lucky for the rest of my life

Su Xing locked himself in the hotel for three days, but still couldn't get out.He is like a madman, unable to forget the past, and unable to abandon the present.

On the other side, Li Rui watched Su Xing closely not far from the restaurant.He frowned and clutched the phone in his hand, as if he was making a difficult decision.It's been three days, and Su Xing hasn't left the hotel for three days. He is worried that something will happen if he stays inside, but he is also afraid that sending someone out will make Su Xing angry.

He was wondering whether to call Zhou Qi out.

But just when he was about to press the dial button, he suddenly saw Su Xing walking out of the hotel.Li Rui immediately put the phone in his pocket.After Su Xing walked over, he got out of the car and followed him far away.

Su Xing walked slowly on the road. In fact, he didn't even know where he wanted to go.He just felt that he should come out for a walk, otherwise he would have plunged into a dead end and couldn't get out.

The place Su Xing chose is very close to the company, and it only takes half an hour to walk there.He stood in front of the company and looked at it for a long time, but he still didn't go in. He turned around and continued walking.

Su Xing has no destination and walks wherever he thinks.Sometimes when I see a small shop on the side of the road, I will even sit in and eat something.He kept walking along the road, and the road was full of people, but there was a sense of disobedience that he couldn't blend into.He seems to be isolated from the world, even if he is far away from others, he can't blend into the crowd, he is abrupt and conspicuous.

While walking, Su Xing suddenly smelled the smell of milk tea.He froze for a moment, stopped in his tracks, and looked at the storefront next to him with a dazed expression.

It was a small milk tea shop, but it looked very comfortable, the inside was very bright, the door was open, and the outside of the entire store was made of transparent glass.There were a lot of people sitting inside, all with contented expressions on their faces, talking and laughing.

Su Xing seemed to hesitate for a moment, but still walked into the store.

"Hello, welcome, what do you want?" the waiter asked with a warm smile on his face.

Su Xing glanced at the price list and paused slightly.Then he opened his mouth: "A cup of pearl milk tea, thank you."

"Sir, we are active now, the second cup is half price, do you want to buy two cups?"

Su Xing's pupils seemed to tremble a bit, but he still said softly, "Okay."

He sat in the shop with two cups of milk tea, one for himself and one opposite.This somewhat weird behavior has aroused the attention of some people around.They secretly observed this handsome young man whose behavior was somewhat unreasonable.

On the other side, Li Rui felt a sour taste in his heart after realizing what Su Xing had done.That milk tea was the kind that Su Xing bought for him when he and Su Xing met for the first time. He didn't expect that Su Xing remembered it.

Su Xing quietly drank his cup of milk tea by himself, and then walked out of the shop, while the other cup was left on the table in the shop by him.

When the waiter in the store was clearing the table, he wanted to dispose of the cup of milk tea, but was stopped by a stranger.

"He bought this cup of milk tea for me." The man said, his tone seemed very sad, but the hand holding the milk tea was cautious, as if he was holding some treasure.

The waiter shook his head, and the man had already walked out of the store with milk tea.

The temperature of the milk tea warmed the whole body, and even the heart seemed to warm up a little.Su Xing breathed a sigh of relief, feeling that he was no longer so

Depressed, even the sky seemed a little blue.

He was still walking aimlessly, and then the phone rang.

is an unfamiliar number.

"Hello, who is it?" Su Xing said.

There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, just when Su Xing thought it was a wrong call, the person on the other side spoke.

"Su Xing, it's me."

Su Xing thought for a while before matching the voice with the person in her mind, but why did she call herself?

"Miss Liu?"

"Ah."

"Miss Liu, what's the matter?" Su Xing's voice was still calm, as if he was not facing the person who pushed him down the hillside.

"I'm sorry." The person on the opposite side seemed to have grown up rapidly in a short period of time, and his tone of voice no longer had the arrogance of the past, and even showed imperceptible fatigue.

"..."

Both ends of the phone fell silent until Liu Ruqian spoke again.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to kill you. I didn't know you had a heart attack." As if the other words were no longer so difficult after the first sentence was said, she put the words that had been in her heart these days little by little. Tell the opposite young man who had been targeted by her in every possible way, "I'm sorry for what happened."

"If I knew you had a heart attack, I would never have done that. Sorry!"

What Liu Ruqian said was very sincere.She really didn't like Su Xing, but she never thought about killing Su Xing. She went to see that hillside before. It was the cleanest place. If she was lucky, she wouldn't even be able to roll down from it what hurt.

The person on the other end of the phone didn't speak, and Liu Ruqian's voice seemed to be a little bit bitter: "I know what I did is unbearable, I don't ask for your forgiveness, I just want to apologize to you."

She has been sent abroad by her family, her mobile phone has been confiscated, and Su Xing has been watched more and more closely by the Su family and the Li family. It is impossible for her to get close to him again. arrived.

Su Xing opened his mouth, but what he said was another unrelated topic: "Has the thing you want to verify been verified?"

There seemed to be a moment of confusion in the atmosphere on the other end of the phone, as if he didn't expect Su Xing to mention this matter, but Liu Ruqian still answered his question.

"Yes, it has been verified." Liu Ruqian said, "For so many years, it's just that I just stuck in and refused to come out. In his eyes, I may be no different from a stranger."

"No, perhaps not as good as a stranger."

Su Xing heard her seem to laugh, full of self-deprecating meaning.On that day, she clearly realized the fact that she was really nothing in Li Rui's eyes.

"Are you complaining?" Su Xing asked softly, his voice seemed a little erratic.

"I thought I would complain." After a phone call, the two chatted as if they were friends. Liu Ruqian never thought that she would have a day when she would talk to Su Xing calmly, "but in the end I suddenly found that I can't complain. After all, from the beginning to the end, Li Rui never gave me any promises, and it's just my own wishful thinking. "

"Then do you regret it?"

"Regret?" Liu Ruqian chewed these two words carefully, "No, I don't regret it, maybe I will still like him if I do it again."

"Although he doesn't like me, Su Xing, do you know that liking him used to be the most important and happiest thing in my life. He used to be all the dreams in my life."

Su Xing's eyelashes trembled slightly.

"Then why did you give up?"

"Because a dream can only be a dream." Liu Ruqian said, "I have spent all my life liking him, and that is enough. I have pursued him hard, and I have no regrets. Maybe I still can't let him go, but , in the following time, I should do something else. Maybe someone is waiting for me in the distance?"

The long eyelashes cast shadows on Su Xing's face, and there was only the sound of electricity and breathing on the phone.After a while, Su Xing finally spoke again: "I forgive you."

There was no sound from the phone. Su Xing was about to hang up the phone when Liu Ruqian's voice suddenly came from the phone.

"Thank you, Su Xing." Her voice seemed to be trembling, "You know what? I used to be crazily jealous of you, and I felt that you were not worthy of Li Rui. But now I know I was wrong. I'm crazy I really like him, even if I do it again, I might still like him. But I know it’s useless, no matter how much I like him, it’s useless. From that day on, I understand that he won’t like anyone but you There is no one, only you. So I can only give up."

"I used to think that it was impossible for Li Rui to understand what liking is. I have been chasing him for so many years! But he never looked at me more, never smiled at me. But even this is enough for me After all, the only girl around him for so many years is me!"

"Su Xing, if you don't show up, I won't wake up even in another ten years. I love him, I love him so much, even if I don't get a response, I can love him for so many years, and I can even love him for a lifetime. "

"But now that you've appeared, I can't fool myself anymore. It's not that he doesn't know how to like people, but that person is not me, never was me!"

Her sentences were upside down, completely illogical, and she said one sentence here and another, as if she was venting her long-standing depression in her heart.The girl's voice was already crying.

"Su Xing, you are luckier than me, because you are deeply loved by the person you like."

"Su Xing, you must be happy."

After saying this, a busy tone came from the phone.Liu Ruqian hung up the phone.

That was her last blessing to the person she once loved deeply.

Su Xing hung up the phone and stood there for a long time without moving.After a while, a taxi stopped in front of him.Su Xing sat in.

He felt that he wanted to go to a place to see.

The taxi walked forward unhurriedly, and the driver inside was a very talkative person, and he kept talking to Su Xing when he saw him.Su Xing responded with a good temper.

"Young man, there was a car accident some time ago at the place you are going to." The uncle driver said.

"Well, I've heard of it."

"All those who crashed and were hit died, what a tragedy!" The driver uncle sighed for a while, as if he was lamenting the impermanence of fate, "You said you were driving well, or in that kind of place, why did you get hit so badly? It’s almost as if I’ve been hit by an evil spirit.”

Su Xing didn't speak. His own existence is no longer something that can be explained by science. How can he talk about ghosts and gods?

"Is there no investigation?" Su Xing said.

"Yes, the brakes of the car that hit someone suddenly broke down, tsk tsk." The driver sighed again, "Fate is unpredictable!"

Su Xing listened, rolled his eyes, and didn't speak.

After a while, the place arrived, and Su Xing got out of the car.Where he didn't notice, a car was dotted far behind.

Once again, Su Xing stood here.It seems that I can still hear the violent collision of cars, the sound of glass breaking, and even the faint sound of Li Rui's heart-piercing.

Su Xing's face turned slightly pale. The car accident that finally cost him his life seemed to be happening again in front of him.

"Benefactor?" A voice pulled Su Xing back.

At some point, a monk with a handsome beard and eyebrows stood in front of him, but he looked very energetic, with piercing eyes.

"Master is good." Su Xing returned the salute.

"The poor monk saw that there seemed to be a haze between the benefactor's brows. I don't know why he was confused?" the monk said kindly.

"It's just some trivial matters. I don't know why Master is here?" Su Xing didn't answer, but changed the subject instead.

"The poor monk passed by here and saw that there seemed to be something ominous, so he wanted to check it out, and happened to see that the benefactor seemed to be trapped for some reason." The monk said in a very good temper.

"There are billions of people in the world, and I don't know how much they are trapped by mundane things. I am the same, it's just unavoidable." Su Xing said with a little self-deprecating smile.

The monk still had a kind smile, as if he was praising his face, and after a while, he said suddenly.

"How about a poor monk to meet the benefactor?" He said suddenly.

Su Xing froze for a moment, then smiled indifferently: "Then please trouble Master."

"The Buddha said that there are seven sufferings in life: birth, old age, sickness, death, not getting what you want, parting from love, resentment and hatred. The donor has a special face, and the poor monk can't see it all, but only a glimpse of it. I see the seven sufferings of the life of the donor. The first half of my life suffered a lot of hardships, and the second half of my life was healthy and smooth. Although there are still twists and turns, there is still a glimmer of life. Even if you are troubled by the current things, it will pass soon."

"Thank you, master, for your kind words." Su Xing saluted the monk.

"nothing."

The monk waved his hand, turned around and left, but Su Xing suddenly called him after he took a few steps away.

"Is there anything else the donor can do?"

Su Xing pursed her lips, as if she didn't know why she suddenly stopped the person in front of her.He lost his words for a while, but the monk was not in a hurry, and waited for him quietly, his eyes were full of gentleness.After a while, Su Xing finally spoke.

"Master, if a person hurt you before, even you almost died because of him, but he treats you well again suddenly. How do you treat?"

"It's not how I treat you, but how you treat me." The monk looked at him and said slowly, "Donor, there is no answer to this question like your heart. You should ask it."

Su Xing's face suddenly showed a touch of pain, and he knew it, but he knew even more that his heart was already in a mess.

"I'm sending you the word benefactor, put it down." The monk bowed to him, "Everything in the world can be solved with these two words. Maybe it's not that I don't understand, but it's because the time has not come, or the benefactor doesn't want to see it."

The monk seemed to be leaving after he finished speaking, but his body turned around suddenly: "The benefactor has a predestined relationship with my Buddha. I hope the benefactor will bring the kit on his body in the near future."

After the monk finished this sentence, he didn't wait for Su Xing's answer, and this time he really went far.

Su Xing was stunned for a moment, then stretched out his hand and slowly touched his neck, there was a red rope, and the other end of the rope was the kit Li Rui gave him, and inside was the peace talisman that Li Rui begged for.

The author has something to say: "The Buddha said: Life has seven sufferings..." From "The Great Nirvana Sutra", Baidu information.

No one will be bad for no reason. Liu Ruqian's hostility towards Su Xing stems from her envy of Li Rui.But she is not stupid after all, she is still a good girl after seeing it.