[Xunsi] Light and Darkness and Blood

"Koru..." Shinji murmured, the hand still holding the bow couldn't help groping up, cautiously and tentatively, his fingertips touched Kaoru's cheek, and then... Shinji couldn't believe what happened in front of him Is the scene real.

Holding the boy's hand that had turned red due to excessive force, he put his backhand and kissed it lightly on his lips. Facing the boy's eyes that widened in surprise and disbelief, Kaoru's voice was softer than ever before, "Very Is it painful?"

Standing behind Shinji, Kaoru slowly and gently took over the piano from the young man's hand and put it aside, turned around and squatted down to look up at the young man in his loose clothes, who was looking at him with a perplexed look. To himself, the other party pursed his lips, as if he wanted to say a lot, but he just didn't know where to start. There were too many things in those eyes that were too incapable of hiding emotions...the meaning he wanted to express was too much. There are many, but it seems that I can't sort out my feelings, I can only look at myself in confusion and with inexplicable dependence.

"It's because of heartache that you feel pain," Kaoru couldn't help but put his right hand on the young man's heart, and felt the small, warm heart beating in the other's chest and seemed to be due to The heart that became more active with his touch, Kaoru suddenly became unable to imagine how it looked when it stopped jumping, stroking and touching... The ten fingers of his left hand unconsciously entangled and clasped the young man as if he was at a loss. A right hand that wants to escape.Kaoru spoke again, with a long and gentle voice, with a deceptive taste, "It is painful but still working hard to survive, Shinji really has a very delicate and fragile heart." It is like glass, so fragile...but he is abnormal. , Wanting to protect the heart that is active, full of vitality but immature, as if it would break with a little force.

"I... Me?" Perhaps the other party's voice was too gentle at the moment, Shinji's heart that was beating faster and faster began to calm down slowly, the boy couldn't help but caressed himself with his left hand that was not firmly locked At the same time, he touched Kaoru's cold right hand covering his heart, and at the same time his fingertips were about to flinch, Shinji stopped any movement because of Kaoru's next words... At that moment, he even It feels like time has stopped.

"It's worth my liking for you~" A slight smile is completely different from the previous plain, perfunctory, or smiles that want to achieve a certain purpose. It is a very pleasant smile that comes from the heart , soft and gentle, "Shinji."

For just that moment, Shinji felt that his heart was about to stop for a moment because of this sentence, good feelings... his mind was full of what Kaoru said to him in an endlessly gentle tone, "It's worth my good feelings for you".

"What you can have is more than just pain~" While getting up, he took the boy's hand and used his strength to bring the boy who was stunned on the chair to the piano, and let the boy sit on the same table as an invitation. A black and shiny chair like a pitch-black piano pressed the boy's shoulders, "Listen."

Putting both hands over the boy's shoulders, Kaoru opened the black and beautiful piano cover, and the black and white staggered keys were neatly imprinted in Shinji's pupils, and then Kaoru's slender white fingertips tapped lightly, and then the melodious and cheerful notes appeared In Shinji's ear...

The fingertips on the keys are very flexible, like jumping elves walking happily in their own black and white forest. It should be an ordinary day, it seems that something pleasant happened, and the sound of the piano suddenly changed. It was long and soft, as if full of anticipation for the future.

Shinji couldn't help listening quietly, and unconsciously leaned back against Kaoru's body.

In my impression, I have never had such expectations for being alive, just like he never thought that there would be a person like Ikari Shinji in his life.Want this person to be happy, want him to be free from pain, even want to be...his hope.Fear of being betrayed, afraid of being hurt each other, the deep-rooted loneliness is deeply expressed in Shinji's music, lonely and desperate, even the emotions are different from ordinary people... But, only you... only You, I don't want you to be trapped in such a sad and helpless state.So, even if you know the truth, please don't run away, you can't run away... Shinji.

Kaoru looked at the corners of Shinji's lips that were already subconsciously leaning all the weight of his body on her, and the smile on his lips became more and more intense.No matter what state you are in, I just want you to know that even if you want to retreat, you can only fall into my arms.

Shinji has never felt so at ease, as if all the problems that bothered him did not exist, he just indulged in Kaoru's music.

It seemed that the emotional exhaustion vented by the cello was comforted just now, and Shinji fell asleep again as he listened.The difference is... the teenager's sleep was unprecedentedly stable, his brows were stretched, as if he had thought of something beautiful, and even the corners of his lips were still slightly raised.

Stopping the music in his hand, Xun carefully hugged him into his arms, and kept playing the piano in an awkward posture, which still made Xun feel a little numb but it didn't have much impact, and his eyes stayed on the young man Anwen. When I put on my sleeping face, I couldn't help but feel extremely satisfied.

At this moment, Kaoru was finally sure that Shinji was... a special existence to him, very, very special.

"I'm home." No matter how much he wanted to stay, Shinji couldn't find a reason to continue to stay at Kaoru's house, not to mention that he had been shamelessly staying at Kaoru's house, sleeping and eating all day long. For a skin as thin as transparent paper, this is already the maximum limit.

Smiling, Kaoru didn't stop Shinji, but just pulled the boy over and gently scratched the tip of the other's nose with his fingertips, "Go, we have class tomorrow." Monday, what an uncomfortable day. happy day.

For Kaoru's sudden ambiguous and intimate behavior, Shinji's reaction was unexpectedly slow and...uncontrollably nostalgic, "Kaoru!"

"What's the matter?" Although a little puzzled, Kaoru who turned sideways stopped for Shinji's sake.

"I..." I have a crush on you... What does it mean?Wanted to ask, but seemed to have missed the perfect opportunity. Shinji really couldn’t ask, the boy’s expression changed, and he finally restrained the villain who was struggling in his heart. ...Continuing the relationship like this, shaking his head, Shinji put on a faint smile, "Be careful on the road."

Turning her head, Kaoru suddenly wanted to kiss Shinji.

Seeing Kaoru who turned around and walked to him with a smile, bent down and lifted his chin very quickly with his fingertips, Shinji's uncontrollable heart began to come alive again, and the moment he closed his eyes, there was a bruise on his forehead. It was soon covered with a cold body temperature.It was just a superficial kiss, but the boy's body still trembled a bit.Even if it was just a kiss on the forehead, it was enough to make Shinji fall in love with him.

"Open the door and go in." I don't want to reveal my identity, I don't want to hurt him, and I don't want the other party to shrink back and be afraid after knowing his true identity... The ancestor of the blood clan always had a day of worrying about his identity.So, just a little more, rely on yourself more, be more obsessed with yourself, you are not allowed to escape to any other place except my arms, put all your feelings on me, so... …can only temporarily leave you in the original environment.Just, temporarily.

"Xun," the gray-blue eyes dimmed for a moment, and she didn't want to leave... If she wanted to get closer to him, a little closer, a little closer, even the thin layer of clothes on her body seemed to be an obstacle, so she Shinji just wants to stay by Kaoru's side, wants to be touched by Kaoru, hugged by Kaoru, a little more, a little more... want... more, even lusting after Kaoru. However, he had to restrain such feelings against his wish, he was afraid of seeing nausea and disgust from those red pupils.Despite the infatuation and reluctance, he still said goodbye, "Goodbye."

Dazed for a moment, Kaoru could clearly see the struggle and reluctance in the boy's eyes, but...it wasn't enough, not strong enough, he needed Shinji to take the initiative to walk towards him and abandon everything...Although it was very selfish, in order to block all the boy's escape routes There is no other second choice except walking towards him, now he can only pretend not to see, "Goodbye, we will see you again, Shinji."

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The author has something to say:

The most touching words that Kaoru ever said were: See you again, Shinji

The cruelest thing ever said: See you again, Shinji

Zun is a cruel and warm person TAT

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