triumphant sister

Want to smell everything, vetiver body odor fried chicken Buddha, want to see everything, magnify a thousand times, no matter whether the heart can bear it, want to hear everything, vibrate with me, no matter where the sound comes from, want anything Say, even if you are not obedient or sweet.

From when I came with nothing, I didn’t know where I was before, to when I went with nothing, I don’t know where to go after that, if there is one thing that can be taken away from this world, then it’s not fun, because the answer is too obvious.Inspired by life, love and death are the eternal themes, but I have always been ignorant of the truth, I have not obtained any certain value, to calculate any powerful X, after my father's incident, I feel that thinking about this thing In fact, you can not be so anxious. Before, I was not in a hurry because I thought that thinking could be kept until the life was running out. Now I am not in a hurry because the time I have is always limited to the magnitude of the things I think about.

Nothing in the world is really 100% sad or good because it just seems to be there.Whether it tastes good, smells good or not, sounds good or not, looks good or not, in a narrow sense, it is only relative to human beings, and it is left to the artist.What you want to understand but don't know very well, what you want to be sure but not very sure, leave it to scientists.What surpasses human cognition and exists before human cognition is given to philosophers.

The more absolute, the more hell is waiting for me, the simpler, the more chances of God-given gifts, even if I see more evil, it will make me think in more directions, don't think The world is what it is, and it will never be more than that.

I want to choose, inspired by life, what is not on the time axis and does not obey the law of energy conservation, I want to choose, the 21 grams that I can take away.If there is matter, there must be consciousness. If there is nothingness, there must be existence. Human existence has never been a carbon structure, nor is it just an ape. I think these definitions are wrong because they are too cold. I can't let these cold definitions divide everything I cherish into meaningless. I think it's meaningless because these definitions don't last long at all. Batches of terms are created, and batches of terms are eliminated. It won't last long, I have to follow my feelings, and only by following my feelings can we have everything.I don't want to be so cold in vain before I get the real answer, so I have to work hard, get out of the palm of the Tathagata, work hard, get out of the belly of a whale, work hard, get out of the rabbit hole, not a butterfly or Zhuang Sheng, work hard, go call Waking up the absurd dream of Brahma.

Have we all been repeating, for thousands and thousands of centuries.

Have we all lost touch with someone.

Have we all forgotten that there are many, many selves.

Fortunately, I can still think about the world, my father, and you at this moment. I finally know that there is no moment when I am not favored, and there is no moment when I am not making free choices.

I am proud to tell you that I am actually a person with two insurances. My younger brother once asked me for a photo. It turned out that my father quietly helped me to get medical insurance and social insurance. For so many years, I have lived a life of a lock when I go out and a fire when I enter the door. I even forgot about me and the future. It turned out that my father hadn’t forgotten. After my younger brother got a girlfriend, my father once said jokingly, when you get married, I will leave a room upstairs for your sister. Didn’t she fall in love with the roof? In the room upstairs, you can see creepers every day.

It finally broke my heart to hear what my brother told me.

But I can no longer be like a seed, buried back in the soil, and grow into the daughter my father wanted, although I can still recall the last period when I was with my father, that breathless and full of hopelessness and sadness. Air, two people who love each other so much, the appearance of this air is actually just because they are afraid of each other's future.

No Word could be better, together, forever.

With my father, I lost to time, so much so that I didn't even have the courage to think about saying goodbye to him.

After my father's funeral, I heard that you were going to get married, and time seemed to want to crush me once again.

I'm sorry, I went to your wedding without your consent. Why do I have to go? I always say that there is nothing necessary. 14-24 is an excellent number and an excellent age. I am willing to live my life to the fullest Clean to the point of grievance, but I must see this side, I don’t want to be willing to bring that memory out of my memory because of the running out of time, let’s smash it, I know, that memory won’t last ten years, I need to see it You take a look, it's best, use this look to draw a happy ending for my ten years.

I'm right, there are photos of you everywhere at the wedding venue, from the doorway where people come and go, I looked at them one by one, I must be very greedy, thank God, you didn't let you see me like this.

I must never let you see my appearance. Looking at the picture of you with a happy smile on your face, I already understand that I can't squeeze in when you are happy. No matter if you say in surprise: "Gu Chengen, long time no see " Still said coldly: "Gu Chengen, why did you show up." I don't think I can bear it, neither of these two roles attract me.

I was in the crowd, eager to see you, and you finally came out, but you were wearing a red hijab embroidered with dragons and phoenixes, and the red wedding dress was full of diamonds shining brightly under the sun, and your every move was elegant Ning Ren, I got into the sedan chair with the support of everyone. Seeing you covered your head, I felt relieved. The people beside the sedan chair followed behind amidst the hustle and bustle. The bearer started to bump the sedan chair. I laughed happily, and I also grinned from behind, and I was a little worried about you in the sedan chair at the moment.

After arriving at the ceremony hall, you got off the sedan chair and went to worship the heaven and the earth in Chinese style. I seemed to see your mother. She was a little fatter, and the expression on her face was very relieved. I started to be a little more alert, because there might be some An old friend like your mother, I dare not enter the auditorium rashly, there is no place for me there, I wander in the corridor outside the hall, hoping to take a second look at you when you enter.

Suddenly there was a sound of footsteps coming towards the corner of the corridor where I was hiding. I hurriedly hid in the bathroom of the hotel, and the sound of footsteps also came to the bathroom. I hid behind one of the doors and looked through the gap. It turned out to be you and Some bridesmaids, you are still wearing the red wedding dress, and the hijab is taken off. Under the gorgeous golden crown, is the face I have been thinking about day and night. For the first time in ten years, you are so close to you. You hurried to my next door Suddenly, something metal fell down, and it rolled down from under the door to my side in a dramatic way. Looking carefully, it turned out to be a delicate bronze mirror. I heard your voice from the next door.

"Oh, I forgot to put the demon mirror on my waist that my mother gave me."

The bridesmaids laughed happily at the silly you. Amidst the laughter, you knocked on the wall of the cubicle and asked if I could pass the mirror to you. I picked up the mirror and saw you tentatively taking it from under the door The hand of the mirror, painted with festive Kodan, the hand I haven't held since I was 15 years old.

Let's hold it one last time, I thought so and held that hand, then put the mirror in your palm, you withdrew your hand and said "thank you" to me.

You walked out of the next room, I could just see your face through the gap, you smiled shyly, the bridesmaids surrounded you and arranged your clothes, and then walked out of the bathroom together.

I was reluctant to leave, it was the most perfect wedding that I could imagine, from Chinese style to Western style, you wore enough red wedding dress and white gauze, and I also saw enough at once, it was so beautiful that it made people suddenly realize.

After all, the world treats you kindly, and treating you kindly is equivalent to treating me kindly.

I don’t know if you remember, when I read Maupassant’s "On a Spring Evening" during the broadcast, I choked up when I read "Aren't your cute little feet cold at all?", and I still feel ashamed to this day , As long as I think about it at night, I can’t sleep with shame, because now I will never be like this again, you on stage are happy as if you have fallen into a honeypot, seeing you in a honeypot, it’s like falling into a honeypot to the honeypot.

It's just that deep love is not as good as long-term companionship. I believe it. Seeing you looking intently at your lover, it is obvious that you have found your one hundred percent. The preciousness of people is always relative. I was secretly a little sad, maybe, I knew I was behind, but I didn’t expect to be so late, so what about my ten years, is it just a door that can’t be mentioned for you and me for a lifetime?Can I comfort myself like this, the only thing in the world is love, when a thought is activated, it will be done, as long as it happens, it will be complete, it is, complete and complete.

In the past ten years, I have eaten food that I don't like even when I am very hungry. I have never done this before, never perfect, never out of line.Even today, please don't doubt my loyalty. I don't think my life will be so lush again. I miss you from morning to night for ten years.

At the end of the wedding, I silently followed everyone and recited the congratulations to you, "Death and life are inseparable, talk to Zicheng, hold the hand of your son, and grow old together with your son."

Friends, since this congratulatory speech involves life and death, let's solemnly do it for the last time.

You have to be very happy and live your life like a landscape.

I am worthy of this magnificent mountain and river, and worthy of this shuttle in the world.

Put your hands into the soil, plant flowers, and desperately watch it bloom dozens of stubbles;

Put your feet into the sea, and when you smile, its waves will be fierce;

When bored, try pearl milk tea