I want to become "accepted"

Sunny Friday, April 20, 4xx

Today I went back to school to pack my luggage, passed by the gym, and saw Mr. Zou Shaowen. He is still the same as before. He likes to go to the gym to exercise after a busy week on Friday. Rain or shine, he is always so persistent and patient.

When I passed by him, he was talking to a girl next to him, with the same gentle smile as always, just like when he was by my side.

I wanted to go over and say hello to him, but the two short months of contact two years ago made me wonder if our relationship is so good that we can still nod and say hello now...

I walked past the glass window of the gym, he seemed to see me, but he didn't seem to see me, there seemed to be eye contact for a moment, but then we both walked in different directions.

Xiao Yu closed the notebook forcefully with a snap, unable to write anymore...

Zhao Xingyun: [How about it, have you finished writing the diary? 】

Xiao Yu: 【This is not a diary! 】

Zhao Xingyun: [Look at you, you don't have any sense of substitution at all. 】

Three 10 minutes ago.

Zhao Xingyun: [Let's confess your love as soon as possible. 】

Xiao Yu: [I'm still a little scared. 】

Zhao Xingyun: [What are you afraid of? Afraid that he won't accept you? 】

Xiao Yu: [Yes. 】

Zhao Xingyun: [Well, don't you often write a diary? Imagine you didn't confess your love, your relationship two years later, after he graduated. 】

Zhao Xingyun deeply understands that Xiao Yu is a pessimist through and through. No matter how optimistic and positive he is, in a prosperous scene, in his eyes, he can always see the gloomy scene after the prosperity.Zhao Xingyun and Xiao Yu have been classmates for more than ten years, and found that Xiao Yu never seemed to have the concept of a sense of security in his heart.

He would only silently think about all the possibilities in the future by himself, and then think over and over again how to deal with the worst possibility, even if few of those things happened.But Xiao Yu couldn't forget what had happened, and he kept it in his heart one by one. Instead, he felt that his life was full of unmanageable sorrows.

He looked at the small notebook in front of him, and felt a sense of sadness in his heart. Although all this was just an imagination, if he continued to delay like this, after two months, no, there would be less than one month left.After that, we will be able to see it as soon as we open our eyes every day, gradually drifting away, and hesitate to say hello when we meet.

Xiao Yu is not willing, he is a very extreme person, he has no good things in his mind, he can bury his head in the sand until he grows old, all things will fade away with time and he will not give any reaction; but he has good things in mind , we will definitely try our best to do it.

Xiao Yu had already made up his mind, he was unwilling to give up Zou Shaowen.Xiao Yu picked up the sake on the table, poured it into a cup, and took a sip.This was brought back by Zhao Xingyun from Japan last week. The courier just arrived today. Along with the courier, there is also a set of light pink glass cups. Cherry blossoms are delicately carved on the transparent light pink glass.

Xiao Yu intuited that this set was definitely not for him. His favorite color was blue. If Zhao Xingyun wanted to be disgusted, he should choose purple, but it was a pink cherry blossom limited edition, and the price was not low.

Xiao Yu: [What's the matter with this set of wine glasses? 】

Zhao Xingyun: [For you? 】

Xiao Yu: [Who did you plan to send it to in the first place? 】

Zhao Xingyun: [... You can see all of this. 】

Xiao Yu: [Secretly looking for a girlfriend behind my back? 】

Zhao Xingyun: [I originally wanted to tell you when things are done...] But it didn't work out.

【You take it, I feel uncomfortable just looking at it. 】

Xiao Yu originally wanted to comfort Zhao Xingyun again, but he is a mess now, how can he have the energy to take care of others.Zhao Xingyun also understood Xiao Yu's current situation very well, and sent a strong expression, urging Xiao Yu to express his love quickly.

Zhao Xingyun: [You confess your love as soon as possible, so that we will either be the same people who have fallen in the end of the world, or we will expect you to win us up. 】

Xiao Yu: [I'll go tonight. 】

After finishing speaking, Xiao Yu opened the half-written diary, and crossed out 'smiling as usual', Senior Zou only smiled at me. 'He seems to have seen me' Cross it out, he will definitely see me, and he will definitely say hello when he sees me.After drawing these, Xiao Yu finally closed the notebook with satisfaction.

Zou Shaowen is taking the earliest mid-term exam of this semester, and the whole dormitory is very quiet, without a single sound.Xiao Yu yawned and drank the last glass of sake, the faint aroma of peaches wafted throughout the room.Then I plunged into my own soft quilt, thinking, "I confess my love, I must confess my love." '

Zou Shaowen finished the paper half an hour ahead of schedule, but while sitting and checking, Cai Minghui kept winking at Zou Shaowen, "Let's go?" Zou Shaowen shook his head and refused to hand in the papers in advance.In the last 15 minutes, the invigilator picked up the microphone to remind the candidates to pay attention to the time and not to hand in any more papers. Cai Minghui lowered his head resignedly, and then stared at his paper.

Zou Shaowen checked each of his answers with a calculator, but in the last 5 minutes he couldn't help but start to wander, not knowing what Xiao Yu was doing in the dormitory.For the first time in more than a month, the two did not spend the night together.Because Xiao Yu has a rather homely personality, he doesn't go out on weekdays, and he doesn't have any activities. The only time he goes out is to stay with Zou Shaowen.

After handing in the test paper, I said, 'You can leave now. Like a starting gun, the whole classroom was filled with the sound of chairs passing across the floor. Everyone stood up at the same moment, rushed to the side of the podium to look for their bags, and then walked out of the classroom.

There were several discussions about the answer in the distance, but there was no movement in Zou Shaowen's circle. Cai Minghui and Zou Shaowen basically didn't care much about the answer. Zou Shaowen was confident, and Cai Minghui was too lazy to care. The two looked at their phones and walked out of the classroom.

When Zou Shaowen returned to the dormitory, the whole dormitory was dark, and there was a sweet fruity smell in the air. He turned on the light at the entrance and thought, 'Aren't you in the dormitory? ', after changing the shoes, walked in with a little disappointment, and turned on the light in the dormitory.

As soon as the light was turned on, Zou Shaowen was the first to be attracted by the row of small glasses on Xiao Yu's table. The light pink color was very crystal clear and lovely. When he turned his head, he saw Xiao Yu crawling on the bed, tilting his head and smiling.

"Have you been drinking?" Zou Shaowen asked the person on the bed while putting down his schoolbag.

"En." Xiao Yu nodded, sat up, leaned against the wall and looked at Zou Shaowen, then opened his arms, making a gesture of hugging.

Zou Shaowen looked at Xiao Yu curiously, walked towards him, half knelt beside his bed, touched Xiao Yu's red face: "Are you drunk?"

"No." Xiao Yu shook his head.

Zou Shaowen looked at him seriously: "Really?"

Xiao Yu didn't answer this question, but pulled Zou Shaowen to pull him towards him. Zou Shaowen was pulled so unsteadily that he quickly pulled out a hand to support Xiao Yu.

Xiao Yu hugged the person standing in front of him, turned around and fell into the quilt again, facing him, staring into his eyes: "Zou Shaowen."

Zou Shaowen smelled the pleasant fruit aroma on Xiao Yu's body, and felt that Xiao Yu was very different from usual: "Huh?" I am not drunk at all.Then kissed Zou Shaowen's lips, "I like you."

Xiao Yu's lips softly pressed against Zou Shaowen's lips, then passed his chin, buried his head in Zou Shaowen's neck, and repeated: "I like you."

Zou Shaowen was panting slightly, feeling Xiao Yu's breathing lightly and shallowly swept over his Adam's apple and collarbone, he took a few deep breaths for a long time, smiled, and said slowly: "Is it drunk talk?"

Xiao Yu propped up his upper body and looked at Zou Shaowen: "No, I really like you."

Zou Shaowen raised one hand to touch the back of the person on his body, and asked him, "Do you know what I'm thinking now?"

Xiao Yu found out that Zou Shaowen did not reject him, so he lazily continued to climb on Zou Shaowen with confidence: "What do you think?"

"Fortunately, I have not been unrequited love for so long."

"Huh?" After hearing this sentence, Xiao Yu was first puzzled, and then surprised, "You..."

Zou Shaowen continued: "I have liked you for a long time."

Xiao Yu felt that the meaning of this sentence was clear. Zou Shaowen had liked him for a long time, but he and he had known each other for less than two months...

Xiao Yu: "Since when we first saw each other?"

Zou Shaowen: "Yes."

Xiao Yu: "That time in the gym?"

Zou Shaowen: "Earlier."

Xiao Yu frowned suspiciously, and even though he didn't know when it was earlier, he still said: "Then you are so stupid, they all said that I like you, it's very obvious, you can't tell ?”

Zou Shaowen circled the person in his arms: "Because I want to wait for you to say it yourself."

Xiao Yu was startled, then broke free from Zou Shaowen's embrace, gently held Zou Shaowen's face, kissed Zou Shaowen bit by bit, from the corner of his mouth to the corner of his eyes, and then slowly turned to the pinna, Zou Shaowen suddenly smiled: "Suddenly regret it!" Did not hand in the paper in advance."

Xiao Yu bit his earlobe, "I will wait for you forever, I don't care about this little time." Then he traced Zou Shaowen's profile with his tongue, Xiao Yu's right hand slowly went down from Zou Shaowen's profile, passed through the collarbone, and stroked Through the abdominal muscles, stretched in from the hem of the loose T-shirt.

Zou Shaowen suddenly hugged Xiao Yu forcefully, and the two clinging to each other, stopped Xiao Yu's hand movement. Xiao Yu lowered his head and licked Zou Shaowen's collarbone, pecked lightly on his heart, then got up and lay back on the other side of the bed.

"So, can we tell the story of the little squirrel?"