dizziness

Shen Lixin stared at Owen obsessively, and after a long time, he looked away as if he came back to his senses, and a stiff smile appeared on his pale face: "It's really you, long time no see..."

"Hmm..." Owen nodded with his head down, his eyes wandered aimlessly, his hands were a little anxious to put them into his trouser pockets, and after dawdling for a while, he realized that the trousers he was wearing today had no trouser pockets at all.

"So Xiaojia is your son," Owen laughed hastily, and moved back unconsciously, as if what stood in front of him was not Ruan Miaomiao, but a barrier of self-protection, "I, I still have something to do, since you I'm here, I'm leaving first..."

"Teacher Ou!" Xiaojia tried her best to support her head, and shouted to Owen's trembling back, "Can you not go... I haven't seen you for a long time, I miss you so much... Can you accompany Xiaojia?"

Hearing the weak voice behind him, Owen stopped, but didn't look back. He deliberately hid himself in the shadow of Ruan Miaomiao's backlight, and his eyes glanced at the back that was still sweaty in late autumn.

"Xiao Jia, Mr. Ou has something else to do, isn't it good for Dad to accompany you?" Shen Lixin comforted her softly, but her voice was a little dry.

"But..." Xiaojia pouted reluctantly, "I really miss Teacher Ou, Dad, do you know Teacher Ou? Can you help me keep him, just for a while... cough cough cough……"

Xiao Jia coughed suddenly, Shen Lixin pursed her lips tightly and said nothing, hugged Xiao Jia in her arms with embarrassment, and patted him on the back lightly.

Listening to the coughing sound, Owen's expression was agitated and distressed, and he wanted to move away but was unable to move.

"You should stay."

Feeling his shoulders being firmly held, Owen raised his eyes and met a pair of dark pupils. Ruan Miaomiao smiled with imperceptible bitterness and said, "I'll go back to the school and talk to you."

Owen stared at Ruan Miaomiao unsteadily, feeling the faint pain from his shoulders, he didn't speak because he had already seen the struggle under Ruan Miaomiao's expression.

Until he turned and left, looking at the back that seemed to be Xiao Suo, Owen blurted out almost without thinking: "Miaomiao!"

Ruan Miaomiao stopped and looked back at him, with inexplicable emotions fluctuating in her eyes.

"Wait until I get home for dinner."

Owen looked at him deeply, every word was clear and firm, maybe Owen knew that Ruan Miaomiao must understand the promise in these few words.

"okay."

Ruan Miaomiao smiled at him, and when she turned her head, she glanced at Shen Lixin indifferently, but Shen Lixin just nodded slightly at him, as if expressing her gratitude for saving her son.

Owen sat on the edge of the bed and talked with Xiao Jia absent-mindedly. In addition to Ruan Miaomiao's disturbed figure when he left, and the face opposite him that he couldn't look directly at, Xiao Jia seemed to be very weak, and he couldn't hold on after a while. After falling into a deep sleep, the atmosphere was instantly quiet as if entering another unknown space. Time was moving vertically, and the two people who had originally entered the parallel world were pieced together on the ironic axis, distorted. Could it be the unrecognizable past in that picture, but more of the unfinished fragmentary expressions of each other now.

The familiar breathing sound of the man came from the ear, not only the breathing, even the appearance of the man did not seem to have changed significantly in Owen's impression, but the breath emitted was much more mature and haggard than before. It seemed that there was no trace left on him at all.

Perhaps Owen had thought that there would be such a day, and he had longed for this day to come, but now, Owen found that he was wrong. When he realized that fate was drawing him closer to that person, he began to panic and retreat. As for involuntarily avoiding the appearance of this moment.

As facing each other and being out of place like this now, Owen didn't even dare to recall the past that he shared with Shen Lixin, whether it was sweet or painful, he was afraid that he still had feelings, and even more afraid that his feelings towards them hadn't changed.

But in fact everything has changed, Owen knew it very well, but when he saw Shen Lixin for the first time, apart from the short-term shock, only Owen knew that he seemed to have returned to the moment when he fell in love with this man that year, even if it was only for a moment. Seconds, it did make him forget Ruan Miaomiao's existence.

The two were silent without words, until Xiao Jia finished drawing the water, and Shen Lixin walked to the hospital door with Xiao Jia who was still sleeping on his back, then stopped and looked at Owen.

"I didn't expect to meet you here," Owen could see that he was forced to smile, maybe at this time he saw the fine lines appearing in the corners of the man's eyes, Shen Lixin said again with drooping eyelashes, "The matter of Xiaojia...here Trouble."

The extra politeness of the person in front of him made Owen feel a little uncomfortable, but he didn't want to pay too much attention and said: "Xiao Jia is also my student, this is what I should do, besides, he is still your son..."

Owen shut his mouth, and Shen Lixin looked up at him. The two looked at each other, like an unstoppable magnetic current. What changed back and forth was the intertwined emotion in their eyes, which was strong and fragile, as if a slight touch would turn into an unstoppable Powder for a tight grip.

"thanks."

When Shen Lixin's shallow voice fell, she had already turned and left. In the simple two words, there were nostalgia and nostalgia, reluctance and reluctance.

The thin back was carrying Xiaojia on his back, and he was walking away with some difficulty. Owen couldn't bear it and felt sad when he saw it. He opened his lips slightly, but he couldn't yell, and he couldn't yell.

17 years is not a small amount, enough to change too many things, even everything in the world. Owen understands that the only thing he can do now is to face it calmly.

Yes, frankly, when a person can only be frank about the love and resentment he has given, it is more or less a kind of harm to himself.

In the end, Owen still suppressed the impatient impulse and picked up his original footsteps, because Ruan Miaomiao was still waiting for him to go back home.

At the dinner table, Ruan Miaomiao put some dishes in Owen's bowl, all of which he liked. Owen didn't raise his eyes, but just nodded his head lightly. The food that should have been delicious didn't taste good in his mouth.

Since his return until now, Ruan Miaomiao has never asked about Shen Lixin. Owen has always been impatient. Looking at his calm side face, Owen wanted to overturn the table and tell the whole story. He even preferred to get Ruan Miaomiao's questioning through disputes. Or attack.

Owen held back because he really couldn't see whether Ruan Miaomiao really didn't care under her indifferent appearance, or whether she was pretending to really not care.

Owen hoped that it was the latter but at the same time he was worried. In his mind, Ruan Miaomiao was not good at disguising, let alone complicated enough to make people guess.

He was carelessly serving the soup, but one of them lost his grip, and the soup spilled over on the table, scalding the back of Owen's hand red.

Ruan Miaomiao took his hand without much thought, took out a pack of tissues in his trouser pocket, wiped the soup on his hand, and blew gently on the reddened area.

"Are you okay? Does it hurt?"

Ruan Miaomiao's concern always made Owen feel like a treasure, but this time Owen couldn't be happy, his eyes fell on the tissue in Ruan Miaomiao's hand, and his heart seemed to be suspended suddenly.

"It's okay...fortunately, the soup isn't very hot," Owen said helplessly, Ruan Miaomiao looked up at him, but Owen smiled for no reason, "I remember you always use a handkerchief, why don't you?"

Ruan Miaomiao stopped moving her hands, then continued to get up and said, "It's quite troublesome to wash the handkerchief, so it's more convenient."

"Right……"

Owen murmured in response, always feeling that the pure face in front of him was stained with some unrecognizable colors at some point.

"Is he your former lover?" Ruan Miaomiao continued to wipe, asking surprisingly calmly.

"..."

Owen didn't expect it, just nodded in default, Ruan Miaomiao smiled helplessly, not a sneer but still with a chill, let go of Owen's hand, got up and cleaned up the slightly messy table, swallowed and said: "You also burned it." Is the person in that painting right? No wonder...you lose your temper so much."

"Miaomiao," Owen grabbed Ruan Miaomiao's hand holding the bowl and chopsticks, "It's not what you think, listen to me first..."

"You already knew that, didn't you?"

Before he finished speaking, Ruan Miaomiao put down the things in his hands, made a loud noise, and stared at Owen's face closely. Seeing that he pursed his lips and said nothing, Ruan Miaomiao broke away from Owen's hand and said, "You already knew that Xiao Jia is His son already knew he would meet him, didn't he?"

"I, I do know that Xiaojia is his son, but... I never thought I'd see him again. If it wasn't for the principal's phone call, I wouldn't have gone to find Xiaojia at all, Miaomiao, you should know."

"But you still went!" Ruan Miaomiao couldn't help raising his voice, his eyes were a little red, but he couldn't tell whether it was because of anger or something else, "Dare you say that after you knew Xiaojia was his son, you didn't think about it. Him?! Even the excessive nervousness towards Xiaojia is not because of him?!"

Owen looked at him blankly. Ruan Miaomiao's mean tone made Owen feel strange, and he almost couldn't restrain his anger and shouted: "Even if it is, so what?! I don't want to see him at all! Who would have known that Xiaojia would get sick ? It was just an accident! Do I have a choice?!"

Yes, when Xiaojia unfolded the painting in front of Owen's eyes that day, Owen knew why he fell in love with this child so much when he saw Xiaojia for the first time. He used superb acting skills to hide everything deeply and naturally, and avoided There are all kinds of possibilities to meet that person, but still can't escape the worst ending.

Ruan Miaomiao was stunned for a moment when he heard the words. It's not that he couldn't see Owen's abnormality. Recalling Owen's behavior and words in the past two days, now Ruan Miaomiao also understands that Owen may really not want things to develop like this.

"Accident...yes...you are right, it was just an accident..."

Ruan Miaomiao's voice was weak and trembling, she hurriedly put away the bowls and chopsticks as if trying to hide something, turned around and walked towards the kitchen.

He didn't know what was wrong with him. He was still not sure how he felt about Owen, and what qualifications did he have to question or investigate everything about Owen. This man was so much older than himself. It is perfectly normal to have a deep relationship with someone you love deeply. Ruan Miaomiao didn't want to blame anything, but when Owen saw more images of that person than himself, his heart suddenly lost balance Now, Ruan Miaomiao's shallow emotional experience and cognition, Owen is very clear, he even feels that he is almost naive in the eyes of this man, he will lose control because of fear, and the reason for fear is that Ruan Miaomiao has only discovered so far Owen and his past know nothing about it.

"Miaomiao," Owen called out to the figure from behind, and paused, "No matter what happened between me and him, it's all over, everything is over."

As long as Owen said it, Ruan Miaomiao would believe it, as if he really appeared in front of her eyes when he said he would come back, so Ruan Miaomiao finally nodded.

Owen is not a person who is good at making promises to others. Perhaps only when Ruan Miaomiao believes, can he really believe it.