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Liu Mei saw the sarcasm on Shen Yan's face, she was a little confused, "Why, is there something wrong?"

Shen Yan said with a wry smile: "Auntie, you may not believe me when I say this, but I actually used their guilt to bring up the divorce at the time. I asked for the residence and living expenses with my mouth. As for the other things you said, what are you talking about?" Rent, company, cash, I don't know anything."

"What?" Liu Mei was anxious and spoke English.

"Auntie, I don't need to lie," Shen Yan paused when he said this, he still had a deep memory of the situation at that time.

"I know I'm blind, so it's okay if those two people don't comfort me, and they are still arguing in front of the hospital bed, so I knelt down and begged them to stop quarreling for the sake of my blindness, get a divorce, and give me The residence and living expenses in the garden are considered as compensation for me, and within a few days, they agreed."

"In the final analysis, I knew that they might be unreliable at the beginning, and I just found a way out for myself, but I didn't expect that this way would still not work out after all."

After getting two different versions of the divorce agreement from Shen Yan and Liu Ru, Liu Mei was stunned for a moment.

At the beginning, Liu Ru had a falling out with his family because of the money, but after all, they were sisters. Liu Mei always sympathized with her sister, and Liu Ru always behaved in front of her, but now speaking of it, things seemed different. There is something hidden, but Liu Mei still wants to defend her sister.

"Xiaoyan," she said tactfully, "I think the main reason why she treats you like this is because she can't accept your emotional problems, otherwise, according to her way, she won't ignore you."

Shen Yan shook his head with a wry smile, "Auntie, that's really not the case. Everything I've experienced since I was a child tells me that she really never loved me."

"Xiaoyan, isn't it a bit biased for you to say that?" Liu Mei frowned, she didn't want Shen Yan to comment on Liu Ru like this, "I remember that you were not in good health after school, and your mother did everything for you. It’s not faked by others; at that time, everyone’s conditions were just getting better, and few had pianos, so she was willing to spend money to buy them for you, how can you say she never loved you?”

"Love me?" Shen Yan suddenly covered his face with his hands and laughed, and the more he laughed, the louder his voice became, but gradually, his voice choked up again, "Loving me means pinching me all over? Or, loving me? Just to let Shen Congshan go home, I was forced to take a cold shower in winter, and couldn’t close the windows at night?”

"What did you say?" Liu Mei's voice suddenly rose an octave, her face full of shock and disbelief.

Shen Yan actually said this sentence impulsively, and he regretted it after he finished speaking. Those hideous pasts were deeply buried in his heart. If Liu Mei hadn't brought them up, he wouldn't want to bring them up again.

"Auntie, I'm sorry, I... I said the wrong thing, just think she loved me." Shen Yan shook his head wearily, "It's all in the past, who cares what happened?"

Ren Liumei asked all kinds of questions, but until she left, Shen Yan never said a word related to it, he just said to Liu Mei: "At least before I moved out of Linyuanju, I was only disappointed with them at most, but always I never hated her, but now, it's too late to say anything, and as for whether to go to England, I will think carefully again."

After seeing off his aunt, Shen Yan sat on the balcony on the second floor. Although the summer evening wind was hot, Shen Yan felt that it still couldn't warm him.

Whether it's my aunt or everyone else, what Liu Ru wants others to see is what Liu Ru wants to see. She is a beautiful wife, a gentle mother, and she is dedicated to her husband and son. How cruel she is.

Shen Yan remembered that he first started to learn the piano because Shen Congshan found a female piano student for a while. Liu Ru thought that if he learned it, he would be able to attract Shen Congshan to go home, but when he could play the first piece completely , Shen Congshan broke up with that female student a long time ago, so angry that Liu Ru pinched him severely.

Of course, he was able to continue learning the piano afterwards because Liu Ru discovered that this incident showed that she loved her child and was willing to spend money on it, and when others praised Shen Yan, it could also satisfy her vanity.

In the first few years of school, Liu Ru watched him very closely. She didn't let others touch him because she didn't want people to find his injuries. A light pinch would cause him to break out in a cold sweat. Later, as she gained more experience, she changed her method so that she could beat very painfully without leaving too many marks.

At the very beginning, it's not that Shen Yan never sought help. Once, he pretended to inadvertently tell Du Zichen, and Du Zichen turned around and told Dr. Zhang. When Dr. Zhang was chatting with Liu Ru, he cryptically mentioned the idea of ​​beating the child. He tried to persuade him tactfully about this matter, but in retrospect he was pinched again and fined without food for two days. From then on, he knew that no one could help him.

Later, Shen Yan learned very well and was a good boy in everyone's eyes. He tried every means to help her, and wanted to help her keep Shen Congshan who came home occasionally, but what was the use?That human heart is gone, how can it be kept?

And Shen Congshan also hated him, hated that he looked like Liu Ru, and hated him for helping Liu Ru. If he hadn't only had his son back then, maybe Shen Congshan and Liu Ru would have divorced long ago.

At that time, Shen Yan felt that he should hate her, but once Shen Congshan came home, Liu Ru was very kind to him, would buy him delicious food, would praise him, and would take care of him who was sick without sleep. It was almost all caused by Liu Ru. Although he knew that all of what she did was not out of love, he would still forgive her easily, time and time again.

Shen Yan felt that he must have been a Stockholm patient at that time. He had been hurt all the time, but he longed to get love from them. Fortunately, even though his eyes are blind now, his heart can see much more clearly than before.

On the third day after she and Shen Yan were separated, Liu Mei boarded the plane back to England as scheduled, but before leaving, she went to the nursing home to visit Liu Ru again.

Liu Ru's situation is not under control yet, both hands are fixed in the special clothes, and he keeps mumbling, suddenly his face is ferocious, with an expression of wanting to eat human flesh and drink human blood, but a moment later he is pitiful Xi, with tears streaming down her face, leaving Liu Mei stunned.

In Liu Mei's impression, Liu Ru has always been gentle and generous. When she had a falling out with her family, she spoke in a slow, unhurried tone. When it comes to Shen Congshan, she has always been tolerant Forgive and forgive, and have a complete family for Shen Yan... Liu Mei once admired her strength and forbearance, but she never thought that all of this was just an illusion. After tearing off the intact outer packaging, the inside was rotten to the extreme .

Liu Mei looked at her for a long time, and finally said: "Sister, I'm going back to China, you have to take good care of your illness, I went to see Xiaoyan a few days ago, he is fine now, you don't have to worry."

"Xiaoyan," Liu Ru frowned upon hearing Shen Yan's name, as if hearing something dirty, "The son of a scumbag is a scumbag, and he's a pervert. I'm not your mother."

"Shameful thing, why don't you die?"

"No, you can't die, Xiaoyan, you have to help me, help me keep your father, you kill him."

……

Now Liu Mei finally understands where Shen Yan's choking and sorrow came from after laughing out loud, and also understands his words.

Indeed, apart from Shen Yan himself and the crazy Liu Ru, who would know what happened back then?Who would know how many merciless tortures Shen Yan had endured when he was still a child?

Liu Mei felt that under such circumstances, Shen Yan didn't have hatred in his heart, and he already had to thank God for his care. She really didn't have the right to ask him to love this crazy woman in front of her.

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