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Even Cui Shican himself couldn't remember the last time he was "scared".

He didn't even think about the time when he was bitten by the debt collection company, when he was forced to drop out of school and moved by himself, or even when he was beaten so badly that everything in the house was smashed to pieces.

He didn't seem to be born with such emotions, anger, resignation, and retreat, and he spent thousands of days and nights together, but he didn't feel afraid because of these collapses that seemed unacceptable to others.

Except Wen Yu.

Cui Shican tried to recall the look in Wen Yu's eyes when he left that day, it was overly calm, like a knife, a strange look he had never seen before.He also walked resolutely, fast, without turning his head once, Shi Can stood on the balcony watching, at that time he thought that Wen Yu might never say a word to him again.

When this thought came to the surface of the sea, it was as if the white waves of the rising tide beat against the rocks, making his heart ache.

But is it just that Wen Yu ignores him?

The little sun heater was baking his face, and the cat in his arms stretched its pads to pat his palm. Cui Shican sat in the clean and warm environment, and suddenly understood something.

He was afraid that Wen Yu would also give up on him.

"Don't think too much..." Ji Yue patted Cui Shican's head, comforting him like a child, "Maybe Wen Yu didn't think so much?"

Cui Shican picked up the strawberry and kissed it, and the kitten's paw pressed against his face desperately resisting.After failing to succeed, Shi Can thought it was a little funny, he pressed the bridge of his nose, trying to make his voice sound calmer.

"The last time those people came to my house to collect debts, they also said they wanted to go to my mother. Sister Yue, have you ever owed so much money? That's when I realized how useless I was and I couldn't do anything in the past few years. Every time I make a little money, I give it to them, and then they say, 'It's not enough interest, look at the interest rate has gone up again'."

Ji Yue listened, feeling sore in her heart, and finally added some water for him: "Stop talking."

"What I earn is just a drop in the bucket, and I can't even keep up with the speed at which I owe more and more money." Cui Shican said to himself as if he didn't hear her words, "That's when I realized that I will never be clear."

Ji Yue: "Cancan...don't talk—"

Cui Shican's throat moved slightly: "On the day of the deadline they said, there was only 1 yuan left in the card, and I couldn't take out any more. I heard them smashing things, and I hid myself on the balcony... At that time , I thought, or just jump from there, concrete floor, fourth floor—go to hell, and you won’t have to face them when you die. Like my dad, it won’t hurt again.”

"Cui Shican!" Ji Yue snapped, "What crazy things are you talking about?!"

Letting go of the fingers holding the cat, Strawberry immediately ran away with his tail blowing, and squatted by the TV cabinet, looking vigilantly at the small coffee table where the atmosphere suddenly changed. For some reason, he let out a delicate meow.

The room was so quiet that the sound of the balcony curtain being rolled up by the wind could be heard.

Cui Shican's eyes were terribly red, but he didn't cry after all, he took a deep breath.

"But Wen Yu came right away." His words were vague, holding back his tears, the name seemed to drain all his protection, "He came right away..."

Cui Shican couldn't continue, he hugged his calves with his hands in a squatting position, and put his eyes on his knees.

Until Ji Yue thought he was going to be out of breath, Shi Can's voice came out in a deep voice: "Sister Yue, you know, I'm scared, he's seen it all, why did you do that for me?"

Ji Yue patted him on the back: "Because you are his friend, Xiao Yu is very good to friends."

"Really?" Cui Shican asked, Wen Yu's expression that day was vivid in his memory, his hug was very warm, his arms were tightly tightened, and he spoke as if he could really empathize with the sadness.

Ji Yue: "Cancan, it's all in the past, don't always think about it and make yourself so broken. Why don't we meet for dinner some other day? You can talk about it face to face. It's not when you were a child, right? Let's say it The bad words made Xiaoyu sad, I think when he knows the ins and outs, he won't blame you..."

"I'd rather he blame me." Cui Shican said bitterly.

"You're talking stupid again." Ji Yue said, "How much you like him."

"Yes." Shi Can looked up, "But as much as I like him, I hate myself."

In Ji Yue's house, the windows are bright and clean, and even the air is warm.Like taking out the trash, Shi Can poured out all the grievances that had been hidden in his heart for an unknown amount of time. In fact, he didn't have a few words, and he repeated them many times.

When she finally left, Ji Yue asked him if he was okay, Shi Can was stunned for a moment, and said blankly: "...I'm going back to memorize vocabulary."

Ji Yue: "Damn it."

Turning back the time four or five years, Ji Yue would probably probe to see if the sun came out from the west when she heard this sentence.Even though she has experienced many things personally, Cui Shican still feels that the world has changed for a moment now that "memorizing words" comes from Cui Shican's mouth.

Her expression was so shocked that Shi Can couldn't help laughing: "What's wrong?"

Ji Yue covered her mouth: "Why do you suddenly love studying?"

"I have nothing to do." Cui Shican changed his shoes, turned around and opened the door, "Let's go, don't see me off."

"It's a beautiful idea." Ji Yue choked on him, "By the way, Cancan, your birthday is coming up, why don't you call Wen Yu out and have a brief time with you? Celebrate your entry into a new life."

Shi Can looked at her helplessly: "New life? Forget it."

Ji Yue: "Then decide first."

"Let's talk about it later." Shi Can said, the elevator hadn't been repaired yet, so he had to go to the stairwell.

"Your 'let's talk' means you agree." Ji Yue laughed, "When I come back from Yancheng for Christmas, I will find you two!"

Cui Shican's voice came from afar: "You and Xu Qingjia spend a few more days in Yancheng, leave me alone—"

His birthday is at the end of December, between Christmas and New Years.

When I was a student, people were often impetuous during this period. During the holiday before the final exam, no one could completely relax and play.After graduating, Cui Shican was so exhausted running between the hospital and the school that he stepped into the society early. His friends could be counted on one hand. Most of them were not in love with each other, and the process of celebrating birthdays was also avoided. .

For him, "birthday" is a mirror that reflects the joy of childhood, and it also reminds him that he has lost a dear one forever.Cui Shican doesn't like this special day and prefers to ignore it.

But after Ji Yue said it once, Shi Can suddenly had a strange feeling about the birthday: I hope it will come, but I don't want it to be so soon.

And no matter what he thinks, time does not speed up or slow down at his will.Cui Shican still has to go to the clinic step by step. There are medical courses and English classes in the evening school four times a week, and he finds Lao Li to make up the rest of the time.

Li Huaichun, an old man with a bad temper, is a nice person.

He didn't know where he found out about Cui Shican's family situation, and asked Shang Qiu to pay Shican a little more salary every month without breaking the clinic's rules.That's all, Cui Shican is a young dropout who hasn't finished a serious school, yet Lao Li is willing to let him study at his own home.

What I teach is nothing more than Chinese medicine, how to recognize medicine, how to feel the pulse.He spoke earnestly and sincerely, and asked Cui Shican to work hard so that he could pass the master's examination and get a practicing certificate in the future, so that he would not be an apprentice for the rest of his life.

"I don't want to take you for so long." Lao Li said, pushing his glasses hard, "It's best to learn quickly and become a teacher, and share the pressure for your senior brother Shangqiu."

Cui Shican used to think that Lao Li was a waste of time, but now he realizes with conscience that Mr. Li is really cute.

His birthday was a Saturday, and Cui Shican went out to Mr. Li's place in the morning, and didn't go home until he had dinner with Lao Li in the afternoon.He didn't feel anything, and Ji Yue sent him a message, saying that they would have dinner together tonight.

Cui Shican fumbled with the phone, deleting, deleting and modifying: "Wen Yu going?"

Ji Yue replied: "He came [shy]"

Shi Can's footsteps stopped, and he almost didn't fall.

He bought some green vegetables and shallots from the market for cooking noodles in the next few days.It was cold in winter, Shi Can didn't drive the battery car, and walked all the way back to the self-built house with his neck shrunk.

As the New Year approaches, the Christmas trees and snowflake-shaped window grilles of many stores in urban villages are still standing. Santa Claus is smiling, as if he has not gone far, creating a strong festive atmosphere together with the "Jingle Bells" echoing in the streets.

After a whole year of hard work, although New Year's Day is not the Spring Festival, it is still exciting.

Resigning from the old and welcoming the new is always a good sign. That day when Ji Yue said "a new start", Cui Shican turned a deaf ear to him, and now he passed by the talking and laughing elementary school students carrying their schoolbags, and couldn't help but look back.

At the end of the ramp, a round of sun hangs, which is a rare sunny day in winter.

Cui Shican sighed, as if his heart was not so heavy anymore.

There was a black Audi parked downstairs of the unit, Shi Can glanced at it when passing by, the careless owner didn't even close the windows tightly.He thought to himself that luckily it wasn't at night, otherwise the law and order in this area would be bad, and it would be impossible for the car to be parked overnight without any damage.

The Audi is so polished that its body can almost reflect a clear figure.Although he didn't know much about cars, he took a few more glances. When he turned his head again, a person came out of the unit building.

Cui Shican suddenly stopped in his tracks.

The black down jacket was wrapped from the ankle to the neck, and he was carrying a funny-shaped bag in his hand. The moment the dejected person who came out raised his face and met his eyes, both of them were a little stunned.

Wen Yu opened his mouth, almost let go of his hands, and then hugged the bag tightly in a panic.

When he recovered, Cui Shican spoke at the same time as him:

"How do you..."

"I thought……"

There was another awkward silence, he felt his ears start to heat up, and touched them instinctively, seeing that Wen Yu didn't intend to speak, he took the initiative to send the topic over: "Why are you here?"

"Passing by." Wen Yu reflexively said, after finishing speaking, he felt it was fake, and looked down at the things in the bag, "No, I'll bring you...a little guy, I thought you wouldn't open the door for me."

Shi Can: "Huh?"

He watched Wen Yugong's lower body, half squatting at the door of the apartment building, and walked over quickly.Just about to say you don't block the way here, if there is anything you can't talk about after taking two steps, Wen Yu digs it out for a while, and after all in vain, he simply stretches in with both hands.He was standing, Wen Yu's head was almost buried in the bag, his hair was long, with a bunch of sticking up, very stubborn.

Shi Can wanted to press a few times, but before he reached out, Wen Yu suddenly stood up, and the top of his head almost hit Shi Can's chin.He stepped back half a step, and saw that Wen Yu was holding a...

Cat.

It's a native cat.

Sanhua, still very young, with sparse hair, very thin but in good spirits, is flying in mid-air with teeth and claws, meowing, as if dissatisfied with the environment in front of her.

Cui Shican was confused: "What, what?"

"Here you are." Wen Yu said.

"I don't raise it." He stepped back again, "You don't need to spend money in vain."

Wen Yu pinched the skin of the Sanhua's nape and wanted to hand it to Shican, but Cui Shican didn't know what he wanted, and was afraid that he would let go, so he had to take it first.The Sanhua kitten seemed to be very satisfied with the warm and rough palm in his hands, it didn't bark or fuss anymore, although its expression was stinky, at least it calmed down.

"It's annoying me, this stinky cat." Wen Yu said, pushing up his sleeves with difficulty, "Look, it was caught."

Only a small part of the arm was exposed, white and raw, and blue blood vessels could be seen. At the moment, it was covered with cat scratches, some were scarred, and there were a few fresh ones, the skin was broken, and the bleeding had just stopped.

Cui Shican didn't care to think about why they had such a familiar conversation, and frowned: "So wild?"

"That's right! I wouldn't be bothered to adopt it if I didn't feel sorry for it." Wen Yu complained, slowly put down his sleeves, quickly covered the pockets of his coat with his hands, and looked at Shi Can.

"Send...send it to the adoption center." Shi Can said, suddenly a little impatient.

He had thought about getting a cat before, and he mentioned it to Wen Yu, not because he liked it so much, and he didn't mean to follow suit and become a cute pet blogger.It's just one person's home, and he hopes to have something alive to accompany him.But now he has no energy, and he doesn't have the energy to raise another cat besides himself.

Sanhua licked the bare tail in his hand, the small animal's unique smell and faint heartbeat were a burst of vitality.

The suggestion to send her to an adoption center was suddenly less firm.

Cui Shican looked down at the cat for a while, and found that it was inconvenient to move, so he asked Wen Yu, "Is it sick?"

"I'm lame." Wen Yu said, trying to touch the cat's head, but was almost caught again, so he withdrew his hand embarrassingly, "Last month, I lay on my car tire to keep warm. Fortunately, it was daytime. It was too good, so I asked someone to catch it. I wanted to drive it away, but when I saw it was a little lame, I took it to the hospital, and even bathed it, dewormed it and vaccinated it. Find parents for it, if it is not so fierce, I will keep it by myself."

"Oh." Shi Can rubbed the cat's paw, a little amused, and Wen Yu said that it looked "fierce" very seriously.

"Do you want to raise it?" Wen Yu said, "It seems that it likes you."

He wanted to refuse, but he held it in his arms, so he was reluctant to take it away.

Cui Shican calculated the cost of raising a cat, and was in a fierce psychological struggle when the kitten suddenly lifted its lame leg, used both front paws, and hugged his finger all at once.

Cui Shican: "..."

Wen Yu laughed out loud.

Cui Shican asked helplessly, "What's its name?"

"Call my sister." Wen Yu said, and went back to the car to open the trunk, "I'll get you things, cat food, cat litter, toilet, automatic water dispenser... oh, and toys and nutrition cream. Doctor Said that there is no cure for the leg, and it will be disabled for life. If you dislike it and don’t want to keep it, I will take it back——Damn it, why are my car windows open! "

So stupid, Shi Can looked at Wen Yu's back with disgust, and said deliberately: "I have to take it back, won't it catch you?"

Wen Yu broke down and said, "Then what can I do!"

This made Cui Shican laugh, he reluctantly agreed to adopt Xiao Sanhua, and moved the pile of things to the fourth floor with Wen Yu.Cui Shican was still hesitant when he opened the door, but Wen Yu urged him from behind, saying that the cat toilet was heavy.

He opened the door, afraid that Wen Yu would prick his pride again.

Cui Shican knew that he was not qualified to talk about his self-esteem in front of Wen Yu, owed Wen Yu money, and even humiliated his sincerity face to face, but he couldn't throw it away quickly - wouldn't people live by this?Otherwise, he would have really fallen.

"Oh?" Wen Yu put down his things, "It's good."

Exactly the same words as the first time.

He really wanted to ask Wen Yu, if you don't care about cats, can you also not care about me?I apologize to you for those words, don't give up, okay?

He also wanted to say that I am doing well now, thank you, I am learning to come out, just wait for me, okay?

But Wen Yu didn't say a word about these things, as if hinting to him not to talk.

The author says:

(._.) It’s May, is anyone really watching?The domestic night school does not match the expression in the article, please don’t take it seriously