Shanyue doesn't know what's on her mind

In an instant, I seemed to have returned to the past and became the Second Miss of the Liu Mansion again.

I saw that her eyes became more and more cold, and slowly changed back to the stubborn and dull look in the past.

"You know, I hate you the way you are now." Niang stared at me straight, and continued, "I hate myself the most when I am on you, seeing my poor self in the past."

"I know you hate me, and I hate myself too."

"I am the second daughter of the general's mansion, and I have a sister who is well-known in the capital. She is proficient in everything, and I am stupid in everything. I tried my best to get a little favor from my parents. She got it easily, which made me feel My own little tricks are ridiculous."

"Father and mother dote on her very much and are proud of her. But to me, they can only sigh, lamenting that I am not one-tenth of my sister's. Later she entered the palace, married the ninth and fifth emperor, and doted on the sixth palace. Withering in the deep palace, the beauty is gone."

"But when I knew she was gone, my first reaction was to be relieved, and I am finally relieved!"

"I broke your body after giving birth to you. After a period of recuperation, I became pregnant with Changqing again. When I saw you again, I was horrified to find that you looked cowardly and stubborn, just like me in the past. Why, why do you still pester me? "

So, just because I want to erase the traces of the past, I have to vent my anger on myself.

This is really the biggest joke in the world.

The mother put all her heart into cultivating Liu Qingqing, let her study poetry and books, make her proficient in piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and make her famous in the capital.Trying to make up for the lack of the past from her own daughter.

Desire tears a gap that can never be filled.

She is obviously a character in the play, and she has suffered a lot, but she put this pain on me.

The young me was trying to get a little affection from my parents.

Parents are still there, as if alone.

I used to think that I was stupid, that I was not likable, and that my parents didn't like me. Every time I went to a banquet, I dressed up happily, but I could only sit in the corner and watch my eldest sister in the limelight.

In the end, he still has to bear the bullying of a group of noble girls who are jealous of their eldest sister.

Hiding in the rockery, wanting to cry but unable to cry, secretly biting his fist.

Life is meaningless to me.

After speaking the truth, Niang gradually regained her composure.

She's used to it, and she can't control her emotions when she sees me.In the face of the humble self like in the past, all the equipment was thrown away.

I stared at the narcissus on the windowsill, and my heart was suddenly very peaceful.The sun crawled in and sprinkled on the carpet, outlining the warmth.

If there was hatred in the past, there is nothing now.

I don't want to become like a mother and let my past self be bound and pitiful for the rest of my life. In the end, I'm still a cage that I can't get out of.

In the end, she made it clear why she came here today, and wanted me to propose marriage to my elder sister.

It's the queen's younger brother, Xu Huishan.

He was born in a jade tree facing the wind, but he is also full of talents. He is the dream husband of a boudoir in Beijing.

I refused, I am counting on who, and I will not count on the queen.

Mother left with a sigh, but Liu Qingqing suddenly wanted to chat with me alone.

The spring is in full bloom outside, just in time to go for a walk, bask in the filth and wash off the lead.

Liu Qingqing was silent all the way, and after a while she spoke, and said two words first, "Thank you."

"Thank you for what?" I asked back.

"You know, Father...Father originally wanted to send me into the palace, and won the favor to support the Liu family. And I...have my own heart." Liu Qingqing faltered, but still said it.

"You don't have to thank me." I was telling the truth, I entered Miyamoto not for her, but for the love in my heart.

In the distance, the sun is gradually setting, and the green mountains are layered and emerald green.

The wind chimes under the eaves ring at dusk, evoking a memory in my heart.

I said, "I know, since you were young, you didn't like me being close to your parents. I like needlework, and my mother took a second look at the embroidered works. You go back and learn embroidery desperately, and don't stop until your parents praise you."

After all, we are all poor people.

Up to now, I don't know if my mother really loves elder sister, or if she also regards elder sister as a part of herself, a part that cannot be obtained.

After they left, I felt that my heart was so heavy that I couldn't breathe. As I walked, I arrived at the gate of Changle Palace.

The queen is tending flowers and plants, still warm like a spring breeze, standing like an ink painting.The moment he saw the queen, his restless heart suddenly calmed down.

She led me into the palace with a smile, and gently put on a hairpin for me, and brought me fresh melons and fruits.

It seemed that he noticed the unusualness of today, so he didn't point it out, and said something homely as usual.

The tone is gentle, slowly smoothing the wrinkled heart.

In my opinion, I really bid farewell to Liu Leiqing, and from now on I will just be a narcissus blooming in the palace.

Before summer, the weather was so hot that the lotus in the pond was half-open.After going out the door, he unexpectedly bumped into a colorful scene, led by Concubine Li Gui, but she was released from the restraint.

Concubine Li Guifei saw me from a distance, raised her eyebrows, I knew I couldn't avoid it, so I stepped forward to salute, "I've seen the imperial concubine."

A clear and beautiful voice said, "Is this the concubine Yue who lives in seclusion?"

Looking at the reputation, it is a new face, who is supporting Li Guifei on the left side.

Li Guifei's eyes were pleased, and she recommended, "This is the new concubine Rong who entered the palace. She was promoted from a regular attendant to a concubine in just one month. This speed is even faster than that of my younger sister."

Seeing that I didn't even frown, Concubine Li Gui was a little disappointed. Recently, the emperor favored the newcomers, and the Changqiu Palace has been left out in the cold.It stands to reason that I should feel sorry for myself, desolate and sad, and stay alone in the empty boudoir with a candle.

On the contrary, I was full, dressed warmly, and my complexion became more rosy.

"I heard early on that Concubine Yue is very honored and favored. The concubines dare not fight, but only wish to share half of the favor, which is enough." Although the concubine Rong was smiling, she was not as pure as the empress.

I still like the queen's smile, which is as tolerant as water.

The next day, the sun came.

The dinner dishes suddenly increased, and the maids who served the dishes filed in, filling the table, and the emperor came after a while.

"I was thinking about the color of the gauze curtains in the Changqiu Palace today, but I couldn't remember it after thinking about it, so I had to take a look."

I was amused by this lame reason, seeing me laugh, he also withdrew a smile.

"What color the emperor wants, that is the color." It is not easy to change the gauze curtain.

"I think it is a color that can be remembered for a lifetime."

It's easy to say in his mouth for a lifetime, Tianjia's promise is the most precious, I can't bear it.After a meal, chew and eat slowly.

The emperor began to stay overnight in the Changqiu Palace again, and Concubine Yue's enduring status as a favored concubine was established.

The fawning concubines came to visit one after another, but I rejected them one by one, because I didn't know that the emperor liked me.

Somehow, rumors spread that the emperor likes quiet people, and no one moved around in the palace for several days.