I want to become "accepted"

Zou Shaowen got up and opened his drawer, and took out a small box. The delicate velvet cloth had a soft light under the light.Xiao Yu watched Zou Shaowen walking over with the small box, "What is this? I should ask for marriage..." Come on.As soon as the words came out, Xiao Yu suddenly realized that he hadn't figured out his position yet, so he shut up quickly.

Zou Shaowen didn't care what Xiao Yu said, he sat back beside the bed, opened the small box, and there was a golden five-pointed star in the middle of the box.Xiao Yu reached out and took out the five-pointed star, looked at the light, "Brooch? It looks familiar..." Xiao Yu always felt that he had seen this five-pointed star before, but he couldn't remember it.

"Do you still remember that during your sixth grade summer vacation, you liked to play with a big brother who lived next door to your house?"

"Well, I remember, but I moved in the first day of junior high school. At that time, the junior high school was too far away from home, so I moved near the junior high school."

Xiao Yu thought for a while, "You can't be that big brother, right? But..." The age is not right, that big brother was about to go to high school at that time, and he was going to junior high school, so the two of them were very different. It's a summer vacation without homework, so we can play crazy together.

"At that time, there was a little boy in his family, his cousin, who came to play during the summer vacation. I was that little boy."

"I thought that little boy was younger than me." Xiao Yu said after thinking about it.Zou Shaowen was born thin and thin when he was a child, and his body size was smaller than usual. At that time, the elder brother of the neighbor only said that he was his cousin. Xiao Yu took it for granted that he was a little boy younger than himself.

Zou Shaowen smiled: "Do you remember? At that time, there was a mathematics competition in the district..." Zou Shaowen didn't continue, looking at Xiao Yu in front of him.

Xiao Yu continued: "You and I both participated in that competition, and then I was No.1?" Zou Shaowen nodded.

Later, Xiao Yu saw Zou Shaowen, who was in the top ten but not very good, sitting on the balcony watching the sunset.Xiao Yu leaned on the railing to chat with him, and asked him, "Do you like watching the stars?"

The little boy nodded.

"Then this is for you." Xiao Yu solemnly pinned the golden star on his lapel. At that time, Xiao Yu thought it was someone younger than himself. Xiao Yu, who was just 13 years old, Yu pretended to be deep and said, "One exam can't explain anything, life always has to work hard."

The little boy at that time nodded and took the brooch.During that summer vacation, Xiao Yu accompanied the little boy to touch fish and climb trees, and was discovered by an adult, Xiao Yu took the initiative to stand up and bear all the scolding. The reason why the stars are beautiful is because there is a person and a relationship attached to them.

That afternoon, the little boy quietly climbed over the walls of the two yards, and saw Xiao Yu standing in the yard as punishment.The little boy ran over timidly, with his hands behind his back, ran to the front and back of Xiao Yu, stretched out a hand, and handed him a taro-flavored ice cream. The two of them were under the shade of a tree, listening to the roaring cicadas , while licking the ice cream.

At the end of the summer vacation, the little boy returned to his home, and Xiao Yu also moved to the side of the junior high school. Xiao Yu didn't know what happened next.

Zou Shaowen pinched the star and pinned it to Xiao Yu's collar, "Later, I found out about your junior high school from my cousin, and I often went to your school to look at your honor column and look for your name on it. .”

The friendship of childhood, the fermentation of time, the only time Zou Shaowen's heart was moved in his life was when he saw the person with soft and bright eyes shining in the sunset. This thought was five years.In the past five years, he skipped classes to participate in Xiao Yu's sports meeting, art festival, and even some school celebrations.

"I didn't expect you to be such an idiot..." Xiao Yu felt stripped naked.

Zou Shaowen smiled, "I won't disturb your life, just like chasing stars?"

"It's a good metaphor." Xiao Yu was stunned, and gave Zou Shaowen a thumbs up. In the past 20 years, he never expected to experience the feeling of being a star once again.

Zou Shaowen: "Come to my house to play in the future, I will hold up a banner to pick you up from the airport."

Xiao Yu: "No, no, excuse me."

In the sixth year, the only cousin who knew about this incident thought that he was finally able to watch the clouds and see the moon, but he didn't expect that Xiao Yu actually had a girlfriend.The cousin drove to pick Zou Shaowen home, and the two of them sat in the car, watching Lou Anna swaying and bouncing on the road holding Xiao Yu's arm.

The cousin hurriedly started the car and changed the subject: "Shaowen, grandpa asked you how your homework was this semester, please send him a report card."

Zou Shaowen nodded silently, and said while posting, "I already knew about it." Xiao Yu and Lou Anna were together, and Zou Shaowen knew about it when they were both in high school.

The cousin sighed, did not speak, and drove silently.After Xiao Yu broke up, Zou Shaowen often looked at the distant campus on the top floor of his gym and thought about it alone. In the past six years, the two of them were just wishful thinking or fate.Do I want to get close to Xiao Yu again, or I just want to just watch from the side silently as I have done in the past six years.

Fortunately, Xiao Yu took the initiative to deliver it to the door and found Zou Shaowen, which made Zou Shaowen feel that the fate between the two of them might really be doomed a long time ago.So just get close to him, get to know him, even if he doesn't remember all of it, then start over, as a stranger.

Xiao Yu: "Why haven't you told me?"

Zou Shaowen: "Because you said that you don't know how to reject others. I don't want the relationship between you and me to be just a relationship that I don't know how to reject."

Xiao Yu heard the words, stared at the people around him for a long time, and sighed, "I thought I would live alone all my life, lonely, but now I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and I want to sleep peacefully with you."

"good idea."

"I thought that you would say something nice about whether you are dead or not."

Zou Shaowen shook his head, Xiao Yu asked him suddenly: "Are you afraid of death?"

Zou Shaowen: "Generally speaking, the higher the level of education, the higher the acceptance of death. I am not afraid of death."

Xiao Yu smiled: "You are very cultured"

Zou Shaowen: "But I am afraid of the death of the people around me, because it is not my death, but loss. So compared to my own death, I am more afraid of the people around me leaving."

Xiao Yu: "I will always be here." We will always be together until death separates us, Zou Shaowen seemed to know what Xiao Yu wanted to say, and raised his hand to cover Xiao Yu's mouth, "I know, say it It won't work."

Xiao Yu smiled: "I don't pay that much attention, you don't have to be afraid, one day I will be embarrassed because of this promise."

Zou Shaowen was taken aback, he saw it... At this moment we can say: We will love each other deeply until the universe is destroyed, until life and death.But time is a very terrible thing, it makes things go bad, makes vows devalued, makes all love become the shackles of the next second, and makes all loving people resent in the end.

"We won't." Xiao Yu said softly, raised Zou Shaowen's hand, and kissed the back of his hand, "We have crossed time before, and we will not be changed by time."

Zou Shaowen: "Love is such a thing..."

Xiao Yu: "I only have one in this life." It's you.

Zou Shaowen gave up, Xiao Yu expressed his loyalty with every word, and he made himself feel like tearing down his marriage if he continued.So he just shut up and stopped talking, if love is only once in this life, why should he care about being bound by him? Zou Shaowen has worked hard to be bound by him for the past six years.In fact, as early as six years ago, he was already a person in this cocoon.

Xiao Yu touched the little star on his chest, "Senior..."

Zou Shaowen: "What's the matter?" Zou Shaowen's gentle smile was tinged with sweetness, and Xiao Yu's heart fluttered when he saw it.

Xiao Yu took down the little star, put it on the small table next to the bed, and threw himself on Zou Shaowen, thinking that no matter what his position is, the foreplay is the same anyway.

Xiao Yu was extraordinarily patient, but also a little apprehensive. If Zou Shaowen was attacking, what would he do, just lie flat?But Zou Shaowen didn't take the initiative at all. Could it be that he really sat on it and moved by himself?Xiao Yu had question marks all over his head, and dishonestly moved his hands up and down, pressing Zou Shaowen's abdominal muscles with one hand, and undoing his belt with the other hand.

After taking off his clothes, Xiao Yu didn't dare to look at the person in front of him. He had seen half-naked people secretly, but now he could lie completely in front of him, but Xiao Yu didn't dare to look at them.So he half lay on Zou Shaowen's body, blocking the sight of the two of them.However, just like that, they fell into an awkward stare.

As the passive side, don't you want to be a little shy?But the senior didn't take the initiative, Xiao Yu and Zou Shaowen looked at each other for a long time, and said silently: "Senior..."

"Huh?" Zou Shaowen's gentle and deep voice was a little hoarse, and the protracted ending was unbearably sultry.

"Senior... I'm just pretending." Xiao Yu felt a little regretful the moment he said this, and it's not unacceptable to change his position. Now that the two of them are on the ropes, he suddenly said that I can't do it, and Zou Shaowen felt a shadow in his heart How big is it, is it possible that two people use each other's hands?

Zou Shaowen smiled instead of anger: "Don't be so troublesome."

"Ok?"

Zou Shaowen wrapped his hands around Xiao Yu's neck, pulled him down, and whispered in Xiao Yu's ear, "You can be on it."

Xiao Yu felt that Zou Shaowen's voice and breath flowed through his body like an electric current from his ears, and while kissing Zou Shaowen's collarbone, he thought that it was Xu Yan's nonsense that caused him to pretend for so long.

Early the next morning, Xiao Yu nestled in Zou Shaowen's arms, smelling the unique scent on Zou Shaowen, tilting his head to look at Zou Shaowen, and asked softly, "Senior, are you awake?"

Zou Shaowen closed his eyes, but said softly, "I'm awake."

Xiao Yu nestled into Zou Shaowen's chest again, and pressed against Zou Shaowen's chest: "Senior, good morning."

"Good morning, boyfriend."