[bright] time

If you say the wrong thing again, see how I will treat you then!Hiroyuki Ashihara.

"Is Xiaoliang's job near here today?" He actually appeared in such a busy area.

"…Yep."

Hiroyuki patted the steering wheel and said:

"Ah! It's the video of 'The Celebrity You Don't Know', right? I'm still wondering when it will be Go's turn! Last month I heard that Ryo was invited to participate in the program. Everyone in the Goin Academy has been looking forward to it!"

"Oh, it's that show you used to talk about? I started watching it recently too. Last week it was sumo wrestling, right? It really changed my view of sumo wrestlers a lot! It's actually quite interesting. Hehe~"

"Really? Aha, I see! Harumi, what you're really interested in is the topic of weight loss, right? But I was also shocked. That master lost so much weight after taking down yokozuna and retiring, I can't see it at all. It's from sumo wrestling!"

"Losing weight is an eternal topic for women! But this is not the only thing that is interesting. I used to be very prejudiced against sumo wrestling! It's so old that women are not allowed to enter the dojo. It's really disgusting. But the wife of the master craftsman in the latter part of the show They also appeared on the show and were interviewed together. I feel that their interaction is pretty good!"

"Ah, but that master seems to be a bit weak in front of his wife? I didn't expect that."

"That's called deep love! Husbands should let their wives!"

"Yes yes yes! So I should be able to get full marks in this course?"

The man is getting a little carried away, which is not okay.

"However, recently, I feel that a man with a little personality is also good." Ignoring his question, I just said coolly.

"...What kind of thing is that..."

Hehe~.

Looking at him troubled, I snickered in my heart.Turned to look at Xiaoliang.

While I was talking to him, Liang opened the calendar in his pocket and looked at it.

This pocketbook is wrapped in a yellow-brown leather book jacket, and the pocketbook inside has been replaced eight times, but it is still as good as new.It was a commemorative gift from Mrs. Mingzi to Xiao Liang when he was admitted as a professional chess player.Every day after that, Xiao Liang will neatly write every task in his handbook, and then draw it off when he finishes the work.

That's what you're doing right now?Still so meticulous!

Um?It seems that it is not...

Liang didn't have a pen in his hand, but just touched the date marked February [-] with his fingertip back and forth.

"Small light?"

"Huh!?" My cry seemed to startle him, and he closed his wallet and asked me embarrassingly,

"Uh...what's the matter?"

"Is there still work to be done later? Why did you see the enlistment in the calendar?"

"No, I don't have a job anymore." Put away the pocketbook and put it in the handbag.

"Recently, Xiaoliang seems to be staring at the calendar more often than before. Do you have a lot of work? Don't work too hard!" Hiroyuki said while holding the direction and looking at the rearview mirror.

"...Yeah, I know. Thanks."

"However, since we don't have work later, let's send Xiaoliang home directly? Shouldn't we go back to the Chess Academy?"

Hearing my suggestion, Liang's expression suddenly became a little embarrassed and he said:

"Actually, the work just now..., I left in the middle of the recording....It should cause a lot of trouble for the chess academy. I think it would be better to explain it to the office in person."

"...Is that so..."

Contrary to my even tone, I was actually surprised.

Because this situation seems to be the first time that Xiao Liang, who is always stubborn about responsibilities and work, will refuse to work, and it is still when this kind of thing is imminent...

He exchanged glances with him in the driver's seat.

I want to know what's going on, I want to ask Xiaoliang what made him so angry, and even quit his job,

But Xiao Liang, who was looking out the window, seemed to have no intention of explaining further.

Xiao Liang is a very stable person. He will not change himself with changes in the outside world, will not be incited, and is not easy to be persuaded. He is a child who only knows how to live by the rules.

I have known Xiaoliang for a long time. I have seen Xiaoliang since he was a primary school student, and I really feel that Xiaoliang's heart...is like a chess piece, only black and white, excluding the colorful world, purely without cunning;

Xiaoliang's thoughts... are like a chessboard, only the vertical and horizontal ink lines cannot be distorted, and they are printed on the flat and simple original wood without any errors, with square corners and no compromises.

I like Xiaoliang like this very much, clear and cold..., and I hope he can always maintain this kind of himself...,

But at the same time... a little worried.

Xiaoliang's mind is very precocious, and he learned to distinguish right from wrong earlier than other children.

Then resolutely get rid of these things that are incompatible with him..., have nothing to do with Go..., all unreasonable and incomprehensible things are excluded from his side, and the only things worthy of his thinking are things that really have eternal value.

And that's probably why he was so spotless, right?

However, this world is not as awe-inspiring and clear as Xiao Liang, full of contradictions and illusions, calculations and speculations.

Living in such a world that is completely different from his own personality, Xiao Liang should often feel that certain social values ​​or perceptions are actually meaningless at all, right?Although he never mentioned it...

Over time,

Even if there is helplessness that can't be understood, and helplessness that can't be recognized, Xiaoliang always uses his stubbornness to resist them out of the scope of thinking and let himself stand on the sidelines.

I don't know... This will only make me more independent and make my breathing space smaller.

It's really a child who doesn't know how to deal with the world.

However, Xiao Liang is a child who will not take the initiative to send out distress calls. He always handles things properly by himself, and always makes himself very responsible.

I don't want to trouble others, I don't want to bring trouble to others.Even if that "other" is me or Hiroyuki.And it's even more so in front of Mrs. Akiko or the teacher, right? ...the silly boy.

"Small light."

"Yes?" Xiaoliang responded to me with a smile. ...as if emphasizing that there is nothing wrong with me.

"..." Every time I see his smile like this, I don't know how to speak.

"What's wrong, Miss Ichikawa?"

If I ask, will Xiao Liang shrink back instead?Just when I didn't know what to do, Hiroko suddenly said:

"Harumi. Didn't you say you have something to give Ryo? Isn't it just right now?"

glanced at him.Yeah?Does he also think it's better not to ask?

"Yeah. That's right." He took out a small packaged gift box from the bag and gave it to Xiao Liang:

"Happy Valentine's Day, Xiaoliang!"

"Thank you Miss Ichikawa."

"How many times is this today?"

It's better to be like this..., it's better for Xiaoliang, right?

"Miss Ichikawa's is the first one."

"Eh? Really? That's an honor!"

As long as we are as usual, Xiao Liang can cheer up quickly.This is the only thing we can do for him, and the only thing Xiao Liang wants us to do for him.

But I still hope that one day there will be someone...Xiao Liang is willing to open his heart to him and pour out all his thoughts.Let Xiao Liang no longer be alone and helpless.

Chapter [-] Long Distance

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(bright side)

At ten o'clock in the evening, sitting across the table in front of the TV, I haven't behaved like this for a long time except for meal time.

That's the show on TV.

Participating in the program today is Shifan who teaches Japanese sanxian, a master who looks to be only in his thirties but actually in his early sixties.

"The teacher is really young and beautiful!I really want to ask you the secret of maintenance──」

This is the greeting at the beginning of the show.Pick up the remote and turn off the TV screen.

There is no need to force yourself to accept what you cannot understand.

He took a deep breath, propped his head up and glanced at the laptop on the table, logged into Youxuan and swiped the mouse...I didn't see the name I wanted to see.

Think too.I just finished playing a few games of chess this afternoon...When it was time for dinner he disappeared.

Playing chess instead of chatting is our tacit understanding.I don't want to spoil even a day like today.In other words, it is even more impossible to do so because of the chessboard across the board.

Across the chessboard is the time to decide the outcome,

And this distance is something we don't want to get closer to each other.

I always feel that once I type and chat, I will have a premonition that I will cross the line...It's impossible to just do a self-criticism..., the thoughts will rush up in one breath, right?

Just after five o'clock, before going offline, Shindo typed the three words "go to eat".

Logging off without any response is what I always do....

Just now, I suddenly hit:

"come back quickly"

The impulse of these words.

Of course I want to play a few more games of chess..., but I want to tie him up on this day even more.In fact, I didn't realize what day it was until the series of things happened when I entered the TV station.

There was no special appointment..., but Yugen was actually very happy when he saw Shinto, he didn't go anywhere.Who knows when it's time to eat....

Where are you going to eat?

...Who are you going with again...?

It has been three hours since I finished cooking and was full.

Only Go is not enough at all...; only today you can't go anywhere....

Why not?

Press the sleep button, close the computer, I lie on the table, feeling very tired.

For this incomprehensible world...for myself who can only live in a rigid way...I can't breathe.

Slightly raised his head and glanced at the paper fan on the table.Touched the white fan blades, the pitch-black fan bones,

...he'll be back.

Ringling──...Ringring──...Ringling──...Ringling──...

Suddenly the phone rang.

this kind of time. ...no common sense at all.

Reluctantly, he got up from the tatami mat, pulled the coat on his body, opened the sliding door and left the warm Japanese room, put on his indoor shoes, and walked to the corridor, only to answer the phone, the other party hung up.

...with no patience at all.

Cursed in my heart.

As he was about to turn and walk back to the living room, a possibility suddenly flashed through him.

......

But he never called once.

Although that's what I asked for.Except for calls that arrived safely, no calls are allowed until you come back.

After walking two or three steps and standing in front of the phone, several seconds passed,

No sound.

......

After that, I did something that even I couldn't believe myself....

He squatted down, untied and tied it in a circle, lay unobtrusively on the telephone line by the wall, pulled the phone to the living room, placed it on the ground, and sat on his knees staring at the phone.

What the hell am I doing….

I regretted it.

Lingling──......

As soon as the phone rang, I immediately stretched out my hand, and retracted the moment I touched the receiver.

Too quick to pick up.Doesn't this mean that I'm waiting for a call by default...

Lingling──......

No, if you hang up like before...,

Or it's not Shinto at all..., so isn't my behavior even more stupid now?

I took a deep breath and used my calmest tone:

"Hi, this is Taya."

"Yo!it's me.Great, haven't slept yet. 』

"..." Holding the microphone tightly in his hand, his voice came through the phone line, tapping on my eardrum, a little itchy.

"Who is 'I'?" It means that you can't learn etiquette on the phone.

"You forgot my voice! ?I enter the vine! 』

"Pfft—"

Hearing his unbelievable voice, he suddenly felt amused, and accidentally laughed out loud.

"Tsk, what are you laughing at?It was you who forbade me to call and dared to say forget my voice.Is there any justice in this world? 』

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." I just want to laugh... and I'm very happy.

"Don't hang up on me?I broke the contract. 』

"...Hmm." It's a good thing you broke the contract...Only this feeling.

"Phew, let out a sigh of relief.You don't know how long I hesitated to make this call, do you?I thought I would be hung up by you. 』

"..." Am I so ruthless?

"Then you made that prank call just now?"

"mischief? ..., Wrong!Teacher Xiaoliang!That call was mine, yes, but it wasn't a prank!

At that time, the water just boiled, so I had to hang up the phone first.Want to say make a cup of coffee to hangover. 』

"Just came back?" After eating and drinking, he still drinks! ?Ah...he's [-] years old, don't call him that anymore.

"Um.Didn't I just say go to eat?It was Chengxi who came suddenly and knocked on the door of my house.

That dead boy really hit me!Although it's my fault for not hearing the electric bell....

On this day when lovers all over the world celebrated together, he was mercilessly dumped by his girlfriends like a tattered rag.Very miserable.It should be a collusive revenge, right?This dead kid with multiple boats on his feet.

Then Shang Bin also ran over and invited me to drive something to the Brotherhood of Death.The three bachelors just went to the roadside stalls to drink and eat.

I'm not as sad as they are. I only drank a little and wanted to call you because I was too drunk to be scolded by you.They are different, they simply drink wine like water.Can't stop it.In the end I had to send them back one by one.What a hassle. 』

"Hearing you say that, I really don't know whether to call them pitiful or interesting."

I have only seen Yin Sangbin and Song Seunghee a few times, both in public.But their chess records are very familiar.

Yin Shangbin's chess moves are very slender, each move is meticulous and delicate, and he is good at reversing the victory at the last moment with half an eye difference. This is how he won the Samsung Cup semi-final against Gao Yongxia before;

Song Chengxi's chess moves are very cautious, and he plays steadily and steadily beyond his age. In his chess, he hardly sees any dangerous moves eager to win.

Just looking at the chess records, I can't tell what kind of people they are.People are like chess..., this sentence does not seem to apply to them.

I often find it amusing to hear Shinto talk about these things.It may be a bit strange to say this, but it is a kind of... the freshness of stepping out of the chessboard and seeing the outside world.

At this point I suddenly thought:

"Huh? Speaking of which, if I remember correctly, Song Seung Hee-kun... isn't he only sixteen or seven years old?"

"──cough cough! ! ...cough...cough cough...cough...』

Shinto began to cough, as if he had choked on the coffee.

Looks like I got it right.It really deserves it....

"...you can't drink alcohol if you're under 20 years old." I lowered my voice to let him know that I was angry.

"Korean [-]th is an adult! 』

"Is that him?" He asked further, grasping the sore spot.

"......in four months' time.... 』A voice as small as a mosquito came from the other end of the microphone.

"Shindo!! It is the responsibility of adults not to let underage drink alcohol! You have to take responsibility!!"

"Shang Bin is also there, but he didn't stop him.... 』

"Mr. Yin Shangbin is at the bottom of the darkest valley, how could he notice? Didn't you say that you are the one who complains the least? You have the obligation to stop it!"

"...I want to say that losing love is painful, so I just turn a blind eye and let him drink away his sorrow..."

"Any excuses!?"

"Wow - no more!Don't dare!forgive me!There will be no next time! 』

"...It's really best like this."

At times like this I really feel like Shinto's guardian.I really can't stand his messy personality.

"OK.Don't just say me.Tell me about you?what did you do today?Game?Still work? 』

"…,Work."

"Hey, what are you doing?So lethargic.What job?very tired? 』

"fine."

"fine? 』

"…Ok."

"…real? 』

In this way, Shinto and I were silent, I was thinking about how to answer, but he seemed to be drinking coffee.

The sound of a spoon tapping the ceramic cup came from the other end of the phone, and the image of Shinto stirring the coffee came to my mind.

Not long after, it was Shinto who spoke first.

"I won't ask if you don't want to.But..., if there is something you can't figure out or feel troubled by, can you tell me?Two people think faster.If you have any dissatisfaction, it's better to say it than to keep it in your heart.

You always close the door and think about everything, isn’t it hard work? 』

"Actually, it's not a big deal....It's just that I can't figure it out and feel out of breath like before. For this world..."

I didn't tell anyone... my own thoughts.

I actually often feel maladaptive….I feel that I can't integrate into this world so smoothly like other people.There is often a feeling of being… excluded.

"...Changed my mind.I want to ask, I want to listen.tell me! 』

The thoughtfulness just now disappeared like evaporated water vapor, and Shinto's attitude became tougher because of what I never thought of telling anyone.

"...I will talk for a long time."

"what is the relationship?Say as much as you can.I want to hear more of your voice. 』

I found Shinto often like this..., saying something that made me feel embarrassed without any trace.

But..., this is the first time I have the idea of ​​hoping someone can share with me.

I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and decided to tell Shindo about the difficulty in my heart, and let him share it with me.

"Today's work...I left in a rage halfway through and left without finishing. I left Mr. Tanaka there to deal with the aftermath. Isn't it very irresponsible?"

No matter how dissatisfied I am with a show like that, I still feel guilty for not getting work done.

"... Didn't finish the first time? 』

"…Ok."

"Is that so...You guys care about this the most, no wonder you are depressed. 』Shinto muttered to himself, and then there was the sound of fingers tapping on the table,

"What job makes you so angry? 』

I don't like to trouble others, but if that "other" is Shindou, it seems like an exception.

Shinto's voice is always gentle when he helps me think of a way, and his eyes are always focused.Listening to me very seriously, thinking about my business.

Everything becomes easy to say.

"It's a job for a private TV station other than NHK. ... I decided not to accept a second job for this kind of job.

As soon as I entered the studio, I was covered with a bunch of strange foam on my hair by the stylist there; the interview was also full of some jokes that I didn't find funny at all...;

In a serious interview, the focus will turn to my appearance after a few words.... "

"So you got angry and scolded that host? 』

"Cursed.... But these are not the real reasons for my cursing. Only these I can bear.

..., at the end of the recording, a camera ran outside the TV station building to record.It clearly captured the faces waiting outside.Every sentence they said was clearly recorded.

Happy lover..., skipping class to support me..., please accept the chocolate....The crowd looks like they are chasing idol singers.

It really makes people want to ask... do they really understand my Go so they support me?

I don't need this kind of outward appreciation at all.

The host asked me to express my thoughts and express my gratitude to these people.

That's it, the farce ends here.I got angry and left. "

In the past, I just stood on the sidelines, watched the world go by, and walked my own way without thinking;

Now, I have... the idea of ​​trying to fit into this world,...but I can't.

...that's why I feel angry about this value-distorted world.

"Scared a lot of people, right?If you really get angry. 』

"I don't like...my appearance is used to stir up the topic. The only thing I want to be noticed is Go, and it doesn't matter what I look like.

I even started to hate my face, thinking... it was an impurity, a disturbance.Let people who watch my go no longer appreciate every move I play with pure eyes. ..., this makes me very unhappy.... "

I hate myself for thinking this way.I actually described the appearance and facial features my parents gave me like this....But──, I really don't want my Go to be tarnished...

I know I'm a little too extreme.but…,

Just can't let go...

"Hmm... I can feel that I don't like people calling you beautiful or beautiful. ...But I didn't expect to be repelled to this extent. ...It's really troublesome, "beautiful" and "beautiful" are actually forbidden words?

How inconvenient is it for me to use so few words as a person...?Tsk... this is troublesome...Alas~』

Shinto was talking to himself on the phone, using a voice I could hear.

"...what's the trouble?" And it has nothing to do with convenience....

"Honestly, I often think "How can Taya be so beautiful?". 』

"..." I didn't want to hear such words from Shinto.It makes me sadder than anyone else ever said to me.

"I'm going to hang up the phone." Unexpectedly, even Shinto...

"Hey, wait!You thought I was talking about face? 』

No?

"Hey, sorry no!I said... you guy is actually very confident in your face, right?So intuitively you think I'm talking about the face? 』

"If you don't take it seriously, I'm going to hang up."

"well! ..., your face is also beautiful, but it is not that face that really makes me feel beautiful.

Like now, I can't see your face, your expression, facial features..., only hear your voice,

But I still feel a rush... I want to praise you for being beautiful... I want to praise you for being beautiful.

I think... you are beautiful looking at Go with the purest and firmest eyes;

You are beautiful as you hold on to the edge of the big dye vat and try your best not to let yourself fall;

How old are you, you can't even pretend to cooperate, you are really clumsy but beautiful;

...Taya, what makes you beautiful is your words, your thoughts, and your gestures.

And I have always felt that...a person with a beautiful soul, everything he presents will also be beautiful...

Hey, kind of paranormal but... you get what I'm trying to say? 』

"...What do you mean clumsy?"

"Don't tell me that you only listened to these two words after I spoke for so long. 』

The soul is beautiful... So Shindo is looking at me like this.A little touching, but also embarrassing….

The embarrassment made me unable to say anything other than that awkward question.

"Forget it, I think your dishonesty is beautiful too. 』

"How beautiful is it!? Don't use adjectives indiscriminately!!"

"right!This is where I find it nerve-wracking!

I only know these few adjectives that compliment people, and you put a ban on me again to make me want to break my head? 』

"I don't need you to praise me."

"Tsk, I didn't say those things because I wanted to praise you in particular.It's just that feeling, that's what I want to say.I just say what I think, if you don't let me say it, I will be very painful.If I have to think about the appropriate description before I say it, it will make me more painful!

hello please how are youLift the ban?

Don't let me spend my brain thinking about this kind of thing, let me spend more brain cells thinking about Go? 』

"About the game of Go... Do whatever you want."

"Phew, I'm saved." 』

Shinto's voice sounded happy like a prisoner who has been granted a pardon.

"Ah, that's right.You, don't hate your face so much.That's part of you too, and I love it.And unless you are reincarnated, you won't be able to change that face.

Don't say that you are going to have plastic surgery, do you want to scare the teacher and Aunt Mingzi to death?

Since you can't change other people's thinking, think about it from another angle, right?

Tired of getting angry over the same thing all the time? 』

"If you don't like something, you don't like it."

"It's very stubborn." ..., if it has something to do with Go, you won't be able to change your mind. 』

This is why I often feel... I am out of place with this world, right?

Shindo... He is very harmonious in the world, he looks like a fish in water wherever he goes....This kind of him often makes me feel insecure, afraid that I will lose touch with the world he lives in,... afraid that I will not be able to keep up with his footsteps... and will be left behind.

"However, as I said earlier, you make me feel very beautiful like this.When it comes to Go, there is no forgiving personality... I actually like it very much, and I don't really want you to change it. 』

This kind of personality is good?Stubborn and awkward...

"But I don't want you to suffer from the same thing all the time. ...Think about it this way.Assuming that after watching the program you recorded this time, there are a thousand people who think that Taya Ryo is really beautiful and handsome. 』

"There won't be so many people!!"

"I said it was a hypothetical, why are you so fussy! ?Besides, this number is definitely small!Hear me out! 』

"..."

"And it seems really interesting that the game of Go is born among these thousand. If there are people who want to play it... you can say it, how many percent?" ...It's blah blah. 』

"...one percent."

"So pessimistic?Well, count as one percent.That's ten people?These ten people have started to learn to play chess. How many people do you think will find Go really interesting after learning? 』

"Ten."

"how could it be possible! ?Don't apply your feelings to others! 』

"Didn't you say it was a hypothesis!? Why not. Besides, Go is so interesting, don't you think?"

"Tsk,... Whatever you want!Ten is ten.Can't change it!

That is to say, the reason why these ten people fell in love with Go is that the most original opportunity was because... the chess player teacher who introduced them to the game had a very beautiful face.

Even if they may have bad intentions at the beginning, but in conclusion they like Go, isn't that all right? 』

"Is that so...?" I always felt that Shinto's words were a bit strange.

"Of course, if the advertiser is Honda, I don't think these ten people will appear. …in this case the only option is to sacrifice you, Honda.Do you think this is acceptable?For your own face? 』

"A little bit..." Now that there are more people who like to play chess... then I can still accept a little bit.

Um? ...I obviously hated my face so much just now, after chatting with the rattan...it seems that I am no longer so horny.

"Hearing you said you were out of breath just now almost scared me to death.It's fine now. 』

Sure enough, what he said just now worried him.

"Are you home alone? Where are Xiuying and Yongxia? I didn't hear you mention them."

After an inexplicable silence, Shinto said:

"Xiuying... went out with her fiancée and hasn't come back yet.Yong Xia also went out early in the morning. 』

"Xiuying... engaged? I haven't even heard of it. What happened recently?"

"Ah, last week. ...The subject is his teacher's only daughter. 』

"That's it." Marrying the teacher's daughter is a common occurrence in the Go world. It can also be said that the teacher attaches great importance to this student's good talk.but…

"Isn't it too early? Isn't Xiuying still under [-]?"

"Yeah, I don't know what this kid is anxious about. 』

"...There are quite a few people who think that getting married earlier, settling down sooner, and focusing all their attention on Go. There is actually a big age gap between early marriage and late marriage among Go players. However, as long as Xiuying feels good, right? Listen It is said that Teacher Wu’s daughter is also a girl with high evaluation. They have known each other for a long time, haven’t they?”

"ah. 』

"Did Yong Xia go out with his girlfriend too? Since you didn't go out to dinner with the three bachelors today?"

"…Maybe.how?That kid... 』

I always feel that Shindo is a little different from usual now.

I've always thought of him as someone who would be happy for his friends' happiness.But today his tone was very flat, even a little heavy...

He who has answers to everything, is unexpectedly full of helplessness now.

"Taya. 』

"Huh?" Just when I was thinking about what happened to Shinto, he suddenly called me, and I responded.

"I love you. 』

Why did Shindo... suddenly say that?

My face suddenly felt like it was on fire.

"I said I love you. 』

"... Mmm." So hot.

"What "huh"?"so cold? 』

"It's because you are too sudden." I like it... I have heard it many times...But love...is hearing it for the first time.This has me a bit overwhelmed.

"How could it be sudden?What day is it?Isn't it strange not to say such things to the person you like? 』

"Yeah…."

It's hard for me to understand you who can say it so directly and without embarrassment...

"Taya.How did you feel hearing me say that?Happy?Still don't want to hear it? 』

"...Why do you still ask this now?"

"I just wanted to ask.answer me? 』

Suppressing her heart that was beating violently, Xiaoxiao took a deep breath to prevent Shinto from finding out,

"…very happy."

There was a soft, relieved laugh,

"Is that so... that's great.

I have dreamed many times of not being hated by you by saying such things...Now it's finally coming true. 』

"Didn't I make it clear at the airport?"

"yes.But your order not to call me was clear enough.It's fine if you don't talk while playing Go online, at least let me make a call to hear your voice, right?Has anyone talked about long-distance love like this?

As if only I was thinking about you. 』

"...When you hear the voice, you will want to meet." It would be better not to even listen to it.

"…Hey.I'm super happy to hear that. ...I thought the same way. It might be difficult to hang up the phone after hearing the voice, right?After hanging up the phone, maybe you will regret the call, so why make this call so self-abuse.That's why I can listen to you like this and force myself not to call. 』

"...That's it." Hearing that the person he likes has the same idea as himself, he will be really happy.

"...do you have work tomorrow?"

"ah.afternoon.And you? 』

"…Morning."

"That's it. ...it's getting late.Still not sleeping? 』

"Aren't you too?"

"My work is in the afternoon. 』

"..."

"Go to sleep."Otherwise, I will not be energetic tomorrow. 』

"Um."

"..., it's all "um" and you still don't hang up the phone? 』

"Why don't you hang up first?"

"If I hang up first, you will have to go to sleep listening to the beeping sound.Aren't you afraid of being so lonely that you can't sleep? 』

"Aren't you the same?"

"I wasn't going to sleep yet.Wait for Yongxia, Xiuying and the others.Otherwise, hang up together? 』

"…,good."

"Then I'll count to three and hang up together. 』

"Yeah." Although I think this method is a bit stupid, but it seems that I can't hang up the phone otherwise.

"Then I counted. 』

"..."

"[-]──. 』

"..."

"[-]──. 』

"..."

"ㄙ(s)──"

"Wait a minute, Shinto!"

"Wow, it's too risky to press it yet.What's wrong? 』

"...Are you coming back on the [-]th?"

"Um.The work here did not end until the [-]th, and it was impossible to go back a few days earlier.Miss Shen was so kind to me, she just wanted to squeeze me until the last moment when I returned home. 』

"...That's good. Just count."

"All right.Then I count again and hang together? 』

"…Ok."

"[-]. 』

"[-]. 』

"[-]. 』

When I heard [-], I immediately hung up the phone in my hand. I didn't hear the beep of disconnection, but my heart was still empty.

Lying on the table, looking at the phone on the ground,

Thinking: It would be fine if I didn’t pick up….