you are with the light

When Chen Ke went out in the morning, he met Gu Jinbei. He squatted at the door, poking the ground with his fingers as usual, but looked at him when he heard the sound, and then stopped moving.

Chen Ke always felt that he had lost some weight, but he hadn't been with Gu Jinbei for a long time, so maybe it was just his illusion.

"Hi." He greeted Gu Jinbei, and Gu Jinbei grinned, showing his small canine teeth, looking silly.

"I'm going to buy breakfast, do you want to go?"

Gu Jinbei nodded.

The weather has turned better again today, the sun came out early in the morning, it was not hot, and it was very comfortable to shine on people.The two were walking on the street, Chen Ke asked Gu Jinbei: "How old are you?"

"Eight years old."

"Eight years old." Chen Ke stopped, bent slightly and said to him, "I am four years older than you, you can call me brother."

"Brother." Gu Jinbei is very good at this, and he spontaneously added a word, "Brother Chen."

The soft voice of the child calling his brother made Chen Ke's heart itch, and he said, "Say it a few more times."

"Brother Chen, Brother Chen, Brother Chen."

Gu Jinbei yelled a few times, his eyes curled up.

Chen Ke coughed unnaturally: "Okay, there's no need to scream."

"You can call me Xiaobei." Gu Jinbei said, "They all call me that, it's very close."

Chen Ke nodded, took his hand, and continued walking down the street to buy breakfast.The people here don't pay much attention to queuing, they all swarm over the stalls they see, just like surrounding the enemy.

"What do you want to eat? Fried dough sticks? Steamed buns? Noodles?"

"Fried dough sticks." Gu Jinbei stretched out a finger, "One."

Chen Ke squeezed in and bought a deep-fried dough stick, two meat buns and a steamed bun, his back was wet when he squeezed it out.

Chen Ke handed the fritters to Gu Jinbei, Gu Jinbei took it and whispered "thank you".Chen Ke took his other free hand and led him back slowly.

"Is Fu Laoqian your father?" Afraid that Gu Jinbei might not understand, Chen Ke added, "It's the man who lives with you now."

Gu Jinbei chewed the fried dough sticks and said vaguely: "Stepfather."

Chen Ke asked again: "Then your mother beat you, didn't he know?"

Gu Jinbei stopped suddenly, he tugged at Chen Ke's hand, and Chen Ke looked at him.Gu Jinbei said seriously: "No."

"what?"

"My mother didn't hit me." Gu Jinbei said, he raised his head, "You squat down, and I'll tell you, quietly."

Chen Ke obeyed and squatted down.Gu Jinbei leaned close to his ear, and the hot breath from his breath hit his ear, which made him feel a little itchy: "Don't tell others, okay?"

Chen Ke asked him, "Why?"

Gu Jinbei avoided his gaze, lowered his head and took a bite of the fritters, and said sullenly, "Because... I love her."

Chen Ke felt that he might understand his feelings. He also loved Chen Wanran, but he loved her so much that he couldn't understand it, because if Chen Wanran beat him like this every day, he might not love her.

"I only have her." Gu Jinbei said, "I can't lose her."

This is an explanation, it’s really not true that Chen Ke can’t understand it, but he didn’t ask any more questions, and it’s meaningless to go any further. He could only get up and drag Gu Jinbei back, and said to him halfway: “ You can come to my house anytime."

When entering the room, Mrs. Chen was sitting on the sofa, and Chen Ke put two meat buns on the dining table: "It's time to eat."

Mrs. Chen gave him a contemptuous look, stood up slowly, walked tremblingly to the table, and then slowly worked while holding the edge of the table, looking like a dying old woman.

Chen Ke watched coldly with folded arms.

Mrs. Chen took a bite of the steamed stuffed bun, and when she found out that it was filled with meat, she yelled, "It's meat! How do you buy meat! Do you know that the meat buns sold outside are all made of meat lumps!"

Chen Ke turned on the TV, picked up the remote control to change channels: "Then don't eat it."

Mrs. Chen looked at him in disbelief.

Chen Ke tuned to the animation station, and never looked away from it.

"You child! When your mother comes back..."

Just as she was talking, the door opened, and Chen Wanran walked in. She called "son" at the porch first, and after changing her shoes and went to the living room and saw Mrs. Chen, she called "Mom" again.

"Don't call me mom!" Mrs. Chen lifted up the meat bun, "Look at the stuffed buns your son bought for me, meat stuffing, does he want to eat me to death?"

Chen Wanran ignored her, and instead asked Chen Ke: "Son, have you eaten yet?"

Chen Ke ignored her.Chen Wanran felt something was wrong, and walked towards him again, Chen Ke quickly lowered his head and wiped his eyes.

"Son, what's the matter?" Chen Wanran was startled by his action, hurried over, reached out to lift his face up, and saw that Chen Ke's face was full of tears.

"mom……"

Chen Wanran felt her heart hurt immediately, she hugged her son in her arms, and asked him softly what's wrong.

When Chen Ke was crying, he didn't like to talk, but shed tears silently, which made people feel distressed.Chen Wanran asked him several times before he choked up and said, "Grandma..."

Mrs. Chen refused to accept this sudden pot, and vehemently denied it: "He is talking nonsense!"

Chen Ke jumped up like a cat whose tail had been stepped on, and shouted back, "I didn't!"

He stared at her fiercely: "You said I was a little monster, if it wasn't for me, my parents wouldn't have divorced..."

"Enough." Chen Wanran interrupted Chen Ke with a very bad expression, "Go back to your room and stop making trouble."

Chen Ke looked at her stubbornly, and the tears in his eye sockets never stopped flowing.

"Grandma doesn't mean anything malicious, can you go back to your room?" Chen Wanran lowered her voice, half-coaxing her, "I'll tell grandma, okay?"

Chen Ke nodded, and walked back to the room sobbing.As soon as the door was closed, he wiped away his tears, and all the grievances and resentment on his face disappeared.

Grandma's loud rebuttal came from outside, but Chen Wanran's voice could not be heard. Chen Ke knew that Chen Wanran would not quarrel with Mrs. Chen. Firstly, it was her mother, and secondly, she came back early in the morning and was a little tired.

The sound outside stopped after a while, and Chen Ke lay on the bed for a while and got up again.He took out a comic book from the table—it was given to him by Lu Weijian, and read it.

Gu Jinbei stayed at home and watched TV for a while, and the things that usually attracted him could no longer call back his heart. His heart drifted leisurely to the next door, to Chen Ke.

Is this... a friend?

Gu Jinbei has no friends, and his understanding of the concept of friends is limited to television.He used to always feel that this thing was far away from him, as if it was in the sky, but now he felt that this thing was right in front of his eyes, as long as he stretched out his hand, he could grab it.

Chen Ke is...a friend, right?

Gu Jinbei turned off the phone and ran out. He ran to the next door and hesitated at the door for a long time before he boldly knocked on the door.

After knocking for a long time, an old woman opened the door for him and frowned when she saw him: "Who are you?"

"Grandma." Gu Jinbei called her obediently, "I'm looking for Chen Ke."

"Look for Chen Ke." The old lady smiled, and the wrinkles on her face bloomed like chrysanthemums. "Are you his friend?"

Gu Jinbei suddenly felt a little blushing, he was a little shy, with a little bit of joy: "Yes."

The old grandma smiled even more happily. She raised her skinny hand and touched Gu Jinbei's head: "I am his grandma, someone very close to him."

Gu Jinbei didn't like her touching his head, but he held back when he heard her words.He raised his face and smiled at her.

The old lady stood at the door and didn't say to let him in, so Gu Jinbei was too embarrassed to speak. He stood at the door and stood in a hurry.

"If you and Chen Ke are good friends, let me tell you a secret about him, do you want to listen to it?"

Gu Jinbei was stunned for a moment, there was a secret longing in his heart, he wanted to hear it, because he really didn't know much about this friend, but he also clearly understood that it was wrong to pry into other people's secrets, and his heart was in conflict torment.

When he was hesitating, the old lady had already made the decision for him.She said mysteriously: "You play with him, do you think he is a boy?"

Gu Jinbei looked at her without speaking.

The corner of the old lady's mouth raised a happy smile, but she quickly suppressed it.

She walked over and said strangely: "Actually, he has a woman's hole!"

Gu Jinbei looked at her puzzled.

At the age of eight, he couldn't understand these things, and no one had told him about them, so he asked with some doubts: "What is... a woman's hole?"

The old lady smiled and gestured to him with her hand: "It was penetrated by a man." She circled a circle with her thumb and forefinger, and gave him a rough description, "Just like your mother, there is only a woman growing underneath." stuff, and you can stick your dick/chicken in there if you want."

Gu Jinbei's eyes widened.

He vaguely felt that this was a topic that was so private that it couldn't be more private. His whole body was so dry that he didn't even know where to put his two arms by his side.

The old lady is still talking.

"But, he is disgusting. He also has a man's chick/chicken, which is very small." The old lady's laughter hit Gu Jinbei's eardrums sharply, and his face wrinkled uncomfortably.

"He is a hermaphrodite, a little monster." The old lady's voice sounded eerie and scary, Gu Jinbei took a step back, "Do you still want to be friends with a little monster?"

Gu Jinbei screamed.

His scream was different from usual, it was very sharp and piercing.The old lady closed the door amidst his screams, with a smug look on her face.

Chen Ke didn't get distracted when he read the comics. He put down the comics and walked out of the room when he heard the screams outside.

Mrs. Chen was sitting on the sofa, and when she heard the sound, she looked towards him and gave him an uncomfortable smile.

Chen Ke didn't delve into the meaning of her smile, and he didn't care too much about it. He opened the door, and Gu Jinbei's screaming stopped the moment he saw him.

"What's wrong? What's your name?" Chen Ke said, he couldn't help frowning, and lowered his voice, "Did your mother beat you?"

Gu Jinbei shook his head, he took a few steps forward, raised his face and said expectantly, "Let's go out and play."

Chen Ke looked at him, his face was fair, not red and swollen at all, he didn't look like he had been beaten.Chen Ke has never experienced this. He doesn't know that if a mother beats a child, she will not only hit him in the face, but also covertly pinch his waist, kick his stomach, and kick his calf.

Chen Ke said, "Okay."

He walked out of the room and closed the door, Gu Jinbei took his hand consciously.He looked up at Chen Ke. Chen Ke's profile was very beautiful, with a straight nose, big eyes, a pursed mouth, and a mole under the corner of his mouth.

He didn't hold back: "You are beautiful."

Chen Ke stopped in his tracks, his beautiful eyebrows furrowed, showing signs of anger.

"Beautiful girl Chen Niangniang!"

Because he was too delicate when he was young, he didn't look like a boy. Those boys always liked to tease and tease him like they teased girls, so he hated others to praise him for his beauty from the bottom of his heart.

Gu Jinbei obviously didn't know, he thought of what the grandma said today, so he added: "Like a girl."

Chen Ke's face turned cold, and he let go of Gu Jinbei's hand.

Gu Jinbei stared blankly at his empty hand, wondering why Chen Ke let it go.

Then his eyes moved up and saw Chen Ke who was full of anger.

Chen Ke was angry.

"Brother Chen." Gu Jinbei reached for his hand in a panic, but was thrown away.

Chen Ke's tone was without any emotional ups and downs: "I'm going home."

Gu Jinbei looked at him, but Chen Ke turned and left.Gu Jinbei ran forward a few steps to catch up with him, but failed.

Chen Ke's stature is still a bit tall for him now.

He saw Chen Ke walking into the alley around the corner, but when he ran over, he couldn't find Chen Ke.

He walked slowly in the alley alone.

Gu Jinbei hasn't recovered yet. He doesn't know where Chen Ke is angry. In his opinion, complimenting someone as beautiful as a little girl is not a discriminatory word.

He lives in an ivory tower, isolated from the outside world, trapped in a corner, and he doesn't know many things.

"Ms. Chen."

Someone yelled at him from behind.

Chen Ke turned his feet, walked over very impolitely, and grabbed Wang Mazi by the collar: "Say it again."

Wang Mazi's real name was Wang Zongcai, and he was called Wang Mazi because of the many freckles on his face. Chen Ke also had a nickname, Chen Niangniang, and everyone shouted it behind his back, never in front of him.

Mainly because I dare not.

Although Chen Ke looks pretty like a little girl, and looks gentle and gentle as if he is easy to bully, but in reality he is wild and crazy when fighting, and most of the children in the town are afraid of him.

Wang Mazi was actually a little afraid of him, he just yelled just to show off his tongue, and planned to run away after yelling, who knew that this person was in a bad mood today, and he happened to hit the muzzle of the gun.

Although he was frightened in his heart, Wang Mazi still tried to calm down, and he insisted on speaking hard: "Chen Niangniang!"

Chen Ke didn't slap people in the face, he only picked the places that hurt and would not leave scars. After beating Wang Mazi, he felt a little better, but when he got home and saw Gu Jinbei at the door, he became irritable again.

Originally, he wanted to ignore him and walked in, but the child hugged his calf, raised his head and said pitifully, "I'm sorry."

Chen Ke's heart suddenly softened.