lucky for the rest of my life

Li Rui came back to his senses, and closed his eyes in pain.The memories of the past have long been torn by him, even the good ones turned into a blunt knife in the end, sharpening his heart one by one, and those memories of indifference and even violence are more like sharp arrows piercing the intestines. One has grooves on it, and it brings up a piece of flesh and blood when it moves.But he still didn't dare to forget, and continued to recall like masochistic, because there was his Axing in it.

And now he doesn't know why he came here, but he is very grateful, whether it is a dream, reality or real rebirth, but it gives him another chance.This time, he will definitely protect Su Xing well, love and pamper him well, never make things difficult for him, and never let him get hurt in the slightest.

The door of the emergency room opened again, and Li Rui rushed up to meet him. Su Xing, who was pushed out with his eyes closed, appeared first, followed by Director Chen who was led by the dean just now, and Li Rui's heart tightened. , The memory of Su Xing being pushed out of the operating room in his previous life overlapped with his eyes. He touched Su Xing and saw that he was breathing smoothly, he was relieved, and asked Director Chen: "How is he?"

Director Chen knew that he had sent the person here, so he said without hesitation: "Congenital heart disease, fortunately, it was sent in time, and it has recovered now, otherwise...but his heart condition seems to be not very good. , in the future, we must also pay attention to controlling emotions, not to be too excited, not to do a lot of strenuous exercise; and we should also pay attention to our usual diet... In short, pay more attention to it and keep it up."

Li Rui stared at Su Xing closely, turned on the recording on the phone, and listened to what Director Chen said while walking, nodding his head from time to time in response, and asked some related things.They went all the way to the VIP ward, seeing Su Xing being settled, Li Rui held Director Chen and talked for a long time, making sure that there should be nothing missing or remembering wrongly, so he thanked Director Chen patiently.Director Chen thought for a while and finally said, "If you have time, take him for an examination."

Li Rui's heart skipped a beat when he heard that, "What's wrong with his body?"

In his previous life, he and Su Xing had only endless confrontations. At that time, Director Chen was not the one who checked Su Xing. He didn't even know if there was any other problem with his body besides congenital heart disease. In his memory, he only remembered that Su Xing was in poor health, but how could he care about these things at that time, because of Su Xing's indifference, he didn't even take him for a decent checkup, but tortured him more and more again and again.

"It's fine, it's fine, don't be nervous." Director Chen looked at his nervous look and said quickly, "I just think he looks a bit malnourished. In fact, it doesn't matter if you do this check, but let's have a check. Even better, it's reassuring to have nothing, right?"

In fact, if it was a different person, Director Chen might not have to say this more.The current relationship between doctors and patients is really not good. If you check something and find out that it is unreasonable, you will say that there is nothing wrong with it. Why do you have something to do after the check? .But director Chen saw that Li Rui didn't look like he was short of money, and secondly, he saw that Li Rui really cared about Su Xing, so he said this extra sentence.

After hearing this, Li Rui naturally thanked him again.

After Director Chen took the people away, Li Rui sat in front of Su Xing's bed, drawing Su Xing's eyebrows and eyes over and over again with his eyes, as if he would never get tired of seeing them.Su Xing looks good, which is completely different from Li Rui.Li Rui has a handsome and sharp appearance, and he is not easy to mess with at first glance.But Su Xing's brows and eyes are soft, his facial features are exquisite, and his eyes are clear and bright, as if he can't tolerate any impurities.His lips are slightly thin, very light in color, with sickly paleness.Su Xing exudes a peaceful and comfortable atmosphere all over his body, as if no matter what happens, his mood will settle down by his side.

Li Rui stretched out his hand, as if he wanted to touch Su Xing's face, but finally stopped on top of his face, and took his hand back stiffly.He looked at Su Xing little by little, with boundless tenderness and love, as if he wanted to engrave this person in his heart.

Su Xing woke up the next day.

When Su Xing woke up, he saw the white roof, and the birdsong came from outside the window.The sun shines through the window on the hospital bed, which looks dreamy and beautiful.

Su Xing stared at the top of the bed for a while, remembering what happened before and why he was here.Su Xing raised his mouth mockingly, but finally dropped it helplessly. Forget it, maybe it's good to be alive, isn't it someone who said that there is hope in life.

"Ashin..."

Li Rui, who was originally sitting on the sidelines and didn't dare to make a sound, saw Su Xing like this, his heart ached suddenly, and he couldn't help but let out a soft cry.

Su Xing's pupils shrank sharply. He turned his head to look at the source of the sound, and saw Li Rui with a haggard face, bloodshot eyes, and a bandage on his head. For a moment, he even thought that if the two of them If the personal relationship hadn't gotten to this point, he might still have the mind to make a joke about Li Rui: Look, it's me lying on the hospital bed, but your face is probably uglier than mine, more like you should be lying on the hospital bed people.But that was before, and it is no longer possible.So what he said was sharp and piercing.

"Aren't you happy that I didn't die?"

I didn't die, and you can continue to torture me, don't you feel very happy; I didn't die, and I couldn't escape from your palm, don't you feel very proud?

Li Rui only felt that what Su Xing uttered was not words, but knives, cutting his heart one by one.

"Ashin..."

"Don't call me Ah Xing, our relationship is not that good." Su Xing looked at him with a pair of dark and clear eyes, which were full of ridicule.

Li Rui felt bitter in his heart and bitter in his mouth, but he never dared to call Su Xing that way again.

"Su Xing, I was wrong, don't do this, I will never force you again, okay?"

Su Xing looked at him coldly, and he didn't want to believe a single word he said. If everything can be offset by admitting his mistakes, then what is the torture he has suffered these days?What's more, does this person really think that he has done something wrong?

"Su Xing, I really know I was wrong, can you give me another chance to correct my mistake? I don't dare again." Li Rui looked at the suspicion and disbelief in Su Xing's eyes, and felt very uncomfortable.Originally, those eyes would always look at him with a smile, originally those eyes would look at him with concern, but they were all ruined by him.

Su Xing looked at him for a while, then turned her head to look at the top of the roof, as if she never wanted to see him again.

"Wrong?" Su Xing paused for a while and then continued, "Li Rui, what's wrong with you..."

"Su Xing, I was wrong, I really know I was wrong!"

Before Su Xing could finish speaking, Li Rui hurriedly interrupted his words with a trace of panic in his voice. He was afraid, he was afraid of hearing Su Xing say, "Li Rui, what's wrong with you. I was the one who was wrong. It’s not you, it’s my fault that I shouldn’t have saved you.” Just like Su Xing said to him when he was dying in the last life, “I don’t hate you anymore, I only hate myself, and why I saved you on the road in the first place. "

He was afraid that Su Xing would completely deny the meaning of their meeting, and he was also afraid that his heart would be ashamed.

"Su Xing, can I punish you as you please? What I did to you before, you can do it to me again, as long as you are happy, as long as you can vent your anger, you can punish me as you want ,OK?"

Hearing what he said, Su Xing turned his head to look at him again, his eyes were full of doubts, how could you make him believe that a person who was going to be violent to him one moment, suddenly changed his ways and abandoned evil to do good the next moment? ?It’s like a person who has violated laws and regulations all the year round suddenly turned himself in to the Public Security Bureau and said, “I want to be a good citizen who speaks five words, four beauties and three loves.” Can the people’s police immediately believe him?

Su Xing looked at him for a while, and Li Rui tried his best to make his expression look sincere enough.In the end, Su Xing said, "I want to go back to school."

"Okay, come back." Li Rui agreed, looked at Su Xing's suspicious eyes and continued, "Really, I won't lie to you, you can go back if you want, I will go back with you."

As soon as he finished speaking, Su Xing showed a sarcasm on his face: "What if I don't want to go back to school with you? I don't want to see you."

Li Rui wanted to soften his expression and smile more sincerely, but he couldn't do it after working hard for a long time. In the end, he could only stiffly pull out a wry smile: "Su Xing, this is the only thing I can't do, I can't do it, we Can you change it? As long as you don't let me leave you, you can ask me to do anything."

Su Xing didn't speak, but Li Rui always felt the irony in the way he looked at him.Li Rui was bitter in his heart, he felt very uncomfortable in his heart, the suffering he suffered for Su Xing, and the sin he made for himself.As long as Su Xing said anything else, he would do whatever it takes to do it for him, but only this one, he couldn't do it.He is the whole meaning of his rebirth, without him, what is he still doing here?Why do you want to walk through this boring world, it is better to find a rope and live a clean life for the rest of your life.

"Forget it." After Su Xing finished speaking, he turned his head to the window outside, and pointed the back of his head at Li Rui, "You must keep what you say, and you will let me go back to school tomorrow."

"it is good."

Li Rui watched him look out of the window and couldn't help feeling pain in his heart. Su Xing was locked by him for more than two weeks, and he hasn't seen the sun outside for nearly two weeks.In the previous life, Su Xing was locked up by him for five years.Even if he tied Su Xing back to City A later, he no longer had to worry that Su Xing would suddenly run away without him knowing, and he never let Su Xing take a step indoors when he was not around.At that time, he would often see Su Xing sitting in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows and staring out in a daze. He thought that he was only thinking about escaping, so he watched him more and more and imprisoned him, making the relationship between the two of them stronger. Worse, but I didn't think that people are eager to get in touch with the outside world, and no matter how introverted people are, they can't completely break away from society.Su Xing was imprisoned by him for five years and treated like that for five years, and he still hasn't gone crazy. It's because of Su Xing's tenacity, but this kind of Su Xing finally made him tortured to death.