old enemy riding a bamboo horse

If you don't leave when there is still love

doomed to meet again in hate

Lu Henglin walked over and carried him from the sofa into his arms, wrapped him tightly, and took a deep breath against his neck.

"Why did you come back?"

Xia Chengqi knew that now was not a good time to talk about giving up his studies and coming back. He had more important things to do, so he could only smile and say, "Because I miss you so much."

"Really?" Lu Henglin murmured softly.

He seemed to be very tired from the fight with Xie Qing recently, and the stubble appeared little by little, making Xia Chengqi feel a little itchy from being stabbed in the neck.

"President, don't you shave your beard well? Sit down and I'll tidy up your appearance."

"Does this despise me?" Lu Henglin smiled softly.

"What do you think?" Xia Chengqi pretended to be relaxed.

"Then can I kiss you with stubble?" Lu Henglin asked, but he had already kissed. He tried to kiss lightly at first, but soon became fierce, as if he had suppressed it for too long, and just wanted to take it recklessly. Embed all this person in front of me into my body and store it properly, let him belong to me only, not let anyone covet me, can't leave, can't break free, from now on the heartbeat and breathing frequency are the same as my own, all my pain, he also can feel.

"Hey, it's still afternoon." Xia Chengqi pushed him, because there were still important things to say, "Shall we have a chat?"

"Let's talk later." Lu Henglin couldn't listen at all, and couldn't refuse. He pressed Xia Chengqi's hand, and went to unbutton his shirt with the other hand, even a little rough because of his eagerness.

Then he took the disheveled Xia Chengqi upstairs, kicked open his bedroom door, and pushed him on the bed.

Xia Chengqi hasn't rested or eaten for a long time. I just saw Xie Qing just drank a few sips of ice water. The moment he sank into the soft mattress, his eyes turned dark and his stomach was tightly tangled. His body really didn't allow him to do anything. tenderness.

Lu Henglin pressed his waist very hard with one hand, and supported himself with the other hand to stand up slightly, hesitating, "...don't you want it?"

Xia Chengqi breathed a sigh of relief, seeing the fragility on Lu Henglin's sharp face, he suddenly softened, took a deep breath, reached out to wrap his arms around his neck, and kissed him actively.

"want."

Lu Henglin got the approval, but he seemed even more anxious. All his actions were as eager as a severely addicted patient. Therefore, there was no more patience left for Xia Chengqi to prepare.

Maybe it's because he hasn't done it for too long, or maybe Lu Henglin is too tense and stressed during this time, so he can't control himself.

Xia Chengqi felt pain most of the time during the whole process, but when he hugged Lu Henglin's sweaty back, he didn't seem so unbearable, as if he was sharing his pain, even if it was uncomfortable, he silently endured it , trying to cater to him.

He opened himself up without any precautions, and accepted everything Lu Henglin gave him, whether it was affectionate or painful, he was willing to put it in his arms and hide it.

At the end, Lu Henglin was full of thoughts, and he didn't stay tender with him as usual, but just laid aside heavily, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

Xia Chengqi turned over by himself, feeling that there was a tearing pain in the secret place, but he still carefully concealed it, leaned into Lu Henglin's arms, rested on his chest, and listened to his heartbeat.

The rapid heartbeat has not calmed down, maybe he also has something on his mind, so it sounds heavy and restless.

"What did you want to talk about just now?" Lu Henglin said suddenly, his voice was still hoarse and sexy after a love/event, but his tone was a little cold.

Xia Chengqi bit his lip slightly, closed his eyes in a place where Lu Henglin could not see, trying to suppress all the panic and discomfort in his heart for a moment.

He couldn't speak.

But he couldn't help but speak.

"Are you busy recently?" He thought about it, and brought the topic to him little by little.

"Well, very busy, busy with a fierce battle, forcing Xie Qing to quit the board of directors." Lu Henglin said nothing.

What feelings, and casually replied.

Xia Chengqi froze, he didn't expect Lu Henglin to say this directly at this moment.

They are too close, so this is tantamount to venting emotions between words, expressing their dissatisfaction... even more resentment.

The rift came so fast that he wasn't even ready yet. He just felt that his body temperature dropped instantly after the love/event, which made him feel that it was very cold to touch Lu Henglin's skin.

These years, Lu Henglin, as he promised, has always tried his best to avoid disputes or cold wars with him. He always gives way to him, and even if there is a problem, he will take the initiative to seek peace and show favor.

So at this moment Xia Chengqi felt that it was too difficult, and almost retreated before he could speak.He thought he could do it, but it turned out that the pain made all his preparations useless in an instant.

"Do you want to talk about this?" Lu Henglin asked him quietly without moving.

Subconsciously, Xia Chengqi withdrew slightly from his arms, trying to look at his face.

Lu Henglin suddenly stretched out his hands to clamp his shoulders, so hard that he almost cried out in pain.

"So you came all the way back, really just for this matter?"

Lu Henglin pushed him away from his arms, and for a moment Xia Chengqi felt dark in front of his eyes, he was really exhausted, his heart was beating too fast at this moment, his emotions were controlling his hormone level, but his body couldn't keep up with anything at all .

"you listen to me."

"I've been listening, I've always wanted to hear, Xiao Qi, what do you want to say?" Lu Henglin sat up slowly with a gloomy expression, looking at him coldly.

It was only then that Xia Chengqi realized how much pressure Lu Henglin could bring when he stared at a person like this.

He couldn't even catch his breath.

He never thought that one day such eyes would fall on him.

"It doesn't do any good for you to do this, Heng Lin, you are very mature, you understand what these actions mean, don't do irrational things because of personal feelings."

"I always thought that even if everyone in this world thinks I'm being emotional, you wouldn't say such a thing." Lu Henglin looked down at a certain place in the void and laughed at himself.

Xia Chengqi felt a sudden pain in his heart, "Heng Lin, that's not the case."

"Xie Qing is also very important to you." Lu Henglin suddenly raised his head, but he didn't even smile bitterly, his expression was extremely cold.

"Henglin!"

"She tried to put a life-saving card in your hand, and you accepted it, so now I insist on her leaving Xingyuan, will you stand by her side? Take out the shares in your hand and help her ?”

Xia Chengqi felt that his heart was beating too hard, as if his throat was hitting his skin, his whole body was sweating coldly, but he still tried his best to calm himself down.

Lu Henglin remained expressionless, "The answer I need is no, Xiaoqi, would you like to say?"

Xia Chengqi knew that he wanted to speak, but his whole body seemed to be frozen, and he couldn't even make an expression.

"So Xiao Qi, you thought about watching me fail and being stepped on by her?" Lu Henglin's eyes were desolate.

"She won't, all she needs is you to calm down—"

"Do you know what she needs? Do you know what I want? Xia Chengqi! How did you agree with her? What did you promise her behind my back? Tell me!" Lu Henglin roared suddenly, staring at him with red eyes.

The two of them were still on the lingering bed just now, the body temperature and ambiguous smell between the quilts did not dissipate, and the messy quilt barely covered their undressed bodies.

But without any intimacy, they're having the worst argument they've ever had in their relationship.

Xia Chengqi felt that everything in front of him was ridiculous and sad.

Everything he was afraid of would happen in the end, fate cannot be avoided, and Lu Henglin would really question him like this.

He has never needed feelings, he can treat everything coldly

Quiet planning, careful planning, this is the instinct of survival.So in the past 20 years of his life, he realized for the first time that the pain caused by feelings is so penetrating.

"I thought we were existences that surpassed everything in this world, but you have been following Xie Qing's wishes. She wants you to approach me, so you do it. She wants you to go to the school she wants, and you can push it away. All my efforts and requests, you keep saying that I am the most important to you, but everything you do is for her, Xiaoqi, why? What am I to you? Before you come back to me , What did she ask of you? Give me more love that I never had, coax me, let me continue to promise you everything like a fool?"

In all the tit-for-tat situations Xia Chengqi has experienced in his life, he is the winning side. He is strong enough, but also indifferent enough. He has a clear goal, and he is invincible.

Only this time, he couldn't even utter a decent word, everything was stuck in his heart, making his back tremble with pain.

If Lu Henglin hadn't given way to him in so many years of love and never said harsh words, he might have gotten used to always losing his mind and saying some hurtful things when his lovers argued.

But the first heavy blow was a killer move, he was defenseless and hit the nail on the head.

"Lu Henglin, you are enough, can you listen to me?" Xia Chengqi said weakly.

"You said you wouldn't stand by her side, I just want your promise." Lu Henglin obviously lost control of his emotions, he reached out to touch Xia Chengqi's face, and asked urgently.

He also never pushed himself, this is the first time.The resentment in his heart had blinded Lu Henglin to the point where he couldn't see anything, and even their feelings began to be doubted.

Xie Qing, it really hit the spot.

Xia Chengqi felt cold in his heart, and then shook his head sadly.

He didn't see it, and all the brilliance in Lu Henglin's eyes went out at that moment.

"Xie Qing is really amazing." Lu Henglin smiled, his smile was cold and bleak, his eyes were freezing quickly, and every word that followed pierced deeply into Xia Chengqi's heart.

"What kind of trick is it to send a child to another child? I laughed at her. But look, how powerful she is now. She taught you to gain my trust and affection, and taught you to use them to hurt me."

"Lu Henglin, shut up..." Xia Chengqi's voice trembled so low that he couldn't hear clearly.

"Using money and power to control a person will be easily overturned by more power and interests. Only by controlling this person's heart can we be invincible. Has she taught you how to seduce me?" Lu Henglin squeezed Xia Chengqi's chin , word by word, with messy and crazy eyes, "Is she also the one who taught you to climb into my bed so that you can copy her path to success?"

He lowered his eyes and smiled contemptuously, "Maybe I also teach you to sleep with me first after entering the door, and it will be easier to talk when I am satisfied?"

Xia Chengqi felt that there was blood mist in front of his eyes, and he didn't know where he was hurting. When he regained consciousness a little bit, he had already punched Lu Henglin's face.

He forgot all the words he wanted to say, and also the most important purpose. He thought he could endure it, but at this moment, all his thoughts were pain, and he was so disheartened that he no longer wanted anything.

The weakness he cared about the most was crushed.

But this is all his guilty conscience and uneasiness, he can't even open his mouth to refute.

He seduced Lu Guo Henglin, this relationship was obtained through all his efforts, even he would feel humbled and uneasy in his heart, but when Lu Henglin said these two words, he really broke down.

They had just been physically intimate at this moment, and he hadn't even put on his clothes yet.

There is nothing meaner than this.

When all his dignity was crushed, he subconsciously wanted to protect himself, lest he really be crushed to pieces.

The whole body was shaking violently, grabbed the clothes all over the floor, and it was too late to distinguish them, so I put them on at the fastest speed, and always turned my back to Lu Henglin.When it was finally no longer so unbearable, he turned his head,

His eyes were empty, and all his strength was only enough to leave a sentence.

"It was a breakup just now, let's end it."

Xia Chengqi left in a panic and panic. He didn't bring any luggage, and his wallet and cell phone were thrown on the table. He was even more miserable than when he was alone before returning to China. He didn't even fully button up the shirt inside the sweater. He hurriedly wrapped his coat and went out. .

The streets in early winter were desolate, and the cold wind was blowing in his face, causing all his body temperature to be lost rapidly.

This year's first snow came so early and so coincidentally.

On a snowy winter evening, the sky and the earth were in a haze, and there was no direction for a while.