countdown to winter

When Shi Xing fell asleep, he looked very obedient, his lips were slightly parted, and his breathing was very soft.

Wen Xia turned off the TV, walked over, and gently picked him up.

Shi Xing woke up the moment he was picked up - not because of light sleep, but because of reflexive behavior.He quickly realized the situation, but he didn't open his eyes. He took it for granted and leaned into his arms, breathing greedily.

Wen Xia put him on the bed, covered him with the quilt, and was about to leave when Shi Xing opened his eyes and called him from behind: "Teacher Wen."

Wen Xia was taken aback, "Damn it! Why don't you say anything when you wake up."

Shi Xing sat up on the bed, avoided his eyes, and lied: "I... just woke up."

"Go on to sleep, it's not too early, it's ten o'clock," Wen Xia wanted to turn off the lights for him, "Good night."

"I can't sleep," Shi Xing just sat there, staring into his eyes, uttering these four words one by one.

Wen Xia hesitated for a moment: "Why don't you come to my bedroom and we can chat?"

Shi Xing was happy in his heart, but his face was still calm, he said "um", and followed Wen Xia to his bedroom.

The two sat leaning against the bed, Wen Xia turned on the bedside lamp, and said, "This is the first time I let someone else sleep on my bed, you boy have been lucky for eight lifetimes."

"Why?" Shi Xing asked, "Where are your girlfriends?"

"What are those!" Wen Xia patted him on the forehead, "If you are in a relationship, you just... lie on the same bed. This is irresponsible. If you don't get married, you can't treat people like this."

"Didn't you make|love them?"

The too direct words made Wen Xia cough violently, he couldn't laugh or cry: "You kid, what are you thinking about every day—"

Shi Xing still looked calm.

Wen Xia's words stopped.

He has been understanding Shi Xing's words and deeds from his own point of view, but it seems that these are too biased.He couldn't imagine the darkness and unbearableness Shi Xing saw when he was a child, but he must have never received normal sex education.

Shi Xing may not know the theories and ideas that he thinks are normal and should be known to everyone.

"Let me tell you this," Wen Xia said, "When I'm with them, I like them very much, but if I can't guarantee marriage, I can't spoil them. Making love must be based on the foundation of love , can you understand me?"

"When Shi Haoran made love with them, he didn't love them," Shi Xing said calmly, "but he was still very happy."

"That's not called | love," Wen Xia looked at him, and said softly, "That's called sex|intercourse."

"Humans are rational animals. If they can't control their own desires, they are no different from undeveloped beasts. Xing'er, you can't become the same person as your father."

"When he was seven years old, he told me—" Shi Xing recalled that evening, when the blood-red glow faded away, revealing the darkness, Shi Haoran was smoking a cigarette, and the smell of smoke made Shi Xing cough and fall shed tears.

Shi Haoran smiled, showing his teeth under the red sun, and said: "One's life is all about having fun, and anyone who voluntarily uses some so-called 'love' to make himself lose enjoyment is an idiot."

"Oh," Wen Xia felt incredulous, "What kind of shit is your dad thinking! You listen to me! People are independent individuals, and people can enjoy themselves, but whoever regards pleasure as the ultimate goal of life is an idiot. "

Shi Xing looked at his distraught face and laughed out loud.

"I wanted to have a good chat with you, but why did I talk about 'sex'?" Wen Xia sighed, "Chat with me, whatever you want, whatever you want."

Say whatever you want?

Shi Xing has nowhere to pour out the memories that have been blocked for a long time in his heart. He doesn't know where to start to talk better, and he doesn't like "selling miserably", which makes him feel worthless.

Shi Xing said: "Tell me about yourself, I want to hear."

"I have nothing to say," Wen Xia said, "I live a very ordinary life, want to hear?"

"Think." Shi Xing sat up straighter, his eyes softened under the warm yellow light.

The author says:

QVQ I’m going to school today, crying, haw, I feel heart attack when I think of the full schedule, which young girl wants to go through the ravages of the exam QVQ, if it appears in the future text *but I didn’t mark it, then I forgot Liaobiao* General It’s a quote from the book (usually it’s not the lyrics or =v= in other online texts). There are not many annotations in the full text. It seems that there are quotes from "The Little Prince" and "Greek Mythology" (this I can't remember either).