you are with the light

"What about you?" Chen Ke asked him, "Aren't you going to explode?"

Gu Jinbei was immediately stopped by his question, and after a long time, he said uncertainly: "...No."

He doesn't think about it, or he controls himself not to think about it.His heart is too narrow, if he keeps thinking about these things, he will explode.

"Go to sleep." Gu Jinbei interrupted Chen Ke when he wanted to say something else, "I'm sleepy."

He lay down and closed his eyes, but he always felt that Chen Ke was looking at him.After a while, he heard Chen Ke's sigh: "You are too stubborn."

Gu Jinbei wanted to say no, but he remembered that he had to pretend to be asleep, so he didn't say anything.After waiting for a while, Chen Ke turned off the lights, and the whole room became dark.

After receiving the leave, Gu Jinbei entered the third year of junior high school, and his studies became heavy immediately.

For Gu Jinbei, the heavy studies did not bother him. The only thing that bothered him was Xia Yin's deteriorating temperament and Yu Zhongman's increasingly obvious visits.

Gu Jinbei thought he was quite experienced, but obviously he still couldn't read people's hearts.He thought his stepfather treated them consistently, but this world is not absolute, as long as the earth is still running, everything will change.

Perhaps only Xia Yin remained unchanged.

Xia Yin did it just before the National Day holiday.

The residual heat of summer has not yet passed, but Xia Yin's life is over.Sometimes she is like a wise man, she knows a lot of life principles, but she still can't live her life well.

Gu Jinbei remembered that the weather was very hot that day. When he came back from school, he saw the door of his house was open, surrounded by many people.

Someone saw him and yelled, and then, a middle-aged woman who was familiar but unfamiliar came up and slapped him, causing him to tilt his head, and a mark was drawn on his face by the ring on her hand.

"You little bastard..."

This middle-aged woman is her stepfather's sister. Gu Jinbei will see her during the Chinese New Year. She doesn't like Xia Yin, and she doesn't like Gu Jinbei even more. Her son always likes to play tricks on him.

The middle-aged woman was slapped and couldn't relieve her anger. She wanted to kick her, but someone stopped her. It was Yu Zhongman—oh no, it should be called Yang Manguo now.

Gu Jinbei stood on the stairs, but his thoughts had drifted away. Those people's eyes fell on him, and he didn't feel anything.

The only thing he felt was some little sadness.Xia Yin was too much, she didn't want him anymore, she didn't even call him to play games.Did he do something wrong?He is obviously an obedient son!

Until someone patted him on the shoulder, Gu Jinbei turned his head and saw Chen Ke.Chen Ke said: "What are you doing standing here, are you going to my house for dinner?"

Gu Jinbei nodded, Chen Ke reached out to him, and Gu Jinbei took his hand.

Chen Ke's gaze didn't fall on Gu Jinbei's house, he walked to his door without squinting. Someone noticed that Gu Jinbei was following Chen Ke, so he started talking.

Chen Ke opened the door: "Go in."

Gu Jinbei took off his shoes and walked in. Chen Ke followed behind him and closed the door forcefully.

"The fish I ate today is hairtail." Chen Ke said, "You probably haven't eaten it before, it tastes very good."

Gu Jinbei sat on the sofa in a daze and did not respond.

Chen Ke asked again patiently.

"Okay." Gu Jinbei said.There was no superfluous expression on his face, but Chen Ke always felt that there was a turbulent emotion in his heart, if it gushed out, it would destroy the world.

Chen Ke hesitated for a moment, and instead of going into the kitchen, he walked towards Gu Jinbei.

"Can you..." Gu Jinbei said, "Go and see for me..." He began to shake his feet, but his back was tense, and his voice was choked with restraint, "Where is my mother... ..."

Chen Ke said, "Okay." When he walked to the door, he glanced at the sofa.Gu Jinbei still sat there swaying his legs, but his back was tense. He looked at the TV, but it didn't look like he was watching. In short, his eyes were empty, but the universe was hidden inside.

Chen Ke walked out of the door, and a group of people surrounded the door, squeezing the narrow corridor to the brim. Chen Ke squeezed through with difficulty and saw the scene inside the door.

Blood, blood everywhere, splattered on the walls, on the floor, on the sofa, in every corner of the room.

Chen Ke also saw Yu Zhongman.

Yu Zhongman was wearing a police uniform and was talking to another person in a police uniform. Their expressions were all serious, but their brows and eyes were relaxed.

There is no Xia Yin in this room, and there is no cheating, but Chen Ke can get a general idea of ​​what happened from the discussion behind it.

"...I heard that there are more than 100 knives, how cruel..."

"...It's so perverted, when I think that this kind of person used to live with us...and her son..."

These words were very broken, like broken glass scratched in his heart, Chen Ke didn't know how Gu Jinbei's heart would be pierced if he told these to Gu Jinbei.

He walked home, and Gu Jinbei was still sitting on the sofa as before, almost frozen there.

"Xiaobei." Chen Ke called him softly, as if afraid of scaring him.

"Yeah." Gu Jinbei finally stopped shaking his legs, he moved, and turned his head to look at Chen Ke.

Chen Ke suddenly didn't know what to say to him.

"Didn't see my mother," Gu Jinbei said, "Can you take me to see her? It can be tomorrow, or many, many days. I'm not in a hurry, I just want to see her."

Chen Ke said, "Okay." He walked up to Gu Jinbei, "Let's eat."

"Yeah." Gu Jinbei raised his head and smiled at him, showing his little tiger teeth shyly, adding a childish air to him.

Gu Jinbei didn't eat much for dinner, he sat on the dining table in a daze after eating, and when Chen Ke finished washing the dishes, he was still in a daze.

"Do you want to... go to sleep?" Chen Ke thought he was not a considerate person, but facing Gu Jinbei like this, he couldn't help lowering his voice, as if he was afraid of scaring him.

"Okay." Gu Jinbei said, "Okay."

He was very quiet, and he didn't cry or make trouble during the period. He lay on the bed after taking a shower, and then said to Chen Ke: "Let's go to sleep."

It was still early, but Chen Ke still nodded, took a shower and lay down next to Gu Jinbei.Gu Jinbei said: "It's a bit cold today."

He moved towards Chen Ke, his hot skin pressed against Chen Ke: "Brother Chen, can I hug you?"

Chen Ke said, "Okay."

So Gu Jinbei stretched out his arms and hugged him in his arms. Gu Jinbei's strength was so great that Chen Ke's arm hurt a little.Gu Jinbei buried his face in his neck and remained motionless.

Gu Jinbei's breath was moist and warm, sprayed on Chen Ke's neck, causing Chen Ke's goosebumps to rise.He tensed his body, and heard Gu Jinbei say: "My mother, did you kill my stepfather?"

He used a declarative tone, without the slightest doubt, Chen Ke couldn't even deceive him with white lies.Chen Ke could only say: "Yes."

Gu Jinbei's voice was muffled in Chen Ke's neck, and it sounded dull in Chen Ke's ears: "Are you afraid of me?"

Chen Ke felt that the hand that was holding him suddenly strengthened, and his whole arm was about to be strangled: "No." Chen Ke said, "Take it easy, it hurts me."

As soon as he finished speaking, the pressure on his arm became less.Gu Jinbei raised his head from his neck and faced him.

This posture made Chen Ke very uncomfortable.Gu Jinbei's arms circled him, pressing his upper body over.This was a very aggressive posture, and Chen Ke couldn't protect himself.

If it were someone else, Chen Ke would throw the opponent away and give him a punch, but now the person pressing him is Gu Jinbei, so he held back.Gu Jinbei looked at him, tears dripped down as he watched, fell on Chen Ke's cheeks, and slid away again.

Chen Ke's face was wet.

Gu Jinbei seldom cried, but when he did cry, he couldn't stop crying.His tears were like rain, falling non-stop on Chen Ke's face, a few drops slipped onto Chen Ke's lips, and accidentally slipped into his mouth. In an instant, the salty taste filled his entire mouth.

Gu Jinbei's hands were shaking, and his whole body was shaking, but Gu Jinbei didn't make a sound.He bit his lip so hard that it turned white and lost all color.

Chen Ke has no way to comfort Gu Jinbei like this.

Gu Jinbei didn't cry for a long time, he got off Chen Ke's body after a while, and ran out like the wind.Chen Ke lay on the bed for a while, then raised his hand to wipe away the tears on his face.

The house is small and the sound insulation is poor. Chen Ke heard Gu Jinbei vomiting. He got up from the bed and went to the toilet. He saw Gu Jinbei squatting on the ground. His whole body was shaking. Chen Ke reached out and stroked him. back, like soothing a sad kitten.

Chen Ke stayed with Gu Jinbei in the toilet for a while, and boiled hot water on the way, and gave Gu Jinbei a cold bowl.

When Gu Jinbei got better, Chen Ke handed over the cooled water.Gu Jinbei took a sip, took another sip, and said hoarsely when he handed the bowl to Chen Ke, "Thank you."

Gu Jinbei waited for a while before standing up.He squatted for a long time, and his legs were weak when he stood up. If Chen Ke hadn't caught him, he would have knelt down with a plop.He fell into Chen Ke's arms, and suddenly said, "I miss my mother."

Chen Ke said, "We'll see her tomorrow."

Gu Jinbei was almost carried back to the bed by Chen Ke.He was lying on the bed like a pool of mud, wishing he could merge with the bed.

Chen Ke lay down next to him and turned off the light.

"My mother... is actually a good person." Gu Jinbei said in the dark, "Although she beat me and killed people, she is a good person."

Chen Ke said, "Yes."

Gu Jinbei took several deep breaths, and continued to speak: "She... is very gentle. Before, when I was young, she was very gentle."

If Gu Zhong hadn't been a scumbag, perhaps everything would not have come to the present situation.

Gu Jinbei really wanted to tell Chen Ke all the things hidden in his heart. These things had been in his heart for a long time, but today he suddenly reached a critical point. If he didn't tell everything, he felt that he would explode.

"If it wasn't because of my father..." Gu Jinbei was still very restrained, even if he was on the verge of breaking out, he tried hard to restrain his emotions, "My father, my dear father, is a scum."

He didn't tell Chen Ke about the atrocities of this scumbag in the past. These things have happened for many years, and he almost forgot about them.He also didn't tell Chen Kexia Yin about the crimes he committed. Those are all in the past, and now there is nothing to mention.

He just told Chen Ke about Xia Yin's tenderness, and told Chen Ke that his mother was a good mother, wife, and woman.

He didn't know when he fell asleep.

But Chen Ke knew.

He heard Gu Jinbei's voice weaken until it disappeared, and after a while he called Gu Jinbei again, but Gu Jinbei didn't respond to him, presumably he fell asleep.

Chen Ke tucked him in the quilt.

Chen Ke got up from the bed and sat on the sofa.Chen Wanran hasn't come home yet, nor has she called her home. She should be staying with Yu Zhongman, or staying with several men.

Chen Ke waited for a while, and Chen Wanran came back not long after.She came back alone, she didn't know where she went to get drunk, and her clothes were messed up. Chen Ke helped her into the room and heard her sing: "It's fate to meet thousands of miles away, but it's hard to hold hands without fate... "She sang very loudly, almost hoarse, and even her voice went up.

Chen Ke helped her to sit on the sofa, and when she was about to boil hot water for her, she grabbed her arm: "Son."

Chen Ke said, "Here."

"I don't believe in men anymore." Chen Wanran said, her tone was flamboyant, like a boat swaying in the wind and rain, and it may capsize at any time, "I will live with you, live together, don't go I can't even think about anything..."

Chen Ke hugged her.

Apart from the smell of alcohol, Chen Wanran also smelled of other things.It's the smell of a man.

"To be a bitch, you have to do it well." Chen Wanran said, "I need men, I can't do without men, I want to use many, many men—" Her voice became higher and higher, and it became more and more floating , but after reaching a certain height, it dropped suddenly.

"Come and forget him." She uttered these words as if sighing.

She silently told her son that she was too tired, too tired.

When Gu Jinbei saw Xia Yin again, there was already a glass between them, and they couldn't even touch each other.

Xia Yin was smiling, even her eyes were crooked. She smiled and told her son on the other end of the phone: "I love you."

Gu Jinbei was frightened by her, and looked up at her silently, while Xia Yin was smiling over there with tears all over her face.

"Go to the orphanage." Xia Yin said, "Staying there is better than staying with me. I'm not a good mother, I know."

But when she was pregnant with this child, she clearly vowed to love him for the rest of her life.

People live in this world and never guess what will happen in the next moment.Just like when she fell in love with a boy when she was young, she didn't know that the rest of her life's pain would be caused by him.She struggled to find happiness in pain, but she failed.

so be it.

"Goodbye, son." Xia Yin finally said, "Happy 14th birthday to you in advance."