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When Xiao Fang knocked on the door, Shen Yan was going to sleep.

Recently, for unknown reasons, he always felt very tired, and he was also groggy, as if he couldn't wake up all the time.

Since Xiao Fang left last time, he never came again, and they didn't communicate with each other on the phone. Shen Yan felt that he must have thought too much that day to have such messy thoughts.

The current situation made Shen Yan very relaxed. They were just ordinary neighbors. They saw that he was in trouble, so the other party helped him. It was fine if they couldn't see him, and he didn't have to trouble the other party anymore. A normal and suitable distance from Xiao Fang.

So, when Shen Yan heard Xiao placed outside the door, Shen Yan was a little surprised, but he didn't open the door immediately, but asked through the door: "Brother Xiao, what's the matter?"

"Well," Xiao Fang didn't expect Shen Yan not to open the door. Fortunately, he had already found an excuse, "A while ago, my friend came and brought me a lot of local specialties. I can't eat it by myself, so I'll give it to you. Come on, let's see how your feet are doing."

"Ah, that's it." Shen Yan repeated these words twice in his heart, not running up here on purpose, but giving special products, just looking around, it seems that it is not good to keep people out like this.

He opened the door without giving way, "Brother Xiao, as many things as others can bring, you just keep it for yourself."

"It's quite a lot, a big bag, it's black fungus and mushrooms, if you can't finish it, it will be bad in summer." Xiao Fang raised the bag in his hand to signal, and then realized that Shen Yan couldn't see, So he stretched out his hand to hold Shen Yan's hand, leading him to touch it.

Being held by the hand, Shen Yan dodged subconsciously, and felt that he was overreacting, so he pretended not to care and touched the bag in Xiao Fang's hand.

But Xiao Fang was shocked by Shen Yan's cold hands, "Your hands are really cold, isn't it warm in the room? Is there a problem with the heating in your room?"

"No, the room is quite warm." Shen Yan replied, and then changed the subject instantly, "It's quite a big bag, why don't you bring it all for me, I don't cook much here, so don't waste it. "

"This fungus has no roots, so it's easy to wash. You soak it in cold water and blanch it. It's easy and delicious, and it also replenishes blood." Blood replenishment is the key to Xiao Fang's words. The little guy's face is too ugly up. "The mushrooms are picked by my friend, and they are very clean."

"Ah, Brother Xiao, thank you so much, um...sorry, you can come in and talk." Shen Yan seemed to have just come to his senses, and turned sideways to give way.

Seeing Shen Yan's alienation, Xiao Fang didn't bother too much, "No, I'll go downstairs right now, by the way, how is your foot?"

"It's much better. It doesn't hurt anymore when standing. Thank you so much last time."

"Why are you being polite? That's fine. I'll go down first. You lock the door." Xiao Fang handed the bag to Shen Yan, and after seeing that he locked the door, he turned and walked downstairs.

"Hey, it's back to the way it was the first time I came to the door." He was annoyed as he walked, scolding Chen Hao, a pig teammate, who came at the wrong time, ruining the good situation of labor and capital, and bringing each other closer. Relationships became distant again.

Then he remembered the look he saw Shen Yan just now: his face was pale, listless, and his skinny pajamas looked empty, to let such a sick child live alone, there must be a pair of big hearts in the house Parents.

Not to mention how Xiao Fang guessed about Shen Yan when he went back, Shen Yan sent Xiao Fang away, and couldn't sleep, he sat back on the sofa, staring at the bag of dry goods in a daze.

He could hear the concern in Xiao Fang's voice, and wondered if he was a bit too much: people came to see him with good intentions and gave him something, but what he showed was obviously rejecting others thousands of miles away, Don't want people to come in.

However, if he accepts the other party's kindness frankly, can he really do it?Shen Yan thought and thought, but the answer was still no, because he didn't dare.

Past experience told him that he is not afraid of losing if he does not give affection, even if the other party is a stranger. Now he is only living for the sake of living, keeping the sense of existence to a minimum, wrapping his heart tightly, and not letting anyone enter his life Life, only in this way can we not become a burden to others, and also prevent ourselves from being thrown away like garbage.

Therefore, even though Xiao Fang's kindness was so obvious, Shen Yan decided not to pay attention to it. In this way, the other party might retreat. After all, the people and things outside are more exciting than a boring relationship with him. It is much more interesting to come and go with the blind man.

After thinking about this, Shen Yan no longer struggled, he got up and put the dry goods that Xiao Fang brought into the shelf, as if he had never received these things.

The days went on so unhurriedly, and Shen Yan's life was still a nephew playing lanterns—as usual (looking for an uncle). In the next few weeks, Shen Yan took on two dubbing jobs from Oda, but This time, he negotiated with Oda in advance, and took 35% for the front and back.

Oda was also quite straightforward, "Okay, let's make a deal like this, and we will draw according to this ratio in the future. Don't worry, I will definitely think of you first if I have a job. It is indeed not easy for you."

Entering December, the end of the year is coming soon, Xiao Fang seems to be a bit busy with work, during this period of time he only made one phone call to ask about his situation, knowing that he is all right, so he never contacted him again, like this While the method made Shen Yan feel at ease, at the same time, he seemed to feel a little empty in his heart.

In the week before Christmas, Du Zichen finally called. This was also the first call since he left last time.

"Ayan, I've thought about it. You are my friend. I should respect your choice no matter what." Du Zichen said apologetically on the other end of the phone, "I'm sorry I haven't called you for so long. Let you down."

"No," Shen Yan's eyes were a little red, but his voice on the phone was calm, "Zichen, thank you." Thank you for your respect, your understanding, and thank you for not throwing me away like trash.

"Uh~ Ah Yan, come and play with me on Christmas." Du Zichen seemed to be hesitant when he said this.

"Is it just you and your classmates?"

"With my classmates, there are a few roommates who get along well. They are all single now, so they get together."

"I... don't know them, so it's inconvenient."

"It's okay, you're too bored by yourself, I think you'll feel better if you meet more people."

"I……"

"Don't push it, I've already agreed with them, let's go have a meal together, and then KTV, no matter how you say it, you should relax once in a while."

"Ok."

"That's a deal. I'll pick you up on Christmas afternoon."

"Ah."

With Du Zichen's invitation, this Christmas brought Shen Yan a different experience.

Those few friends of Du Zichen's personality were pretty good. After meeting, they didn't show any special desire to explore Shen Yan's blindness. It was like meeting a new ordinary friend. They talked about some interesting things in school at first, but later They started chatting wildly about games, letting themselves go, laughing and joking with each other, making the meal extremely lively.

This attitude made Shen Yan feel very relaxed, he didn't know how to play games, so he just sat there quietly and listened to other people's chats.

Du Zichen glanced at the few people who were spraying saliva everywhere, and felt that he was really embarrassed, "These rotten people, it's like this when we talk about games, don't mind it."

Sensing Du Zichen's embarrassment, Shen Fang quickly smiled and said, "No, it's interesting to listen to their chat. I haven't played it for several years. The games now are different from before. We were still playing "Red Alert 3" back then. "

"Well, now they play Warcraft and League of Legends."

"Zichen, are you usually the same as them?"

"How is it possible? I am much better than them."

"Du Zichen, are you more addicted than us?" Suddenly a voice came out, Shen Yan remembered that it was a classmate surnamed Zhang, "Old Du, you have the nerve to speak ill of us."

"Destroy our image in front of brother Shen, and punish him." Several people laughed and poured three glasses of wine for Du Zichen.

"Cough, cough..." Du Zichen coughed a few times due to choking, covered his heart and complained to Shen Yan: "You are careless in making friends, Ah Yan, it's better for you, never bully me."

Shen Yan also laughed when he heard that, and said, "I can't drink, but if I can drink, I'll give you the same." The others coaxed them and laughed.

When the KTV sang, the few people were shocked again by Shen Yan.

"Shen Yan, it's nice to hear you speak, but I didn't expect this singing, shit, like a singer."

"That's right, I've never heard anyone sing so well."

"Brother, let's make a debut, let's make a group, what's the name of that Korean one, EXO, let's make a UFO."

"Get out of here, you tone-deaf master, what are you doing, are you going out of the sewer?"

"Haha."

……

Sitting in the KTV, listening to the happy and flamboyant voices around him, Shen Yan felt that this is what youth should look like, although this kind of wanton youth is a bit far away from his own life.