Yi Xing

Lu Tuantu was very dissatisfied with this result, and still wanted to teach Chen Kai a good lesson, and Gu Yang also agreed. I explained to them that this was the plan Fu Yixing's mother agreed with, and they finally had nothing to say.

This may not necessarily be the fairest solution, but it is the warmest one.

I straddled the bicycle and waited for Fu Fu, who had been missing for a long time, to pick up the bicycle.

The sound of the rain is getting louder, and the water droplets hit the roof of the carport, but it will not be noisy. The quietness of sound is a gift to people in rainy days.

Only our car is left here.

I whistled lightly for a while, which was the prelude to "itisyou".I like this whistle very much, and I have practiced it many times in private to keep it in tune.

"Itis you

Only you

YouarethedreamIdesire." After I hummed it for the second time, Fu Yixing finally came.

He was also a little surprised when he saw me, "I thought you left by car. It's raining heavily."

I smiled at him, "I want to share weal and woe with my car."

"Then do you have a poncho?"

"No."

He was a little helpless, "Then how to go back? It's easy to catch a cold this season."

"You don't either?"

He said: "Let's go by car, the car will be left in the school."

"But you were going to go back by bike. Come on, boy, let's get in the rain together."

"Don't fool around."

I don't like him talking to me like this, coaxing a child.

"Come and chat, chat for five yuan, and the rain will stop later." I patted his car seat and let him sit down too.

He stepped into the car, supporting his body with two slender legs, "What if I leave by car? Didn't you wait for nothing?"

"Are you leaving?", I shook the car, and said with the sound: "No—yes—"

"Why are you in such a good mood?"

Under the current situation, I shouldn't have such a good mood, but I couldn't help recalling the "Xiao Ke" that Fu Yixing's mother called me. I sighed with satisfaction and melancholy, and said to Fu Yixing: "If your mother is also my mother Enough."

He froze for a moment, then bent his eyes and smiled, "It's not impossible, she doesn't mind having another son."

I think Auntie is such a wonderful person.Good for me too.

"Where did you go today?"

"Arranged a laboratory for me to do the questions."

"This treatment is really good, but it's a pity that I won't see you tomorrow."

"You can come to my house after school."

"Forget it, I won't disturb your study. Fu Fu, I've wronged you, I will help you supervise whether Chen Kai is getting a good education."

Fu Yixing looked up, not knowing whether he was looking at the teaching building outside the carport, the rainy eaves, or the lingering rain curtain.

"Don't waste your time on people like that."

"Fu Fu, I think you are very powerful and have that kind of demeanor." I think there is an idiom that can describe his attitude towards Chen Kai, but I can't think of it, "Hey! I forgot what that word is called. "

He smiled again, "What did my mother say today?"

"At the beginning, she was very resolute in defending you. She said that this matter is not about whether you have a relationship with a boy, but whether it has caused a bad influence. Doesn't this mean that even if you have a relationship with a boy? Is it okay to fall in love as long as it doesn't cause any adverse effects? Since when has she been able to accept your sexuality?"

"Maybe it's today. They haven't agreed...I'm a little scared knowing she's coming."

Suddenly there was a "bang" from above my head. Compared with the sound of rain, the sound was a bit earth-shattering, and then the fruit rolled down the slope of the ceiling, landed on the concrete floor, and a puddle of purple juice fell out.

I don't know if I was scared by the fruit just now, or because Fu Yixing said the word "scared", my heart seemed to burst.

It was the first time he used words like "fear" to describe his own feelings. He just said it casually, but I couldn't listen casually.

The rain washed the ground, and my joy, along with the little purple trace, was gradually washed away until it disappeared completely.

Turns out he didn't know his mom was on his side.

I can't imagine the anxiety of the unknown.

He was actually able to blend into my good mood freely.

He also smiled at me.

Is he really indifferent, or is he just pretending to be relaxed and chatting with me?

OK.

I understand how "restraint" is eating up my feelings. During this period of time, all his performances are indifferent and forbearing, and are "restraint".

Does he really have such a big heart, or is he just showing it to me?

Can a person really withstand the opposition of his parents, the pointing and pointing of his classmates, and such sharp curses?

I really regard him as a god, and Fu Yixing is not without emotions.

For a while, I didn't know what tone to use to talk to him, and I didn't know if I had sorted out my expression. Fortunately, he was watching the rain again.

Fu Yixing was silent for a long time, then suddenly turned his head to look at me, and said, "I've always wondered whether homosexuals have the right to pursue love."

Before I could answer, he said again: "Don't worry about me, tell me what you think."

Originally, I wanted to answer "yes" hastily, but his eyes were serious and sincere.

I think of Tang Cheng's laughter and tears, and my aunt's trembling voice.

And Fu Yixing's "I don't like it".

The memory slowly goes back, and I think of the photo frame next to my father's bed.

God has given every one of His people the right to pursue happiness, but He has set up many rocks for their journey.

I said: "There is a song with the lyrics of 'how to do it, how wrong it is, how difficult it is to see, how it teaches people to live and die', it is hard for me to understand the feeling of life and death.

Am I saying this a bit out of context?

Do you think there is a voice for natural human rights hundreds of years ago, and the pursuit of love is a basic right, right? "

He raised the corner of his mouth slightly, "Are you going to say but."

I didn't smile at him, "but" always hurts.

Everyone can dream, but who can live in the dream all the time.

"It is already difficult for heterosexuals to pursue love, but it will only be more difficult for homosexuals. If conditions are ripe in all aspects, for example, you are in the UK, in some states of the United States, in that kind of very equal place, you and The person you like is in love with each other, and the family members of both sides support it. At this time, your rights are guaranteed, and you have the right to pursue love."

I locked my voice in my throat, trying to make my words sound less hurtful, but the sound of the rain was getting louder, almost covering my voice, I don't know if he could hear it clearly.

"It doesn't have to be such a strict condition. If the person you love also loves you, you don't care about gossip or what people like Chen Kai say. You also have the right to pursue love...

But if the person you like is not supported by his family, he cannot bear these criticisms, or if the person you like doesn't like boys, in these situations, I think, he has no right.This may not have anything to do with whether you are gay or not, it is a question of whether two people can be together. "

I looked down at the ruined fruit on the ground, regretting what I said just now.

From the perspective of a bystander, I already feel that this reality is cruel, and I will tell him this cruel thing...

Could Fu Yixing not know this reality?

He probably just wants me to give him a little strength.

I turned my head to look at him, just in time to meet his gaze, I can't tell how he feels now, his eyes seem to have everything, but there seems to be nothing.

I wanted to say sorry, but he preempted me.

He looked at me and said, "What about you, what would you do if it were you?"

I don't know exactly what he meant by that.

Fu Yixing is a very brave person, and he once used that word to comment on me, but I know that I am not brave at all, and many things are holding me back.I was afraid of disappointing my elders, afraid of other people's comments, and when I met someone like Chen Kai, I couldn't fight for Fu Yixing like Yuan Yuan did.

If someone like me throws me into Fu Yixing's situation, I'm afraid I can't do anything.

I dare not bear it, let alone let the person I love bear it, so I would rather not have love.

I turned my face away, avoiding his probing eyes.

Fu Yixing said softly, "I understand."

I want to say out loud to him that you don't understand, but I can't make a sound.

I am different from him, he can pursue it, but I can't, so he can't listen to my answer.

I want to tell him you just do what makes you happy and don't mind my bullshit, but my throat feels like it's on fire.

I can't say anything.

"Let's go, the rain won't stop, let's go home by car...help me ride the car back tomorrow."

He threw the car keys to me and rushed into the rain with his schoolbag on.

I took the key and felt lost.

I don't know what I lost, but I know that I must have lost something that belonged to Fu Yixing.