later.

He Lin asked him if grandpa was okay, and he answered briefly, "It's okay."But now he can only pull out a forced smile.

He Lin comforted him and said, don't worry too much, it will be fine.

But he knew in his heart, probably not, that's all.

In the evening, he does his homework, takes a shower, and goes to bed.Everything seemed to be in order, but after lying on the bed, he tossed and turned, staying up for a long time.

Outside the door, two different slippers kicking sounded back and forth, and then fell silent again.He knew that it was his parents who also went back to their room to rest.

The pointer rotates clockwise, click, click, without stopping for a second.But he hopes, slow down, time will go slower.

But alas, there are no spells, no magic.The pace of Death's death will not stop, and the devil's bell that is destined to ring still arrives as scheduled.

"bell bell"

Sharp, sharp, as if it could tear through the void.

Immediately, Jiang Jingshuo's whisper came from the master bedroom next door, and then there were those two subtly different footsteps again.Only this time, the chaos was mixed together, confirming the urgency of the situation.

He quickly closed his eyes and pretended to be asleep.The next second, the door was opened, and Yu Ningyin came in and patted him on the shoulder, shouting, "Get up, Grandpa is dying."

When he arrived at the hospital, the doctor had just taken off the breathing mask for Grandpa Jiang, and he withdrew to leave for his family to say goodbye.

Jiang Jingshuo choked up, holding Grandma Jiang on her hand. Grandma Jiang didn't cry, but bent slightly, holding Grandpa Jiang's still warm hand, and whispered softly as always: "My wife, this time it's really good!" It’s just that I suffered a lot.”

The other hand stretched forward, and instead stroked the hair of the lying person, muttering, "This hair isn't all white yet."

Yu Ningyin was crying beside her, Jiang Yu hugged her, let her lean on him, held a tissue, and wiped her tears.

After repeating the experience twice, Jiang Yu's eyes turned red, but he no longer dodged, nor did he shed tears.

Otherwise, who else can lend a shoulder at this time?

Outside the hospital, it is dawn light.The outpatient clinic was still closed, and in the emergency department, the young man who had been sitting on salt water for a night yawned and moved his neck left and right.In the catering room of the hospital, the aunts in charge put the seemingly inedible breakfast into the trolley one by one.

Yu Ningyin washed her face and began to contact the follow-up funeral.Jiang Jingshuo glanced at his watch and said to Jiang Yu, "It's seven o'clock, I'll take your grandma and you back, tidy up, and send you to school."

Jiang Yu nodded, supported Grandma Jiang, and followed Jiang Jingshuo back home.

After simply washing up again, I picked up my things and got into the car again.

The scenery outside the window receded quickly until the signal light turned red, and they stopped in the traffic flow of the morning rush hour.Jiang Yu was still hoarse, and suddenly asked, "Dad, didn't you say that Grandpa's condition has stabilized? Why did it happen suddenly?"

Jiang Jingshuo was ordered by Yu Ningyin to quit smoking for a long time, but now he opened a window and lit one in the car, which he bought when he left the hospital.He took a deep breath, exhaled it all, filled with white smoke, and quickly got out of the car along the thin crack.Jiang Jingshuo replied: "Don't ask these questions, what you have to do now is to concentrate on reviewing."

At that time, it was not that Jiang Yu had never asked about his grandfather’s illness, but the other party used the excuse that he didn’t understand what he said, and that he was focusing on his studies, so he evaded it perfunctorily. It was also because he was facing death for the first time, and he hadn’t calmed down for a long time. There is no time to take into account the reasons for his grandfather's death.Until now, he felt that something was wrong, and asked again with an air that could not be refused: "Dad! What is the reason? I am not a child anymore."

Jiang Jingshuo looked back at him, and silently smoked until it almost reached the filter.He pinched his cigarette, and finally replied: "Intracranial aneurysm, caused by rupture and bleeding."

There was thunder in the ear, obviously the other party's tone was calm, but it sounded like a bang.

The truth became concrete, and a figure formed in front of him in a trance.Jiang Yu called out, and the figure turned to look at him, but he was afraid, frightened, repelled, turned and fled, and ran into a dead end without running a few steps.He looked back, the figure was chasing him, and it was close in front of him.

With a trembling voice, as if uncontrollable, he escaped from his throat: "What?"

"When your grandfather fell, he wanted to take a blood clot and found out."

"Didn't you just have a physical examination in the first half of the year?" Jiang Yu suddenly thought, "Didn't you say there was no problem at that time?!"

Jiang Jingshuo sighed: "During the physical examination, I did an MRI, and I did not see any problems, and it may not have grown into a tumor at that time. This time it was only found out after an angiography. The doctor said, your grandfather This fall may also be due to the tumor compressing the nerve."

Jiang Yu's lips moved, and he asked again: "Then if we found out earlier, wouldn't it be..."

"If it is discovered in the early stage, it can be treated with surgery, but the success rate is not [-]%. I can only say that it is possible."