you are with the light

Not long after Gu Jinbei sat down, Lu Qianyi sat down next to him.

"I don't have a book, can we read it together?" Lu Qianyi brushed her hair and asked coquettishly.

Gu Jinbei glanced at her, and pushed the book in his hand to her side.

The two met at a club activity a week ago, when Lu Qianyi came over to strike up a conversation with him, and the two got to know each other that way.

Lu Qianyi is from Nortel. She dreams of becoming an actor because she wants to be closer to her idol Jay Chou.She told Gu Jinbei everything, and she was very good at finding topics. Gu Jinbei never worried that the two of them would be cold when they got along.

Lu Qianyi is beautiful, lively, and enthusiastic about Gu Jinbei. Anyone with a discerning eye can see her feelings for Gu Jinbei, and Gu Jinbei is not unaware.

But he did not explicitly reject Lu Qianyi.Even if he knew that he didn't have any feelings for her, he couldn't be cruel and refuse.If he hadn't been impulsive towards Chen Ke, he definitely wouldn't be hanging on to her, but now, he has a balance in his heart, swinging between Chen Ke and Lu Qianyi.

As usual, when get out of class was over, Lu Qianyi asked him to have dinner, and he agreed, but said that he would go back to the dormitory to put the books first, so Lu Qianyi followed him.

Lu Qianyi talked all the way, Gu Jinbei occasionally echoed a few words, and when he was downstairs in the dormitory, Gu Jinbei heard someone calling him: "Xiaobei."

It's Chen Ke.

The joy on Gu Jinbei's face couldn't be hidden. The moment he saw Chen Ke, he grinned, showing his pointed canine teeth.

He instantly forgot that Lu Qianyi was still standing with him, and walked towards Chen Ke quickly: "Why are you here?"

Chen Ke said with a smile: "Come and see you, oh, I bought you a coat, but I don't know if you will like it, so I show it to you."

"I like it." He looked at Chen Ke and said.

Chen Ke laughed: "It's too fake for you to say you like it before seeing it."

Lu Qianyi stood aside awkwardly for a while, and finally forced her way over: "Jin Bei, this is..."

No matter how good-looking the person in front of him was, he was essentially a man, but this man made Lu Qianyi feel a sense of crisis for no reason.

Only then did Chen Ke look at Lu Qianyi.The corners of his eyes were a little upturned, and he looked arrogant when he glanced at people, but it seemed to be a little contemptuous in Lu Qianyi's eyes.

"This is Brother Chen." Gu Jinbei said.

He cleverly avoided the topic of brothers, he didn't want to be brothers with Chen Ke at all, but other than that, he didn't know anything that could bring the two of them closer together.

Friends will break up when they get along, but brothers are connected by broken bones and tendons, and they are closely connected from birth.

"Hello, Brother Chen." Lu Qianyi said sweetly, and naturally took Gu Jinbei's arm. Chen Ke saw it and raised his eyebrows, "I am Jin Bei's friend, my name is Lu Qianyi, Brother Chen can call me Xiaoqian."

Chen Ke nodded. Gu Jinbei didn't like Lu Qianyi holding his arm, especially towards Chen Ke, which made him feel ashamed as if he was caught/raped in bed.

He broke away from Lu Qianyi calmly.

The clothes brought by Chen Ke fit well, and Gu Jinbei didn't take them off after putting them on.He asked Chen Ke: "Brother Chen, have you eaten yet?"

"No, I plan to go with you." Chen Ke smoothly stroked the folds of his clothes, and turned his collar over.

"That's right." Gu Jinbei smiled, leaving Lu Qianyi behind, "Let's go together."

Chen Ke thought for a while: "Where's that friend of yours?"

This is too tricky, Gu Jinbei doesn't want Lu Qianyi to follow them at this moment.He frowned, looking embarrassed.

"I remember, I have something to do later, so I won't be with you." Chen Ke saw his embarrassment, and said softly.

"Is that so?" Gu Jinbei glanced at Chen Ke, a little reluctant but finally nodded, "Okay."

He was not in high spirits during the meal, but Lu Qianyi was quite happy.She asked Chen Ke on the sidelines, and Gu Jinbei was annoyed by the question, so he said, "He is the most important person to me."

Lu Qianyi's words were interrupted suddenly, she looked at Gu Jinbei for a while, and finally bowed her head to eat.After eating, she asked Gu Jinbei: "What do you mean?"

Gu Jinbei didn't dare to say what he really meant, so he could only say ambiguously, "What do you think it means."

"I don't think it's a good idea." Lu Qianyi said.She looked at Gu Jinbei and said suddenly, "I like you."

Even though he was prepared in his heart, such a straightforward confession still stunned Gu Jinbei for a while.He looked at Lu Qianyi stiffly, not knowing what to say.

"You can refuse me. From then on, we will return to the bridge and return to the road; it is best that you promise me, so that we can move forward hand in hand and create a better future together." Lu Qianyi looked into Gu Jinbei's eyes and said, "You can I don't like me very much, but the relationship needs to be run-in and accumulated, as long as you want, we can take it slowly."

These words are too beautiful and tempting. After Gu Jinbei was confessed that he was smashed to pieces, he was hit by gentle shells.

He opened his mouth, and suddenly couldn't say any words of rejection.All he could say was; "Okay."

He regretted it that night.

He tossed and turned on the bed, Chen Ke's face was all in his mind.The brother below kicked the bed board: "Brother, keep your voice down."

Gu Jinbei stopped turning over and lay on his back looking at the dark top of his head.He kept seeing sunlight streaming in, lighting up the room.

As usual, Lu Qianyi came to take classes when there was no class. She didn't love studying so much, she just wanted to spend more time with Gu Jinbei.The way the two get along has not changed much, and sometimes Gu Jinbei even felt that the conversation that day was like a dream.

Until Lu Qianyi proposed a date.

"Couples are all going on a date. They wear couple outfits together, walk down the street hand in hand, and kiss each other when they are in love." Lu Qianyi said.

In order to cooperate with her, Gu Jinbei bought a couple outfit with her, and walked hand in hand with her in the Summer Palace, before finally kissing, he let go of Lu Qianyi's hand.

"I'm not used to it." Gu Jinbei explained.

Lu Qianyi was angry. She hadn't come to Gu Jinbei for a long time. Gu Jinbei hoped that the relationship between the two would end like this.But Lu Qianyi finally appeared, her eyes were swollen, she complained and said coquettishly: "Won't you come to coax me when I'm angry?"

She thought for a long time, and finally decided to forgive him.

Gu Jinbei also decided to have a good relationship with her.

He took Lu Qianyi home and told Chen Ke that this was his girlfriend.Chen Ke smiled, and the little pear dimple was still cute at the corner of his mouth, and he said, "It's pretty good."

This is not the answer Gu Jinbei wanted.

He looked into Chen Ke's eyes, trying to see reluctance, but Chen Ke's eyes were only stagnant, without any fluctuations.

The stagnant water swallowed almost all the light.

Gu Jinbei said, "I won't be back next weekend."

Chen Ke nodded, still smiling, he said with a smile, "Okay, is the money enough?"

Gu Jinbei almost wanted to run away.

When he returned to school, he was depressed, even if Lu Qianyi's mood looked bright, it could not restore his plummeting mood.He looked at Lu Qianyi several times in the middle, and wanted to just blurt out: "Let's break up."

But he didn't say it in the end.

Chen Ke always thought that he liked to be alone, but when he really realized that he was alone, he felt too lonely.

The house was very quiet, as if it was dead. Chen Ke really wanted some sounds to make the place lively, but there was nothing.

I can't talk about my mood at the moment, it seems that all emotions have been stripped away, and he is left with himself, staying in this basement without seeing the light of day.

Chen Ke's loss was quickly noticed by Meng Dujiang. He asked Chen Ke what was wrong with concern, and Chen Ke said, "No."

"No?" Meng Dujiang smiled, "Okay, no. Are you free tonight? Shall we have dinner together?"

Chen Ke said, "Okay."

In the evening, Chen Ke drank some wine. His capacity for alcohol was quite good. When Meng Dujiang was a little drunk, Chen Ke's eyes were still clear, but his face was a little red, like an apple, which always attracted Meng Dujiang to take a bite .

"Come again." Chen Ke opened another bottle of wine and was about to pour it, but suddenly froze. Meng Dujiang reached out and touched his face. The feeling of skin-to-skin contact made him grab Meng Dujiang's hand almost subconsciously hand, and then twisted it along the way, hearing Meng Dujiang's painful cry.

"I'm sorry." Chen Ke let go of his hand, his eyelashes drooped, casting a shadow on his eyelids.

"It's okay, I offended you." Meng Dujiang sneered, and changed the topic to another place, "Stop drinking, let's eat."

On the way back, Meng Dujiang shared a cigarette with Chen Ke, and the two smoked the car until it was full of smoke.Meng Dujiang said: "When I'm free another day, I'll take you to experience Beijing's nightlife."

Chen Ke bent his mouth, but his eyes did not change: "Okay."

When sending Chen Ke home, Meng Dujiang said, "Mind if I go in and have a sit?" Although he asked, he got out of the car and walked side by side with Chen Ke.

The room was stuffy and the furniture was simple, Meng Dujiang sat down with a temperament that was incompatible with this place, and unbuttoned the top of his shirt.

"too hot."

Chen Ke poured him a glass of water, and Meng Dujiang looked at his hand when he handed over the glass.I have to admit that Chen Ke seems to have been favored by the Creator from birth, and there is no part of his body that has not been meticulously polished, making it amazingly perfect.

It seems that there is really no flaw at all.

He looked at Chen Ke's waist along Chen Ke's fingers, and then saw Chen Ke's neck and Chen Ke's face all the way up.Probably because he drank too much alcohol, he actually felt a little hot on his body.

Chen Ke glanced at him lightly, and Meng Dujiang's heart skipped a beat.He stabilized his mood and drank the water that Chen Ke brought him, only to feel that the impetuousness in his heart had returned to calm.

"What are your plans for the future?"

Chen Ke said, "No."

Meng Dujiang smiled: "No? You are really good. After living for so long, you don't even have a plan for your own life."

"I don't need this kind of thing." Chen Ke said, his eyes fell on a certain place in the house, out of focus, "because I don't feel like I'm alive."

When Chen Ke was very young, there lived a beautiful and very temperamental woman upstairs in his house.When she saw Chen Wanran, she would smile sincerely, and when she saw Chen Ke, she would give him a candy.Sometimes Chen Ke would go to her house to play, and the woman would just chat with him.

The woman said: "I always think about whether I am really alive. Did I come to this world because I was dead, or did I exist in this world because I was alive. I also wondered whether there is a parallel world in that world. An identical me, an identical you, they live a life different from ours."

Chen Ke was young at that time and couldn't understand.But he could vaguely understand that it was a grand topic, with mystery and unfathomable danger.Chen Ke didn't dare to ask in detail.

Later, the woman jumped down from upstairs and opened a gorgeous flower on the concrete floor with her blood.When Chen Ke saw her body, it was in disarray.His blood seemed to be boiled in a pot, boiling and bleeding foam.

At that moment, he seemed to understand death more deeply than others, because he saw the smile on the corner of the woman's mouth, like the joy after her wish was fulfilled, and he seemed to see the woman's soul crawling out of her body, walking slowly Going to Chen Ke's side, bent down slightly as before, and touched his head: "Xiao Ke, I'm leaving first. I'm going to Sheng."

This left a great impression on Chen Ke.He fell ill after returning home, and after he recovered, his temper was not as lively as before.He seems to have become extraordinarily indifferent, always wandering on the fringes of society, occasionally trying the waters of society like a cat, and then shrinking back quickly.

Meng Dujiang didn't seem to expect to hear such an answer, so he was stunned.It took him a long time to say: "...how do you think so?"

"I just think so." Chen Ke said, he touched his hair subconsciously, "It seems that the world is a glass ball, and I am outside, looking inside through the dusty glass."

"This is too negative." Meng Dujiang said, "You have to change your thinking. Your thinking is a bit dangerous, little brother."

"Maybe." Chen Ke said indifferently, "I don't force myself to walk in."

"This won't work." Meng Dujiang said, "You can't do this." He looked at Chen Ke with firm eyes, "I'll pull you."

When Gu Jinbei proposed to break up with Lu Qianyi, Lu Qianyi hadn't reacted yet.

At that time, the two were walking slowly along the tree-lined path, and the leaves fell to the ground, and the sound of salsa could be heard when they stepped on them.Lu Qianyi stepped on it a few times and thought it was interesting, so she looked at Gu Jinbei with a smile.

Gu Jinbei was in a daze.

Lu Qianyi walked over angrily, and patted Gu Jinbei on the shoulder: "What are you in a daze for?"

Gu Jinbei was awakened by her from a dream, looked at her in shock, and said to her, "Let's break up."

"...Why?" Lu Qianyi looked at him, the anger in her eyes gradually subsided, and turned into deep unwillingness.

Gu Jinbei stared blankly for a while, and could only say helplessly, "I don't think I can try to like you no matter what."

When he was walking on this trail with Lu Qianyi, he wished that it was Chen Ke who was beside him. When Lu Qianyi stepped on a leaf, he imagined that it was Chen Ke.

Chen Ke's smile is very touching, two small dimples appear at the corners of his mouth, his eyes are bent into crescent moons, and there is a fine light shining from them, and the mole under his lips is like the finishing touch, making him alive.

Gu Jinbei thought, Chen Ke is everywhere.

The author has something to say: It's really scumbags to hang on to people who don't like it, but Gu Jinbei is not a perfect person.