In this life, I will drink the long wind

Standing up, he raised his head and looked at the surrounding environment casually.Turning his eyes inadvertently, he caught a glimpse of a string of delicate and small copper bells hanging on the window sill in front of the right. A breeze blew by, and the copper bells made a lingling sound, somewhat similar to Jiangnan Xia The sound of the mountain stream flowing by in the daytime.

For a moment, Yan Yu felt like being shocked by an electric shock.

Yan Yu knew that copper bell.

It was his mother's favorite gadget during her lifetime. He had seen it in her mother's portraits, and he had heard his grandmother mention it several times when he was young.After returning to Beijing, he also looked for it, but he couldn't find it.

It turned out to be here.

In the hands of the father.

Yan Yu got up and walked to sit down opposite Emperor Qi.

Sit empty for three minutes, sit upright.

This is the first time he officially entered the Yi'an Hall. Yan Yu looked at his father, the emperor known as a lion, with a layer of fatigue visible to the naked eye, and the wrinkles at the corners of his eyes seemed to be writing his current state. powerless.

All people will grow old, even the emperor of the ages is no exception.

Yan Yu lowered his eyes, he couldn't bear to look any further.

It may have been too long since he and his father have faced each other so close. The Emperor Qi in Yan Yu's memory still stays on the emperor who pointed out the country.

But seeing him so old now, Yan Yu couldn't adapt for a while.

The kinship has long faded, and his initial admiration for him has also faded away in the resentment of the past few years.The aura that the world put on his father, Yan Yu only felt ironic when he heard it, but even so, Yan Yu couldn't deny that every time in the dead of night, when he occasionally thought of it, he still couldn't ignore the endless aura on his father's body , and can't help being proud of it.

His father was a legend, lofty and inviolable.

But right now, this legend is getting old.

Relatively speechless, both of them lowered their eyes and looked at the table in front of them.

Curly water mist evaporated from between the two of them.

The water is boiling.

Lifting the pot, pouring water, and making tea all in one go, until the tea was imprisoned in the cup, Emperor Qi raised his eyes and said, "Longjing tea before the rain, this is your mother's favorite tea during her lifetime, try it."

Yan Yu turned his eyes to look at the teacup pushed in front of him, smiled, his smile was very faint, as if mocking, and he said, "So you still remember your mother's preferences, Father."

Emperor Qi said, "Of course I remember."

It was night, and there was an occasional wind whistling outside the house. The night lights on the towers in the distance were lit up one by one from far to near. Thousands of bright lights were lit up, illuminating the entire palace as bright as day.

The candles in the house were also lit, but the candles did not bring any warmth to Yan Yu, the surrounding environment seemed to be able to swallow the light, and his heart was still immersed in the cold darkness.

Yan Yu raised his hand, raised his glass, and raised his head. With the movement of his wrist, the hot tea fell into his lungs through his lips and tongue, leaving a piece of hot water.

After the cup was finished, Yan Yu raised his eyes and looked directly at Emperor Qidi.

In the face of feelings, he always hesitates, because he can hardly accept failure, but he can't find the law to win.

With just one glance, Yan Yu lowered his eyes again, avoiding Kaidi's gaze, raised his hand to take the teapot, and fetched new tea, intending to make tea again.

"Longjing tea before the rain is delicious. Only when the tea is brewed with [-]% hot boiling water can the fragrance of the tea be brewed. Brewing tea with boiling water will invisibly destroy the rich tea fragrance of the Longjing tea before the rain. It is better to let the ministers come to give it to the father. Make another pot."

"I don't pay much attention to these things, but I'm wasting good tea." Emperor Qi looked at his every move, smiled, and said again, "Drinking medicine and avoiding tea, I haven't touched this kind of tea for a long time. I prepared something special for you today."

Yan Yu's fingers holding the pot couldn't help but pause, and for a moment, he said lightly, "Really?"

When he spoke, his voice was extremely low, and the ending was hoarse and vague. He uttered a word, and then swallowed the remaining word, so that the question could not be questioned.

Emperor Qi just looked at him and didn't answer.

As the candle flame flickered, Yan Yu poured himself another cup of Longjing tea which had completely lost its charm.

A piece of tea leaves accidentally fell into the teacup together with the tea water. Yan Yu looked at the soaked leaf for a long time, then he laughed and said, "What's the point now?"

Emperor Qi: "Then what is the meaning of what you are asking for?"

"The meaning of what I'm looking for..." After Emperor Qi's words fell, a ball of fire rose in Yan Yu's heart, and a shadow of a beast appeared in the endless fire.

Yan Yu lowered his head and looked at the teacup in his hand. In the white jade cup, cyan slightly curly tea leaves were soaked in the light brown tea. Float sinks.

"Why?" Yan Yu looked up and asked calmly, "I am also your son, but you have never seen me in your eyes since you were young. You have high hopes for your eldest brother and you care for your fourth brother. What about me? You He has never even summoned me alone." Yan Yu looked at Emperor Qi, his expression remained the same, but in the teacup he was holding in his hand, small circles of ripples kept appearing with the ups and downs of his mood, he was obviously He was trying his best to suppress the grievance in his heart, but he couldn't hold it back. His words became more and more urgent and urgent, so that his heart was pounding, and the cold air he inhaled when he spoke caused a dull pain in his chest. "When I was young, the north and the south were separated, and it was hard to reunite, but I couldn't feel the warmth of family affection from you."

When Emperor Qi heard the words, a crack appeared on his calm and composed face. After a while, he sighed and said, "I'm not a good father."

"Of course you are not! Both are of the royal blood, and both are your sons, but your attitude towards the three of us is completely different. I have seen through this difference in treatment a long time ago." Yan Yu smiled bleakly, trembling, All five were burned, "You are ashamed of your mother, you are ashamed of me, you are an emperor through the ages, hahahaha, how absurd!"

The hysterical, gentle second prince showed a side of him that he had never shown to the world at this moment.

Emperor Qi looked at Yan Yu like this, at this moment, he, who never doubted himself, suddenly wavered in his decision back then. Could it be that he was wrong as the imperial concubine said?

Shouldn't he have agreed to Concubine Qi's request, that the next generation's life must be fought for by themselves?

Such doubts flashed in Qidi's mind.

"I never educated you personally, and even sent you to the south of the Yangtze River when you were young." After deliberating for a while, Emperor Qi said with a calm tone, "This is the last request your mother made to me before she died. The purpose is to keep you away from the imperial power."

He is not usually the character who would justify himself, but this time he explained his reasons for doing so.

For his son.

Yan Yu was surprised when he heard the words, before the distorted expression on his face could be restrained, he just froze on his face, and his eyes were about to split open for a moment, which was very frightening.

Emperor Qi looked at him, and said again: "She hopes that you will be different from me, he hopes that you can break away from the constraints that this identity brings to you, and she hopes that you will have more freedom to choose in the future, instead of being like me. "

"Mother, why would she do this?" Yan Yu asked puzzled.It's not that he doesn't believe it, Emperor Qi said everything he said, and he never said anything false, and his father didn't need to lie to him, he was just puzzled, it didn't make sense to make such a request to a newborn child.

"Because of your birth, a conspiracy to seize the throne was brewed, and countless relatives and friends died under this conspiracy."

Emperor Qi said lightly, with a calm face, no sadness or joy, only deep loneliness.

Yan Yu seemed to have thought of something, and couldn't help but widen his eyes. For a moment, the space seemed to condense, and his mind went blank. The other party's understatement came out word by word, and Yan Yu felt that there were boulders added to his back one by one. , weighing as much as a thousand pieces of gold, it was so heavy that he could barely breathe, those words of hatred that he was about to utter were all blocked in his throat, unable to move up or down.

Those secret resentments and silenced expectations suddenly shattered to the ground with a slap, and all his complaints just now were like a slap mercilessly slapped on his face.

"Mother... how did she die?"

"She committed suicide."

Yan Yu suddenly looked up at Emperor Qi.

Emperor Qi met his gaze and said, "It's right in front of my eyes."

☆、Revisiting the past

The lantern exploded suddenly, and there was a soft sound, awakening the two of them.

Yan Yu seemed to come back to his senses suddenly, sweat began to seep from his forehead, and the sound of panting became heavier and heavier.

Looking up, a cup of cold tea poured into her throat, Yan Yu asked, "Why?"

Emperor Qi didn't answer but instead asked: "Fuliu Villa, have you ever heard of this name?"

Yan Yu thought for a moment, then shook her head.

Emperor Qi looked at him, without any emotional fluctuations on his face: "More than 20 years ago, the largest Jianghu sect in the south of the Yangtze River was not Zhuqi Villa, but Fuliu Villa."

Yan Yu raised his head, his eyes fell on Emperor Qi's eyes through the faint light, those eyes he had never seen on a person before.

Emperor Qi's eyes are sharp and deep, but the meaning in the eyes is so complicated that it is difficult to express it in words. It is neither emotion nor nostalgia. These thin words can no longer be used to describe Emperor Qi's eyes at this time. The place where he landed was too far away, he seemed to be looking at the very distant past through Yan Yu.

During the glorious years of the Southern and Northern Wars.

"The Fuliu and Zhuqi villas belong to the Jiangnan martial arts forces. Although they are both famous families, they are not as powerful as other sects. They have a close relationship and have been friends for generations. They are also relatives of each other. Your mother is the two. The eldest daughter born after the union of two villas."

Emperor Qi spoke slowly, with a calm tone.

"When I ruled the south, I had many times of help from Fuliu and Zhuqi villas, and I even got to know your mother. Later, I accepted Lan Ruo as my concubine, and the Fuliu villa followed and formally stepped into the palace. Daxiang court, but Zhuqi Villa has no intention of politics and refuses to accept the reward."

"In 774 of the old calendar, Concubine Qi became pregnant and was sent to the south of the Yangtze River to recuperate and conceive. At that time, the secret sentry of Fuliu Villa found out that the King of Southwest wanted to blow up the palace."

At this point, Emperor Qi suddenly stopped, turned his head and looked out of the window, in the courtyard, the wind blows leaves all over the ground, the leaves on the branches have just sprouted and grown not long ago, and now they have fallen to the ground slowly, from birth to death, In the blink of an eye, time flies so fast, Yan Zhan looked at the falling leaves with emotion.

After a long pause, after a full breath, Emperor Qi withdrew his gaze, stared at Yan Yu again, and said, "They didn't hide the truth from the report, and pushed the boat along the way, secretly helping the Southwest King and helping him blow up the temporary palace."

Yan Yu listened quietly, those eyes that were usually calm and smiling, now they were about to split open, tainted with a layer of fear, he knew that his face must be ugly now, but he had nothing to spare. Energy to cover up.

As long as all the older brothers are dead, he is the eldest son.

It turned out that the source of the tragedy that shocked the world was actually him.

Everything is for him, for imperial power.

Yan Yu opened his mouth, but he couldn't say anything, his mind was blank, his eyes were pitch black, only his heart was covered with a layer of pain.

"But things didn't go as they expected. Chen'er survived, and then you were born, a boy who lived up to his expectations. This aggravated their thoughts. In order to remove obstacles for you, they began to plot against Chen'er. Poisoning, assassination, everything is used to the extreme, but because the remaining evils in the southwest are not cleared, the right minister Meng Xuan has arranged layers of guards around Chen'er, so their plan has not succeeded."

There was another pause, and then Emperor Qi let out a long sigh.

"But let your mother know about it."

Emperor Qi said this very softly, so lightly that he was afraid of blowing away a piece of wind, and so softly that he would disperse a cloud in fear.

"That day, Lan Ruo quietly left the garrison base after I set up camp to leave. She took dozens of hidden guards to meet the owner of the Fuliu Villa at that time, confronted him, and confirmed the truth of the matter. Afterwards, under her order, the entire Fuliu Villa, with more than a hundred people, was massacred to death, leaving no one alive."

"When I arrived, she was standing in front of the fire, killing herself."

Yan Zhan will always remember that day, he rushed there, only to see the flames soaring into the sky, and half of the sky was dyed red by the flames, and the other party smiled brightly at him in front of the swaying flames, and finally killed him with his neck drawn.

"Before she died, she asked me to keep this matter secret and sent you to Zhuqi Villa. Just in case, she even asked the owner of Zhuqi Villa, her grandfather, to swear that the male of Zhuqi Villa During the reign of the Daxiang Dynasty, it is forbidden to step into the Eastern Capital forever, and if there is any violation, heaven and man will kill it together."

In these words, Yan Zhan seems to have embarked on a journey of retrogression, and the ups and downs of his mood stirred up the memories he didn't want to look back, and brought him back to the fire that night.

The room suddenly fell into a dead silence.

Yan Yu lowered his eyebrows and lowered his eyes, as if in deep thought.

After a long time, Yan Zhan regained his composure, looked straight at Yan Yu with those eyes that understood the world, and said decisively: "This is your mother's expectation, since I have complied with her, there is absolutely no reason to break the promise, even if I am ashamed with you."

Emperor Qi made a promise, surpassing the mountains and seas, his words must be done, and his actions must be resolute. This ambition is famous all over the world.

Over the years, Yan Yu was angry at his father's alienation, and he was brooding at his lack of attention. He even once suspected that his father didn't love his mother at all, so he neglected himself.He also thought that the reason why his father treated him like this was because he was ashamed of his mother, and he dared not face himself because of guilt.

But he couldn't accept any of them, so he tried his best and worked every step of the way. He had planned and persisted for many years, just to prove his excellence and to prove to Emperor Qi that he was wrong, but he never thought about it. Everything turned out to be just because of my mother's expectations.

Yan Yu twitched the corner of his mouth, he wanted to laugh, but in the end he held back.

He couldn't smile.

"But in the end you're pursuing it."

For a moment, Emperor Qi's gaze also became a little surprised, as if he was helpless, but there was pride in his helplessness, and finally he looked at Yan Yu and laughed.

He laughed and coughed at the same time, but he didn't stop talking because of this, he smiled and coughed and said: "Although it's helpless, but I'm also relieved, you are my son after all."

After finishing speaking, Emperor Qi lowered his head, barely stopped coughing, then raised his head and said: "Even if we are separated from the north to the south, you are still my son, even if we don't meet each other in this life, you are still my son. It cannot be changed, the blood that connects you and me is indelible, so since you have this pursuit, then I am willing to give you this opportunity, even if you fail your mother's last hope, in the future, I will think about it myself She apologized." Emperor Qi said proudly, after a slight pause, he became depressed again, "But Yu'er, you let me down so much."

"disappointment?"

Emperor Qi's words made Yan Yu's eyes burn, and his heart also boiled hot. He felt as if he was being played by the other party in the applause.

He said he was proud of him, but he also said he was disappointed in him.

"I'm very disappointed in you, because you didn't fight for this position for Daxiang, for the people of Li. You have no ambition in your heart."

Seeing people showing displeasure, Emperor Qi said again: "You are scheming, but you lack the spirit of leading the world with a grand plan. You want to seize the throne, but it is for the momentary mood in your heart, just for the sake of your mother in other people's mouths. hope, you seek but a false consolation."

Emperor Qi looked at him with a stern expression: "In this world, the inheritance of the throne should not be just to satisfy one's inner grievances."

Yan Yu blinked, raised his eyelids a little, all the struggle just now turned into a mockery, and said with a meaningless smile: "It's up to now, why bother to talk, after all, you never thought of passing on the throne to me, Big brother is the perfect heir in your heart."

Emperor Qi nodded when he heard the words: "Yes, your elder brother is indeed the best heir to the throne in my mind, because he is outstanding, he is better than you and the fourth eldest brother."

Yan Yu didn't expect Emperor Qi to speak out what was in his heart so bluntly, and was stunned for a moment as if struck by lightning.

"In the beginning you used the Jiangnan lineage to build your own reputation. I thought you could perform better, but in the end you chose a path controlled by others." Emperor Qi looked at Yan Yu and sighed, "You chose to throw away your wife? Abandoning a son, just to force yourself into a situation of being controlled by others?"

Yan Yu's face froze, but was soon replaced by stubbornness, and he defended himself: "After the matter is done, I will have a way to get rid of them."

Emperor Qi shook his head, his eyes were clear and brighter than the dancing candles: "When you step on the cliff, how easy is it to find a way out? If you are not under the control of others, how can Xu'er's actions influence your decision this time, or do you say that you have been so far?" Haven't seen why you lost this time?"

"It's because of the fourth brother." Yan Yu's hand on his knee tightened and loosened, loosened and tightened, and finally let go, "The fourth brother has long known that there is a connection between me and Yingzhu. He deliberately went to the Yi'an Palace first, and then pretended to be mysterious, and talked with Concubine Ning behind closed doors. This move was for Yingzhu to see, he was guiding her, and he deliberately stimulated the concubine mother with words, causing her to fall into a struggle In order to create false news that your father may be critically ill, Yingzhu didn't know the true meaning, and went to Yi'an Hall to investigate, and directly stepped into the scheme of the fourth brother."

"and then?"

While speaking, Yan Yu slowly regained her composure and arrogance, and said calmly: "Although the surface of Yi'an Hall has not changed, the smell of medicine coming out of it has become stronger. This must be the fourth brother's trick."

Emperor Qi nodded: "Xu'er brought me some herbal teas, although the smell is strong, but the taste is bitter and sweet, and I don't understand the nature of the medicine. I like it very much."

"Ha." Yan Yu laughed at herself, "The Tai Hospital didn't say anything. Instead, it seems that someone deliberately concealed such a situation. This further strengthened Yingzhu's inner guess. In fact, it was indeed intentional, but it was not deliberately concealed. It was deliberately misleading, misleading me to make wrong decisions at the wrong time, fourth brother’s trick is really ingenious, and with only one hand, he pulled me from a place where rare goods can live to a dilemma."

When he was in Zongzheng Temple, Yan Yu figured out all the reasons. He had already spent enough time to taste the taste brought by this fact, and now it is not difficult to accept it.

"People, once they make a wrong choice, they have to spend more energy to deal with the resulting consequences, followed by the superposition of one mistake after another, and the harm caused is like that rolling snowball. Expand, if you are not controlled by others, why would you be so reckless." After a pause, Emperor Qi said loudly, "How can I be controlled by others."

Yan Yu: "I didn't expect the fourth younger brother to hide in the dark and plot. It was indeed my mistake."

Emperor Qi: "Absolute conspiracy, only when it is suppressed with absolute power can the other side be subdued. This is what Ah Chen has done very well."

"After all, you still prefer big brother. I'm not as good as him? Heh, besides the kindness of a woman, what am I not as good as him?"

"Chen'er is really kind, that's right, but he is not incapable." Emperor Qi's voice remained the same, neither fast nor slow, but his eyes were completely different from his face, not aging, Extraordinarily sharp, "It is precisely because of his strength that he can show the invaluability of this kindness. How simple it is to take life and death, and the courage required for absolute kindness is unimaginable to you now."

Yan Yu was sitting, his face was extremely indifferent, there was even an indescribable ferocity in his dark eyes, he was staring at the teacup in front of him, his side face was sharp and his lips lacked blood, making him look cold and reserved means proud.

"Are you not convinced?" Emperor Qi asked.

Yan Yu didn't answer, he turned his head away, his thin lips were pursed into a straight line, his indifference was like a sculpture.

Emperor Qi sighed, and said again: "Benevolence and tenderness are two completely different concepts. Indecision is not advisable, but kindness is a very good disposition."

"If people's hearts are not cruel, how can the country be stable?"

"People in the world always say that those who achieve great things must be ruthless, decisive, and cannot have too much love, but I don't think so." Emperor Qi looked deeply at Yan Yu, and said, "If there is no great love, so what? achieve great things?"

Yan Yu was speechless for a moment.

"It's okay if you don't understand now, there are some questions that have no solution at all, just like some misunderstandings, if you don't get to the bottom of it, it's just a regret that can never be recovered." Emperor Qi said slowly, with a calm voice, "But you It's my son, my Yan Zhan's son can be incompetent, but he can't be ignorant, if you can't figure it out, then go back and think about it slowly until you can figure it out."

Yan Yu raised his eyes and asked without thinking: "I am your son?"

Emperor Qi nodded and replied, "Of course you are my son."

Yan Yu: "So many years of attachment and resentment, just because of these few words, now you want me to just let it go?"

Emperor Qi: "Can't you let go?"

Yan Yu: "The massacre in the Xinggong Palace, the entire Fuliu clan, so many lives were all because of me."

"Those lives are on my shoulders." The warm yellow candlelight shone on Emperor Qi's face, and Yan Yu actually felt a little warm when he saw it. Emperor Qi said again, "Because you are my son."

What he said was simple, yet powerful.

Surprised, puzzled, accompanied by a heart-wrenching epiphany, this profound but plain sentence smoothed out all the resentment Yan Yu had held in the past twenty years.

Emperor Qi got up, walked to Yan Yu's side, raised his hand and pressed heavily on his shoulder.

"Hatred can't bear fruit. The reason why Lan Ruo let me hide this matter and send you away is to let you get rid of the past, get rid of the shackles, and live a good life. I'm telling you this now, just to let you know that you have always It's the child I care about, not for you to fall into the past of your predecessors and forget yourself."

☆, father and son

"Little grandson, where are you? Slow down, wait for this old slave."

Walking out of the Nuan Pavilion, the moonlight was shining on the face, and the cold and cold light reflected the quiet courtyard. Yan Yu walked woodenly in it, and when he walked slowly to a side road, he heard such a shout from a distance.

The little grandson...

It's him.

his children.

Yan Yu involuntarily stopped at the same spot, his child was very close to him at this time, maybe he could see it as long as he turned the corner ahead, but for some reason he couldn't move his feet.

A feeling similar to the timidity of being close to home quietly crept into Yan Yu's heart.

He has not seen his child for nearly two years since its birth.But he knew everything about him, he knew that his eldest brother and Yao Lingyun regarded him as his own son, he knew that he often went in and out of Yi'an Hall, and his father loved him very much.

Do you want to meet up?Just take a look.

Yan Yu struggled inwardly, but before he could make a choice, he ran into a child staggering from a corner.

The opponent didn't have time to stop and bumped into Yan Yu directly.

Yan Yu subconsciously leaned over and raised her hand to support the child.

At this time, the bright moon is rising, the moonlight is hazy, and under the faint halo, the soft light hits the quiet courtyard at night, which is plainly more clear than the daytime.

The child looked up at Yan Yu slightly, blinked, and said in a childish voice, "Who are you?"

Yan Yu lowered his eyes, fixedly staring at the little doll who was only going to leave before him, and didn't reply.

Seeing that people didn't speak, Yan Ziqin couldn't help asking: "Why don't you speak? Do you know that you will be boarded if you block my way?"

The clear child's voice struck Yan Yu's heart, Yan Yu leaned over to straighten him, and said softly, "Then you want to hit me?"

Yan Ziqin took advantage of the situation and stood up, tilted his head and fell into deep thought. After a long while, he waved his hand generously: "Nearly you are the first offender, so I won't bother with you, but you have to pay attention in the future, next time If you do it again, you won’t be so lucky.”

Yan Yu laughed and said: "Then, I would like to thank the little Huang Sun for his forgiveness."

Yan Ziqin nodded in satisfaction, and turned his eyes to the Xuanjia guards who followed Yan Yu, he looked at the guards, then at Yan Yu, blinked again, and asked, "Did you do anything else? "

"Yes."

The two words came out, with a low voice that was almost sigh-like, Yan Yu looked down at the child in front of him, and seemed to be looking through him at the person who hadn't existed for a long time.

The time of a hundred years is like a dream butterfly, but now looking back on the past is wasted.

In the final analysis, the grievances and grievances in this world are nothing more than a sentence.

Yan Ziqin didn't understand the meaning of the expression on Yan Yu's face, he only felt a feeling that he couldn't describe at his age, and he didn't know why he had a natural sense of closeness to the person in front of him.

Yan Ziqin obeyed his heart, took a step forward, raised his hand to pull Yan Yu's clothes, raised his head, and said, "Don't be afraid, uncle said that it's okay to make a mistake, as long as you correct it in time, don't make it again in the future." That's it."

Tongyan Tongyan fell into Yan Yu's ears, as if a basin of cold water was pouring over her head, those complicated thoughts immediately faded away like a tide, the resentment before not knowing the truth, the panic after failing to succeed, and the futility after knowing everything were all poured out in an instant Suddenly, the tense nerves suddenly became comfortable and warm.

After all, he was the one who got the picture.

Yan Yu laughed, squatted down, rubbed Yan Ziqin's head, and said softly, "You're right."

Being praised, Yan Ziqin raised his face proudly: "That is, my grandson is the smartest."

Yan Yu laughed when he saw this, and nodded in agreement.

"My little ancestor, why did you leave the guards and come here alone, and don't even look at what time it is, but the old slave is easy to find." Fu Anren stopped before he heard, and then approached Yan Yan Yu was stunned on the spot for a moment, he looked at Yan Yu, then at Yan Ziqin, and after a while he bowed and saluted, "Your Highness."

"Eunuch, you don't need to be too polite." Yan Yu stood up, looked down at Yan Ziqin again, nodded to Fu An, and said, "I will trouble Eunuch from now on."

After speaking, Yan Yu turned and left.

"Hello." Seeing people leave, Yan Ziqin suddenly called out from behind, "Can I see you again in the future?"

Yan Yu paused slightly, but didn't stop because of it.

Yes, someday.Yan Yu replied inwardly.

I thought that everything I did was to justify myself and my mother, but unexpectedly, it was wrong from the beginning. It turns out that he has always been a pawn in other people's hands, being used by others without knowing it, ha.

Ironic.

That period of the past was diametrically opposed to what I had imagined. Those ancient truths were dripping with blood, moldy, and rusty, and the helplessness hidden in it was not caused by God's will, but caused by man.

He gave up half his life, abandoned everything, and tried his best to weave a situation, but he still couldn't resist the cruelty of the world. In the end, he was the only one trapped.

Yan Yu knew very well that what Emperor Qi said was not wrong, he was interested in the throne, but above that, it was his obsession to impress his father.

Yan Yu's unreconciled will has made Yan Yu's belief in seizing the heir, but now that he is shaken physically and mentally, what should he do?

The wind blows, the clouds move, and the moon is blocked behind by the clouds. After a while, the moon disappears again.

The clouds and the moon seem to be chasing and playing, appearing and disappearing suddenly, the light is dim and dim, and it is unclear.Is the road to imperial power that has been painstaking and painstaking for several years really coming to an end in such a dark night?

He has been trapped in a prison called "imperial power" all his life, unable to break free, unable to escape, like being trapped in a besieged city, he had to step on the blood dripping with his feet in exchange for a chance to feel proud.

In those years, what supported him was unwillingness, resentment, and ambition, but in the end he found that he didn't need to be unwilling, because everything his father did was because of his mother's expectation, and he was always paying attention to himself; There is no need to resent, the death of his mother and concubine was tragic and heroic, and his father was just as brooding and unforgettable as he was.

As for ambition.

If not for his mother, what about himself? Putting aside unwillingness and resentment, what does the throne mean to him?

For this reason, he even gave up the love of his life.

Countless green mountains are separated by seas, why do we go together but return differently?

Yan Yu, who was deep in thought, walked alone, and his heart was at a loss, as if he didn't see Yan Chen and Yao Lingyun standing in front of him, he walked slowly through.

Looking at Yan Yu who passed by, and Yan Chen who was standing beside him without saying a word, Yao Lingyun sighed in his heart, and asked, "In your Highness's mind, what kind of father is the so-called father?" What does it look like?"

"Huh?" Yan Yu paused when he heard that, and looked sideways at Yao Lingyun.

Yao Lingyun said: "Ability and responsibility complement each other. As much ability as you have, you have to bear as much responsibility, but the premise is whether it is suitable or not."

Yan Yu sneered: "Can this cover up his favoritism?"

"Although His Majesty has different attitudes towards the several Highnesses, the care he gives is the same. He values ​​His Highness the First and loves the Fourth Highness. Although the Second Highness doesn't call you much, he still cherishes you very much."

"Treasure more? He told you?" Yan Yu asked back, and said with disdain, "What do you think you are?"

Strong words hurt others.

But regarding Yan Yu's attitude, Yao Lingyun didn't mind at all, he just asked: "In the past few years, Your Highness has never seen Ziqin once, so you don't value him at all?"

With such an analogy, Yan Yu was speechless to refute for a while.

"People have the same heart and the same reason, and His Highness treats you the same." After a pause, Yao Lingyun continued, "And the so-called not many summons are just your own opinion, Your Highness. Your Majesty summoned several princes. The number of times is almost the same, but His Highness thinks that he does not meet with His Majesty many times, why is this? Don't you understand, Your Highness?"

Because of his own opinions, in these years, except for the necessary greetings, he seldom visited Emperor Qi alone at other times, and the other party never blamed him for this, and he always thought that the other party's non-blaming was just because he was ashamed To mother and concubine.

The moonlight broke through the clouds, and the bleak light reflected Yan Yu's dazed face.

At this moment, Yan Yu lowered his eyes slightly, the moonlight passed through the thick eyelashes, casting fan-shaped shadows on his thin and pale cheeks.

Yao Lingyun said word by word: "Your Highness, you have preconceptions."

Hearing this, Yan Yu raised her eyes and looked straight at Yao Lingyun.

"That's why Xun believes that what the father looks like depends on what the son of a father thinks in his heart. Different people see different appearances. This is not a father's choice." Yao Lingyun said slowly, "Your Highness can of course feel injustice for what happened to you, but I hope His Highness will think about the reason."

Yan Yu stared at Yao Lingyun, his face was as pale as paper, his expression was astonishingly indifferent, his eyes were bright and sharp as if the moonlight was reflected on the cold blade of a knife, which made people feel chills inside.

Seeing it, Yao Lingyun couldn't help but stop talking.

What happens to a man who has always been calm when he loses it?

He has said what should be said and can be said, and the rest is beyond his beak.

"Second brother." Yan Chen, who had been silent all this time, suddenly called out.

Yan Yu searched for the sound and looked sideways.

"Leave the imperial city." Yan Chen almost sighed, "Go to Jiangnan, and don't come back."

Yan Yu was taken aback for a moment, then he laughed, and laughed slowly: "If I don't leave, will you kill me?"

"If you don't go." Yan Chen repeated these four words, his voice was low and hoarse, his eyes were slightly closed, and between the opening and closing of his eyes, Yan Chen's face showed a trace of fatigue inadvertently, stuck in the The breath in his throat finally came out, and the sigh was so short that it was almost inaudible, "Then I can't keep Aqin."

The moon in the night, the wind under the moon, blowing a tree full of flowers, outside the corridor, the fiery red pomegranate flowers fell into the pond with a plop, Yan Yu suddenly raised his head, Yan Chen stood there straight, with scattered light and shadow, very lonely.

Yan Yu's eyes were as cold as ice, but his voice was colder than his eyes.

"Are you threatening me?"