[Xunsi] Light and Darkness and Blood

Hastily picked up the shovel on the side and stir-fried a few times, the aroma of curry became more and more intense.Perhaps because of his hunger, Shinji felt that today's curry looked unexpectedly delicious, "It's delicious, do you want to try it?" Shinji unexpectedly lost his sense of tension, and casually dipped it in with a spatula. After pouring some curry juice, he turned his head and wanted to pass it to Kaoru, but his movements became a little stiff in the next second...it was too natural, might it seem...that he was a little strange.

The wrist was soon wrapped in the cold temperature, and Kaoru raised Shinji's right hand to taste the taste of semi-finished curry, "It tastes very good."

Looking at Kaoru who looked at him with a smile on his face, Shinji lowered his head in embarrassment, his voice was so low that he almost murmured, "Yes, is it?"

It was the first time someone accompanied me to dinner... Shinji peeked at Kaoru who was sitting across from him, the feeling of happiness at this moment was mixed with a subtle bitterness.It's like stealing happiness from others... If I can eat with Kaoru every day, every day... just thinking about it, my world seems to be lit up, it's so warm.

Every day, what a tempting vocabulary.

The only one tape was playing in the old tape recorder: rewind, playback, and rewind again, Shinji's eyes frequently fell on Kaoru who was standing not far from the sofa.

The young man stood sideways in front of the glass sliding door and looked at the heavy rain outside the window. The white light in the room shrouded the other party's body as if it had coated the other party with a soft halo.And in Shinji's eyes, it's as if Kaoru himself is such a dazzling luminous body that people can't take their eyes off.He knew that he and Kaoru were people from two worlds, but for a moment, he actually felt... Kaoru looked so dazzling but was lonely.

"Xun—" said unconsciously, not knowing what he wanted to do.

"What's the matter?" Looking away from the rainstorm, Kaoru pulled up the light blue floor-to-ceiling curtain, "Tired?"

"It's raining heavily..." Finally turned off the switch of the tape recorder, Shinji pulled down the ear wire, his eyes flickered and wandered, even his voice seemed to be trembling, his lips opened staggeringly, and the volume was extremely low, "Do you want to stay?" The sudden weather seemed to give Shinji a chance to recharge his energy, stay, he wanted Kaoru to stay, at least... today, he wanted Kaoru to stay.

"Is Shinji inviting me?"

The bewitching red eyes seemed to always look at the young man on the sofa with a smile on his face. Xun walked to the edge of the sofa but did not sit down, pressing his cold hands on the warm shoulders of the young man, bent down and tilted his head to chuckle.

Through the back of the sofa is like the feeling when being hugged through the back of the chair at that time. You can feel the other party's shallow breath hitting the neck, and the hands on the shoulders are unusually strong... Shinji's breath Suddenly, a strange hot feeling spread to the limbs and bones again, and began to become strange...self again.

"It's better for me to sleep down." Kaoru turned his head to look at Shinji who was lying on the floor obediently on the floor and frowned secretly, shouldn't he be sleeping on the same bed?This is different from what I imagined, and the sound of the rain outside has not stopped, but it has a tendency to become more and more intense. Even if it is summer... it will still be uncomfortable to sleep on the floor.

"It's okay, because I asked Kaoru to stay here, so it's good..." If I lay on the same bed... I don't know what strange thoughts will pop up again, in case I do something out of line What happened... will only make it more embarrassing.That's it... that's it, even though I thought so, but those charming thoughts that make people dream about it seem to pop up out of control... I can't help but want to be touched by Kaoru. Hugs... It's really... disgusting to have such thoughts.

After a long silence, Shinji turned over and looked at Kaoru on the bed, even though it was just a profile, the young man still felt his heartbeat was fast enough, "Kun, are you asleep?"

"No." How could it be possible to fall asleep like this?

"Really?" Shinji pulled up the quilt to cover his face, silent.

There was a sudden rustling sound on the bed, and afterward, the young man clearly felt that the thin quilt on his body was pulled up by a corner, and the moment his cool skin touched him, Shinji shivered unconsciously, "Kun ?”

"Heavy rain, it's very cold." Turning her head, as if confirming that the boy would not resist his excesses, Kaoru boldly put a wristband around the boy's waist and pulled him into her arms even more, "Shinji, it's warm."

The tense skin felt the powerful arms around the waist, and the body temperature once rose to a height that made the young man afraid, hot and unbearable.The skin that was touched was more like being burned by fire, and even I was going to be burned.Lips opened and closed, wanting to say something messy to divert his attention a little bit, unable to speak, or... Shinji, who only had Kaoru in his mind, didn't know what to say.

"What does Shinji want to say?" Kaoru adjusted his position until he embraced the boy in an extremely domineering posture, and then began to tease the trembling in his arms because of any small changes in him. Shinji.

"Wound……"

"?"

"The wound...wasn't from a fall," fingertips grabbed the slightly open collar on Kaoru's chest, Shinji's mind was in a mess, why did he say this? "Actually, I'm not very good at interpersonal...communication, I don't know how to communicate with others at all." In their words, it's almost like someone with autism, but it's not like that ……it's not like that.

It seems that Shinji's body is freed from such a delicate posture that is completely protected, and the boy's body gradually relaxes, and he even takes the initiative to lean into Kaoru's arms, really, very unconsciously .The elbow of the left hand was bent, and the palm of the hand touched the back of the young man's head and gently stroked Shinji's hair. The right hand patted the young man's back slowly. Hearing more, about himself, "And then?"

"Originally, I lived with my father." Shinji blinked, and the feeling of wanting to confide became more and more intense to the point that he couldn't control it, "Later... father adopted a child, and there was no more We lived together. I used to do a lot of things, but my father didn’t care. After that... I probably knew that it’s the same even if I do what I don’t do. What’s more, it seems that what I do is superfluous..." Whether it is Intentional or unintentional help is always distorted, causing troubles for the class teacher everywhere, and they are already hated anyway... Then quietly be hated, obediently do nothing... just fine.At least... I won't cause trouble anymore, and I won't be more disgusting...Anyway, anyway...The hand that grabbed Lavender's collar tightened suddenly, and Shinji's forehead was directly pressed against Kaoru's chest, and I also ...don't like them.

The sensitive and fragile nerves of the young man and the slender emotions that seemed to break at the touch of a touch were completely and frankly exposed in front of Xun at this moment. If he said he was unhappy, it would be a lie.This person...has finally become a little more honest with himself, is it because of being hit and stimulated?She should be happy, but there is a sore feeling in her chest, which is unstoppable and distressing.With just a little effort, it fit Shinji's body more closely, and a soft voice resounded faintly in the small room, "Is that so, does Shinji hate human beings?"

Shaking his head, after finishing speaking, Shinji began to feel embarrassed, feeling... I am really very cowardly, I want to escape but I want to get it even more, I obviously don't work hard but I am always greedy and want to wait for Kaoru to find me... ...I don't know if the other party is willing or not, but I insist on talking about some messy things to bother Kaoru. My behavior is really...too bad, "I don't know... I don't like it or hate it at all, but I hate my father." I really want to bite my tongue off... Obviously, I don't plan to say any more, "I'm sorry, I let you hear something strange."

"It's okay, Shinji." Gently stroking the hair on the back of the opponent's head with his left hand, Kaoru rested his chin on the boy's head, "I'm glad Shinji told me this." One small step, one big step for success, right?

No... hate it?Looking down, those strange and charming thoughts suddenly seemed to dissipate, and I was very relieved... being hugged by Xun like this, it was like... returning to my mother's arms, safe and reliable.Never said this to anyone else, and no one ever wanted to listen to what he had to say.Perhaps it was because the feelings in his heart were more or less expressed, and Shinji quickly fell into a sleep.The surrounding is full of the smell of Kaoru...

Noticing that the boy's breathing was getting steady, Kaoru said in a low voice, "Perhaps, I waited for so long just to meet you, Shinji."

Good night, Shinji.

Good night, Kaoru.