triumphant sister

Liu Xingnan looked puzzled, Gu Chengze suggested to go to the roof to have a look.

"She just died, and several villages next door came to grab the bones. The girl died of illness, and she was never married. The price was high. Although it was not a happy marriage, she still won a lucky 'bid'."

On the roof, I could just see the house. A group of men in front of the house were pushing big drums, gongs, drums, suona, cymbals and cymbals, beating and beating together. The mother of the house was busy moving chairs, pouring wine and lighting cigarettes for them. , the father was drunk, dragged his pants around the drum, and made a lot of ugly appearances.

Liu Xingnan was still very puzzled, and said, "Is there any point in marrying or not when people are gone?"

In this way, does it count as marriage?

"Marry, in this town of ours, those who are dead have to marry, and those who are alive, if they don't study, have no other way to go but marry." Gu Chengze took out a cigarette and lit it. Face Zhou, he went on to say: "The heavy industry in this place has been developed for decades, and everyone has earned a lot of money, but the customs and ideas will probably not change much in a few decades. Boys don't study, and iron Pida has dealt with her all her life, girls don’t study, and there is no reason to keep them at home. Sister Xingnan, you and I are both lucky people. You have a choice, you can go to study abroad, and I know that after not studying, What are you facing?"

"My sister was suspended from school not long after the third year of high school. The school said that she fell asleep in class, couldn't concentrate, spoke in confusion, and didn't like to communicate with everyone. In fact, it was equivalent to abandoning her. The more disappointed her father was with her , the more you put your energy on me. During that time, the atmosphere at home was always like a pool of stagnant water, and the indifferent people were very idle. Fortunately, we still had three meals a day, otherwise it would be too embarrassing. Three meals, maybe she felt that she would not be able to stir up this stagnant water. Later, she heard from others that you were in city B, so she went to work in city B. "

"The day before she left, I was very sad, but I didn't know what I could do. I followed her and watched her pack up. Since I was a child, I always watched her pack up and go to the Milky Way. It was still the red bag, and I wanted her to bring more things. I also thought about her taking the train alone, and she couldn’t carry too much, it was the first time I experienced a separation that can chill people’s hearts.”

Gu Chengze chuckled and said, "However, after a while, I got used to it. In the first few years, my sister tried to go home to celebrate the New Year, but every time she went home, her father seemed to have nothing else to do except let her go on a blind date. The worst thing is that every year she grows after the age of 20, her father is deeply ashamed. I remember that when my sister forced her feet into her cousin’s candy-colored high-heeled shoes for a blind date at the request of her father, without warning. For many years, I laughed and cried in front of us, my father was startled in horror, holding her slippers at a loss, not knowing what to cry, my sister with disheveled hair and high heels said with tears in her eyes, "I am so touched, gray The girl’s older sister is so courageous, she dared to cut off a piece of her foot just to wear a glass slipper. How did she do it?” At that time, I just thought her crazy appearance was scary, but now that I think about it, it was the beginning of her resignation and decided The beginning of accepting the devastation, the beginning of running towards the predetermined result in candy-colored high heels."

Liu Xingnan said: "How could this be? There was a time when I envied the relationship between her and her family. I was so envious that she didn't marry?"

"Yeah, how could this be? My sister can't figure it out either. Maybe it's because she's grown up and hasn't grown up like her father expected, or maybe it's because her father is old and wants to rely on her, but my sister can't handle it." Geda girls, the heavy industry business here is getting more and more difficult because of the environmental rectification. Some men don’t even have to touch the iron lumps, so they can only leave home to do some work such as installing air conditioners. The machines at home are three days old. Bad at both ends, sometimes my father repairs all night, every time I start it and stop cooking, when I was in high school, I couldn't concentrate on studying at all, I felt my heart was beating with the machine next door, 'thump, thump, thump ~Deng~Deng~', just jump like this."

"Once the work was stopped, my father worked secretly, he was sued, the raw materials were confiscated and he had to pay a fine, and my sister didn't even know about it. Their disappointment and harm to each other were mutual, and no one had any harm. More, nothing less. When I was young, my father called her Nini, and my father would sell her iron heads to the ground for her. When I grew up, my sister realized that even if her head was broken, she would not be able to return to her father’s Nini. The last time my sister went home was 22 years old, imaginary age, here, 23 years old is a critical point. Before my sister left home that year, her father said to her, "If you don't marry now, you will marry one day. Come back next year, blind with a broken leg, Those who have been in prison, divorce is waiting for you. Don't worry, I will not give you a single brick in this family', after that, my sister never came back until my father passed away last year."

"Father said something, as long as you settle down, I will be relieved. Your sister is a selfish person. No matter how bad her life is, she can go so bad, and she can't go too bad. I agree with my father's words. The second half of the sentence, because I know that I can satisfy what my sister wants in her heart, and she must understand this."

Gu Chengze turned his head to look at Liu Xingnan and said, "No matter what she wants."

In the whole life, the grass and trees fall, but the process of falling down has its own merits. Now that we have gone back in time, and now that we have found what we want in our hearts, then let’s be a little more paranoid. Sometimes paranoia makes people cute and interesting. It is said that letting go is difficult, since it is so difficult, just don't let go.

The suona and the shengguan ended with high spirits, and the sound of gongs and drums stopped. I don’t know when the snow began to fall. On the last day of this year, people poured out the last bit of wine on the table, those who moved the table moved the table, and those who pushed the drum Drum, scattered away, and in the future, these two miserable people who had never met before their lifetime will be buried together forever. The barren loess tomb is covered with a dazzling red. At the time of death, he is a "perfect person" for husband and wife.

"It's snowing, why don't you come down? My dumplings are cooked." The little girlfriend shouted from below.

Gu Chengze said: "Let's go down, when the snow has fallen a layer, the roof should be slippery."

Gu Chengze has the same black hair as his sister, and when the snow falls, the flower shape of the snow can be perfectly displayed.

He led Liu Xingnan down the room carefully, and the playful Gu Chengen always excitedly pulled her up the room.

"Hurry up, hurry up, when the snow has fallen, I will step on a Doraemon for you."

Chapter 4

Fourth letter:

Xingnan, I dropped out of school, and that "sissy" boy also dropped out with me. You have to admit that there is a kind of powerful people called "most people". What this kind of people hate most is people who are different from them. The most common thing this kind of person does when they are young is to laugh at a child with a handicap. When that child lives their whole life under the huge shadow of 'most people', they succeed. People with "psychological defects" running in the opposite direction, they spit at the sad back of that person, and finally broke down the trembling single-plank bridge, and they succeeded again.

My father was extremely disappointed in me. He caught me off guard by his indifference. Throughout high school, I have been adhering to the survival philosophy of "the silent one survives", but my silence can only make him angry and puzzled. I am very sorry that I did not grow up. He thought I would grow up like that, but I was still not ready for his sarcastic remarks.

Occasionally, what he said would make me feel like I can’t catch my breath, and the celestial spirit cover will fly out, tears and nose flow together like a big mouthful of wasami, and I stay at home all day, as if the more I do, the more mistakes I make, When I went out to buy vegetables today, I was still in the same black jacket as before. He thought I didn’t have the freshness of a girl. I ordered the garlic sprouts on the plate, and said who taught you to cut the vegetables like this, you can try it with one.

He must be not used to it, not used to me staying at home all day, not used to me doing these things at home, every time he sent me to school before, he was full of hope, and now he doesn’t need to send me, there is no place to send him.I think I am slowly overdrawing my father's feelings for me. I know that there are some real things in human nature in many cases, and I can't see clearly without overdrawing, but I am afraid to see clearly because he is my father.

What parents like to say when their children get married in the town is "the task has been completed". In case of illness or disaster, it is because "the task has not been completed yet".As for me, my father must have messed up the task, how could he not be angry and disappointed, so I took a big breath, and when Tianling Gai flew out and flew back, I thought, at least this sentence, I am immune again, It’s just that if you hold your breath like this, you will always have a sore throat the next day. At this time, you always hope that you are made of iron. Even if you want to oxidize, it will start from the outer surface, not like now, when sadness seems to be visible and tangible, stuck on the diagonal above the heart At ten centimeters, it makes people feel stuck in the throat.

Looking back on my campus life so far, I started to grow taller in the first day of junior high school. I was hungry for steamed buns, and I had vegetable soup, and I still had a little bad stool. I played ping-pong every day. Bright and half sad; I was with you in the second day of junior high school, laughing to the point of internal pain every day, thinking that in the future there must be thousands of songs floating on my road, and in the future there must be thousands of evening stars brighter than the moon tonight, and the rounder one is the moon of foreign countries; [-]. The girl who felt that she was abandoned, and found that she had not met her expectations, including her height, and was always at a loss.