tempting

After that night, Cheng Zhiya took the initiative to cut off contact with Su Tang.

After learning about Shen Ling's marriage, he unearthed the relics related to Shen Ling's relationship, and fixed the photos and videos of their sweet moments together, the small gifts they gave each other, and the things they agreed to watch together but didn't have time to unpack. The DVD of the movie, the coat that once had a body temperature...all were dusty, including the memory.

Until now, Shen Ling was his only relationship. He was not sure whether Shen Ling loved him, but he did love him seriously.

When we broke up, Shen Ling completely left without saying a word. He dropped everything and flew abroad like a fool for more than a week. When he came back, he stared blankly at the things Shen Ling left behind and kept swiping his phone. And the computer, I hope Shen Ling can give me some news.

At that time, the strongest idea was to escape, so he got drunk in bars all day long or hid in the studio to paint and tear up paintings. He wanted to be unrestrained, but he still couldn't pass his own level. He fled after being dismissed as "no".

The days passed in such a chaotic and restless way, until one day it slowly became clear and calm.

Everything is due to Su Tang.

During that most tragic summer, Su Tang quietly accompanied him, making the world so that only the two of them remained.

As time goes by, physical relationships become impure.Although it is not overnight, he will always rest at Su Tang's house afterwards before leaving. Occasionally, he is reading a book by the window without saying a word, wearing huge black-rimmed glasses typing on the metal keyboard to write reports, or he is in a bad mood. Well, suddenly humming and dancing...

These unknowingly seeped into Cheng Zhiya's monotonous life and became an indispensable part.So after going to Africa for more than three months, he went straight to Su Tang's house after returning to China, as if this would allow him to regain the rhythm of life here.

So these days when we cut off contact, Cheng Zhiya couldn't help but go to the gate of Sutang community when he drove out to get some air. Figure, or call to hear his voice, but in the end held back.

A few days ago, Su Tang sent him the magazine that published Yang Qingce's cover report. Cheng Zhiya read it countless times, and put it on the shelf as a treasure, but he never sent out the email that carefully wrote the review.

Su Tang gave him several years of dedicated waiting and companionship, if he couldn't return the flawless and only love, then he simply didn't give him anything.

Especially this redundant and useless tenderness.

I thought so, but one day in the middle of the night, the phone rang suddenly. After Cheng Zhiya woke up, he heard Su Tang's voice: "Cheng Zhiya, I love you."

Then, hung up.

For a moment, Cheng Zhiya's mind went blank, and he dialed back almost reflexively. It took a long time for the call to connect, but it was Eden's lazy voice.

"What's the matter, Master Cheng?"

"Where's Su Tang?"

"He, he drank so much today that he vomited in the toilet. I'm worried about how to send him home later?"

"You keep him, I'll be right over." After Cheng Zhiya finished speaking, he hung up the phone, changed his clothes, took the car keys, and went out as quickly as possible.

When he arrived at the bar, Eden took him to pick up Su Tang in the dressing room backstage, and Cheng Zhiya asked what happened to Su Tang today.

"It's not today either. I've been drunk like a dead dog for almost a week." Eden glanced at him and said with a smile, "Besides, you are probably the one who knows why Tangtang is like this, Painter Cheng."

Seeing Cheng Zhiya's voice was hoarse, Eden didn't forget to continue to stab the knife: "I really haven't seen Tangtang caring so much about anyone, he is like this, the more he cares, the more he pretends not to care, because it is said that it is more It's not easy to lose, it's not easy to get hurt. Isn't it silly?"

When he opened the doorknob, he added: "Painter Cheng, if you don't like him, just hurt him severely, make it clear at once, and let him wake up completely. Anyway, if you don't like him, there are still a lot of people here." People are rare on him, so don't waste other people's precious bumps."

Cheng Zhiya stepped into the locker room without saying a word, and saw Su Tang sitting on the sofa at a glance.

Su Tang was joking and chatting with a little boy, he didn't look like he was drunk, when he saw Cheng Zhiya, he showed his usual smile: "Why are you here?"

Cheng Zhiya kept his eyes on Su Tang, seeing him deliberately pretending to be calm and happy, his heart ached.

Eden sent the little boy away with a wink, leaving only Su Tang and Cheng Zhiya in the room.

Su Tang's smile remained unchanged, and he looked suddenly enlightened: "Ah, did you wake up by my phone call? Then I lost in the truth or dare game, and then chose Dare Adventure, don't get me wrong. "

"Didn't you choose the truth?" Cheng Zhiya walked up to him and looked him straight in the eyes.

Su Tang shook his head and denied it, the answer was not surprising at all.

Cheng Zhiya sighed imperceptibly: "I'll take you back."

"No, I can go by myself, I'm not drunk."

Su Tang got up as soon as he finished speaking, but his unsteady walking posture betrayed him, and he almost knocked on the threshold when he stumbled.Cheng Zhiya quickly supported him with sharp eyesight, took him into his arms and quickly tightened his arms, not allowing Su Tang to push him away.

He didn't know what he could say, but he was sure it was the only thing he wanted to do right now.

The struggle in his arms lasted for a few seconds, then gradually became smaller, and finally gave up completely.Su Tang seemed to lose all his strength suddenly, and his whole body was limp in Cheng Zhiya's arms. After a while, he said in a hoarse voice: "I chose the truth, I always wanted to say those three words to you."

Su Tang leaned over to where Cheng Zhiya's heart was, and kissed it with his lips, as if confiding the voice from the depths of his soul into a tree hole, and said solemnly and sincerely: "I love you, Cheng Zhiya."

Cheng Zhiya was hit all of a sudden, his body froze immediately, his expression was a little dazed, and he didn't know how to answer for a moment.

Su Tang is always so heartless that it makes one's teeth itch, he is keen to tear down the stage and watch a good show, and talking about ambiguous love is like playing.

Saying "I love you" so sincerely and directly is twice today.

After getting no answer, Su Tang sighed weakly: "I only dare to tell you like this after drinking, for fear that you will be burdened."

"Ah."

"I'm seriously talking about love, but I'm afraid you will be scared away by me."

"Ah."

When Su Tang said a word, Cheng Zhiya responded, and his heart, which couldn't be slowed down by the three words "I love you", trembled slightly.

"I sometimes think, you seem to like Shen Ling very much all the time, treat him very well, and I look a lot like him, why don't you just treat me as him? Isn't this idea worthless? "Su Tang said later that his voice was as thin as a mosquito, and his tone was extremely aggrieved. He even rubbed his head against Cheng Zhiya's chest, like a small animal that was extremely attached to its owner, and that small movement seemed to dig a hole here. Explore Cheng Zhiya's heart.

Cheng Zhiya's chest was suffocated, and the suppressed emotions spewed out these days, completely defeated by Su Tang's sudden resignation.If he hadn't been drunk, with Su Tang's temperament, he would have rotted these truths in his stomach, just like he couldn't count how many times he was so dejected and bought drunk alone in the past.He didn't dare to think about it, his heart would break when he thought about it.

"Cheng Zhiya." Su Tang called his name again.

Cheng Zhiya replied: "I am here."

"I don't want to like you anymore, can you come out of my heart quickly?"

This tone was helpless and bitter, revealing Su Tang's deepest feelings on weekdays.

Cheng Zhiya let go of him a little but still held him in his arms. Su Tang's eyes and cheeks were stained with rouge, and he grabbed the clothes on Cheng Zhiya's chest with one hand, his eyes lowered, looking extremely pitiful , as if drifting in the boundless sea and clinging to such a piece of driftwood.

Cheng Zhiya blamed himself for ruining the person he wanted to cherish the most at the moment.

Feeling so emotional, he lowered his head and kissed Su Tang's lips, and said in a low voice during the rub, "I won't leave."

After finishing speaking, she hugged Su Tang's waist and continued to deepen the kiss without waiting for Su Tang's reaction. The movements on her lips ranged from gentle licking to rough sucking and biting, and her inner emotions poured down like a stream, out of control.

The breathing is all chaotic, and the lips and teeth are chasing and entangled.

When the last breath of air between the two was about to be squeezed out, Su Tang suddenly woke up and struggled to break away from Cheng Zhiya's embrace.

He adjusted his disordered breathing, lit a cigarette and took a few more puffs, and when he turned his head to look at Cheng Zhiya, he put on a familiar smile again: "I'm really a little drunk today, I'm not clear-headed, I'll take a taxi back by myself That's fine. I'll trouble you today."

After speaking, Su Tang glanced at Cheng Zhiya, and strode towards the door.

Cheng Zhiya grabbed his hand, "You still want to escape, you want to escape to..."

"When" didn't finish the sentence, but Su Tang turned into a fierce little beast, and suddenly grabbed Cheng Zhiya's clothes.Cheng Zhiya was forced to back up against the wall by this sudden wave of shock.

The cigarette was still burning between two fingers, and the ash fell on the back of Su Tang's hand, and he didn't even notice it was hot.

"Su Tang..."

He gasped for breath, but what he wanted to say was blocked by Su Tang's expression at the moment, and he was also stunned.The other party's eyes were gloomy, and there was a deep pain in his brows.

"I don't need you to be pitiful, and I don't even want to be Shen Ling's substitute. If you can't give me the only one, then don't give me anything, don't give me anything, then I will feel better." Su Tang hoarse He yelled out the words almost with all his might.

After venting to the end, he let go of his hand suddenly, took a few deep breaths, trying to calm himself down: "I'm leaving."

The warmth in his arms is fading little by little, as if something precious is passing through his fingers.

Cheng Zhiya tightened his grip on Su Tang's waist from behind, and regained the warmth that was lost. His heart was unprecedentedly open and firm, and he said word by word: "You are not Shen Ling's substitute, you are you. I love you , It's not pity, it's liking, it's love."

Su Tang paused, his chest heaving violently.

He held Su Tang's shoulders, turned over, looked at him squarely, and continued: "Su Tang, I have experienced a very failed relationship, and I used to stand still for it. I am also quite unpleasant. Yes, I don’t understand romance, I don’t know how to talk about love, and occasionally I have a little duplicity, but I am willing to start over for you, study hard, and do my best to treat you well.”

Saying these words almost exhausted his courage, but only by showing a hot heart so frankly can Su Tang be retained and be worthy of his true feelings.

"Promise me?" He held Su Tang's trembling hand and asked sincerely.

Su Tang didn't speak, but hugged Cheng Zhiya eagerly, and buried his whole face deeply on his shoulder.

After feeling the heat and strength, Cheng Zhiya's high-hanging heart finally found its landing point, and hugged him firmly with confidence.

There's nothing better than the moment of acknowledging that you and your partner are in love.

These Tiancheng Zhiya thought over and over again, thinking about the relationship with Shen Ling in the past, and the possibility with Su Tang in the future, but he couldn't think of a reason.

He has a place for Su Tang in his heart, but he's not sure if he can put his heart and soul out like before.

What are those hesitation and so-called rational considerations compared to completely following the emotional expression at this moment?

He drove to find Su Tang in the middle of the night according to what he wanted completely. Seeing him subdued, he was so distressed that he couldn't breathe. Now he wants to kiss him, hug him, and even make a promise to be together. Everything is so natural and logical. Almost the most genuine emotion, without the slightest calculation and worry.

There are no real answers to the so-called questions, and the future is uncertain.

The only thing that is certain is that he is not willing to let Su Tang go, not even thinking about it for a second.