【Liai】Horizon

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Many times afterwards, I would suddenly slip into a coma, a deeper slumber.

I may really be a little tired, just a little.

As I say this, I lie on the grass with my head on someone's leg, just far enough away for him to stroke my hair.He leaned against the tree, and the sunlight was scattered by the leaves, but the sunlight in the gaps between the leaves would be extraordinarily dazzling.

Light fell through my outstretched fingers, and I never saw it again.Maybe my movement of playing with the sun like that would make him mistakenly think that I was covering my eyes because of the glare, so he stretched out his hand and covered my eyes.

Having captured such tenderness, a huge portion of satisfaction surged in my heart, and I was a little proud like a child.I can't see his expression, I guess he will smile too.

That must be something that cannot be shown on weekdays, only in this supremely precious little afternoon of rest, the expression that will appear.

"Tomorrow may be the last battle, go to sleep."

"Yes."

So I closed my eyes and felt my eyelashes brush against his palm.

In the long war, to what extent will the human heart be tempered?

Blood, ruins, wounds, carrion.

Tears, vomit, broken arms, and some people were hoarse.

"If you can turn a blind eye to everything and just think about living."

As he said this, I listened in a half-dream, half-awake state.

In fact, I should start fantasizing. If tomorrow is really the final battle, if I really won, how should I celebrate?Countless people have imagined that scene over the years.But in fact, after falling asleep, I had a more distant dream that was infinitely close to unrealistic.

I dreamed of my death, and when I opened my eyes again, it was a peaceful age. I was able to live, grow old, sick and die together with the person whose palms were on my eyes.

A bad news or a good news, which one do you want to hear first?My dear Captain Levi.

Tomorrow I will die.

Then in the next millennium, we will meet again.

Go through life and death, survive the catastrophe, and pursue freedom.That's all there is to it beyond death.I slept so deeply that it was like falling into a coma.But I feel at ease, knowing that the first thing I see when I open my eyes is...

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When Allen opened his eyes, the first thing he saw was Levi.

Just woke up from a coma, his head hurts.Subconsciously, he reached out to touch it, and touched a piece of gauze that had just been wrapped. He thought his head should be wrapped in rice dumplings, and the wound was still burning with pain, making half of his face numb.

However, looking at the appearance in front of him, everything should be over.In the air-conditioned hotel room, there were only the breathing of two people, which was inaudible.The street outside is also very quiet, the sky is dark, it should be midnight.

Allen looked at Levi who was sitting on the edge of his bed. The man had his eyes closed, and he didn't know if he was asleep.The warm yellow light fell on his outer arm, which just blocked the light for the boy sleeping on the side.Allen sat up carefully, not thinking about the rest of his life, he was just thinking about not waking the man up if he fell asleep.

But as soon as he moved, that person found out.

Levi opened his eyes, turned his head, and met the boy's gaze.

"Mr. Levi..."

"Well, I'm awake."

Well, what should I say?The gaze cast by the eyes as if nothing had happened was clearly mixed with fatigue.Allen felt a distress that made him breathless, and then he was confused by his emotions.Of course, Levi didn't want to give him enough time to think, the more silent the atmosphere, the weirder it is.

say something.

"I, am I—"

"Apologize again?"

"Thank you..."

"No thanks."

"That--"

Allen thought for a while, and said in a low voice without thinking:

"I'm glad you're alright Mr. Levi."

He didn't feel that he had done or said anything wrong, but Levi's expression obviously became a little subtle, that kind of eyes mixed with "so it is" and "so it is", suddenly changed again when the man approached. Be aggressive.

"Ellen."

He called out his name and raised his hand to touch the boy's gauze-covered forehead.

"There won't be a next time, I promise."

"I'm sorry Mr. Levi! If I don't run around this time, I will just..."

Levi moved towards the tip of his nose, the distance was still shortening, and Allen subconsciously leaned back.There was a feeling of warning, he didn't know what he was afraid of.He always felt that he would be incoherent if he was stared at at such a close distance, but he couldn't think too much.

In his panic, Levi smiled narrowly, which completely froze Alan.

Mr. Levi laughed just now? !

"If you really feel sorry, pay a small price?"

The reason why Allen lost his first kiss was this sentence, but perhaps, the fuse had been lit a long time ago, but the line of fire was very long, and a small cluster of flames has been spreading quietly, and the fireworks have not bloomed until now.

When the warm lips pressed over, he lost his line instantly, allowing Levi to trace his lip line with the tip of his tongue, and then go further into his mouth to attack the city.

This is quite different from the kiss of the millennium. At that time, the man would only take advantage of the young man's sleep, and when the leaves swayed gently in the wind, he would lean over and place a light kiss on his lips like a superficial kiss.That was Alan's last kiss the day before his death, and it was Alan's first kiss after his rebirth.One is cautious and gentle, and the other is punitive and domineering. Of course, this is something the two have never understood, and they all acted from the heart.

The brain is blank, but there is a faint taste of tobacco in the mouth.

Kissing Levi and biting his lip viciously, just the right amount of pain to jolt him awake.He left his lips and placed a kiss on his forehead.

"Good night."

After Levi left, Allen kept his original posture, and sat for a while before recovering. He turned off the light in silence, lay down, covered his head under the quilt, and clutched his chest in discomfort.

My heart beats like it's about to explode.

It's over, he thought.

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At noon, there was a plate of juniper berry sauce on the table, as well as fried potatoes, chicory and walnut salad, and some rolls.After Allen took the tableware, he poured orange juice into the three glasses.After everything was ready, he heard his stomach growl in due course.

"Mikasha, Armin, come to lunch!"

The voice of a friend came from the inner room.Walking over to see, both of them were standing in front of Levi's bookshelf.

"There are many books that are not available in the library!!" Armin said, his eyes full of joy. "Hey Alan, can I borrow it to see it?!"

"It's not him who is the master." Mikasha said angrily from the side, as long as she looked up and saw the gauze on Alan's forehead, she would look unhappy. "Who knew that dwarf-"

"Have a meal!!"

Allen pushed the two of them out of the room.

Since returning from the United States, Levi has not been home for almost a week. He said that he has a lot of things to deal with so he stayed directly at the company, where there are ready rooms.This set of rhetoric seems so reasonable, but Allen always feels a little far-fetched.

The teenager is still the same as before, cleaning, doing homework and reading, and going out for a walk casually.Petra and Hanji came twice, mainly to check his wound for infection.Petra always looked at her with distressed eyes, like a gentle sister, while Hanji was still a carefree and funny person, but last night she suddenly became serious, with her hands on the boy's shoulders, facing him, staring at him his eyes.

"What happened to you and Levi?"

she asked.Allen hmmed for a long time and finally just replied, "It's nothing." He was like a deflated balloon, and he felt guilty.Pretending not to see Han Ji's ambiguous eyes, he put the plate into the sink, and when the sound of water sounded, he added: "Mr. Levi is busy recently, isn't he?"

Yes, I am very busy, knocking my legs on the table and communicating with the ceiling every day.Han Ji complained.

"Yeah, did he call you?"

"Well, in the afternoon, he said that if I feel bored, I can call my friends over to play."

After saying this, Han Ji fell silent. Allen put the washed dishes on the shelf, and looked back to see Han Ji with a dumbfounded expression.

"Petra, guess what Levi said to the little angel?!"

Allen was speechless, his "nickname" kept changing in Han Ji's mouth, what little master, little prince, little angel.It's not funny, he heard Hanji go back to the living room and cry to Petra:

"He used to be angry when I entered his study, but now he allows Alan's friends to come and play?! What's wrong with this world? Levi—"

Allen hung up the rag and turned off the wall lamp.

He stood quietly in the dark kitchen, subconsciously touched his lips with his index finger.

It's not a dream, it should be.

After that night, he thought of that inexplicable but logical kiss countless times.When cleaning, when doing homework and reading, when going out for a walk, as long as you are distracted, you will think of it.Even now, Mikasha was admiring the bread he had baked, and Armin was reading with gusto the value of that bookshelf.He was listening to his two best friends, but he didn't seem to be listening.His eyes flicked over the juniper sauce, through Mikasha's fingers, over Armin's shoulder, along the spotless floor, into the room where the door wasn't closed.

The occupant of that room is used to sitting in a crisp shirt at a desk with papers and coffee.But he wasn't there now, the midday sun set on the black leather chair instead.The marble bay window must have reflected the harsh light, and there was originally a delicate gun in the corner of the window sill.The silver wings on the gun handle always give people the illusion that it is about to break through the confinement and rise into the air, but it is only an illusion.

It is not free.Allen suddenly thought of this.

"Alan. Alan? Are you listening to me?"

Armin stretched out his hand and shook it in front of his eyes, and he finally came back to his senses.

"Sorry, what did you just say?"

"He said that the photos of the trip have been developed. Would you like to go get them with us in the afternoon? They need to be tidied up a bit. Everyone has about [-] photos." Mikasha took out a tissue and wiped her mouth, slightly distracted by his distraction. And feel unhappy.

Because of his expression, it is clearly written: I am thinking of Mr. Levi.

After the meal, the two sat for a while and left, anyway, they would meet again in the afternoon.Allen asked Almin to take a few books away. To be honest, he didn't know if Levi would be angry if he knew about it. He repeatedly told him not to get dirty or have a little crease.In fact, he has read a few of them. If I remember correctly, Levi said that he can read the books on the shelf... as he pleases.

Allen gently pushed the door open and walked into Levi's room. He sat on the bay window and curled up in a corner.He likes the smell here, the quilt is the aftertaste of sunshine and washing powder, more of Levi's smell, it's hard to describe, it's a bit like bitter chrysanthemum, and it's a bit of the expansive scent of some kind of cologne.He remembered that Levi had smoked cigarettes when he was in the United States, but there was no smell of cigarettes at home, and the ashtray was not even placed in the open.

——Alan found himself thinking about everything about Levi uncontrollably.He discovers and acquiesces to the special leniency and little privileges that Levi has given him.I haven't seen it for about six days, more than 140 hours, more than 600 minutes.Allen counted these meaningless numbers, and the feeling of a person has never been so obvious.He thought about his smell, his appearance, what he said, his expression.He thought of him standing alone in a dark warehouse, being pointed at gunpoint by a circle of people around him, and he thought of his voice sounding behind him.

"Let him go, I agree to your conditions." He said. "Let him go, now."

"obedient."

The wound hurts when the heart beats fast.The body starts sounding the alarm before the mind.But he still continued to recall, uncontrollably, uncontrollably.

"If you really feel sorry, pay a small price?"

His voice was like a curse.The kiss that takes people's mind and even soul is as natural as the countless times for the first time.

With a bang, Allen's arm hit the window.He covered his elbows and took a deep breath.He looked at his watch and suddenly made a decision. He quickly came to the kitchen and took out the lunch box from the shelf.Toast and potato griddles, and a refill of last night's coffee.When he was ready, he put on his jeans and held the phone between his hands.

"Alan, what's the matter?" Petra asked softly.

"Well, Miss Petra, can you tell me the exact location of Mr. Levi's office?"

There was a pause on the phone, and then another voice came, "Do you need me to pick you up?"

"Don't bother, I'll just take the subway by myself."

Without asking why or how, Petra smiled, "Then I'll text you the address."

Allen picked up the line.It's not good to just pass by without saying hello, right?There is a voice in my heart saying.It was obviously because he was afraid of being rejected that he went straight over without saying hello, but another voice was still embellishing it.

Allen locked the door.

I came here because I suddenly wanted to see you. Is this acceptable?