Yi Xing

When I heard his words, my nose suddenly became sore, but I still held back my tears.

I took a deep breath, and my throat felt bitter.

Tang Cheng's hand was always attached to mine, he didn't use any force, didn't try to wrap my hand with his palm, he just put it on my hand.

It will all pass.

I opened my eyes, showed him a handsome smile, and said, "Maybe I'll be impulsive when I fall in love with someone, but you, let me say you can have feelings for men now, but are you sure you like Fu Yixing?" ?”

"Actually... I feel like I'm a scumbag. I like being with Ning Xiner, and I also like being with Brother Xing, just... being with them both makes me feel at ease. When I see Xiner smiling, I rush When I act like a baby, I feel very moved, I want to protect her, I feel like a man when I am with her, but when I am with Brother Xing, he takes care of me, and I also like to be taken care of, maybe I like to be taken care of Taking care of others is more important than liking to take care of others. I think I like Fu Yixing." Tang Cheng lay down beside me.

I listened to him quietly, and waited until he stopped before answering: "Then I think it may be because you haven't grown up yet. Is it possible that your feelings for Ning Xiner and Fu Yixing are not love."

He turned his head to look at me and said, "Don't you support me liking Fu Yixing?"

"If you are not 17 now but 27, and you say you like Fu Yixing, I will absolutely support you, and I would even be willing to quarrel with those who oppose you for you, but you are only 17."

Tang Cheng smiled, "Honey, you're only 16, don't always act so old in front of me."

"Then what do you want to do? Assuming you really like him, what do you want to do?"

Three points of cunning flashed in his eyes, seven points of yearning, and then he said: "I like it, of course I want to chase it!"

I sighed, "I'd rather you go after Ning Xiner now than go after Fu Yixing."

Tang Cheng pretended to be displeased, and put on a straight face, but his eyes were full of smiles, "If you weren't cold-hearted, I would doubt that you have any unreasonable thoughts about my future man."

I squeezed my throat on purpose to scold him, "Then, brother Chengcheng, why don't you give him to me?"

He slapped me on the shoulder and shouted: "There is no door."

I sat up cross-legged, "Auntie asked me if you like men too, I felt like she was going to cry when she asked, and your dad, after hearing that Fu Yixing liked men, they couldn't possibly agree that you liked him, So for the sake of family harmony, it is impossible for me to assist you, don’t expect to bring him something through me." Thinking of his appearance just now, I added: "There is no way."

Tang Cheng chuckled, "It's the 21st century, whoever I want to be with, that's my freedom, I can accept the best, I can't accept it, eh, I will definitely accept it in the end."

I thought Fu Yixing's sexual orientation was just a secret between two families.

But after school started, rumors abounded.

"I heard that Fu Yixing is gay, but I didn't expect it to be."

"It's a pity, handsome guys only have handsome guys in their eyes..."

"I can't stand this kind of thing... I feel nauseous just thinking about it... I can't understand why some people like to read Tanmei novels, anyway, I only read BG novels."

When some people saw him at school, they suddenly remembered the breaking news, looked around guiltily, and waited until he was far away before discussing it with their peers, talking about it happily and showing off.

Some people are really tasteless. When get out of class was over, they dragged their friends to deliberately walk out of our class window, pointing in the direction of Fu Yixing without hesitation, and they didn't know what they were talking about.The science classes are arranged on the upper floors of the teaching building, and our class is even in the corner of the top floor. Usually only the classmates of the class will gather in this place, but now all the people passing by are strangers.

The road is far away and lacks insight, and I have never figured out why our class is so popular all of a sudden.

After holding back for a few days, Gu Yang still asked me: "Is what they said true?"

Without raising my head, I looked up the ancient Chinese dictionary to do my Chinese homework, pretending not to know what he was asking, "Who? What did you say?"

Gu Yang leaned into my ear, "Don't play dumb, you are so close to Mr. Fu, you don't know what others say about him?"

I laughed, "I have to walk far away from him to know, and no one dares to tell me about him if we get close."

He was also amused, "Keke, your acting skills are really bad, seeing that group of people babbling and babbling these days, your eyes are almost turned upside down."

"Isn't it? My eyes are almost cramping."

I put down my pen and turned my head to look at Mr. Fu. He has been busy preparing for the competition recently. He has been doing math with his earphones plugged in all day long.

I heard that the center of the tornado is the quietest place, and I admire Mr. Fu's unmoving posture.

I turned back 90° towards Guyang, "Do you think it's true?"

He curled his lips, "During the winter vacation, you asked us for resources, but you didn't look at them yourself, did you? Then I don't think it's groundless."

Lu Jiyau heard the key words come together, "What resources?"

Gu Yang and I looked at each other without speaking.

Feeling bored, Lu Yuyuan suddenly remembered something and asked, "Keke, after viewing my resources, have you opened the door to a new world?"

I told him half-heartedly, "Well, it opened the door to frigidity."

He froze for a moment, "It's awesome, as expected of Keke, who doesn't take the usual path."

Gu Yang didn’t get the answer, so he pushed the draft book towards me in physics class, and it said “Is Mr. Fu Gay” on it, accompanied by a villain’s face full of question marks.

The people around me are as ugly as the other handwriting. Fu Yixing's bad handwriting is only the third from the bottom, and the person next to me is the second to the bottom.

I said "look at me" back to him, he turned his face sideways, and I rolled my eyes.

He drew several exclamation points, and then wrote: "I don't tell others, I just care about him."

I know that Gu Yang is not the kind of person who gossips behind others, he has already guessed a lot, and if he can guess it, I have to blame me for asking him for resources for convenience.

He had no other intentions, nor did he show any resentment.

"Mr. Fu likes women, and there are women who like him.

If you like a man, there will be a man who likes him

There is not much difference between liking men or women for good-looking people. "

Gu Yang took back his notebook, looked at the blackboard for a while, and then lowered his head to write again.

"You like girls, don't you, handsome guy?"

I originally thought that I liked women, but obviously I didn't have feelings for men and women. There are so many men around who can like men. I feel that my sexual orientation, theoretically, has many possibilities.

Maybe heterosexual.

Maybe gay.

Maybe bisexual.

Maybe asexual.

I am not sure as well.

I wrote in my notebook: "Currently I'm really frigid, I won't lie to you"

"Then you may have developed later

It means you can still grow taller, which is actually pretty good

You see, LTT masturbates every day and breaks his brain." He also drew a plane under Lu Yaoyao's initials.

When I saw what he wrote, I felt warm again, so I erased all the previous dialogue, leaving only the last sentence of Gu Yang, and then passed the notebook to the back seat, tilting my head slightly to pay attention to the behavior of the road from the corner of my eye. .

He moved his buttocks and sat behind Gu Yang.

Then Gu Yang gave a "fuck" sound, sat forward, turned around and brought the schoolbag in front of him, with a shoe print on it.

Gu Yang glared at me, turned his head and gave me a middle finger.

I frowned watching them interact.

In the physics class, the boys in the back row are always noisy, but the physics teacher is like a Maitreya Buddha, smiling and giving lectures, never caring about discipline.

Regardless of whether the teacher on the podium meant that no one knew, Fu Yixing followed the movement and raised his head. At first, his face was expressionless, and then he gradually smiled.

The man at the center of the tornado can ignore everything that makes him uncomfortable and see the joy in life.

He still looks the best when he smiles.

As soon as the get out of class bell rang, my deskmate and the desk behind me quarreled.

It was originally my prank. I thought there was not much room for development, but the road was so far away that I didn’t give up. In class, I used a pen to draw a pig on Guyang’s school uniform and inscribed "GY".

Gu Yang took off his clothes and had to go all the way to wash them for him.

Far away was not happy, so his coat was taken off.

I was so excited to watch a good show, when suddenly there was a knock on the window next to me, Tang Cheng was outside, asking me to go out and talk.

"I'll wait for you when school is over, let's go together." Tang Cheng leaned on the railing and said to me with a smile.

I responded but heard someone say: "Hey, that's Fu Yixing, you haven't seen a real GAY, have you?"

Turning their heads, the two girls looked in from the position in Tangcheng just now.

The incident happened suddenly, and I didn't hold Tang Cheng back.

"Does it really look gay?" Tang Cheng spoke gloomily behind the two of them.

They turned to give him a nervous look, and one girl immediately pulled her companion away.

Tang Cheng also shouted: "Why don't you take a few more glances?"

He should be angry, with a bad look on his face.

But Boss Fu raised his head for some reason, and seeing Tang Cheng smiled, Tang Cheng could only force a smile in response.

When Boss Fu lowered his head, Tang Cheng pulled me over: "Isn't this just a one-time thing? I can't just run into you the first time I come to look for you?"

I pointed to the class sign hanging on the wall, "Grade [-], another scenic spot in Hua'an, receives seven to eight tour groups every day."

"How the hell can they bear it? How do they know?"

I shrugged my shoulders to express my ignorance, but Tang Cheng was getting angry, and he accused me, "Why didn't you react at all!"

These words sound a bit familiar.

I can only comfort him, "I'm angry too, but being angry can't solve the problem."

He glanced at his watch and said he would settle the score with me when he got home.

As the saying goes, three people make a tiger, and if there is one more Tang City on the way home, it is impossible to go home properly. After all, the three of us eat and drink when we are together.

Tang Cheng may also be provoking his father, and sent a WeChat message in the family group saying, "I will take Ke Ke and Fu Yixing to eat outside at night."

His aunt asked him to come back early.

Uncle didn't answer.

"Brother Xing, I heard someone talking about you today."

Holding the spoon in his hand, Fu Yixing slowly drank the soup in front of him, humming lightly.

"Why do you have such a reaction, hey, every time I see you two like this, I get anxious."

Tang Cheng was really in a hurry, and frantically stirred the sweet porridge in his bowl with a spoon.

I watched his action, and my heart clanged against the wall of the bowl along with the white spoon in his hand.

Tang Cheng couldn't hold back his words, and the more small gestures he made, the more it meant that he would not be able to restrain his emotions.

I really don't want to hear Tang Cheng say "Brother Xing, I like you" while eating.

I pushed my elbow against his hand, and the spoon hit the bowl hard with a crisp sound.

Tang Cheng was frightened, and yelled at me in a low voice, "Ren Ke, you have grown up."

I raised my eyebrows and met Fu Yixing's gaze.

I don't know why I felt a little doting in his eyes, and my heart skipped a beat.

It’s over.

The most fearful thing is that they are in love with each other.

I have to do something, at least to stop the storm from coming so fast.

"Boss Fu, do your parents agree with you?"

"No, don't look at me right now."

Tang Cheng sighed.

I used chopsticks to sandwich Dongpo pork into two pieces, and gave half to Tangcheng.

Tang Cheng didn't like to eat fatty meat, so he picked and ate the lean meat.

He is a child who grew up in a honey pot, he has never tasted bitterness, and even has a sweet taste, and he will never eat anything he doesn't like.

Such a child, even if Fu Yixing is protecting him and holding up a piece of sky for him, will he be able to withstand the setbacks on the flat ground in the future?

Besides, I still don't agree with Tang Cheng's liking.

It can be said that it was accumulated little by little, or it could be said that it was blown by a gust of wind suddenly.

If he couldn't hold on one day, what would Fu Yixing do?

He knelt like that, and his feet were covered with injuries. If Tang Cheng couldn't hold on, what would Fu Yixing do?

Winter is almost over, but there is no shadow of spring yet.

The warm air was still on in the restaurant, and there was fog on the glass.

His eyes were blurred again.

Can't see anything.

I can't see my own way, and now, I can't see clearly the way of Tang Cheng and Fu Yixing.

I wiped the white mist off the glass with my hands, but gradually, the mist rose again.

"Brother Xing, you, did you come out because you have someone you like?"

Tang Cheng still asked.

I wiped the glass with my hands repeatedly, not daring to feel the atmosphere between them.

My aunt asked me to take good care of Tangcheng, but I failed.

I personally led the chaotic and timid Tang Cheng to see his sexuality clearly.

Now he is about to embark on a road that is not smooth, which may have no future at all. Fu Yixing's family disagrees, and neither does his uncle.

No one in the world supports him at all.

How is he going?

I don't believe that love has that much power.

Fu Yixing never answered.

When we sent him downstairs, Tang Cheng still wanted to ask, but Fu Yixing refused to let him speak.

Tang Cheng and I walked back from Fu Yihang's house again in the dark.

It was snowing that day, what was Tang Cheng thinking while crying, was he afraid?

Green floor lamps are newly installed in the community building.

Eye-catching green.

"Do you think he has someone he likes?" Tang Cheng kicked away the stones on the road.

I said I don't know.

He sighed faintly, "I think there should be. I feel that it is so difficult to catch up with him."

"Why don't you think he likes you?"

"Do you think he likes me?"

I want to recall Fu Yixing's eyes, but I can't.

Maybe, maybe not.

I didn't say anything, Tang Cheng picked up by himself, "He doesn't like me, at least he doesn't like me now. I can tell at a glance whether he has thoughts about me."

"yes."

Whether Fu Yixing likes Tangcheng has never been answered.

Under my persuasion, Tang Cheng did not announce to his family that he could also like men. His aunt had to take two omeprazole capsules every morning. Tang Cheng knew about it, so he also endured it.

He didn't make any offensives against Mr. Fu, but occasionally came to the classroom to look for me and take a look at him.

Recently, there have been fewer sightseeing groups. I think the people who talk badly in the school have probably come to see Fu Yixing. Fu Yixing behaved indifferently and they couldn't make any trouble. They didn't come because they thought it was boring. It was a boy named Chen Kai. Always come to discuss the topic with Mr. Fu.

I don't have a good impression of Chen Kai.

He always speaks in an official tone, likes to go to the office, and has a high self-esteem, but his emotional intelligence is not high.

He likes to deal with girls, but girls don't like him either.

At first I didn't understand why girls didn't like him. After all, his face was a bit more attractive than normal, until one day I heard him say to Zhang Miaomiao, "Miss Miaomiao, you seem to have become a lot rounder recently."

He had a smile on his face, and he looked innocent when he smiled.

He probably thinks that honest words are harsh and good for action, but Miaomiao has not gained weight, so what he said is not honest words.

Miaomiao is not a woman to be easily provoked, so she pursed her lips and smiled, and then said to him, "If you say such things again, be careful that I will tear your mouth, and get out of our class immediately."

Chen Kai's face was refuted, and the smile on his face couldn't hold back anymore. He wanted to argue with Miaomiao. It's not too much work to watch the excitement all the way, so he said coolly, "I'm telling you to get out of here, didn't you hear me?" Drag it out.

When Tiao Tiao came back, he shook his hands and said, "He is quite strong. I heard that his father is a policeman. Did he secretly train him?"

I smiled, my dad used to like to take me to practice.

The police is a high-risk occupation, maybe a little more dangerous than the traffic police, so I hope my children are in good health.

I remember when I threw the interns from my dad's team to the ground, the old man clapped his hands and laughed until his wrinkles.

That was a long time ago, but it seems like only yesterday.

I feel like my dad is always there.

Gu Yang remembered something, "Chen Kai and I were in the same class in the first year of high school. He was sick and hospitalized for a while. Some people said that his father beat him. I heard that his father would be violent."

Unbelievable, "How can someone who can be a policeman have domestic violence?"

Gu Yang shrugged, "Others said it, but don't you think Chen Kai is weird?"

I suddenly felt a little sympathetic to Chen Kai, he probably wasn't the kind of person who grew up in a good environment.

"Just think about it in your heart, don't talk about it behind other people's backs." I slapped each of them on the head and snorted, Gu Yang was also stunned, but they all shut up after all.

No matter what Chen Kai has experienced, I hope that he can get some love and warmth, some correct teachings in Hua'an, and grow towards a place of light.

Like me, chasing the light and trying to escape misfortune.