The teenagers in the broken shimmer dance with the wind

In late autumn, the cafeteria was even more noisy than usual, and many people were reluctant to go out, only living on the food in the cafeteria.

Li Yuanzhi was holding a strange book in his hand. Seeing that he was reading it with great interest, Huang Chuanhui snatched it away, flipped through a few pages and said with a smile, "Hey, you are on a spiritual journey."

Li Yuanzhi just watched him messing around, and everyone laughed and looked up.

When the stage opened, Huang Chuanhui held the book and raised his voice and asked, "What did you rely on to survive the hardship?" The boy stared, as if waiting for an answer.

Li Yuanzhi, who was closest to Huang Chuanhui, smiled and replied, "Practice?"

Xue Fanyuan said: "Eat!"

When Tao Wangyan smiled, he did not forget to answer: "Eat with him!"

Wan Liyou said: "It's difficult to find Shan Mu."

Everyone laughed.

"Yes, I'm doing charity." Xu Shanmu glared at him, but didn't say much.

Chu Yun remained silent and didn't answer. He hadn't passed his suffering yet, and he just gritted his teeth and endured it.

Yue Chengen didn't seem to want to face this kind of problem, so he buried his head down.

He Zhi just smiled wryly.

The atmosphere fell.

Zheng Nanguan shook his head at Huang Chuanhui over there, as if reminding the young man over there not to ask more questions.Huang Chuanhui returned the book to Li Yuanzhi knowingly, and said with a look of disgust, "What kind of broken book are you? It's a mess."

Li Yuanzhi was also furious: "Is there any reason for you to steal my things?"

"Let's play."

The atmosphere is only slightly warmer.

Wanliyou finished eating early, checked the time and went back to the dormitory to pack his luggage.He greeted everyone, patted Xu Shanmu on the shoulder and left first.

Everyone ate very slowly, as if they didn't want to waste this great time, and just wanted to stay in the bliss of this moment of gag.

Xu Shanmu didn't leave after eating, but just sat silently in the corner, watching them bark their teeth and claws, lively and fragrant.

It was the best scene he had ever seen in his life.

There is nothing more worthy of recording than happiness, and nothing more worthy of nostalgia for happiness.

But time always passes.What can be kept is only the subjective memory that has changed.

As the tableware is put into the recovery pool.

Ding sound.

Life and me, who betrayed who first?

He didn't want to think about it anymore.

It's not worth it.

In the corridor, Wan Liyou packed his luggage and was about to go out when Xu Shanmu pushed the door open and entered.

The boy immediately grinned: "Back?"

"Ah."

"I'm going to Switzerland this time, and bring you chocolates and a watch?" He has become clearer recently, with a clear and clean youthful air: "Wait for me to come back."

Xu Shanmu didn't speak, just opened his arms, tilted his head and smiled: "Give me a hug."

"What's wrong with our teacher Shanmu?" He was very happy and stretched out his hand to hug the young man who took the initiative, Wan Liyou's brows and eyes were bent, and he stretched out his hand to rub the back of the young man's head: "I can't stand you like this. "

Wanliyou was about to let go, but the man tightened his arms, as if trembling, he said: "You ask me why I treat you so well? Because I hope you have a good life, and I hope you become the happiest person in the world According to the book, this is the contradiction of human beings. She is obviously more selfish than anyone else, but when she meets a similar person, she always wants to treat her from the bottom of her heart. It seems that if you live a happy life, I will be happy too."

Xu Shanmu let go of his hands, smiled brightly, and patted him on the shoulder: "I'm not by your side, take care all the way."

There were layers of uneasiness in Wanliyou's heart, but it was still dispelled by Xu Shanmu's happy smile. He bumped his shoulder with the boy: "Wait for me to come back. Wait for the final exam to be abused by me. We will soon We can go back to the main school together."

Wanliyou was so looking forward to the future, his smile and tone of voice were full of hope.

He opened the door and left, Xu Shanmu followed him: "I'll see you off."

"Okay." He was stunned for a moment, but he was still bewildered by Xu Shanmu's smile, he didn't think about it anymore, only his brother and sister hugged him, and he said that he would bring him and Jinghong something delicious when he came back this time .Joyful like a magpie, chattering endlessly.

He got into the car and drove away.

Xu Shanmu watched him leave, heaved a sigh of relief, waved his hand in the direction where the young man disappeared, turned around to look at the withered and yellow courtyard with beautiful branches and leaves, the rustling yellow leaves closed the windows, the beauty of fallen leaves is really desolate and helpless.The wind is blowing on all sides, and Ye Er just dances like this, the wind passing through has the meaning of rustling and calm.The heaven and the earth are one, and the world is at peace for the first time. I'm afraid that's the feeling.

Looking up, he could feel the absurd sense of freedom blowing away with the wind.

Wandering, walking in the school.

He is learning to say goodbye.

There are still some things that I didn't say out of my mouth, but now I say it... Wan Liyou will definitely become suspicious.

He looked at the old withered vines, the flower corpses all over the ground, and everything grew old.

Can't help coughing twice.

Liyou, my only nostalgia for this world...

It's you and Jinghong.

Jinghong wishes me happiness and health, and you wish me happiness.Even if you know what kind of person I am and what kind of bloodline I have, you are willing to treat me sincerely without asking for anything in return.I am a rotten person, my heart is the first to rot, and all the places that have not rotted are given to you and Jinghong.

I can't stop my rot, but I can stop it all.

I am used to being awakened by nightmares, and at the same time I am used to slowly opening my eyes to face the horror of that moment.It's just that this habit is disgusting, and those things in the past are also disgustingly rotten.

I really don't want to live like this again.

You and Jinghong, one is a clear blue sea, the other is a crabapple under the sun.I feel warmth and peace around you.You are the only peace of mind I can get in this world.

but……

I have lived on hatred until now.

Relying on resentment to get through suffering.

What you know is just the tip of my rotten iceberg.

I want to be free.

I don't want to stay in this world and suffer anymore.

The young man sighed towards the dormitory building, looking at the yellow and withered leaves all over the place, feeling the refreshing autumn leisure.

And the last one.

Father.

The last enemy in this world.He is also the sinner who made his rotten life start.

Soon it will be over, and the end of this road of vengeance will soon be seen.

As long as the vicious petals wither and die, the last piece, the last bit.

finished.

At that time, he will be just a wisp of dust blown by the wind, the wounds of others, and the happiness of others, and he will no longer have to worry about it.

Rot stops.

Really free.

Even if a person like him disappears, not many people will remember it.

rather say……

Carrying a small bag of luggage that he had prepared a long time ago, he walked out of the dormitory and stepped into the world, but he stopped unconsciously, and slowly looked back at the quaint and old campus criss-crossed by maple leaves.he laughs...

It is better not to be remembered.

Best to forget.

Li Yuanzhi and Huang Chuanhui were practicing in the practice room, and saw the strong wind passing through the window, and the fallen leaves in the garden.A leaf falls and rolls like a curtain.

"Huh?" Huang Chuanhui stepped forward to see the figure leaving the school gate dragging his luggage: "Is that Shan Mu?"

"Where?" Li Yuanzhi poked his head to look, but only saw the withered and yellow autumn scenery. With a look of disgust on his face, he reached out to push the boy's head: "Are you blind, there is no one there."

Huang Chuanhui looked with his head and found that there was only autumn scenery in front of him, so he shrugged, as if there was really no such thing.

That night, Li Yuanzhi happily fought with Huang Chuanhui and went back to the house. When he returned to the dormitory in the middle of the night, he found that Xu Shanmu's things were missing, and his computer and some commonly used equipment were gone. Then he remembered what Huang Chuanhui said in the afternoon.

Huang Chuanhui took his clothes and was about to wash up. When he saw Li Yuanzhi standing in the dormitory holding his mobile phone, looking at a loss, he poked his head in: "What's wrong? Who are you calling?"

"Mountain Twilight."

Huang Chuanhui turned his head, only to realize that the dormitory was deserted, and it was so cold that it made people panic.

"He turned off the phone." Li Yuanzhi looked at Huang Chuanhui inexplicably with a stiff expression, "What happened all of a sudden?"

The boy with dreadlocks was also frightened by the expression on his face for a moment, suppressing anxiety and fear, he said: "Don't scare me." He hurriedly turned around and opened Xu Shanmu's drawer, then opened the man's wardrobe, and finally opened the A withdrawal application was found under the pillow.

Xu Qingzhou came back to fetch a change of clothes for Ruo Jinghong, and when he saw the two frozen in the dormitory, he felt uneasy and rushed in: "What's wrong with you?"

Huang Chuanhui handed over the application for dropping out of school, his whole body was wrapped in cold air, and he said without thinking: "Qingzhou, there seems to be something wrong."

He didn't understand what Huang Chuanhui meant, he took the things inexplicably, and after reading it, he also became inexplicably confused, and asked anxiously: "Did you call him?"

"It's turned off." Li Yuanzhi opened the phone's interface, and a cold female voice came through the speaker.

The sky and the earth were spinning, and the incandescent lamps became dazzling and chaotic.

"Where are his parents?" Xu Qingzhou clenched his fists anxiously: "Who is the emergency contact he wrote when he entered school?"

Both Huang Chuanhui and Xu Qingzhou looked at Li Yuanzhi eagerly, waiting for him to move. Li Yuanzhi stiffened his hands and feet, his whole body turned pale, and said in a daze: "He is an orphan and has no parents. The emergency contact is Liyou's number." .”

"..."

"..."

"Orphan?!" The two said in surprise in unison.

"Call Liyou." Xu Qingzhou was still a little clearer, and arranged: "First ask Liyou if he knows where Xu Shanmu might have gone."

"Liyou is on the plane, and he flew to Europe." Li Yuanzhi stuttered when he was in a hurry: "I won't be back until three days later. We can't contact him either."

Xu Qingzhou didn't care about anything else: "Talk to everyone and tell them to look around. I'll go to the hospital and ask Jinghong if he knows anything?!"

A few people were yelling and busy in a hurry.

But it was all in vain.

Wan Liyou dragged his luggage back to school happily, pushed open the door of the dormitory, spread the chocolates in the suitcase on Xu Shanmu's bed, put a watch in the middle, and looked proudly at his masterpiece.

Turning around and holding the chocolates in his arms, he went to the practice room to find the rest of the people.

Just as he was about to leave, he saw a notice on his bedside. He reached out and opened it. It was from the main school, asking him to return to the main school.

The young man was full of will, and jumped out of the dormitory happily.

Stepping into Qiu Jingchanchan's campus, he followed the lights to look for the teenagers and complained as he walked, "Where did you go all night?"

Before approaching the practice room, I saw the rest of the people gathered in the classroom with anxious expressions.

He pushed the door open and was about to speak when he heard Li Yuanzhi say with a stiff expression, "Liyou, Shanmu is missing."

"Ah?" The smile on the young man's brows gradually faded, thinking that he had heard wrong, he took a step back at a loss, smiled bitterly, looked at the people in front of him defensively, and was about to tell them to stop making trouble.

Chu Yun over there took out the application for withdrawal from the desktop, and handed it over directly: "He left the application for withdrawal, and there has been no news for three days, and the phone has not been turned on. The day you left, he left."

When it fell to the ground, the chocolate was scattered all over the ground, and the bitterness spread, and the uneasiness that had been defeated struck again, and it was like a news that destroyed the world and disappeared bitingly, and he felt that he was already deaf.Wan Liyou recalled the last words Xu Shanmu said to him that day: "I'm not by your side, take care all the way."

That's what it meant.

It's all because that person's acting skills are so good, he didn't even care about anything wrong.

wrong.

wrong.

He only felt the dizziness and uneasiness of dizziness, and suddenly came to him in astonishment...

That's not acting!

That's not acting, Xu Shanmu was genuinely smiling at him.

When he was still thinking in a daze, a weight fell on his shoulders.

"Liyou." Zheng Nanguan stepped forward hesitantly and asked, "Do you know about smiling depression?"

"Do you know where he went?"

Where did he go?

Wan Liyou took two steps back, leaning his back against the wall for support, shaking his head in a daze, his eyes turned black, and most of them were the unnatural scenes of getting along with each other in the past.

he does not know.

Xu Shanmu said that the house they lived in in high school was rented, and they were returned after they came to Nanjun.

He is an orphan with no home to return to...

He is helpless in this world, where can he go?

Mother?Mother?

Wanliyou seemed to be grabbing some life-saving straw, and eagerly looked over: "By the way, Shan Mu's mother, his mother."

Everyone bowed their heads indifferently when they heard the word "mother". Huang Chuanhui brought over a yellow paper package, and there was only countless sadness left on the face of the always happy boy.

"Look for yourself." Huang Chuanhui bowed his head and said, "We found it after a lot of painstaking efforts. Because there is no household registration contact and no clues to check. My uncle said that this is the only one that meets the requirements."

Xu Mengran.

Drugged to death.

"If this is true." Li Yuanzhi lowered his eyes and said, "He may have really... Liyou when he left this time. What should we do?" The young man didn't dare to say the word "suicide".

Wan Liyou slapped the things on the desk, his breath stuck in his throat all the time, he was so extravagant to breathe, he turned around and ran out.

After running out of the school and not knowing which direction to go, they ran all the way to their high school building along the street lights.

Regardless of the height, he climbed over the school gate, walked to the teaching building in a daze, reached the highest point, and stopped in front of the iron gate on the roof.Stretching out his hand to hold the cold iron railing, the sound of the chains rattling made people confused.

he's not here.

Wan Liyou suddenly found that he knew much less about Xu Shanmu than he thought.

All he knew was that it all started from here.

Before that, everything was blank.

Looking at the end of the endless darkness, he felt unbearable grief, squatting down and weeping silently.

"I got the notice to go back." He whispered to the empty school.

Being bullied, used, and ignored by parents many years ago, the fear and darkness of being alone came back again.He felt the desperate suffocation again. The young man shook the old rusty iron door, like a sad and injured beast, not knowing how to vent his sadness at the moment.

He won't be coming back.

He knew that he would not come back.