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"Let's go first." Cui Shican greeted the man at the door.

"It's getting colder at night, why don't you stop riding?" The man smiled at him, "If it's inconvenient, wait for a while. It's safe for you two to take a taxi together when Xiaobai gets off work."

"It's okay." Shi Can said.

The man asked again: "Will you come tomorrow?"

Shi Can opened the door for a moment, but didn't look back: "Well, the contract is up, and I'm enrolled in an evening school to learn English."

The man said, "Very good. At your age, you should read more books."

This time, Shi Can didn't answer, and nodded vaguely to his former colleague, delusional that he actually read a little envy from his gaze.He thought to himself that the light in the bar might be poor, which could easily cause misunderstandings, so he wrapped his coat tightly and left through the back door.

This year's winter came slowly and quickly. In Cui Shican's impression, he only wore a sweater until November, but after a certain autumn rain that lasted for three or four days, the temperature dropped suddenly, which caught people off guard. I got sick.When he recovered completely from the long cold, the leaves of the sycamore tree fell to the ground, and the branches trembled in the wind.

In the early morning, there were few cars on the street, and the northwest wind could hardly encounter any obstacles. It rolled over the fragile branches and street lights menacingly, blowing the dim street lights like shadows trembling.

Cui Shican shivered, and covered his entire face with a scarf, only revealing a pair of black eyes.He went to start the small battery parked at the entrance of the alley. Because of the cold weather, it took a while to start it.

With one leg on the ground, Shi Can helplessly patted the dashboard, as if this would speed up the startup of the small battery that was approaching retirement age.Thinking about smoking a cigarette and forgetting about it, someone behind him suddenly called him, "Cancan."

Not many people would call him that, so Shi Can turned off the ignition and turned his head: "Sister Li."

The heating was turned on in the bar, and when Sister Li came out, she only had time to put on a coat, and now she was clasping her collar with her hands, maybe because it was too cold, she was out of breath when she spoke: "Going away?"

"En." Shi Can said, took a look at her, and quickly looked away.

"Have you paid off your debt?" Sister Li asked him with a forced smile.

No matter how long this topic has passed, he will instinctively embarrass him for a moment, Shi Can pursed his lips, and it sounded blurry behind the scarf: "It doesn't matter anymore."

Sister Li's high-heeled shoes made a crisp sound when she stepped on the ground, she quickly approached, the strong smell of perfume on her body made Shi Can frowned involuntarily, and stepped aside.Sensing the young man's resistance, Sister Li didn't go any further, but smiled awkwardly: "That's it... that's good, no wonder you want to resign."

"We negotiated last month." Shi Can said, rubbing his gloved fingers on the handle of the battery car.

"In the future..." Sister Li rarely talked with him on the dance floor or on the wine table when she was alone with him, and there was always a hint of pleading in her words, "Come out and play together when you have time."

Cui Shican didn't accept her favor: "It's not necessary."

Speaking of this, there are many things that don't need to be pursued anymore, Sister Li said helplessly, it seemed to be extremely cold, and turned to go back to the bar.Her back is slender, but not fragile. Shi Can often looks at her and always feels uneasy.

But he won't have to see Sister Li again.

He blinked vigorously to refresh himself, and drove the small battery into the lonely sea of ​​lights.

After returning to the place where he lived, Cui Shican was extremely sleepy, he washed up sloppily, and collapsed on the bed with a little joy of "finally not having to stay up all night by force".

There are still a few unread messages on the phone, the top one is from Ji Yue half an hour ago, telling him not to forget to buy twenty catties of cat litter for himself when he goes to play the next day—cat litter too Heavy, Ji Yue couldn't carry it—Cui Shican replied, put the phone aside, tilted his head, and fell into a deep sleep in no time.

The next day is the weekend, so there is no need to go to the clinic to work.

Cui Shican missed three alarm clocks, and was finally dragged out of bed by Ji Yue's life-threatening serial calls. He went to brush his teeth in a daze, and almost stuffed the razor into his mouth.

In winter, it takes a long time to get hot water. Shi Can feels that it is a waste, so she keeps washing her face and mouth with cold water.After shaving off the newly grown Hu Qing on his lips, he patted his face in the mirror, finally fully awake.

Ji Yue made an appointment with him for lunch, and it was said that he was going to cook for himself so that Shi Can could check the results.

She seemed to have finally figured something out. She found Cui Shican in the early winter, and asked him to teach her how to cook.Shi Can had no reason to refuse, and just became a regular customer.

Ji Yue’s cat was taken home in early December. Xu Qingjia was afraid that she would be bored at home alone, so despite her parents’ strong opposition—the older generation’s longing for a grandson is too strong, but the young couple would rather die than follow—— Ji Yue bought two cats, Ying Short named Strawberry and Bantam Orange named Pineapple.

Ji Yue was also coaxed to sign up for the night school.

Cui Shican didn't agree at first, but he couldn't resist Ji Yue mentioning it as soon as they met. In the end, for some reason, he came to his senses and had already paid the tuition.It was only later that he heard Ji Yue's slip of the tongue, exposing the secret behind Xu Qingjia's instigation, but Xu Qingjia was not a nosy person, and who had he been instructed by, Shi Can didn't want to think about it.

If you think about it more, you will naturally think of that person.

He and Wen Yu haven't seen each other for three months.

After the course of treatment was over, Lao Li was going to prescribe ten more physical treatments for Wen Yu, but Wen Yu declined on the grounds that "the work will be very busy at the end of the year, let's talk about it next year", and only took Chinese medicine to go back to continue the treatment.From then on, Wen Yu stopped coming, and Cui Shican couldn't even find a scene to see him again.

He and Wen Yu belonged to two worlds, otherwise, why would Wen Yu meet Yi Jingxing whenever he went to Yancheng for a casual meal, and they were under the same sky, but they never saw each other again?

Shi Can thought to himself that he was spoiled, didn't he come over after not seeing each other for more than five years?Why did Wen Yu feel a little disappointed after meeting each other again after really ignoring him?

Secretly spurning Cui Shican is so cheap to you, everyone is moving forward, how can you expect Wen Yu to be scolded and continue to move forward with a shy face, he shouldn't be with someone like you in the first place Entanglement—isn’t this truth already understood?

I have long understood.

Cui Shican knelt down and put on the old sneakers, and opened the door with a bag of garbage.

"No one is going to stay put and wait."

Those words hurt Wen Yu and hurt himself at the same time.

Arriving at Ji Yue's house with twenty catties of cat litter, Cui Shican's first sentence was to complain: "Your neighborhood is poisonous, I'm carrying things today, so I can't die for elevator maintenance, the [-]th floor, sister! "

"Why didn't you put it in the property, stupid!" Ji Yue came up to meet him, saw that he was really carrying the cat litter upstairs, a little distressed and a little funny, and deliberately patted him on the back.

Cui Shican straightened up: "I don't know if I can put the property, I have never lived in such a high-end place."

Ji Yue scolded him: "You'll be happy when I'm pissed off, don't say such heartbreaking things."

Her meal is almost done, two meat and one vegetarian, the appearance is far better than the taste.Cui Shican saw her happily taking pictures while sending them to Xu Qingjia, and silently swallowed back the phrase "Women do things by paying attention to form", and instead praised her for studying well and being able to graduate smoothly.

The meal made Ji Yue happy, and when she saw the cat litter after packing up, she slapped her forehead and said she wanted to give Shi Can money.

"No, Sister Yue, I'll give it to my nephew and niece." Cui Shican hurriedly stuffed his hands into his pockets in a defensive gesture, for fear that Ji Yue would slip the money into his pocket involuntarily.

Ji Yue: "The money has been transferred to your WeChat."

Cui Shican: "No, just return it tomorrow."

"...You must be mad at me today, aren't you?" Ji Yue's eyes flashed fiercely, she grabbed a cat teasing stick and slapped Shi Can on her body, forcing the person to collect the money before giving up, and called the two cats to come out pick up guests.

In the center of the living room, the white wool carpet occupies a large area, and there is a small sun baking beside it, and two cats are lying on it lazily stepping on milk from the air.Shi Can sat over, picked up the strawberry and scratched his chin. The strawberry was still small, and he was quite wary of strangers, but after a while, he recognized the familiar smell on Shi Can's body.

He leaned back on the sofa and had a great time playing with the cat.Ji Yue washed the fruit and put it on the small coffee table, and then sat cross-legged on the blanket, kicking Shi Can's calf with her toes: "Hey."

"What?" Shi Can said, lowering her head and playing high-five with Strawberry.

"Help me persuade Qingjia not to use the pineapple for sterilization. After the matter is done, I will give you a kitten." Ji Yue said, clasping her hands together above her head, "Please, Shi Can!"

There was a pause in the movement of pinching the strawberry pad, Shi Can blinked, and continued to rub the kitten back and forth: "Forget it, Xu Qingjia has nothing wrong with neutering - besides, I don't want to keep a cat now, it's too expensive."

Ji Yue wailed: "Ah—why both of you are like this—"

The corners of Cui Shican's mouth curled up when he heard this: "I knew you couldn't find me in the first place, and who else would not help you?"

"Who else!" Ji Yue grabbed an apple in frustration, "Wen Yu!"

"...Ah, him." Shi Can said, there seemed to be an inexplicably dark corner at the edge of his field of vision, making it difficult for him to see clearly for a moment.

What's wrong with Wen Yu, are you still in touch?

He petted the cat, didn't look at Ji Yue, wanted to ask but didn't dare to.

Fortunately, Ji Yue didn't observe his expression, and continued on her own: "The last time Wen Yu came to our hotel for dinner because of his work, we met him when we were leaving, and we chatted with him about cats. The reaction was exactly the same as yours."

Cui Shican gave a stiff hum.

Ji Yue: "But do you feel that since Wen Yu returned to China, his whole temperament has changed a lot. Do you remember? He used to be quiet, very bored, and always looked down with no confidence. Now the more It's getting brighter!"

Cui Shican said softly, with a calm tone without any fluctuation.

Ji Yue who was talking happily suddenly thought of something and stopped talking.She turned her head to watch Shi Can's reaction carefully, and sighed after seeing that there was nothing unusual: "I thought you didn't like me mentioning him."

Cui Shican smiled: "Who told you? Wen Yu?"

Ji Yue muttered: "Yeah, he said that you don't seem to like him."

A string rang in Shi Can's heart, as if falling into a lake, so short that it almost never existed.He squeezed Strawberry's paw, ignoring the soreness in his throat: "Did he say the reason?"

"Not really." Ji Yue hugged a pillow, rested her chin on it, and looked at Shi Can in this posture.

His face was reddened by the little sun, very healthy color, compared with the previous few months, although the brows and eyes are still faint, the expression is not the same.Maybe it was the short-lived excitement brought about by the sudden disappearance of the debt, or maybe it was because he finally had free time to daze and relax his nerves. Most of the gloom had dissipated.

"Cancan." Ji Yue called him, her voice was so soft that she was afraid of waking up a sweet dream.

"Huh?" Shi Can raised his head and looked over, his eyes sparkling.

"Why does Wen Yu feel that way?" Ji Yue said innocently, "You obviously like him so much."

It seemed that more than half a century had passed, Cui Shican lowered his head again and did not look at Ji Yue.He shook the kitten's paw, played with it for a long time, and then said in a low voice:

"I don't want him to know."

By the time he tells Ji Yue the secret, the high school graduation ceremony will be over.

At the beginning of July, the cicadas are noisy.At the last gathering, many people chose to wear school uniforms and wandered aimlessly in the school.Cui Shican found Ji Yue and said he wanted to tell her something.

But his expression didn't look like a good thing, which made Ji Yue very nervous, and hid with him at the end of the corridor.

Shi Can remembered that the day was sunny, because it had rained, and the ground was steaming hot, making his vest hot.Ji Yue sat, looked up at him, and urged several times what made him so mysterious.Cui Shican's palms were full of sweat, and he was about to speak, when he was horrified to find that he was about to forget all the previous details.

So he hesitated and cut to the chase: "...I have a special crush on one person."

Ji Yue asked who it was with bright eyes, and counted all the pretty girls in the grade. Every time she said a name, Shi Can shook her head in a panic, unable to hold herself back, and blurted out:

"Wen Yu!"

The girl who was still engrossed in counting names was taken aback for a moment, then jumped up from the corridor in the same panic as him.

Shi Can spoke incoherently. From that accidental kiss to the miss after puberty, he mentioned Wen Yu's name many times, and finally covered his face in embarrassment, blushing all the way from his forehead to the root of his neck, his cheeks reddened. Hot and hot.

Later, Shi Can reflected, he chose Ji Yue probably because compared to other classmates, Ji Yue looked unreliable but was good at keeping secrets, and the two of them had always had a good relationship, Ji Yue knew him and Wen Yu at the same time Among people, the one who spends the longest time together day and night.Maybe it's also because Ji Yue is a girl, so Shi Can can't say that to ordinary same-sex friends.

He said that Wen Yu was fine, he missed Wen Yu very much, and wanted to find him, but Wen Yu's phone was down, and he was very sad that he couldn't find anyone, thinking sadly that Wen Yu had been angry with him all the time.

At that time, it had been a long time since he lost his voice due to stress, and when it was so long, Can couldn't remember what it was like not to be able to make a sound.But he only remembers his despair after that phone call, which lasts forever.

"Do you like it?" He asked Ji Yue.

"That's right." Ji Yue said, "But don't be afraid, it's nothing different."

Cui Shican remembered very clearly that he was affirmed by Ji Yue, but he was not happy at all because of it.

Years and months passed, Ji Yue sat on the sofa, and asked him in great confusion why he didn't tell Wen Yu, why he wanted to get rid of him even though he obviously liked him.

He almost bald Strawberry's tail, thought hesitantly, and finally said, "Because of fear."

The author says:

(._.) I am so happy