The teenagers in the broken shimmer dance with the wind

Wan Liyou was sitting in the nanny's car, and the manager and assistant in front of him were trying to persuade him to renew his contract, and the two sang together very well.

He lowered his head and scrolled through Weibo, the most violent incident today...

'Professor Beast'

Some fragments gradually appeared in the mind, slowly showing a complete shape like pearls with broken strings.

His fingertips trembled inexplicably. He intuitively thought that this matter was not that simple. When he clicked on the topic, various mosaic photos came into his eyes, and many testimonies of middle school students of a certain university were attached.

For a while the absurd truth was announced to the public.

This way of acting...

Wan Liyou clicked on each topic in panic, trying to find evidence to confirm his guess, and finally...

Nanotechnology Research Task Force, Prof. Chen. 】

Wanliyou remembers that Xu Shanmu often goes to a website to read technology posts, and the topic of attention is always nanotechnology...

It may be that the young man's complexion was too pale, and something was wrong with him. The manager who was in front of him stopped chattering, and said worriedly, "Liyou, are you feeling well?"

The assistant also reached out his hand, trying to wipe off the cold sweat that suddenly appeared on his face, but the young man hid in panic, leaned on the back of the back seat, and slowly adjusted his breathing. Telephone.

The connection over there was extremely fast, as if waiting for his call.

Xu Shanmu's chuckle came: "You called me as soon as I turned on the phone."

Unexpectedly, there would be a connection there, and a voice that he hadn't heard for a long time suddenly broke into his ears, and Wan Liyou was so lucky that he was about to roar: "Where are you?!"

It was very quiet over there, like a closed and calm water area, Xu Shanmu sighed softly: "I am in a place where I can sleep peacefully."

"I'm looking for you, where are you?"

"You saw it." Xu Shanmu smiled lightly and said, "That thing on the Internet."

Wan Liyou's heart was cut like a knife, he couldn't help but bent down, his voice couldn't help trembling: "You did it?"

"Yeah." He responded briskly, "It's me."

"Shan Mu, where are you?" Countless uneasiness flooded in his heart, like black smoke piercing into the bone, in a chaotic state, his voice grew uncontrollably, adding to the heavy uneasiness.

Over there, Xu Shanmu was leaning against the bed, watching the golden sun shining on the balcony, as crystal clear as water, so warm and charming.He showed a relieved smile, and said in a very soft voice, so soft that it almost floated into the distance, "Liyou, I have something to tell you."

"We'll talk about it when we meet..."

He didn't seem to hear it and continued to complain regardless: "When I was a child, life in the orphanage was not good at all. I ate the last meal every day, sometimes the food was smelly, sometimes it was sour, very It's hard to eat a full meal. It's very cold in winter, and our group of children are afraid of the dark every day, because once it's dark, there will be no sun, and the sun is the only way we can keep warm at that time. But...it's strange how many children I can eat well and dress warmly. I was curious, but I didn’t dare to ask, so I could only watch secretly. One night, I found that the well-dressed child was woken up by the dean at night, and I followed Behind them, I saw them go into the office, which is air-conditioned, and there are bread and candies." His desperate laughter came through the phone, and it was a little dull, Wan Liyou clenched the phone in his hand, thinking Trying to make a sound, but unable to utter a word.

Xu Shanmu over there sighed softly: "As for me, after they closed the door, I opened it secretly and looked through the crack. Guess what I saw?"

"Shanmu!" Wanliyou called his name, hoping that he could wake up that person from the abyss of despair.

"I saw the most disgusting thing in the world." The young man wept blood, he closed his eyes innocently, and continued like a lost soul: "Then... one day the dean suddenly gave me a scarf, and I trembled." I took it, I know...he chose me." He smiled: "But I'm not a fool, fortunately the orphanage had an adoption visit that day, and one of the items was to ask those aunts and uncles to bring us fried food. The aunt in the cafeteria passed by me with hot oil, and I saw where the dean was standing, and scattered the marbles in my pocket. In an instant...the hot oil was spilled." Xu Shanmu laughed With a stern sadness: "He..."

The young man's voice was cold, and he kept pushing himself towards the abyss of despair. He didn't intend to look back, and calmly wiped away the tears on his face: "And my mother. The woman who gave birth to me. Me and You said it, I once gave her 3000 million as a condition for us to sever the relationship."

Wan Liyou's heart and soul are cold, he thought that Xu Shanmu's past must be terrible, but these...beyond his cognition.The boy responded mechanically: "Yes, you said so."

"That's a lie to you." Xu Shanmu laughed mischievously: "She didn't come to recognize me, she came to threaten me, she said that if I don't give her money, she will tell everyone how I came here In this world, bare feet are not afraid of wearing shoes, and she is not afraid of perishing together." Two or three light coughs came through the phone, and the young man squinted his eyes to see the sunlight falling on his feet, and his skin was covered with a layer. Jingying, he didn't wear shoes, nor did he wear tight pants. He was wearing a comfortable loose fit. He finally broke free from all restraints: "I agree, I will give it to her, because I found out...she is taking drugs."

The blood vessels in Wan Liyou's whole body were sealed by the cold air, his throat seemed to be choked, and he was struggling to breathe tremblingly: "What did you say?"

"I grew up in such an environment, it's impossible to be innocent, I've seen all kinds of deeds, and for my own safety, I can do anything." After the young man choked up for a short time, he returned to his laziness and tranquility. The tone of voice: "I gave her 10 yuan, and said that the rest... I will give it to her in two days. She didn't doubt anything, so she left. I followed her and confirmed her residence. Two days Afterwards, I reported the case anonymously." He laughed majesticly, crying out in despair: "That night, I hid aside and watched the police go to her residence, because it was a bungalow, what about the place where I stood? I could see clearly that a group of people were having a carnival when they opened the door, and my mother was being pressed on the sofa and poured poison, foaming at the mouth, and then sent to the hospital... Rescue failed, she died, she had taken too much poison. "

Ironic laughter burst into Wanliyou's ears, Xu Shanmu smiled painfully, coughing until tears filled his face: "Actually, I did it on purpose, I know what she will do, I will let her do this You can never get close to me in your life. The professor is the same today."

"I've been laying out this game for a long time, from him snatching students' papers, research results, taking other people's research as his own, and those women who were hurt by him, I started collecting evidence from the day my mother died , It has been thoroughly sorted out today, and finally posted on the Internet. I did it all."

His voice gradually became far away, untouchable. Wan Liyou trembled uncontrollably when he heard the truth, and did not dare to listen again: "Don't say these things yet, answer me, where are you? Let's talk about it after we meet, okay? "

"I said, I'm in a place where I can sleep peacefully." He still replied ambiguously: "Liyou, I'm going to travel, the freedom I've been looking for will soon be realized, you have to bless me."

There was the sound of metal colliding on the other end of the phone, the sound of a dagger being pulled out, and the sound of running water in the next second. Wanliyou knew what he was going to do, what the absurd freedom he was looking for, and he knew what he was going to do. The destination of the journey...

The people in the car behind screamed in panic: "Xu Shanmu! Xu Shanmu!!"

"Me." The sound of the water was very slow, and Xu Shanmu's voice seemed particularly dreamy and distant amidst the sound of the water flowing: "When I was young, I didn't know anything, so I just lived in a daze. Later, the dean Something woke me up with a start..."

Xu Shanmu flicked the hot water in the bathtub with a dagger, and it was so clear that the water was tumbling: "Later... there were many people. Many, many people, they...everyone's appearance reminded me." He Hush softly: "Shh, you have to live carefully, otherwise we will threaten you with your dirty past. People like you don't deserve to live at all. Liyou, there are many people around me who want me to die. All of them, one by one, one by one, were sent to prison by me. That professor was the last one."

Xu Shanmu coughed a few times, and his voice gradually weakened. His heart was like stagnant water, so weak that there was no trace: "I survived by relying on hatred. The people around me are very dangerous. Every one of them is choked. holding my neck, everyone wants to destroy me, they really want me to die."

The sound of water flow stopped, Xu Shanmu turned off the shower head, stood up and wiped off the water vapor on the mirror, looking at the young and elegant face in the mirror, he smiled and the people in the mirror laughed too, so he said with a smile: "So I Thought I would be safe as long as they were gone, and now...I find out...there is no hatred, I have nothing left. You are right, I don't like music, I don't like the stage, I don't like anything I don't like it. I just see you are too lonely, so I just stay with you."

"Now...you have..."

"No, Shan Mu...!!" Wan Liyou didn't know what to say, his hair was messed up by himself, eager tears flowed from his eyes, his eyes were abnormally red, he was panicked like a brat Child, the voice also added trembling and crying: "Listen to me, did you say that we are all people who have been splashed with dirty water? Look at me being scolded by so many people every day, I can survive it, really Yes! You believe me!! It’s no big deal, life will definitely go on.”

"No." The young man over there looked at himself in the mirror, pale and haggard, and there was no need to hold on to the smile on the corner of his mouth. The withered pear blossom was just like him: "You were just splashed by someone. Dirty water, I am different, I am mud, I am dirty water." He subconsciously shed a tear: "Liyou, we are different."

"Same! Same! Who said it's different." Wan Liyou panted heavily, wanting to persuade him to stop and not to go into the abyss of despair, the young man clasped his fist and patted his heart, his voice was muffled because of the extreme force Xiang: "Didn't we agree to go back to the main school together? Shanmu, I got the notice, we can go back together!" He cried uncontrollably, begging sadly: "Didn't you promise me that we will go back together?" Shall we go back together?"

Like a life-saving straw, he thought of the fairy whose fairy status was abolished: "There is also Jinghong, Jinghong is still in the hospital, if he knew you like this, he would not even be cured of your illness! He was still asking you how you are doing yesterday! Don't look at him, he..." The boy was so choked up that he couldn't speak a complete sentence.

"Jinghong..." Xu Shanmu fell to the ground, leaning on the bathtub, and murmured: "It's okay, Xu Qingzhou can protect him well, Jinghong is not a fool..."

"What about me?!" He couldn't restrain his hoarseness, trying to express his panic and sadness at the moment with volume.

"Let's go back! Are you going to leave me alone?" He gritted his teeth and roared, "I don't agree! I won't go back to the way I was before."

In the dark time before, it was the eternal doom and the abyss of two people.

The young man wiped away the tears on his face with an expensive suit, his voice was hoarse, trembling uncontrollably, he took two deep breaths, and then begged: "Well, I will listen to you in the future, what do you want me to see? Books, I just read. In the worst case...I swear, I will never get close to you if I don’t take a bath in the future. Is this okay? This is okay!"

There was no response there.

He sobbed and breathed heavily: "Didn't you say you wanted to go back with me?! That's what you said!"

"Xu Shanmu!"

no respond……

He called again tentatively, but there was still no response...

He was terrified and shouted heart-piercingly: "You dare to commit suicide, try it! You dare to die!! I will beat you! Xu Shanmu!!"

No matter how much he amplifies his voice, how much he screams in pain and despair, there will be no sound over there.

"Shan Mu, I beg you..."

"Don't do something stupid..."

"Are you willing to let me live alone in this world?!"

"I am also very poor, I am just like you. I have nothing, and I am also very poor..."

The silence on the other end of the phone was like everything had returned to zero, his sad eyes turned black, and he twitched uncontrollably in distress: "We agreed to go back together!! Go back together."

Well, we agreed to go back together, but ah...

"Swim..."

"Sorry……"

He took the phone away from his ear, and even though the other side collapsed and cried, he was unmoved, staring at the group photo of the three people on the phone screen:

"I regret it."

He lowered his hands and gave up his only connection with the world. With a bang, the phone fell into the bottom of the water, like a sigh.

All the past, those terrible memories emerged in his mind, viciously cursing his life, looking at the silver light on the knife, and looking at the hot water in the bath, growing up has never been so peaceful and gentle, The young man smiled and said:

"After the pear blossoms fall, the spring is over again, and the sun is setting everywhere..." Touching the pear dimple at the corner of his mouth, he shook his head: "It's really bad..."

The mobile phone was soaked in water and soon lost its function.

Wanliyou could no longer hear the movement on the other end of the phone, and the roar of collapse sounded from the back seat...

Seeing his almost crazy appearance, the manager and assistant were all stunned.

"Go to Xingdong District." He remembered what it was, and roared at the man who was holding the steering wheel: "Quick! Go to Xingdong District!! Hurry up!!"

The car was speeding at high speed, Wan Liyou was in deep fear, the hand holding the phone was shaking all the time.

Finally stopped, he stumbled and ran out of the car, stumbling towards the tall building.

The key was under the milk crate, and the boy opened the door with trembling hands. There was no bloody smell as imagined, but all the windows in the house were opened, and the sun shone like a veil.

Trembling, he pushed open the bathroom door and found that there was no blood, but a pool of steaming hot water, and there was a soaked mobile phone in the water, so it was not a mistake.

The bedroom door was open, and the wind was blowing back and forth, and the curtains were fluttering accordingly. It was cool and refreshing in autumn.It can also be said to be the best time of the year.

A man was sitting on the ground, leaning against the edge of the bed, motionless.

Wan Liyou approached tremblingly.

The sun shone on his face, making his light-colored pupils crystal clear, and his lips completely lost their color, like an exquisite doll that had lost its soul.

Wan Liyou lowered his head, and found that there was only a light bloodstain on the man's wrist, like a woman's rouge, and the silvery dagger was thrown in the sun, and it was only slightly stained with red.

"You..." He approached, stretched out his hand to touch the man's neck, met the man's bright eyes hiding a smile, and finally knelt down beside him.

Wan Liyou originally thought that he would be ecstatic or furious, but seeing his calm appearance, he couldn't say anything, he could only let his emotions relax first, and then collapse.

He choked up with sobs, lowered his head, pulled people to hug him, couldn't say a word, and wept bitterly.

"Suddenly I feel a little bit reluctant." Xu Shanmu hoarse his voice, no longer tried to force himself, lowered his head, and said slowly: "In addition to bad things, there are actually many good things. I just remembered it."

He said: "I don't want to... I don't want you to live alone, I don't want to see me after Jinghong, I don't want you two to feel sad when I think of me."

"I almost forgot."

"I'm not the only one suffering in this world." With a trembling voice, he reached out to touch Wan Liyou, holding onto his clothes tightly: "Liyou, I don't want to go back to the main school, I want to stay in the branch school. You Stay too. There are a lot of classes in the main school, so you can't sleep in, and you can't go out to eat at night."

I felt the boy's arms holding him tighten a little bit, and felt the boy's snot and tears all over him.

After waiting for a while, the boy adjusted his emotions, and then raised his head with red neck and red eyes, complaining all over his mouth: "When did you care about it? The main school branch, when did you pass all the classes?"

When he looked up, Xu Shanmu smiled: "Wanliyou, what's wrong with your hair? You're too ugly to cry!"

"I don't blame you all!"

Wan Liyou sat cross-legged beside him: "I don't plan to go back either. It's better to go to a branch school."

"I have no ambitions."

"I didn't have any ambitions at all." He sniffed and looked at the people around him who laughed easily: "I don't plan to renew my contract. I should go to school and eat. I will be an ordinary person for three years. When I am ready Yes, I'll go back."

"Hmm..." Xu Shanmu looked at him, and then fell to the ground, trembling uncontrollably, and slightly convulsed. Wan Liyou was taken aback by this, and the young man leaned over to find that he was just tired. , just lying there quietly.

a long time……

Wan Liyou raised his eyebrows and heard Xu Shanmu say with a smile, "Liyou, I will start an entertainment company in the future, okay?"

Tears flowed in his eyes, joy spread in his heart, Wan Liyou pulled the quilt: "I'll be an entertainer for you."

"I also want Xu Qingzhou."

"Success. I'll talk to him."

"Yue Chengen wants it too, forget the words, Fan Yuan wants it too."

"Just form a team with the children from the branch school, and you will definitely make a lot of money." He joked.

"Well. It can be considered."

Wan Liyou tore off the pillow from the bed, and was lying down beside him. Looking at the scar on his wrist, which was as thin as a red line, he couldn't help sighing, and touched his forehead again: "Let's go, let's go to the hospital. You seem to be I have a fever. Watch out for wound inflammation..."

Wanliyou couldn't help but started nagging again.

Xu Shanmu nodded lightly as before, and they all agreed.

"it is good."

Reluctant to part with three words, is the purest demon flower in life, never falling, never defeated.It is on the mountain wall, born between the sky, it is not easy to see, it is not easy to touch, but it can save people's souls and save people's mourning in desperate situations.

Each of us has something in our hearts that we don't want to let go, even if it makes us painful to death.We are who we are, that's all.Like the bird with the thorn on its chest in the old Celtic legend, weeping blood, vomited out a bloody heart and died.Because it has to, it is forced.Some things know that they won't work, but we still do it.But having self-knowledge doesn't affect or change the outcome of things, does it?We create our own thornbushes and never stop to count the cost.All we do is take the pain and tell ourselves it's worth it. 】—— "The Thorn Bird"

Wan Liyou reached out and rubbed his soft hair: "Shan Mu, I brought you chocolate back."

"Ah."

"I'll accompany you to psychotherapy."

"Ok.