most beautiful

Lu Ming didn't see He Pingan when he woke up again.

His mother, Xie Chen, was on the side. She told him that He Ping'an had gone back to school and left him breakfast.

This is the best, Lu Ming thought.

He was transferred to a quiet independent ward and stayed in the hospital for 20 days on sick leave with his unit. Although he only had injections every day, it was already October when the repeated high fever and cough finally subsided.

He missed the [-]th long holiday, and He Pingan never showed up again.

Not even a single message was sent.

During this period, Lu Ming made a comprehensive inspection.

The doctor he was familiar with told him that his hearing was gradually declining recently, which might cause dizziness and physical discomfort, and reminded him to pay attention.

His ear was diagnosed as sensorineural deafness caused by the earthquake. Due to neuron damage, this deafness can only be slowed down but not cured.

Before being discharged from the hospital, Lu Ming went to see the experts in the rehabilitation center again, and wanted to consult again how to relieve phantom limb pain.

The old professor in the rehabilitation center, surnamed Hao, is 70 years old, with white hair, but still in good spirits.

Professor Hao's eyes lit up the moment he saw Lu Ming enter the house. After the amputation, Lu Ming was doing rehabilitation here. He was deeply impressed. I hope Lu Ming can survive this test and live a good life, so I always encourage him.

A few years later, he saw Lu Ming coming to him again, his pace was similar to that of a normal person, and he was quite relieved.

The two chatted for a while, and after Lu Ming explained his purpose, Professor Hao frowned.

"After most people get used to wearing artificial limbs, this phantom limb pain will gradually disappear. It is rare for phantom limb pain like yours to last for many years. You can try traditional Chinese medicine acupuncture, which may be effective."

It is good that the doctor has a clear suggestion, but does not say that it cannot be treated.

After chatting for a few more words, Lu Ming got up to say goodbye.

Professor Hao seemed to see the predicament in Lu Ming's life, so he stopped him and spoke slowly.

"Young man, work hard and don't give up. Don't think that life will be exhausted if you live to the age of 30. You still have a long way to go. There are many human affairs waiting for you to experience. If you live another ten or twenty years, life will be another day. It's a sight."

Knowing that the old professor was encouraging and comforting himself, Lu Ming nodded gratefully.

After leaving the rehabilitation center and returning to the ward, his mother Xie Chen and his father Lu Haitao had completed the discharge procedures and packed their things, waiting to take him home.

Lu Ming got into the car, and Xie Chen, the co-pilot, turned around and asked him tentatively: "Son, you have lost weight recently, and you will stay home for a few days. Mom will make you some delicious food to nourish your body?"

Lu Ming couldn't bear to refuse his mother's care, and he didn't want his aging parents to work hard for him all the time.

He lowered his eyes, not wanting to see Xie Chen's disappointment, so he made an excuse: "It's been so long, I'm going to work tomorrow, it's better to live close by."

Unwilling to reconcile, Xie Chen asked him again: "Then let's go home for dinner today, is that okay?"

There was a bit of humble begging in the tone.

Lu Ming felt a pain in his heart, nodded and agreed, "Okay."

Lu Ming followed his parents into the house, because his son doesn't come home often now, Xie Chen hurriedly took off his coat, put on an apron and went to the kitchen to cook.

Lu Haitao changed into home clothes, rolled up his sleeves and watered the flowers in the living room with a watering can.

Seeing this, Lu Ming froze in place, his father beckoned him over to help.

Passing the watering can to his son, Lu Haitao chatted with him while instructing him how to water.

Seven years ago, after he was injured, the family sold the former high-rise and moved to the first floor, with a small garden in front of the building.

When Lu Ming lived at home, his parents always focused on him, and they rarely had extra energy to do other things, so the garden was always deserted.

After Lu Ming moved out three months ago, the couple had more free time, so they decided to take care of the garden and plant some flowers and plants.

Xie Chen likes flowers, so he bought several pots of different varieties of roses and brought them home.

"Your mother likes these beautiful flowers and plants." Lu Haitao complained to his son Lu Ming: "They are all superficially beautiful things, flashy."

Lu Ming felt that his father's attitude towards him was no longer cautious this time, and he also relaxed a lot, and responded with a smile, "This is very good. If she likes it, she can raise more. It looks good."

"Yeah, in a few years, your mother and I will retire too. It's also a good choice to grow flowers and plants, which is pleasing to the eye and self-cultivation." Lu Haitao sighed.

Lu Ming looked at a pink rose plant that was blooming just right, he knew that his parents had been looking forward to him finding someone to marry and have children.

Lu Haitao patted his son on the shoulder, feeling that he was going to be so thin that only his bones remained, "Actually, after you moved out, Dad was really uncomfortable and worried that your life would not be good. Only now did I realize that the past few years have been We were too careful. Dad also wanted to open it. No matter what, the most important thing is that you can be happy. Your mother will gradually understand. "

"Dad..." Lu Ming looked at his father whose hair had already turned gray, feeling sore in his heart.

After lunch, Lu Ming returned to his residence from home. Along the way, he thought about what Professor Hao and his parents said, and suddenly felt that he was a mess.

Maybe I was not as good as people said, but a completely selfish and cowardly person.

I lost a lot in that earthquake, my beloved lover, healthy body and mind.

But after so many years, instead of saying that I can't come out, it's better to say that I have been closed in my heart and I don't want to come out.

Because I can't and dare not forget Zhou Ziyue, the love he gave his life is so unforgettable and heavy.

But today, Lu Ming truly realized that if he continued to immerse himself in the past and live like a walking corpse, he would be wasting his time and wasting the life that Zhou Ziyue bought at the price of sacrificing himself.

What Professor Hao and his father said made him enlightened.

Lu Ming came to the study and stroked the book of Sophie's World that he had read repeatedly.

This book was bought by Zhou Ziyue. After the two confessed their love for each other during the summer vacation of their junior year, Zhou Ziyue suddenly wanted to study philosophy, so he chose this book Sophie's World to get started.

"I want to know the origin and meaning of life, and why I fell in love with you." Zhou Ziyue said to Lu Ming when the two secretly kissed.

It was an interesting time indeed.

Zhou Ziyue would take this book with him when he went to the library, he would take this book with him when he went to work, and he would read this book when he returned to his dormitory.

He is a top student in science and engineering, but lacks in liberal arts. This Sophie's World is like a poison to him. After he forced himself to read it, he never mentioned the question of studying philosophy again.

So Zhou Ziyue put this book on Lu Ming's bookshelf casually, and kept it there for two years.

On the day of the graduation ceremony, the two took many photos with the SLR camera that Lu Ming bought with savings.

There is a photo of Lu Ming wearing a bachelor's uniform, posing with scissors to Zhou Ziyue and asking him to take a picture of himself.

Later, Zhou Ziyue felt that this photo of Lu Ming was very handsome, so he ran to a photo studio to have it washed out and gave it to him.I also secretly wrote a love poem at the back-you are the most beautiful love letter I sent to the future, and signed my name.

At that time, Lu Ming was startled, afraid that other students would see it, so he stuck it in a book that no one usually touches.

Lu Ming flipped through Sophie's world and found the photo inside. In the photo, he was 22 years old and had a sunny face.

What was I thinking at that time, I was smiling so happily.

Lu Ming couldn't recall, probably because he wanted to be with the person in front of him for the rest of his life.

When I was young and fearless, how could I think that life and death would be separated in a blink of an eye.

The SLR camera I took to City D was destroyed in the earthquake, and the photos that I hadn't had time to develop were gone.

While he was recovering from illness, Zhou Ziyue's mother went from County C to University A alone and took all his belongings.

Later, when Lu Ming called her, he realized that she hated herself, hated herself for killing her son, and that was her pride of relying on her.

Zhou Ziyue comes from a single-parent family.

In the end, only this Sophie's World and this photo with Zhou Ziyue's name were left undiscovered. This was the only remaining bond between me and him, and it was the proof that the two had been together.

The next few years were like a dream, and now that the dream is about to wake up, Lu Ming's heart is full of reluctance.

He took out his diary, turned to the latest blank page, and wrote down his feelings.

Ziyue:

If I don't think of you anymore from today, will you in heaven be angry and sad?To live well is your entrustment to me, and it will also be my promise to you.

I will always remember you.

——2017, September, 10