be the first to suffer

This Shi Rui looks more mature.

Jian Shaoyang covered his eyes and let out a long sigh, "Did you always think that I would drive you away?"

"Ever since I got Shi Yu, I feel that sooner or later I will know that my mother is such a strong person. I can feel that she loves me very much. I know that once Shi Yu appears, all this will disappear."

Jian Shaoyang didn't speak, Shi Rui was stunned for a long time and then said, "When I entered this house as a younger brother, my brother's hostility was very strong... I seem to have stolen everything from you... But now it seems that my dad is hurt all this..."

Jian Shaoyang is also tired, can Shi Rui be blamed for all this?

Because he's gay?

But how can it be a wrong thing to fall in love with someone emotionally?

What is the difference between me and him?

But now there is another child born by Shi Yuanqi and another woman for his mother to raise.

The child is innocent, so is Shi Rui. It seems that everyone is innocent.

It seems that there are only victims and innocents in this farce.

Jian Shaoyang felt that he must be the savior, otherwise how could such a dramatic thing really happen before his eyes.

"Shi Rui...you always knew you liked men, right." Jian Shaoyang put down his hand covering his eyes, and looked at Shi Rui.

"I've always liked my brother, and I want to get closer to him even if I squeeze my head." Shi Rui's fists thumped his body tightly, thin blood streaked out from between his fingers, "I know, I hurt my mother again." Heartbroken... She trusts me so much, but I do this to my brother..."

Approaching with ulterior motives, cheating without knowing it... Shi's father and son, no, there are three of them now...

There were broken glass shards under Shi Rui's legs, and blood stains were printed on the ground after the pants were cut.

Jian Shaoyang leaned weakly on the head of the bed, "Shi Rui, now we can't do whatever we want..."

"I know... that brother doesn't like me at all." Shi Rui knelt and took two steps forward, "If I can stop Dad, I won't let him be with Mom, so Mom won't Yes... but how can it be possible to control other people's feelings?"

Jian Shaoyang sighed, that's right, how can someone else's emotional matters be influenced.

It's like Shi Rui's obsession with himself for so long.

He cares about himself in every possible way, every look is filled with infinite love, he is so afraid of losing everything around him...

"Shi Rui, actually you don't feel safe." Jian Shaoyang sat up slightly and asked.

Shi Rui was puzzled, "Huh?"

"Do you think... only if you work hard will you have results, and I will only hold you back?" Jian Shaoyang said suddenly.

Shi Rui shook his head, "How could brother..."

"Didn't you always think that I would run away and reject you, that's why you suddenly became so extreme?"

Shi Rui was stunned.

What Jian Shaoyang said was right, in his subconscious mind, his brother would always leave, for the sake of his mother, and for everyone.

In short, only Shi Rui will never have a place in my brother's heart, "Brother, I..."

"Shi Rui." Jian Shaoyang felt a little heartbroken, but there were some things and things to talk about, no matter what, he couldn't say or do it now, "I..."

Can't speak.

Shi Rui was also a little anxious, look, isn't it, he is finally going to give up on me, is it because he wants to break up if he can't say anything?

Jian Shaoyang thought for a while, finally picked up the phone and put it down, and then Shi Rui's phone rang.

He actually sent Shi Rui a text message.

Shi Rui was surprised and swiped open the screen.

Jian Shaoyang saw Shi Rui kneeling in front of the bed with his head lowered, a string of teardrops fell on the screen of his mobile phone one after another, Shi Rui wiped away the tears with his thumb, and the screen became foggy.

Jian Shaoyang turned his face away and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand.

Shi Rui seemed unable to believe it, and read the message again.

[Have I not said that I love you too, is this safe enough? 】

Love may become a family relationship after being together for a long time, but it is still difficult to let go when the passion is no longer.

But the long life is not only about family affection, everyone has the right to choose, right?

If I don't want to hurt the person I love, and I can choose not to hurt him, then I will definitely be stronger than I imagined myself, and I will protect him and everyone I want to protect.

"Shi Rui, Mom and I...Actually, neither is so unreasonable...You don't have to pay too much attention to my behavior when I was young." Jian Shaoyang tried hard to explain.

A person who has been in love with a girl for so long and refuses to hold her hand has slept with you.

Shi Rui, can you give yourself more confidence?

Jian Shaoyang didn't know what he wanted to express. He looked up at the ceiling, and the tears in his eyes kept rolling, "As you said, how can we control other people's feelings, but we can still control our own. of……"

"Brother...I'm sorry." Shi Rui knelt for too long, and when he stood up, he staggered and lay beside Jian Shaoyang's bed.

Jian Shaoyang reached out and touched his face.

"Brother, the people around me keep leaving. My mother was so decisive when she left my father. I cried and chased her but failed to make her look back at me...I like this home now."

I am not only afraid of losing my brother, I am afraid of losing everything my brother loves.

Jian Shaoyang held Shi Rui's face, kissed his slightly salty tears, but his mouth was a little bitter, "You don't know, I'm also a very persistent person... Mom has her own choice, I will do my best to support her, but everyone has the right to choose, right..."

Shi Rui nodded, stepped forward to hug Jian Shaoyang and kissed his forehead, "I'm sorry... I shouldn't have mistrusted you so much, last night..."

"Stop talking..." Jian Shaoyang awkwardly pushed Shi Rui's face away.

Although he was treated roughly, his body seemed to recognize his master. The reaction under his body last night had nowhere to hide and he was ashamed, "But dare to do it again, Shi Rui, I will not forgive you, I, Jian Shaoyang, will do what I say."

"I won't say anymore, I want to dare to do this again..."

Jian Shaoyang quickly covered Shi Rui's mouth, "Okay, I get it."

"Brother, if mom finds out, I, I will leave first. As long as I know that brother cares so much, I will be satisfied. I can accept any result... I am willing to wait for mom to..."

Jian Shaoyang's forehead touched Shi Rui's forehead, "Good boy."

Lu Zhilan outside the door covered her mouth and leaned back against the wall and slowly squatted down. Her tears flowed freely between her fingers, and she couldn't stop her sobs and wanted to burst out...

my two children...

When I visited them early that morning, all the clues I found and the uneasy speculation in my heart finally turned into cruel reality.

Lu Zhilan thought that if her guess was confirmed, she would get angry, and would not be able to restrain herself from rushing in and wanting to separate them... But in fact, seeing Shi Rui, who has always been mature and stable, kneeling in front of Jian Shaoyang's bed like that, she thought that she had never The pain that the grown-up Shaoyang endured in the face of emotional choices...

They have really grown up, facing more difficulties than they imagined, and have more unspeakable difficulties.

When the two big boys hugged each other and had to burst into tears because of their unusual feelings, Lu Zhilan was even more desperate than them.

Who else can stand behind them... Tell them, don't panic, this world loves you...