tempting

Cheng Zhiya sat stiffly in the car, his back felt as cold as falling into a cellar of ice, and he couldn't stop shivering while holding the steering wheel with both hands.

Shen Ling first asked him to come to the hotel, and then sent him an inexplicable text message: "Wait and listen to the phone. Of course, you can also choose to hang up. After all, people tend to believe what they want to believe."

It didn't take long for the phone to ring, and the screen kept flashing Shen Ling's name.

Just when the ringtone was about to finish, Cheng Zhiya answered the phone by mistake and listened to the conversation verbatim.Every word Su Tang said echoed in his mind over and over again, and cut deep and shallow scars on his heart.

He was on the verge of completely persuading himself to believe and accept Su Tang unconditionally, just a little bit short.

In this dream, before I can get deeply drunk, I will completely open my eyes.

Shen Ling and Su Tang used to love each other.

He was played around by Shen Ling with impure purpose at first, and then stepped into the scam designed by Su Tang step by step.

Shen Ling's unforgettable old love, Su Tang's long-term infatuation, none of the memories are true.

And whether he fell in love for the first time for Shen Ling, or summoned up the courage to fall in love again for Su Tang, it was probably just a joke.

The turbulent past and unsuffocating thoughts flooded in like a tide. Cheng Zhiya supported the steering wheel with his elbows, buried his head between his arms, and pulled a lock of hair in pain.

Until someone massaged his swollen Qingming acupoint.

Cheng Zhiya raised his head slowly, met Shang Su Tang's quiet eyes, and heard him ask in a concerned tone: "Is it a headache? Go to the ward to buy painkillers, or go home and sleep?"

How could Su Tang touch him and care about him so nonchalantly?

Cheng Zhiya shook off Su Tang's hand almost subconsciously, with great force, but when he saw his brows wrinkled into a Sichuan shape, many complicated emotions flashed across his eyes, and the softest piece of flesh in his heart was still poked. Poke, painful and numb.

That's right, it's true that Su Tang set up a scam, but isn't it still him who is willing to step into the trap?

Just like now, no matter how angry or uncomfortable he is, he refuses to say a serious word. He clearly heard it clearly on the phone just now, but he still has to listen to Su Tang's personal explanation before he is willing to give up.Probably Su Tang had already seen through his intentions and recognized his soft heart, so he calmly played with him in his palm.

This realization made Cheng Zhiya lose all his strength and fell back into the driving position. He didn't look over his head at the passers-by on the sidewalk. After a while, he sighed in a very soft voice: "What is real?"

Su Tang twitched the corners of his mouth in a self-deprecating way: "Is truth so important?"

Cheng Zhiya was stunned by his meaningless laughter, and he laughed back angrily, his voice was so high that he changed his tune: "I don't know if the years I squandered for Shen Ling were just wishful thinking, I don't know if the current situation is just wishful thinking. Which one of your words is true and which one is false, I don’t know how much you are hiding from me, I don’t even know whether you love me or just treat me as a prey you can control at will.”

"Shen Ling's revenge makes me sick, but you, you make me feel terrible, Su Tang," Cheng Zhiya became more and more excited as he spoke, he tightly held Su Tang's right wrist, as if it could be crushed with a little more force, "Tell me, if honesty and authenticity don't matter in a relationship? What else matters?"

However, Su Tang still looked peaceful, uneducated at all, and even smiled at him: "We have a tacit understanding and happiness when we are together, isn't that enough?"

"Cheng Zhiya, I can pretend that nothing happened today. Forget that you and Shen Ling have told me about it, and continue to be happy with you. But if you want to confirm the so-called truth from me, if you want to know the real me, insist on I can tell you the truth and the false among such illusory things as love, but after that, I will leave you."

As he spoke, he touched Cheng Zhiya's forehead gently, and cupped his face along the way, rubbing his thumb back and forth by his ear.The tone of the speech was slow and gentle, but the meaning in the words was very decisive, and he insisted on letting Cheng Zhiya choose between the so-called true and false and him.

As soon as the words fell, the air in the car froze.

Cheng Zhiya's eyes were red and red, and he could almost hear the sound of his temples throbbing violently.He is very close to Su Tang, and when maintaining this distance, he can kiss him with just bowing his head, but now his favorite bright eyes are looking at him lightly, and the familiar lips are slightly raised, showing nothing in his expression Show more emotions.

After confronting each other for a while, he frowned and closed his eyes as if resigned to his fate. His sadness and fatigue seemed to be revealed in an instant. When he opened his eyes again to meet Su Tang's sight, there was no mixed emotion in his black eyes. He raised his hand and stroked Su Tang's eyebrows, eyes, nose and lips. The speed was very slow and the movements were gentle, as if it took a century to say goodbye.

The words in the lounge, or the suspicion and deceit earlier, had already built a barrier between them. This sudden sense of distance cannot be eliminated by passionate kisses and physical entanglement driven by pleasure.

The palm and the skin rubbed together seamlessly without barriers, even though they were so intimate, he still couldn't touch the familiar and gentle Su Tang in his memory.

Until the moment when his heart was broken, he still loved the one in front of him from the bottom of his heart, but he no longer knew how to like it anymore.

After the ceremony, Cheng Zhiya let go of his hand, and his lips that had been tense for a long time moved: "Okay, you say it, and I will listen."

A momentary daze flashed across Su Tang's face, he blinked his eyes, tried his best to restore his calm appearance, and responded straightforwardly as always: "Okay, as you wish."

"Cheng Zhiya, Shen Ling is my first love. When we were together, you didn't know each other..."

He turned his head away, looked at Cheng Zhiya reflected in the car window, and spoke eloquently.

I don't know how long I've been talking, but it's all about telling the truth, whether it's his past with Shen Ling, or how he secretly broke up Cheng Zhiya and Shen Ling, pretending to be a bed partner by Cheng Zhiya's side, and spending a few years touching each other. Qing Cheng Zhiya's character, remembering his stories and habits, let himself live as part of his habits, and then waited for the opportunity to take risks and try to make him experience the itch of being able to see but not eat, deliberately exposing The secret of secret love and the appropriate show of weakness, finally broke through his high psychological wall in one fell swoop.

Every time Su Tang said a word, the castle in Cheng Zhiya's heart collapsed an inch, and he felt that his mind was very confused and his breathing became more and more difficult.Seeing Su Tang preaching slowly, with no superfluous expression on his face, and his tone as if he was telling someone else's story, he felt even more uncomfortable.

It turned out that he was the only one who was troubled by love from beginning to end, and he was the only one who was drunk to the end.

As for Su Tang, he knew everything that controlled everything, but he saw him being embarrassed for Shen Ling, seeing him repent and being uneasy about him, seeing him feel distressed about the secret he had been secretly in love with for several years, seeing him spend all his time trying to please him, Seeing him flustered and frankly confessing everything, offering a beating heart with both hands without reservation, even now it seems that he will not choose to let go in order to ask for a so-called statement, with a face full of confidence.

It was like looking at easy prey, and he didn't even have a chance to struggle.

"Why?" Cheng Zhiya swallowed the bitterness in his throat with difficulty, and asked hoarsely, "Why did you do this?"

There was a wry smile on the corner of Su Tang's mouth, and water color suddenly appeared in his eyes: "Why do I do this, don't you know?"

"My view of love is that if you like it, you must have it. The happiness of the person you like will never be faked. No matter what method you use, even if you steal or kidnap, you can persist until the end." Seeing Cheng Zhiya sullenly, he did not answer. , he continued on his own, "I like you, I want to have you, I want you to be happy, it's that simple."

"And today, I lost. I didn't lose to Shen Ling's tricks, but to your suspicion and temptation."

His smile became more and more obvious, but under the sunlight, there was a sense of sadness, "From the beginning to the end, the only person who can make me lose is you, Cheng Zhiya."

Cheng Zhiya's mind went blank, he didn't know how to react, he should be angry, find out the perpetrators Shen Ling or Su Tang to criticize, to vent his grief and depression.However, when Su Tang said everything completely, when he opened his eyes to see everything clearly, he was so tired that he just wanted to close his eyes and fall into a dreamless and endless sleep.

Shen Ling was aggrieved, and used his love to repay Su Tang. Su Tang retaliated, and even if all the authorities tried, he would get him.As for him, he has never forgotten Shen Ling for many years, but it was the first time he lost himself to love someone but died without a problem. He stepped into Sutang's scam within a few months of breaking up, more or less because of loneliness and irresistibility lure.Thinking about it carefully, the three of them were both trapped by love and bewitched by love. They loved hard and embarrassed, but they couldn't love the essentials after all.

Not even worthy of talking about love.

Cheng Zhiya felt disappointed, he didn't respond to Su Tang's words, he just fastened his seat belt with his hands, and said, "Go back first."

The two drove back to the villa in the suburbs. When they got home, Cheng Zhiya habitually walked to the kitchen, and blurted out while walking: "Today is braised pork ribs and braised prawns in oil."

At that time, Su Tang had almost reached the second floor, stopped in his tracks, and naturally turned around to say hello.

After the meal was ready, Cheng Zhiya went upstairs to find Su Tang, and found him in the study.Several packed boxes were piled up in the room, and Su Tang stood in front of the bookcase and looked back at him, still holding a few books in his hand.

From the beginning to the end, Cheng Zhiya didn't explicitly mention breaking up, but they knew each other well about the survival of this relationship.

Su Tang couldn't act, and Cheng Zhiya couldn't stand it anymore, separation was inevitable.

Cheng Zhiya knew exactly what Su Tang was doing now, he tried to stabilize his voice, but his voice was still trembling: "Eat first."

Su Tang hummed obediently, and stuffed the book into an open cardboard box: "I've made an appointment with the moving company, and I'm not free for an interview tomorrow."

As soon as I finished speaking, I felt like I was explaining something urgently, which was a bit redundant and a bit funny.

Cheng Zhiya only felt that the separation was too fast and he was a little at a loss, so he blurted out and asked, "Is there a place to live?"

"The place where I used to live didn't return the rent." When Su Tang said this, he didn't even raise his eyes to look at Cheng Zhiya.

It's funny to say it, he clearly planned to occupy Cheng Zhiya's heart and become the owner of the place, but in fact he was not as confident as he looked, every day when he lived here, there were always two or three moments when he thought that he might need to move. Go out, so I left a hole for myself.

Now that it really came true, he breathed a sigh of relief, and finally he didn't have to work hard and empty himself.

How nice, he thought.

Cheng Zhiya's heart was throbbing, but he was too tired to speculate on Su Tang's unpredictable emotions. In the end, he just said hello, turned around and went downstairs.

There were too many dishes today, the two of them ate in silence, neither of them said a word, they actually cleared up the whole table in a short time.

After the meal, Su Tang went upstairs again, and Cheng Zhiya stayed in the studio on the first floor to draw after washing the dishes, and when he came to his senses, it was already dinner time.He subconsciously went to the kitchen and took out the ingredients from the refrigerator, made a dinner for two and brought it to the table, but when he called for someone, he saw that the study was empty, with a bunch of keys on the table, and the painting given to Su Tang by the bedroom. Didn't take it away, still hung it where it was.

He was stunned for a moment, and then his first thought was that the rice was overcooked, and the other person who was eating had left.In the future, just make single servings.

Thinking of this, his chest was full of twitching suffocation, Cheng Zhiya told himself that he must be awake, and he would stop when he stopped, and then closed the door.

But it's just another relationship ending, and it's not the first time.

Only this time, there was no other Su Tang who rang his doorbell to accompany him through a difficult season.

Cheng Zhiya slid along the wall to the ground, and the last string in his heart collapsed unexpectedly.

People also completely fell apart, from the inside out.