Yi Xing

It is said that there is a spring rain and a warm one. After the rain that day, the temperature soared very quickly. Wearing a sweater and walking in the sun, you can get out of thin sweat.

Begonias are also in bloom. The flowers should be beautiful, but I can't seem to see the color.

Fu Yixing's car keys are still with me. I locked his car in the basement of his building, but I don't know how to return the car keys to him.

The difference that day was a very normal difference, but he said goodbye instead of seeing you tomorrow.

I don't know if he and I are engaged in a cold war. I think Fu Yixing is not the kind of person with a small belly, but he has never looked for me, so I don't know how to knock on his door.

He was also angry with me before, but he wouldn't do this and disappeared without a trace.

I often type "Fu Fu, may I send you the key?" in the chat box, but after thinking about it, I deleted it.

He should have studied the questions at home, and he didn't have a place to use a bicycle, so he didn't come to ask me.

Boss Xie said in class that he hoped that everyone would not talk about unnecessary things behind their backs.

It doesn't make much sense for him to say this, because there is no malicious discussion in the class.

It was like this from the very beginning, Mr. Fu is always Mr. Fu from Class [-], No matter whether he likes boys or girls, he is the most handsome male god, the best sports committee member, and the most powerful student master.

Boss Xie and Fu Yixing's mother said that other head teachers would also help control public opinion, but if other people already feel that Fu Yixing is not good, even if the public opinion is under control, they will still feel bad about him in their hearts.

Although Fu Yixing told me not to waste time on Chen Kai, I couldn't help it. When passing by Chen Kai's class, I would subconsciously take a look inside to see how the bad guy was doing.

Now that things have happened, I can't have kindness in my heart. Chen Kai is a very vicious person. Just like Gu Yang said, he doesn't deserve any form of sympathy.

On the fifth day Fu Yixing didn't come to school, he lay on the table for a long time, knocking on the table with his chin, "I don't know why, but I miss Mr. Fu very much now."

Gu Yang turned his head away and said, "I also hope that he will come back quickly."

I copied the composition on the draft paper to the exercise book without making a sound.

What does it feel like to miss?

I saw the fish head with chopped peppers in the cafeteria, and I had a hard time last time, so I didn’t order this dish again. I remembered that it was spicy, the kind that made me unable to eat it, but I still ordered it and ate it When I was fishing, I was sweating all over my body, and my mouth was swollen. When I raised my head, it was not Fu Yixing who was sitting opposite me. At this time, I really wanted to ask Fu Yixing, "Why are you so good?"

But he is not with me.

The school arranged for the bear to marry again, without any warning.We didn't know it was coming again. When we walked into the cafeteria and saw the menu on the screen, we almost screamed. The three of us lined up in three lines and we got there smoothly. I put the chicken breast in my mouth Chewing, chewing for a long time is unable to swallow.

I still can't feel its taste, and even think that the craftsmanship is a little worse than last time.

Yuan Yuan ate exaggeratedly, admiring while eating, I thought it must be because the piece on my plate was not given to me by Fu Yixing, so it was so unpalatable.

The ginkgo on the playground has grown a tree of new leaves. It is not bald, and it bursts with the vitality of the whole tree. It is so green that it is still so tall.I really want a piece of green bookmark, I want Fu Yixing to write it by himself, I don’t think his handwriting is ugly anymore, if he doesn’t want to, I put a knife on his neck and say viciously: “Write it to me! "Does he dare not to write?

I miss him very much, but I dare not say it.

So many days passed, and he never said a word to me.

There is a song that sings, and some people just walk away.

I was afraid that Fu Yixing and I would break up after walking.

"That Fu Yixing seems to be really gay. After being reported that day, he didn't come to class. Was he suspended by the school for inspection?"

I was busy late because of publishing the newspaper, and I heard someone ask this when I was washing my hands in the toilet.

I thought this question was very funny, but after thinking about it, the school's handling method is indeed easy to leave such an impression on people who don't know.

Anyway, when Fu Fu came back with the medal, the rumors would be self-defeating.

I shook my hand and was about to leave when I heard a voice that I remembered for a long time, "He's a fucking gay."

Chen Kai's voice is not highly recognizable, but it impressed me deeply.

I have heard his voice in many states, especially remember his sharp tone when he cursed Fu Yixing.

He gritted his teeth.

His companion said: "Don't be like this, he didn't come to provoke you."

Chen Kai snorted coldly.

I stood there and waited for them to come out.

When I heard Chen Kai say "he's a damned gay", I didn't feel much. Maybe this sentence was not as lethal as his curse at that time, but his dismissive sarcasm, in an instant, Ignite the tyranny in my bones.

By the time I realized it, my hand had already clenched into a fist, and I couldn't control my right arm, which was shaking all the time.

angry.

Really angry.

Sad and angry.

It felt like a baby with white, tender and soft skin being rubbed against the concrete floor.The skin was rubbed bloody, the child was crying, and then the pain was transmitted to my body bit by bit.

My right hand was shaking, and my whole right arm was sore and hot.

The boiling blood was pushed out by the heart, flowed through the blood vessels all over the body, burned all the way, and finally burned into the brain, turning reason into ashes.

My mother taught me to be kind, and my uncle, the traffic policeman, always taught me to be a kind person.

In order not to disappoint them, I have always covered up my bloodthirsty, violent and murderous side very well.

I almost thought I was a kind person.

I used to hope so much that Chen Kai would get better, I didn't let Gu Yang and Yuan Yu speculate about him maliciously, and my mother asked the traffic police to help find him when he ran away from home.

I, a person who was born to go to hell, was blocked by many good things. Chen Kai's cold snort completely cleared the obstacles for me to move forward.

What it feels like to be angry, what it feels like to be furious, I finally feel it clearly.

Thank you Chen Kai, he detonated my paradise.

When I looked up, I saw myself in the mirror smiling gently, and then I met the two people who came out.

Chen Kai still looks weak, his figure is not bad, maybe about the same as me, not as thin as Tang Cheng, that glum look, I am afraid that the darkness in his heart is counterattacking him.

His companion—I think the boy just didn't know the situation. From what he said, he didn't even know that the report letter was written by Chen Kai. He thought I was greeting him with a confused look on his face, but he also smiled at me.

I turned on the water again, and the water flowed quickly through my palms, and I rubbed my hands together, trying to make the trembling in my right hand less obvious.

Chen Kai rushed away and left. The boy washed carefully and smiled at me before leaving. I followed him out of the bathroom and saw him quicken his pace to chase after Chen Kai.

When people are extremely angry, they can calm down.

I will not let Chen Kai go, but I want to choose a suitable time and use a suitable method to teach him some lessons.

Fu Yixing disappeared for half a month.

In the past half month, the temperature has risen to more than [-] degrees, and then dropped back to more than ten degrees. The crabapple flowers were scattered by the violent rainstorm, and the petals were scattered all over the ground.

Later, the flowers were no longer visible on the branches.

Gu Yang and I are still far away together, laughing and laughing every day, and when we have nothing to do, we will search the Internet for legal-related issues.

I didn't tell them what I thought, although I knew they would get involved if I did.

I don't want to involve them.

They both have great futures, and I, whatever.

Slowly, Fu Yixing also came back.

He didn't do very well in the exam and only got the bronze medal. Some people heard from the math teacher that his condition in the Beijing training camp was not very good and he always made low-level mistakes.

There is not much difference between the bronze medal and his provincial first prize. He could not sign a contract with Tsinghua University and Peking University. Some ordinary 211 schools extended an olive branch to him, but he never accepted it.

These are all heard, he didn't say anything.

Only one morning, Fu Yixing walked from the back door to the seat with his bag on his back and sat down without making any noise. A girl in the front row happily said that Mr. Fu was back, so I turned my head and glanced at him. I saw that he was thin and thin. Quite a lot.

"Boss Fu! I miss you so much!" Yu Yao yelled out, regardless that it was early self-study time.

Gu Yang told me, "He is thinking about Mr. Fu's homework."

I'm glad to see him, but I don't know how to react.

I still held up the Chinese book and read it absent-mindedly.

Gu Yang didn't dislike my indifference, and said to himself, "I won't leave this time."

I couldn't read any more, so I reached into my bag and fumbled for Fu Yixing's car keys.

Holding his key, I was very confused.

How should I say the first words to him?

haven't seen you for a long time?

Forgot to return the key to you?

I also want to say to him, "I miss you so much," just like Lu Yuanyao.

I know I can't say it.

If I could say that I miss you so much, I wouldn't lose contact with him for so long. On that rainy day, I would tell him that you can definitely pursue love.

But I didn't say any of these.

I am also responsible for Fu Yixing's success in the exam. When he was most lost and confused, I not only failed to encourage him, but also gave him a blow to the head.

This is what Ren Ke did.

Everyone is unwilling to admit their mistakes and wants to shirk responsibility, so at this moment, I hate Chen Kai very much.

If he hadn't gone crazy in our class.

If he hadn't written that report letter.

Fu Yixing will happily be with us, take Chinese classes, and do math problems.

Before he went to the training camp, I would tell him, "Fu Fu, I think you can win the gold medal."

He'd say, "If there's no mistake."

He can watch the begonias flourishing and the ginkgoes flourish together with me.

He will not be unhappy.

He can't make mistakes, he's never made a mistake before.

He should go to Tsinghua University and Peking University. At this time, he should start enjoying his long vacation, instead of quietly appearing in the class and continuing to study in the second year of high school.

When get out of class was over, Fu Yixing finally came to see me.

"The key, are you going to return it to me?" His expression was smiling, but there was no smile in his eyes.

Fu Yixing is still so gentle, what a good person he is, he never lets others share his sadness, and always bears it alone.

I handed the key into his palm and squeezed his fingertips.

He froze, and smiled at me again.

During the mathematics class, Mr. Li on the podium stared at the back row and paused for a while. I followed his gaze and saw Fu Yixing walking through the back door with a bag on his back.

Then it didn't show up all afternoon.

So when I was leaving school, I walked to the door of Class 7, Senior Two——Chen Kai's class.

It is difficult for me to describe my current feelings. Intellectually, I should ask Fu Yixing why he skipped class. All the ancient texts he missed, I know what to do is right, but I don't want to do that.

I was just at the door of Class No. [-], watching Chen Kai through the window.

Chen Kai didn't do anything out of the ordinary at this moment, which was different from what I imagined.