my love letter is always guilty

Peng Lin's persuasion, Dong Hai's swearing, their words were repeated in their ears in turn.

Repeat...

Impossible, that was the price of a year, Tian Dong didn't have the courage to make such a decision.

The most impossible thing is to squeeze Fang Ze out of that tragic memory...

He's broken, broken, like Hiroshima and Nagasaki, atomic bombs dropped, never to be born again.

After the pain stopped for a short time, it continued to work.

Tian Dong opened his eyes again, looking at the mosquito net above his head in the darkness, but couldn't see its color, and there were wet marks where the tears flowed.

The next day, Tian Dong avoided Dong Hai, and when Dong Hai went to his school, he went to Dong Hai's school.

On the bus, Tian Dong saw Dong Hai who was riding a bicycle. He was so recognizable in black. Of course, Dong Hai didn't see Tian Dong on the bus.

He focused on cycling, and his speed was faster than when he was carrying Tian Dong.

For a few seconds, they passed each other.

Tian Dong hadn't figured out what Dong Hai's expression would be when he found out that he had let the pigeons go on purpose.

Arriving at the south gate of Wubei University, Tian Dong took a deep breath and lamented all the coincidences in the world.

Met Huang Lihua!

She was carrying a cloth bag to the boys' dormitory building.

He greeted first: "Huang Lihua, long time no see."

Huang Lihua turned her head and saw Tian Dong smiled. She also felt a little nostalgic for meeting her old classmates. Compared with the situation in the toilet that time, she returned to her usual gentleness.

"Are you looking for Dong Hai?" Tian Dong asked directly.

"Yes." She was a little shy, but she didn't evade this matter at all. Yes, she has reached this level, so there is nothing to be tweaked.

"I came to see Sun Fang. We are all old classmates in the same class. Shall we have lunch together?" Tian Dong suggested.

"Isn't Dong Hai with you?" Huang Lihua asked, her fair hand was protecting the cloth bag all the time.

Tian Dong frowned, forgot that he had released pigeons to Dong Hai, so he should not mention it to Huang Lihua.

"He, I don't know." He pretended to be stupid.

"Oh, then I'm treating you, what do you want to eat?" Huang Lihua responded with a smile. There were also shallow dimples on her face, graceful and gentle, her eyelashes gently covered her eyelids, and there was a sense of determination in her eyes.

Gentle country, virtuous wife, this girl's youthful face also has that kind of temperament.

Tian Dong called Sun Fang and said to follow his taste.

He led Huang Lihua to a fly restaurant. Tian Dong liked to eat jelly and never got tired of it. He believed that people are born with a preference for food.

"Is Dong Hai coming?" Huang Lihua asked softly, putting the cloth bag in her arms, as if she was afraid that it would be frozen.

Tian Dong was taken aback, and scratched his hair helplessly: "Eh...he shouldn't come, I haven't contacted him."

"Really?" She looked in disbelief, then sighed, and said: "I know you are often together, I am not trying to dry you."

How can she judge like this!

Tian Dong stared dumbfoundedly at Huang Lihua opening the cloth bag in his hand, and took out an elaborate lunch box, which contained three cups of chicken, and each piece of chicken seemed to have a thousand pieces of heart in it.

"I just want to make it for him. I'm stupid and I don't know how to say it." She took a breath and summoned up her courage: "I know he likes you, and I saw him carrying you. You... are very suitable, but I'm not I want to tear you apart, but I just... even once, you can give it to him for a taste!"

That seems to be her request that she treats death as home!

Huang Lihua is his classmate, so he is also an insider of Tian Dong's sexual orientation, and Dong Hai is also an insider. It is self-evident that a boy knowingly contacts Tian Dong.

"No..." Tian Dong hurriedly explained in a panic: "I'm not with Dong Hai, don't get me wrong, don't worry, just go after him. Don't worry about me, you made a mistake."

Her eyes were flushed, she looked down at the three-cup chicken in the lunch box, and said with a choked voice: "I know I'm weird, I was rejected and stalked, I seem to be sick, even if I see him , I am also happy, I can only let this feeling develop, let it pass away, I don't even care if he likes girls..."

Tian Dong's brows looked like crumpled old newspapers: "Hey... you! Dong Hai is not as good as you think. You will suffer more if you are tricked by him. Why bother."

"Then I would too."

"Are you a virgin?" Tian Dong asked without hesitation.

She also answered without hesitation: "Yes."

"Then don't stab him. Dong Hai is a man with rich experience in that field. This kind of person is not worth it for you to block your own purity."

"I am willing, I am willing to be slept by him, and then dumped by him." Huang Lihua was extremely firm, she was almost in a state of being broken and fearless.

This seemingly weak girl has such strong energy for feelings. It is natural for a moth to fly to a flame. Huang Lihua is a moth. This is her natural paranoia.

Tian Dong couldn't say a word.

I ordered a jelly until Sun Fang's arrival.

Sun Fang is smart and ice-snow, even she was shocked to choke when chatting with Huang Lihua.

Huang Lihua also asked Sun Fang to help her deliver the lunch box, and the same dialogue was played again in Tian Dong's ears.

Tian Dong ate the jelly in the bowl, and put the restaurant's special chili over and over again. The red oil was rolled with green and red crushed chili peppers, and the spicy taste rushed into the nostrils. The thick color rolled half of the bowl. I still feel that the taste is not strong enough. God knows, maybe there is something wrong with my sense of taste.

This made people irritated, Huang Lihua's stubbornness was deeper than Tian Dong's, and he felt that she was very sad again.

This is a girl who has no destiny of her own, and her bets are all out.

Fortunately, she was better prepared than Tian Dong.

She made preparations for eternal doom, while Tian Dong prepared to stay together forever. Their starting point was different. Tian Dong was too high, so he fell to pieces, while Huang Lihua fell into the dust and had nowhere to fall.

It's a bit ridiculous when you think about it, two men... stay together...

That day, Tian Dong ate five bowls of jelly. Huang Lihua looked at him in surprise and asked him why he had so much affection for jelly. Tian Dong said that it was my obsession. , so he cannot tolerate betrayal.

Neither he nor Sun Fang agreed to deliver lunch boxes to Huang Lihua. Such a favor was difficult for them.

Dong Hai was released by Tian Dong, and he didn't come to him for a week.

Tian Dong's life returned to the original point and continued to wander in the wasteland.

Christmas is in these two days, and the atmosphere is thick, even the vegetation is filled with the breath of love.

Chen Ming received the apple from his girlfriend ahead of time, was so happy that he rolled on the bed, and bought a set of expensive jewelry in response.

This fat man is not a rich second generation, he works in a fly shop near the school.

Tian Dong was often dragged by him to some restaurant for consumption, so for a long time, Tian Dong ate small noodles every day.

He did three jobs by himself, passing vegetables, washing dishes, and cleaning. Sometimes when he was bored, Tian Dong sat outside and watched him busy inside and out. In the winter, Chen Ming's fat hands were frozen into large areas. For frostbite, he took a rag and wiped it on the table over and over again. Some oil stains were not easy to clean, so he had to use great force. As soon as he tried hard, the frostbite on his hand began to crack and bleed, but he still wiped it neatly, as if he was bleeding It's not blood, it's the energy of love.

The final achievement is that those tables are clean and free from dust. In exchange for a salary of 1200 yuan, and two months of living expenses accumulated, 2000 yuan, I bought that set of accessories for my girlfriend.

Tian Dong felt that it was Chen Ming's exhausted love, so he was satisfied, but Tian Dong didn't understand why love always comes at the price of sacrifice...

On Christmas Eve, that night, Tian Dong planned to sleep with his head covered, but a text message sent him rushing downstairs to the dormitory.

It's a ridiculous day.

Fang Ze is here.

The tall, thin, well-dressed boy was standing downstairs in the dormitory, holding a Christmas card.

Tian Dong thought he could stubbornly refuse, tear off his card, and kick him out of school.

It didn't work out at all.

He is bewitched.

When Fang Ze hugged him, the resentment that had lasted for more than half a year completely dissipated, and he changed from a wandering soul to a lost soul.

The youthfulness of the years and the young heart are easy to confuse again.

This is what most people call "cheap".

According to Buddhism, one needs to tie the bell to untie the bell.

Therefore, Tian Dong thought that only Fang Ze could unravel the gloom buried in his heart for a long time.

"Can we still be together?" Fang Ze said.

"Well..." Tian Dong responded, except for a little carelessness.

That night, Fang Ze took Tian Dong to open a room, and did everything that should be done, just like his first time.

Waking up in the middle of the night, looking at the window of the hotel, it was pitch black outside, Tian Dong was still soaked in tears, he thought it was a conditioned reflex.

They can't meet often, Fang Ze's school is too far away, in the suburbs of the city.

Fang Ze would not come to Tian Dong easily, so Tian Dong had to take the initiative in order to maintain their relationship.

One month after Christmas, before the end of the term, Dong Hai never appeared again.

Until a certain Thursday, Sun Fang came to Tian Dong, and she brought a jelly with seasoning, she said: "Dong Hai asked me to give it to you, Tian Dong, I'm not talking too much, you should choose Dong Hai."

He took the box of jelly and looked at it. It was indeed his favorite taste. He was even a little greedy. After getting back together with Fang Ze, he never touched that thing again. Tian Dong looked at the jelly, but pushed it back to Sun Fang.

"Tell him not to come to me." Tian Dong didn't know how he said such words, and added bluntly: "I'm not good enough for him."

"Don't regret it!" Sun Fang warned him.

"..."

He left, left the jelly and left, it was surprisingly cold that day, the branches on the side of the road were cold and dry, and they were all depressed. He hated winter to the core.

Two days later, on the weekend, I was going to Fang Ze's school.

I met Huang Lihua at the door, she was carrying a cloth bag, but she gave the cloth bag to Tian Dong.

"You and Dong Hai are together!" She said that with a worried expression.

Opening the cloth pocket, it was still the lunch box, but instead of Three Cups of Chicken, it was jelly with red oil and chili.

Tian Dong asked unhappily: "You did this?"

She nodded, not at all false.

Tian Dong was suddenly furious: "You made what Sun Fang sent two days ago?"

Huang Lihua timidly nodded.

Tian Dong lost his expression, bypassed her and went to the station.