【Left Travel】LA MORT HEUREUSE

Keywords: moon swimmer

III

"I want……"

Yuzuo felt the stranger approaching him, and the other's hair rubbed against his cheek, which made him feel itchy.

A strange but dangerous voice whispered in his ear: "...you."

I?

Yusaku was confused and puzzled.After the initial confusion, Yusaku felt waves of cold anger and disgust rising in his heart.He felt as if he was a prey entangled in a spider's web, and the other party was approaching him step by step like a dangerous spider.Use venom to paralyze his nerves, wait for the right moment, and slowly eat him away.These inhuman demons are nothing more than trying to use innocent people to conduct various shady human experiments.Just like what he suffered as a child.Old traumas came back clearly, making him feel unbearable pain and anger.

Again, the other's lips touched.Different from the previous light touch, this time, it was deeper and more passionate, almost like a kiss.Yusaku felt a strong sense of physical resistance, and at the same time felt an indescribable shock.

"Don't touch me." His voice made no secret of the disgust.

"As I said, you don't have bargaining chips, but I can give you a chance to save yourself," Revolver said.

"I can unlock the virus program for you and let you recover. As for what to exchange, you already know."

"Why?" Shocked, Yusaku couldn't help asking.

"Why?" Revolver repeated his question, and let out another mocking laugh.

"There is one and only one purpose for people to do anything, and that is to obtain pleasure."

"I have no doubt that you think so." You Zuo said.If a person is rotten from the root, then naturally everything is rotten.Whether it's hurting innocent people or promiscuity. Revolver might just be teasing him, humiliating him, but he wouldn't really want to have sex with him (♂).Yuzuo thought it was just a malicious joke.In his view, no one would violate a hostile male.Unless his mind is twisted to such an extent.

"Oh? And what about you? What drives you to survive, and what drives you to fight?"

Once again, that mysterious and gentle voice appeared in Yuzuo's ears.

Three points, three points to remember, three things to think about in order to survive...

"Everything I did was to avenge Hanno and take back my own life." And to meet the person who helped me, he added in his heart.Feeling a little pain in his heart, for some reason, he didn't want to mention the child who had encouraged him at this time, he was afraid that the memory in his heart would be tarnished.

"Lonely Avenger, you don't have any power except Shouichi Kusanagi. A small mistake put yourself in a huge crisis, just like now."

Yusaku felt Revolver's hand gently around his throat.

"...It's easy to be broken," the other said softly, pulling his hand back, "but I have to wait until I have enough fun."

"How can people who only have sex and violence in their minds understand the pain of others, they are the pain-makers themselves."

"Hmph," Revolver chuckled as if hearing something interesting, "Lovely child. Do you understand that the pleasure I mentioned refers to the sensual aspect?"

"You feel that this word has stained your pure ears." Revolver rubbed his fingers ambiguously against the juvenile's ear.

"Then, let me put it another way. Is it for the sake of pleasure? Has it become noble? Huh? Primitive animal desires have been dressed in a civilized cloak. However, I don't want to be pretentious."

"Hurt others, trample on others' dignity, just to achieve your own happiness?"

"Humans are inherently selfish. Why sacrifice your own desires to achieve others? When you admit that everyone is selfish, you will not expect to get anything for free from others, and at the same time, you will be more compassionate to your fellow man."

"It's ironic to hear the word compassion out of your mouth."

"Unfortunately, since I am a human being, I naturally have to bear the shackles of humanity. If there were no such shackles, things would be much easier. Otherwise, what is preventing me from mercilessly erasing an enemy who is in the way?" You Tsukuru could hear the annoyance in Revolver's tone, but it was more like he was annoyed at himself.

"No matter what, I don't think people can put their desires above others and hurt others."

"Hmph, isn't this your sense of justice? You're bound by a morality that doesn't exist."

"I don't think what I do is a kind of justice. What I do is for myself, but I will not hurt others for myself."

"Because you have done something that is not only beneficial to yourself, but also beneficial to others, this is considered justice by the world."

"Not everyone will do things that are only beneficial to themselves, and some people will do things that are not beneficial to themselves, in order to benefit others."

"Then why would they do that?"

"That's love and compassion."

"That's because they get the thrill of giving love and compassion."

"A villain like you won't understand."

"Playmaker, think about it, why am I doing whatever I want to you now, and you are subject to me?"

"It's twisted hatred. If you want to humiliate me, you can humiliate me. However, if you think that I will give in, it is too naive."

"Hate? Playmaker, I don't have any personal grievances with you, so I can't talk about hatred."

Revolver paused suddenly and said, "However, I know very well that there are some pleasures that only you can satisfy me." As he spoke, he stroked Yuzuru's cheek with his palm.

"Fate didn't give you extra favors because you cared about the kindness of others. If there is any miracle that can help you get out of the predicament at this time, then I am the only one who will give you extra favors. Then, why should I do this?"

"I'm not taking any chances."

"You can try to be lucky. However, I am really not a kind person."

Yusaku felt the man lean down again and kiss his lips.The kiss was lingering and passionate, as if savoring the sweetness carefully.He kissed for a long time, as if lingering and nostalgic infinitely.The man's chest was rising and falling against his chest, and he could feel the strong heartbeat in that warm chest.However, Yu Zuo's heart was only cold, and he gradually fell into the bottomless darkness.He endured the other party's kiss indifferently and numbly, without any response at all.

"I hope you'll give me enough fun to not regret this deal," Revolver said.

From Yu Zuo's ears, his tone was both happy and disappointed at the same time.

Revolver gently stroked his lips, and put his fingers into his mouth, feeling the warmth and tenderness of his mouth. "Please me, open to me." In the darkness, he said in a seductive voice with a strong sensuality.

As expected, the boy bit his finger hard, biting hard as if he wanted to bite it off.

His fingers trembled in pain, and Revolver just snorted softly, as if a bystander was watching a child's prank.Blood flowed from the corner of the boy's mouth to his neck, and his skin, which had turned into an icy tone under the moonlight, showed a strange beauty.

Yuzuo felt Revolver pull his finger out of his mouth, and his injured finger touched his forehead, drawing a wet bloodstain there.

After about 1 minute of silence.

Revolver broke the silence, saying, "I think I'm having enough fun."

Before Yusaku had time to think about the meaning of his words, he felt his stiff and paralyzed body gradually regain consciousness.He tried to twist his wrist a bit, clenching his fingers into a fist.

He heard Revolver's footsteps walking towards the door.This man just let him go?Yuzuo was a little surprised.

"The side effect of this virus program is that it will dehydrate you, and you need to drink a lot of water." The man suddenly reminded him when he walked to the door.

Yusaku struggled to sit up, pulled off the fabric covering his eyes, and the other party had already left.On the floor beside the bed, only the gloomy and cold moonlight remained.He seemed to wake up from a bizarre dream.

He reached out and touched the liquid on the corner of his mouth, a smear of dark red blood seemed to be the proof that the other party had really come.

Revolver, what on earth is he trying to do?

***

Not by the will to go with the flow, but by the will to be happy.

Hong Shangjian put down the book in his hand.

In his hand is Herodotus' "History", which is his father's book.In the book are his notes when he was 6 years old. Together with Herodotus, he wrote down what he saw and heard during his travels. The immature handwriting lies next to the ancient Greek printing fonts.The scientific expedition went into the desert, where his father buried an airplane, and at the age of 6 he wrote down the coordinates of the latitude and longitude lines on the pages of a book.

"A gift for you, see you. When you are 18, you can find it yourself." The father said with a smile, his face was tanned by the hot sun.It's a scavenger hunt that father and son have always played as kids.The father left clues, and he looked for the treasure.He discovered that he has a talent for three-dimensional vision. He can reorganize information for any inconspicuous thing, a few words, or a line of code, model it three-dimensionally in his mind, and see the overall layout.When the head is not thinking, because of the well-trained mind, it unconsciously scans everything around it like a radar, such as the foot of the table, the carpet, the screws on the bookcase, and an apple.

For accurate shooting.He narrowed his eyes and smiled.

Liao Jian raised his head and looked at the unobstructed sea view in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows. The sun was gradually setting, and the indoor light was no longer suitable for reading.

When he was a child, his father told him that the house should be built on a cliff with a sweeping view of the sea.Stardust Avenue is a famous landscape in this city, but the beach in the area under the cliff is privately owned by their family.He spent a lot of time swimming there as a child, and the shallows are dotted with reefs.He is as familiar with it as he is with his own palm.He often dives into the sea and explores the unknown world in the ever-changing sea.He remembered once, he dived into a reef cave in the sea.Through the current, he confirmed that there was an exit at the other end of the cave, and he dived in curiously. The cave is very narrow, and it can only accommodate an 8,9 or [-]-year-old child to pass through.The light in the cave is very dim, and in some places it is even dark.He still remembers the feeling of the cold seaweed scratching against his skin in the dark, and a school of small, slender sea fish swimming towards him with such a high force, like a bunch of slender bullets.

He didn't bring diving equipment, but he loved to be brave since he was a child. He swam for a while and didn't see the exit, but he firmly believed in his own judgment.Finally, when he reached his limit, he saw a ball of light in the depths of the cave that looked like an exit, and he just held his breath and swam there.Sure enough, it was the exit. He rose to the sea level from the exit and took a big breath of air, seeing that the sun had just risen from the sea level.

At that time, he was happy, and his happiness was not mixed with any impurities.As long as you can still smell the salty sea breeze, the body seems to be able to wake up the cells that remember happiness.

The wound on his finger throbbed, pulling him out of his thoughts and back to reality.He frowned slightly, his eyes fell on the bandaged fingers, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, showing an expression as if immersed in sweet memories.

"Sweet as a clear spring." He said silently.He has the will to be happy.

That day, his father suddenly called him into his office and said to him, "See, I must keep my will until the end.

"A person must be able to choose the point at which life ends by himself, and implement free will to the end. I think it is sad that a person cannot choose his own death. However, we may miss the last time when we can choose to die and go with the flow die.

"See, if I miss it, I'm sure you can draw that spot for me."

When he was a child, he listened with half understanding, and understood that this was a solemn promise.Sadness and sorrow suddenly poured into my heart.

"Man has life, and when he comes into the world somehow, he dies. Isn't life immortal?" he asked.

"After death, people either continue to exist in some form, or they don't exist at all. Only one of the two is the truth, but unfortunately no one can give the correct answer. Only when we go to that world can we know what the world looks like of."

"Can a person continue to exist in some form after death?" the child continued to ask.

"I think it is possible. There will be no life after death, but people can continue to exist in some form after death."

"What exists?"

"...This is very complicated to explain, but it can barely be said to be a person's brain."

"The brain is also a part of the body. All tangible things will eventually perish. Isn't this the law of conservation?"

"The brain does, the mind doesn't."

"That is tantamount to defining a person's thought as a person himself."

"See, you are very perceptive. Yes, if we want to think about how people will exist after death, we must first define what people are made of. This is probably the boldness or breakthrough of atheists. I That’s what the research is doing.”

In silence, he sat quietly from the evening until the last ray of light faded from the sky, his father's pride and remorse alternately appeared in his mind.

"See, you know when to draw that finish line."

He thought about the plane in the desert, a gift from him at 18, and he imagined the plane flying toward the sun, the wings starting to catch fire, and then the whole fuselage starting to burn, before crashing into the desert.

Hong Shangjian stood up and walked out of the institute.

He walked down the hill to the sea.The cool moonlight shines on the calm sea.He suddenly felt that he needed to go into the sea, swim in the moonlight, and blend with the world.Melt yourself into the world, feel your self dissolve from your physical shell.

He didn't prepare a swimsuit, and simply went naked in this lonely and silent night where no one had anything to do with him.

He walked into the sea and felt the embrace of the sea.The sea water is cold and gentle, clinging to his warm and young body like a lover.He swam forward slowly, deftly and rhythmically, listening to the sound of the water as his arms swept across the surface.The moon seemed to follow him closely everywhere, enveloping him in the moonlight.

He swam towards the middle of the sea, and the land gradually receded, feeling the illusion that he was alone in the middle of the world.

In the sea where there is only one person in the world, he recalls the lips he kissed.On those lips he drank the sweetness of life and youth, and drank the joy of life.

Before death kissed his own lips, he allowed himself to indulge in such pleasure, indulgent, spontaneous, disorientated.His heart was greatly satisfied.

He floated in the sea water, watching the tiny stars shining on the sea surface, twinkling.

Yes, he knows when to draw a period.

This is a very handsome young man, with a calm demeanor in his gestures, a calmness and composure beyond his actual age.At first glance, his brows and eyes are filled with the modest and elegant expression cultivated through the accumulation of good education. If it weren't for the arrogance and contempt that cannot be concealed in his eyes, he would make people feel very amiable.He seemed to have no intention of restraining the contempt in his eyes.

He walked along the gentle slope and looked around at the mobile fast food truck parked on the scenic walking path a few hundred meters away from the cliff.He is going to buy breakfast there.

This mobile hot dog cart often appears near the scenic spot. When he goes out for a walk, he sometimes brings some packed meals along the way.There are almost no tourists in the scenic spot on the weekend morning, and this dining car is parked alone.There was a folding table next to the dining car, and a teenager in a high school uniform was sitting there, looking intently at the electronic screen.

He didn't look at the high school student, and went straight to the window of the dining car, and ordered a standard set meal as he did several times in the past.

The owner of the dining car said to him: "Thank you for your continued patronage, and please take care of me in the future."

He replied, "This is my last visit."

The owner of the dining car seemed a little surprised and asked, "Are you going to move out?"

"Yes."

"I will also open in the plaza with large outdoor screens. Please take care of me if I have the opportunity."

He took the takeaway paper bag and left the dining car window.After walking a few steps, he stopped.He turned his head slightly, and his eyes stopped on the high school student sitting at the folding table.The high school student seemed to be aware of his gaze, and his eyes moved slightly.The moment he raised his head, the people who had stopped had already turned their heads.The high school student only saw a strange figure fading away.

A strange little thing emerged from the dueling plate he had set aside, like some figurine-sized alien creature.

"Oops, lost a regular customer."

TBC

Regarding Liao Jian's feelings for Yusaku, there is always such a sentence in my mind:

If I have enough time, I will tell you my love in another way, slowly telling you the words that cannot be said.