Are there any straight men in your neighborhood?

1.

I'm Su Yisheng.

Before I studied medicine, no one ever made fun of my name.

But after I studied medicine, anyone who knew me a little bit would joke about the connection between my name and my profession.

My name is Su Yisheng, I'm a doctor by profession, my mind is full of pitfalls, and I'm a little confused when I speak.

Ah.

2.

Speaking of it, my family is actually not very rich, so when I first came to this community, I felt out of place here.

Especially since this neighborhood is famous...

Forget it.

So when Song Xi approached me, out of inertia, I took it for granted that he was...

Forget it.

It's all my fault anyway.

3.

People in the community call him Song Xiaowang or Xiaowang, but I always feel unfamiliar, and I have never been embarrassed to call him so familiarly.

But maybe it was because I called him by his first name properly that he took a special liking to me.

Usually, when I have nothing to do, I will stroll to my clinic.

Song Xi's appearance is very cute. According to the girl, he should belong to the category of "little milk dog".

The skin is very fair, the eyes are round, and there are small canine teeth when he smiles. He looks very young and very cute.

He kept saying he was straight, and I believed him.

However, I, who always thought I was a straight man... suddenly began to feel unconfident.

4.

He never drank before, I always thought he was a brother.

Ah, the word brother definitely doesn't mean anything bad about him.

I mean, I just think of him as my younger brother, little brother, little follower.

5.

He drank alcohol that day.

Drunk.

It's textbook drunkenness.

Her lips were rosy, her eyes were filled with water vapor, and she spoke in a soft voice like a baby.

6.

He saw off the other guests, turned to look at me with his head tilted, and asked me softly after confirming my identity: "Doctor Su, why are you still here?"

It was the first time I saw him like this, so I put my fist on my mouth and coughed in embarrassment: "Well, I'm a little worried about you."

After hearing this, Song Xi reacted for a while, then stood there shaking his head and muttering, "I'm a lord, um, lord! I! King! Song... Song! King! King!"

I responded with a soft voice, coaxed him to sit on the sofa, and poured him a glass of water.

How can you rest assured.

7.

As soon as he saw the water glass, he pushed it out, and said no to drink with his tongue, he was drunk.

I told him it was honey water, not wine.

He froze for three seconds, then said "oh" in a low voice.

Then he obediently took a big gulp of water.

He stopped suddenly after taking four sips. Before I could react, he threw the water glass forward and shouted very chivalrously: "Come on! Finish this glass of brother wine! Let's go together for the rest of our lives !"

I dripped the tortoise, and the water was all spilled.

8.

I hurried to get some paper for him, let him wipe himself, and went to his closet with ease to find some clean clothes and brought them here.

His white clothes were soaked through and through.

I pretended to be calm, my mind was full of asceticism, but when he murmured my name in a low voice, I suddenly failed.

I dropped him.

This is the first thing I feel guilty about.

9.

He woke up the next day and asked me what happened to the bag on his head.

In order to convince myself that I was straight, I said he seduced me on purpose.

He was really angry.

This is the second thing I feel guilty about.

10.

After I said that sentence, things started to get out of hand.

11.

I began to observe his movements almost all the time.

I don't like him hooking shoulders with other people.

He talked and laughed with other people, which made me unhappy.

I don't like it when he eats at the same table as other people.

I'm afraid... it's really over.

So I began to constantly convince myself that I was an out-and-out straight man. When I saw him, my mood swings were all his problems.

I checked the straight man comments on every major search page and took it to heart.

I'm straight, I'm not bent.

12.

So I completely set myself up as a straight man...but every straight man comment I made pierced my heart like broken glass.

As a result, he used too much force and turned the character into a straight male cancer.

I... I hate to say it, but I can't...can't accept myself...is...

13.

But I... I was awkward and wanted to continue to get along with Song Xi as before, and I even wanted to try...try to be with him.

But I was wrong.

Sung Hee he is really straight.

14.

The previous mentality collapsed when I saw Song Xi walking into the community with a little girl.

Who is this, his girlfriend?

How could he be like this, it made my heart sore and unbearable, yet he liked girls with peace of mind.

I knocked back this idea as soon as it came out, and I shouldn't think so.

I was too deeply poisoned by straight male cancer thinking.

The current situation is all caused by me, and I deserve it all.

15.

I couldn't hold back and said "Fuck", which happened to be heard by him.

No, the straight man is about to collapse.

I quickly searched for the straight men's comments in my mind, and found a sentence starting with this sound to use PlayerUnknown's Battlegrounds.

No, I think it's not PlayerUnknown's Battlegrounds, it's PlayerUnknown's Battlegrounds.

16.

After that day, I held it back for a long time, read a lot of books in the room, and did a lot of psychological construction for myself.

How can I do this?

How should I deal with my sudden change in sexual orientation?

Is this my illusion, or is it real?

How should my parents explain it?

I like Sung Hee.

like.

17.

I'm going to find him.

I mustered up all the courage in my life, glued on the world view that was about to fall, and knocked on Song Xi's door again.

18.

Song Xi opened the door.

He was wearing loose pajamas, the neckline was tilted to one side, and the delicate collarbone line was extremely smooth.

Seeing it was me, the expression on his face immediately cooled down.

I bite the bullet and let him let me in.

At least... let me admit my mistake.

19.

I first confirmed his relationship with the girl and breathed a sigh of relief.

But then I got nervous again.

Song Xi's attitude became much better after I admitted my mistake for the first time.

Such a good kid, how on earth could I say such exaggerated things to him before.

20.

I told him all my crimes, now, is it too late to recover?