love you slowly

"What's wrong with you? Are you sick?" Meng Annan picked up Lu Zhiyuan who was lying motionless on the table and touched his forehead.

Lu Zhiyuan avoided Meng Annan's hand, "I'm fine." Fu lay still on the table like a dead man.

Lu Zhiyuan had been lying on the table with dark circles under his eyes and a tired face since the morning self-study. At first, Meng Annan only thought that he stayed up late last night playing games, so he let him fall asleep without disturbing him.But in the first class and it was Lao Chen's class, he was lying on the table or closing his eyes or staring at a place in a daze. Meng Annan reminded him several times that he was indifferent, and even Lao Chen called his name. They all just straightened up and were still in a daze.

The first time Feng Ke came after class, Lu Zhiyuan ignored him and the same happened the second time, he finally felt something was wrong.

"What's wrong with him?" Feng Ke asked Meng Annan softly, nodding his chin a little.

"I don't know." Meng Annan frowned and shook his head.

It was raining today, so there was no need to go to the playground for exercises between classes. After Feng Ke left with a face full of doubts, Meng Annan forcibly pulled Lu Zhiyuan out.

Meng Annan took an umbrella and walked out of the teaching building with Lu Zhiyuan. At first, both of them just shared the umbrella and walked in the rain without speaking.When they got to the carport, Meng Annan pulled Lu Zhiyuan back, "Let's stay here for a while."

There was no one passing by, only the sound of rain beating on the roof of the carport. Meng Annan patted the water drops on Lu Zhiyuan's body, turned his face to himself, looked at him and said, "Tell me, what are you doing?" What's wrong?"

"Oh." Lu Zhiyuan sighed, leaned on the pillar, played with his fingers, and said in a casual tone, "My mother said she was going to study abroad."

Meng Annan was stunned, he remembered that Lu Zhiyuan told him that his father owed a lot of money and ran away, so Lu Zhiyuan lived with his mother all the time, and now his mother is going abroad to leave him alone It must be extremely uncomfortable to study in China.

"Don't you want her to go?" Meng Annan rubbed the hands that had passed by.

Lu Zhiyuan lowered his head and didn't know what he was thinking, and he spoke after a while: "Actually, she didn't go alone."

"Huh?" Meng Annan looked at him suspiciously, "Then who else?"

"An uncle, he was the one who helped me and my mother come to D city." Lu Zhiyuan said, "I can see that he likes my mother, yesterday, my mother also told me that they are together. And he plans to settle abroad."

Speaking of this, Lu Zhiyuan paused for a second, raised his head to look at Meng Annan, laughed at himself and continued, "He, his son, and my mother went to live abroad together, and I was the extra one."

"No!" Seeing Lu Zhiyuan's forced smile, Meng Annan was very distressed, he pulled Lu Zhiyuan into his arms and hugged him, "You are not superfluous."

"Hey." Lu Zhiyuan patted Meng Annan's shoulder amusedly, "Okay, I'm not redundant, can you relax a bit? You want to strangle me!"

Meng Annan let go of him and looked into his eyes and said, "You are the best."

"Pfft." Lu Zhiyuan finally burst out laughing, he patted Meng Annan's head and said with a smile, "Others treat me like grass, but you treat me like treasure."

Seeing Lu Zhiyuan's familiar smiling face, Meng Annan also smiled.

"Forget it," Lu Zhiyuan said, "I don't want to. She can go if she wants to. It's also my fault for being ignorant. It's been really hard to take care of me for so many years. Now that I'm older, she really should live her own life." .”

After he finished speaking, he glanced at Meng Annan, looked around and found no one was coming, then put his other hand into Meng Annan's palm, looked at him and said, "It's okay, I still have you."

Lu Zhiyuan looked at Meng Annan, who had gentle eyebrows and eyes, and the anxiety and panic lurking in his heart gradually disappeared. One day he would have a home, and Meng Annan's home.

After going out for a walk with Meng Annan, he finally recovered. After returning to the classroom, Feng Ke, who was sitting in front of him, frequently turned his head to look in the direction of Lu Zhiyuan. When he saw Xiaoluzi talking and laughing with Meng Annan, Sometimes, like a dog that smells a bone, it wags its tail and comes here looking for the smell.

"Far away, what happened to you last class, why did you lose your mind, I looked for you several times and ignored me." Feng Ke drove Su Xiaotong away and succeeded in occupying the magpie's nest, even though Su Xiaotong beat him several times The fist never moves the buttocks.

Lu Zhiyuan watched Su Xiaotong stomp his feet in a childlike manner, and before leaving, he picked up the Chinese dictionary on the table and hit Feng Ke on the dog's head hard before he stopped.

"Is your dog head okay?" Lu Zhiyuan looked at Feng Ke grinning in pain with a funny face.

"Don't change the subject!" Feng Ke waved his hand like a professional gossip reporter, refusing to miss the point.

"Okay, okay." Lu Zhiyuan hurriedly held down the restless person before Feng Ke pawed him.

"To be honest, I played the game all night last night, and the ranking was pitted by pig teammates! All the stars I saved were lost, and I almost fell to bronze! When did I feel so angry? I'm so angry that I haven't recovered yet!" Lu Zhiyuan flattered me.

Feng Ke is a standard stupid big man with well-developed limbs and a simple mind, with a bluffing face.

After he was stunned for a moment, he suddenly burst into laughter, "Hahaha, Lu Zhiyuan, are you stupid, a broken game is worth your anger for so long?"

"Wait a minute, I know the boss in the game, and I will form a team to take you to the top tonight!" Feng Ke said excitedly.

"Thank you." Lu Zhiyuan smiled.

During the first class break in the afternoon, Su Xiaotong just came out of Lao Chen's office. When she returned to the classroom, she patted the table far away, as if she was in dire straits, "It's not good! Lao Chen is looking for you!"

Seeing Su Xiaotong in such a catastrophe, Lu Zhiyuan laughed, "Just look for it, I didn't do anything wrong."

"Still talking!" Su Xiaotong couldn't help but rolled his eyes, "Isn't it a big deal if you were either in a daze or sleeping in Lao Chen's class in the morning?"

"Damn it!" Lu Zhiyuan sat up straight in an instant, and glanced at Meng Annan, "It can't be because of this!"

"Do you want me to accompany you?" Meng Annan covered the lid of the water glass for him, for fear that he would overturn the handle in agitation and burn it.

"No need." Lu Zhiyuan said, "It shouldn't be a big deal. If I'm sincere, Old Chen won't say anything about me."

Lu Zhiyuan hesitated at the door of the office for a while and then knocked on the door.

"Please come in."

"Mr. Chen, are you looking for me?" Lu Zhiyuan walked to Lao Chen's desk and stood still.

Old Chen adjusted his glasses, took a sip of tea before speaking, "What's going on with you this morning?"

With his hands behind his back, Lu Zhiyuan stared awkwardly at the opening of the steaming thermos cup on the table.

"Something happened at home and I'm not in a good mood. I blame myself for not adjusting myself in the morning."

"Is it serious?" Old Chen asked.

"It's not serious," Lu Zhiyuan shook his head, "It's just a small matter."

"Yeah." Lao Chen nodded, "That's good."

After a while, Lao Chen took a form from the table and pointed it to Lu Zhiyuan, "Look, this is your result of the last monthly exam."

He took out another sheet and placed it beside it, pointing to one of the columns, "This is your midterm exam result."

"I found that your comprehensive essays and Chinese are quite good, but your math and English are not ideal, and I found that your math has improved in this midterm exam."

A smile flashed in Lu Zhiyuan's eyes. The qualitative leap in his mathematics was thanks to Meng Annan. It was almost as if he could make up mathematics for Lu Zhiyuan when he had free time. If it weren't for English, Lu Zhiyuan would Otherwise, according to Meng Annan's tutoring intensity, it would not be a problem to get into the top ten of the class.

"Your mother called me to ask about your grades, and she said that she wants to study abroad directly after you graduate from high school." Old Chen tapped the desktop and continued.

Lu Zhiyuan's eyes suddenly turned cold, "I won't go abroad to study."

"Ah." Old Chen was taken aback for a moment, "Then you have to discuss this with your mother."

"En." Lu Zhiyuan nodded, "I see."

"Okay," Lao Chen waved his hand, "then you can go back to the classroom."

As soon as Lu Zhiyuan left the office and turned to the stairs, he saw Meng Annan leaning against the wall.

"Why did you come here?"

Meng Annan smiled, "I will give you courage."

"Tsk," Lu Zhiyuan shook his head, "Your way of emphasizing your courage is a bit special. If you didn't say that I didn't know you came here with me."

"How is it?" Meng Annan walked to Lu Zhiyuan and followed him downstairs, "Did Lao Chen say anything to you?"

"No, I just talked about my grades in detail, and then..." Speaking of this, Lu Zhiyuan remembered that Lao Chen mentioned about his mother saying that he wanted him to study abroad, so he couldn't help but pause.

"That's all?" Seeing that he was halfway through his speech, Meng Annan turned his head and glanced at him.

Lu Zhiyuan smiled, "After that, he said that my math score in the midterm exam has improved compared to that in the monthly exam."

He patted Meng Annan on the shoulder, "Thanks to you, boss, for saving my damn math."

Meng Annan glanced at him, "I think your English can still be salvaged."

"Don't, don't, don't," Lu Zhiyuan was so frightened that he almost stepped on the stairs, "I have a natural incompatibility with English, don't belch when English comes to the rescue!"

"Escaping won't solve the problem." Meng Annan said, "Go back and memorize words. You haven't completed half of the tasks I gave you last time."

"My God! I'm still not your cutie!!!"

"You are cute when you finish memorizing. If you can't finish memorizing..." Meng Annan paused for a second and looked up and down at Lu Zhiyuan, "It's just a little idiot."

"what!!!!!"

There was only a shrill scream heard from the whole building, which frightened the birds resting on the roof and fled in all directions.

Lu Zhiyuan was dragged by Meng Annan to recite vocabulary all afternoon. When Feng Ke passed by, Lu Zhiyuan gave him several winks, hoping to save him from the fire and water, but this bastard looked forward to his boss Meng, Resolutely ignoring Lu Zhiyuan's fiery eyes, she walked past him lightly without forgetting to slap her ear.

When school was over, Lu Zhiyuan felt his body was hollowed out, he could even walk by instinct, and when he thought of going home and facing his mother, he became even more listless, like a beaten eggplant listless.

"You're exaggerating," Meng Annan glanced at him, "Didn't you just memorize a few words? Those who don't know think I've done something to you."

"Oh." Lu Zhiyuan sighed again, "I don't want to go home."

Because Lu Zhiyuan was not in a good mood today, Meng Annan insisted on sending Lu Zhiyuan home even though Lu Zhiyuan brought up the issue of man's dignity. If you don’t want to go home, then go to my house?”

The bus swayed and swayed, and almost fell asleep after the swaying distance.He leaned beside Meng Annan and closed his eyes to rest his mind. After hearing this, he shook his head, "No, as you said, running away won't solve the problem."

"Are you really not going to my house?" Meng Annan asked again at the gate of the community.

"What's the matter, are you disappointed?" Lu Zhiyuan teased Meng Annan.

"Of course I'm disappointed." Meng Annan laughed suddenly, and said in a low voice, "After all, sleeping alone is not as comfortable as sleeping with two people."

"Damn!" Lu Zhiyuan scolded with a smile, "You should hurry up and go, you bastard!"

When Lu Zhiyuan entered the door, Mo Rulan sat upright on the sofa once again unusually, saw Lu Zhiyuan rubbed his hands awkwardly when he opened the door and came in, and couldn't come up with a whole sentence for a while.

In fact, Lu Zhiyuan is not much better, the face is not obvious, in fact, the dark tide is already surging in his heart, as early as yesterday, he unreservedly tore off all the layers of disguise and ruthlessness, and exposed them all to the incandescent light. When he was under the light, he couldn't find the previous gag state, so when he saw Mo Rulan who was sitting firmly on the sofa like a mountain, he seemed to lose the ability to talk in an instant and became a dumb who couldn't speak.

Therefore, his footsteps took a turn on the side of the sofa and turned straight to his own door.

However, after all, some people lost their temper, and Mo Rulan called Lu Zhiyuan to stop.

"Let's talk about it," she said.

Lu Zhiyuan's footsteps paused, and after stopping for a while, he turned around and walked to the sofa to sit down. He picked up the strap of his schoolbag and waited for Mo Rulan to speak.

"I..." she said, "I didn't expect you to have such a big reaction yesterday. It's my fault that I haven't really understood your thoughts all this time. I thought..."

"I thought I didn't care about anything, I thought I was always happy. Is that right?" Lu Zhiyuan smiled lightly and accepted Mo Rulan's words.

Mo Rulan opened her mouth as if to say something, but after a long time, she still couldn't form a proper and timely sentence.

"Mom," Lu Zhiyuan said, "I was too impulsive yesterday. You are right. When you grow up, you can have your own life. The old days are gone, and no one can live in the past forever." Including me too."

"It's good to study abroad. After all, you are so good at painting, and you get along well with Uncle Peng." Lu Zhiyuan said with a smile.

"You... really think so?" Mo Rulan looked at Lu Zhiyuan uncertainly.

"En!" Lu Zhiyuan looked at Mo Rulan softly with bright eyes, the haze that shrouded in his eyes yesterday has completely dissipated, but he doesn't know if it really dissipated or was hidden.

Mo Rulan hugged her son, her hanging heart finally fell to the ground, "I will pick you up after you finish your studies in China."

Lu Zhiyuan shook his head, "I want to stay in China and not go abroad."

His home is here and he will not go there.

Mo Rulan let go of the distance, eyes full of shock, "Why? You...you still blame me for leaving you alone, so you don't want to go?"

"No." Lu Zhiyuan held Mo Rulan's hand to comfort her and said, "You and Uncle Peng have formed a new family. I feel uncomfortable when I go, and I really don't want to study abroad at all. Domestic reading is the same."

"You are my son!" Mo Rulan said anxiously, "Even if I am with you Uncle Peng, you are still my son, and I can't leave you alone in the country, you wait for me to come back to pick you up .”

Lu Zhiyuan saw that he couldn't convince his mother, so he temporarily stopped talking. Anyway, he decided that he would not go abroad, so he was not worried, but said ambiguously: "Let's talk about it when the time comes."

Before his mother continued to persuade him, he quickly changed another topic, "When are you going to leave?"

Sure enough, Mo Rulan was not dwelling on the previous topic, "Next Wednesday."

Lu Zhiyuan was stunned, "It's so fast."

After a while, he returned to normal, "I'll see you off then."

The night is always long, but only for the insomniac, not long enough for the sleeper.

Lu Zhiyuan stared at the clouds gathering and dispersing outside the window, the moon hid in the clouds and came out again, as if playing hide-and-seek with the vast number of insomniacs.

"Oh." Lu Zhiyuan sighed and turned over. He will go to school tomorrow with dark circles under his eyes, and his boyfriend will be worried to death again.

Thinking of Meng Annan, Lu Zhiyuan showed a rare smile.

The camouflage that was torn off yesterday was worn back layer by layer today. This process was so uncomfortable that Lu Zhiyuan began to suffer the side effects of torture at this very moment.

He closed his eyes forcibly, tried to adjust his breathing and began to count the sheep. He hoped to fall asleep as soon as possible before he was able to open the sheep farm. He didn't want to meet Meng Annan with a haggard face!

The moon outside the window flickered in and out, but after a while it found that it was missing a faithful playmate, so it stood on the cloud and took a look. Sure enough, the person inside the window was breathing steadily with his eyes closed, and he must have fallen asleep.