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Coming out of KTV, Du Zichen asked Shen Yan on the way home: "Did your dad call you recently? How do you plan to spend New Year's Day?"

"I didn't call, and I don't know what to do on New Year's Day." Shen Yan thought for a while, it seemed that he hadn't received a call from his father for several months, and of course, he didn't take the initiative to call.

"Otherwise, if he doesn't contact you, you can go to my house on New Year's Day." Du Zichen suggested.

"Uncle Du is back?" Shen Yan asked naturally, and the two seemed to be back in the past.

Du Zichen's father is a geologist, and he is not at home for more than half a year. His mother is a surgeon and is also very busy with work, so Du Zichen lives at school most of the time.

"I won't be home until tomorrow. My mother said a few days ago that she will be able to take turns off on New Year's Day this year, so we can spend the holiday together." It's really uncommon in their house to be able to catch up with mom and dad to rest during the holidays.

"No, I guess my dad has to call." Shen Yan rejected Du Zichen. The friend's family has a very good relationship, and it's rare to get together. As an outsider, I decided not to join in the fun.

"My mother asked you a few days ago, saying that she hasn't seen you for almost a year, and you have forgotten her."

When Shen Yan's parents quarreled when he was young, he loved to run to Du Zichen's house. Later, the car accident was caused by Zichen's mother and others. In the past few years, Shen Yan went to Du Zichen's house once or twice a year. This year is the Spring Festival time to go.

"Doctor Zhang is still so worrying, tell her I'm fine now." Shen Yan promised: "When the Chinese New Year comes, when she's off duty, you tell me, and I'll go see her again."

"Okay, after all, we're not too close now, and we have to travel across half of City S." As Du Zichen said, he remembered something again: "By the way, I'm going to start an internship after the Chinese New Year. It's about the same as officially going to work, six days a week, the time can't be so loose, I guess I can't always visit you like before."

"You practice yours, don't worry about me, I haven't had a good life these few years."

"Hey, I don't see you once a month. I'm always worried." Du Zichen said, and said very solemnly: "Ah Yan, I'm really sorry that I haven't called you for more than a month."

"What are you sorry for? Are you worried that one day I will smell bad and no one at home will know?" Shen Yan said half-jokingly.

"Bah, bah, what are you talking about?" Du Zichen became displeased when he heard it, and muttered again: "Children's words are free, children's speeches are free."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Zichen, I was wrong." Hearing what he said, Shen Yan also realized that he had gone too far, but after thinking about it, he still said to Du Zichen: "Zichen, I understand your worry , but you also know that one day I have to face everything by myself, and no one can change this."

"I know that too, but it's a little bit more to take care of you, so I can feel more at ease."

As soon as this was mentioned, Du Zichen felt a little uncomfortable. In the past few years, seeing his friend's body getting thinner day by day, and his mood getting more depressed, he was anxious but couldn't help, because he knew that Shen Yan was suffering from a heart attack. If you don't love your mother, you can even have a healthy body, but Shen Yan has nothing.

So every time we met, when Shen Yan said that he was fine, he knew in his heart that this was not the case, but he couldn't refute it. The wound in Shen Yan's heart could not be completely repaired by friendship alone, let alone this friendship with himself. Also almost missed it.

"Zichen, I've been able to make it through the past few years. In fact, a large part of it is due to you." Shen Yan knew Du Zichen very well. , I made a friend like you, really."

"Every phone call you make, every meal you cook, every job introduction you make is precious to me, and what you do is like... like a light, a light in a dark place, Help me illuminate the path under my feet, so that I can stumble but go on firmly."

"So you must not have any other thoughts. Even if you don't come to see me after the last time, you are still the same as before in my heart."

Hearing these words, Du Zichen put his arms around Shen Yan's shoulder: "Ayan, no matter what, I won't give up our friendship for more than ten years easily. I have also checked a lot of information these days, and I know that you and I have nothing different, so I especially hope that one day you can find someone who is willing to take care of and cherish you."

"Zichen, I..." Shen Yan choked up for a moment, a shadow appeared in his heart, and then "suddenly" disappeared, "I guess it's a big problem, you can meet it but you can't seek it. You are older than me, you should find a wife first."

"Well, I want to find someone who is virtuous and capable. When I have the conditions, I'll take you to live with me." This idea came to Du Zichen suddenly, and he immediately felt that it was quite feasible.

Shen Yan laughed all of a sudden, and thumped him: "Pull it down, then I need a bright light bulb on my forehead, besides, this girl doesn't marry you to be a nanny, you have to know how to feel distressed. "

"Emma, ​​if you say that, I feel like I'm worried too." Du Zichen exaggeratedly called out, and then the two pulled each other, laughing all the way home.

Shen Yan did not miscalculate, after two days, Shen's father really called him: "Shen Yan, come home on the night of the 31st, let's have dinner together."

"it is good."

There wasn't a word of extra words, Shen's father seemed to be giving a notice, he hung up the phone when the notice came, and he didn't even mention how and when Shen Yan was going.

Although Shen's father didn't say anything, Shen Yan knew that he couldn't go too late, if it was too late, there might be something waiting for him.

The place where Shen's father lives now is not too far from Shen Yan, about an hour by car, but that afternoon, Shen Yan still left the house early, went to a nearby tea shop first, bought two cans of tea, I went to the bookstore to buy a set of children's books, and then I got in the car.

When we arrived at Shen's father's house, it was just after 04:30. This time point was figured out by Shen Yan in the past two years.

In the first year, he arrived early, but no one paid him any attention, except for bringing him a glass of water and letting him sit for nearly three hours; It was a matter of having a meal, but when it arrived, it was said that it was just for the meal.

This year is the third year. To be honest, if his dad didn't call, he would never come here on his own initiative, because no matter what he does or does, his dad still doesn't want to see him.

Let’s take another example of buying gifts. When he passed by in the first year, he bought a tie and a silk scarf. The woman took it, turned around and said, “My child, what are you buying? It was given by your father, and it’s not convenient for your eyes, so why don’t we buy it ourselves, so as not to bother you.”

Having said that, he didn't buy anything last year and went back empty-handed.This time the woman didn't say anything, but his father said: "I don't care about what you eat or live in for a year, but when it comes to me, we can forget about it. Do you remember that you are a brother?"

After Shen Yan heard these words, he ignored them.What a joke, being someone's elder brother, how can he afford that younger brother? His father and his mother have been divorced for five years, and this younger brother is 6 years old. Moreover, it is impossible for him to recognize someone who calls him 'blind man' in front of his face. 'brother.

Having said that, Shen Yan's time was pretty good this year, after entering the door, after changing his slippers, he heard his father's voice from the living room: "Here we come."

"Well, here we come." Shen Yan groped for a few steps, stretched out his hand, and handed over the things in his hand: "I bought it for you and Xiaohan."

"Oh, just come and buy something." The woman's voice came, and then the things in her hand were taken away. "This tea is pretty good, and it doesn't cost less money. Your dad is usually reluctant to buy it himself. You really don't feel bad."

Hearing this, Shen Yan felt a little suffocated in his heart, and couldn't help saying: "This is the money I earned from working a while ago, not the living expenses. I haven't got the living expenses for two months."

"Really? Why don't I remember that I didn't give it to you for two months." The woman pretended to be at the side.

"Is it for you to check the accounts?" Shen Yan has always been unwilling to cause trouble, and he also thinks it is unnecessary, but today he doesn't know why, but he just doesn't want to be silent anymore, after all, that woman has been teasing him a lot on the phone before.

"Okay, Xiaoping, check it out, and make it up if you don't have it." His father's impatient voice finally rang out, "Also, Shen Yan, what about your manners, don't you know you have to call for someone when you enter the door? Little What about John, brother is here, let him come out."

"Xiaohan is reading in his own room. It's not like you don't know it. He's afraid of being disturbed when he reads a book. Don't you still have to talk to Xiaoyan? It's the same when Xiaohan comes down for dinner later." The woman said Make things right for Shen Han.

"Okay, Shen Yan, you and I come to the study."

"it is good."