Institute diary

The wind outside the window sill whipped up the rain and smashed it on the transparent glass. I wiped my hair that was still dripping, and locked the window casually.

It's almost six o'clock.I looked out the window, and the water-stained glass was all hazy black.

Sure enough, the late autumn mornings were getting later and later.

I silently put on a high-necked black sweater, opened the door and walked through the corridor. There is still an operation that needs my assistance today.But I didn't expect that the attending physician would be Li Na.

To be honest, when I saw a black leather high-heeled shoe first, I already had a bad feeling.

I still don't know how to face her, after all she indirectly ruined Xu Qi.

I hate her.

So when people are flattering there, I adjust the lights.

"How are you doing recently, Fu Yan?" He was lightly patted on the shoulder, and the smell of perfume arrived first.

I took her hand off without even looking at her.

"There's no need to deny people like this, right?" Li Na waved her hands easily, her voice was sweet, "Actually, I didn't expect things to develop like this. But, it's over."

"That's you," my voice was cold, "please don't be self-righteous."

"Hey, I know you can't forget it now, but it's good to get used to it. You will always let him go."

"Now I won't. In the future, never, I won't!" I felt veins throbbing in my temples, and my voice suppressed anger.

Li Na shook her head lightly, and put on the hoodie of the medical uniform.

The lights in the operating room flicked on.

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Why did I put on a look of "you don't understand", I leaned against the corner of the wall, and I was inexplicably angry when I thought of Li Na's face.

Is the Bensan people so self-righteous?Can rely on this way to get promoted, and then decide the fate of others?

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"Li Na!" I called to stop her after the operation, I almost forgot about Liu Xu's child.

"I'm a doctor, Fu Yan." Li Na interrupted me, the smile on her face made me feel numb.

"I know!... What did you do to Liu Xu?"

"Liu...Xu?"

I followed my rising and falling breath, "It's 103, how is he?"

"103, he is not an infected person, what do you think I will do?"

"I didn't want to chat with you!" My voice suddenly raised.

"I pushed him away." Li Na looked at me and answered casually.

"You..." I wanted to hit her at first, but when I thought she was a woman, I was forced to loosen my clenched hands. "You are a doctor! Even if he is not an infected person, as a doctor, you should pretend to be a 'doctor', right?"

"What should a doctor look like? What does it look like? Like when you dissected 069 without changing your face?" Li Na raised her lips in an obvious arc. .

"What's wrong with you? After staying in the institute for so long, don't you even understand the human nature here?

"Oh, let me tell you one more thing. Just yesterday, the mother of No. 103 committed suicide."

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graduate School……

What am I doing after listening to Li Na's words - I seem to be slumped on the floor in a decadent state, thinking about my past.

After doing the math, I don't seem to have made any "achievements".

I used to choose a research institute because I imagined that my parents were still there;

Now I choose to persevere because I think I can save him and we can be together.

But none.

There are no close relatives of mine in the Institute, and there may be no lovers of mine in the future.

In the end it was just me.

Is it really going to be like this?

At that time, I seemed to be thinking about the key to the problem, looking at the tear lines sliding in the palm of my hand, and finally thought of a person.That is Qu Yebai.

Do I accept my fate?

impossible.