I'm still doing fine

Si Jian still became Li Jian's boyfriend. After all, he had a watery intimacy, so it was natural.

But this is just his inexperienced, simple and taken-for-granted statement, and Li Jian never gave him any definition from the beginning to the end.

It's not that Si Jian didn't notice it, but he grew up reading Yugong Yishan, and he firmly believed that perseverance would pay off. He asked questions every day, and always held his mobile phone before going to bed. Send a message, "Did you like me today?"

It was the summer when the 4G network was popularized smoothly. WeChat began to dominate, and few people sent text messages anymore.

Si Jian was out of helplessness, because Zhang Xiaoying was only willing to equip him with an elderly phone with simple functions for fear of affecting his preparation for the exam, but the current signal transmitted to Li Jian's mobile phone was a unique and irreplaceable kind of care.

The person who has always been used to emptying the mailbox in order to keep out of sight and out of mind, specially showed Si Jian some kindness. As soon as the receiving interface was opened, there were neat inquiries and self-talking reports.

Li Jian saved Si Jian's number as 10086, and collected text messages full of nonsense like a stamp collection, but never replied.

He reasoned that he was very busy, but occasionally staggered into a certain rural factory building in the backcountry, opened the mailbox silently at night when the signal was weak, and reviewed the fine high school days shared by Si Jian without saying a word.

When Li Jian realizes that he has almost become an invisible additional member in Si Jian's class, he is worried about a certain teacher's hairline, a certain classmate's behavior is annoying, a certain couple knows it all clearly, and even can guess by reading the beginning. When he read the content behind the text message, he was stunned for a while and looked up at the sky.

Thinking that I have been away from home for half a month, I haven't seen Si Jian for a long time.

So a few days later, when Si Jian came back from his evening self-study, he rubbed his eyes when he met the familiar horseman downstairs, and then ran happily to pull the door handle.

The dome light suddenly turned on and cast a small warm yellow umbrella to cover the carriage. Li Jian was leaning on the backrest and smoking a cigarette.

"I'm back! Don't tell me..." Si Jian climbed in and hooked the car door, took the cigarette butt from Li Jian's lips, and gave him a wink, "Are you waiting for me?"

Li Jian sneered, didn't speak, just hooked Si Jian's neck and kissed him fiercely.

"Hmm..." Si Jian felt a little pain as his dry and chapped lips rubbed against him, but this was Li Jian's first kiss on his own initiative. He stretched out his tongue to lick it, and felt that the tip of his tongue was sweet again.

The two were so close that they could see each other's pores clearly, but neither of them would close their eyes. Li Jian enjoyed Si Jian's initiative and raised his eyebrows to signal him to continue, with a smirk of planning on his lips.

Si Jian was hit, and when he pressed Li Jian and finally opened his tightly closed teeth, the man pressed the back of his head and pressed it even tighter, a puff of acrid smoke slid down the tight lips and teeth into his lungs.

"Cough-cough!" Si Jian pushed the man away violently, choked his eyes with tears and cheeks flushed, and swallowed a mouthful of second-hand smoke, "I'm sick! I don't smoke! Cough--"

"Happy Children's Day." Li Jian patted him on the back, smiled and fell into the back of the chair, "Teach you something that only adults can do."

"As long as you have a mouth, you are happy if you say you are happy?" Si Jian muttered, wiping the corners of his eyes, "It's nothing real..."

"How do you know I'm not?" Li Jian sat up straight, slowly stroking Si Jian's earlobe with his thumb, and smiled meaningfully, "Come over tonight, I have a present for you."

"En." Si Jian nodded, still smiling, but felt like he was split in two in his heart.

Li Jian didn't know that the man with a strong face and a smile was a little discouraged at that moment. He wanted to press the nine buttons on the phone to type a message, and half of the surface numbers were worn away. Why did Li Jian only think about the lower part of his body when he saw him? What's the matter?

Ke Sijian's ears turned red, and he tilted his head to rub against Li Jian's palm. He felt uncomfortable again and struggled secretly for a moment. He followed Li Jian upstairs, and before entering the door, he turned his head and explained, "Don't close the door, I Go tell mom about it."

"Hey, your table collapsed, and you went to someone else's house to study?" Not long after, I heard Zhang Xiaoying chasing out the gate with milk, "Besides, didn't Li Jian just come back from a business trip, are you going to disturb others now?"

"Don't disturb, Auntie, you are too polite." So Li Jian appeared at the door at the right time to cover up, and whispered embarrassingly, "Si Jian said that you were watching TV at home, and he was not in the mood to do the questions when he heard the sound, no good Let me tell you straight...my mother goes to bed early, listen, this movement didn't wake her up, it doesn't matter. "

"Yo..." Zhang Xiaoying was caught off guard by the sudden accusation, she smiled with a guilty conscience, brushed the curly hair on the back of her head, and then lowered her voice, "This kid is really, well, then I will trouble you, let him Stay in your house for one night, and I will finish watching those few episodes of TV series tonight, don't let this thing hang me anymore!"

Si Jian pursed his lips and squeezed over, feeling a little guilty, drank the hot milk in one gulp, and slipped into Li Jian's room.

For Si Jian, that night was a surprise. Li Jian carefully selected and bought a complete set of "equipment". He thoughtfully and gently did enough foreplay and cleaning. A small red triangular piece of cloth, on which flying gold powder depicts incomprehensible text.

"What is this?" Si Jian couldn't hold back his surprise, couldn't even hide his smile, and pretended to be disgusted, "Just use this little piece of rag to fool me?"

"I don't quite understand. I heard people say that you can get a good job." Li Jian's eyes dodged a little, "There is a small temple in the suburbs of the northwest city, offering three pieces of soil. That’s all, I heard people say that candidates can get a good reputation by worshiping this... It’s all feudal superstition, throw it away, it’s probably useless.”

He waved his hand, and he felt a little ridiculous, so he didn't say that the little rag cost a lot of money, and he didn't expect that Si Jian actually liked it very much.

But it didn't take long to be ignorant, because Si Jian quickly proved himself with actions, rubbing his arms around Li Jian's neck, lying down on a soft quilt and starting a new round of running-in.

When he leaned into Li Jian's arms with his chest heaving and heaving, looking for a comfortable and comfortable posture, and opening his mouth in a rambling manner, there was a kind of anticipation that all the hardships would come soon, "Old man, do you like me today?"

In the past, these words were just a formality, because there would definitely be no answer, Si Jian was used to it, and he had already turned his mind to other things.

He found that although Li Jian ignored the question, and often even seemed to have no guilt, he almost never refused to answer the second question that followed, no matter what Si Jian asked on a whim.

Therefore, after throwing a stepping stone, Si Jian secretly poked and asked what he wanted to know the most. He said, "Old man, what do you like, give me a quasi-letter letter, so that I can repay you."

"What kind?" Li Jian brushed his fingertips across his half-closed eyelids, thought for a while, and said with a smile, "I like gentle, good-looking ones."

"Hey!" Si Jian was happy, "I'm good-looking, but gentle..."

It's not that he has self-knowledge, but that he just happens to have a good memory. I remember that Li Jian just grinned and commented on him a few days ago, "Ancestor, you are a sea urchin, you can jump up and stab my knee, and you are so alive that you refuse to walk away. I can't find another one."

So he clicked his tongue, as if he had a headache, "If I am gentle, would I still be Si Jian?"

"You are gentle too." Li Jian looked out of the window for a long time, then suddenly pulled one corner of his mouth, showing a meaningful smirk, which was close to his ear, "As long as you lie on my bed at night, you will be very gentle." .”

In such matters, Si Jian never blush, but his eyes lit up when he heard the words, "Then you should like me!"

So Li Jian was silent again.

Not promising, not refusing, and not being responsible are his usual tricks.

"Old guy, he's thin-skinned." Cold treatment has never had any effect on Si Jian. After a moment of silence, he turned over and sank into the pillow, muttering a few words inarticulately, "Anyway, I won't leave you easily, Sooner or later, I want you to kiss..."

"What?" Li Jian didn't hear clearly, and leaned over to stick to Si Jian's lips. He didn't respond for a while, and stretched out his hand to pull the hair on the back of his head to force him to turn around, "I won't leave easily...then there is still a way to call You leave, tell me, what conditions are you willing to leave without mercy?"

"This is what I said, I, Si Jian, just have a sword in my name, and I'm not born cheap." The deep sleepiness was driven away by this, Si Jian frowned, and patted Li Jian's chest, "While taking advantage I still like you, so cherish it. One day I make up my mind not to want you, even if you beg me on your knees, I will definitely not look back!"

He ruthlessly turned his back to Li Jian and lay on his side. After the anger that had disturbed his drowsiness was completely extinguished, he gradually felt a little uneasy. He held Li Jian and said, "Give me the money, a large...breakup fee, so that I will leave you and leave without looking back."

He knew that Li Jian lacked nothing, except money.

That year, the college entrance examination sword was wearing a small rag with some paint on the corners. Before entering the examination room, he waved to his parents and Li Jian under the shade of the tree, turned around and smiled tacitly.

At least from June [-]st to June [-]th, during the extremely hot and short summer, Si Jian felt that the two of them really cuddled and cherished each other.

So until the autumn of the following year, when Li Jian led a plain-looking girl with a dignified smile home to meet his mother, Si Jian felt a little regretful after being sad, and felt that Li Jian and him really had no fate. , I didn't mean to blame this person so much.

He even eased his mood. When Zhang Xiaoying ordered him to deliver some homemade kimchi to the opposite door, she went downstairs to buy a bunch of lilies and took them with her.

It's just that he didn't expect that in the chat between Li Jian's mother and the daughter-in-law-to-be, there was a truth he couldn't accept.

The thin woman smiled all over her face, and kept emphasizing, "Li Jian never cared about anyone except you. You have been dating for three years, and he is willing to bring you here for me to see, I'm afraid I, an uneducated old woman, scare you!"

The woman covered her mouth and smiled shyly. The tangy scent of the perfume lily seemed more like a budding plant.

In the joyful atmosphere, only Si Jian's blood was cold all over his body, he thought, three years... three years?

It was not even three years since Li Jian was really with him.

At that time, Li Jian was coming out of the kitchen and only brought a cup of tea. When his mother saw it, she blamed him half-truthfully, "Such a good brother doesn't bring tea when he comes? Just look after Xiao Zhao, are you ashamed?" "

"Brother is good, you can't live with me, can you?" Li Jian just looked at the bouquet of flowers on the table with a cold face, he touched his girlfriend's ruddy face, his eyes filled with tenderness, "Daughter-in-law is important. "

Si Jian didn't expect his joke to come true. Before Li Jian drove him out of the house, he wore a pink floral sleeveless apron and pushed him into his bedroom.

They had flirted on this floor less than two months ago.

"You take this, it's [-] in total." Li Jian took out a kraft paper envelope from the closet, handed it over and patted him on the shoulder, "I said before, if I give you the money, you go away. That's all for us Let’s expose it, I hope you don’t mention that kind of scandal anywhere in the future.”

Si Jian almost gritted his teeth, and forcibly held back without making a move. He turned around and was about to rush out, but Li Jian grabbed his arm. When he turned around, this man had a wronged expression on his face, "Don't you Blame me, I'm doing it for your own good."

Si Jian closed the door lightly, as if Li Jian had only said some gossip about the fine weather today, he even smiled a little, and the lustrous silkworms were gathered under his eyes, looking a little naive and cute.

"Fuck you, Li Jian." His tone was flat, "I don't blame you, who is to blame? My mother didn't work hard and didn't turn me into a girl for you, or my father was too useless and didn't know how to get promoted. What kind of bureau chief should Jinjue be so that he can get you a relationship and go through the back door to do something big?"

With a soft snort, Si Jian pushed the door and went out without taking anything with his hands, "I'm so fucking fucked up."

Xiao Zhao didn't understand, and sat a little panicked. When Li Jian came out, he went up to meet Li Jian, thinking that he couldn't talk back due to his status as an elder, so he rubbed his chest with a worried face, "It's really possible, for me and you Why are you angry with my brother, he is still a child, not sensible."

Li Jian's fingertips trembled, standing like a statue in the warm afternoon sun.