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Xiao Ruohan's eyes widened: "Go to the countryside to support education?! Just you?!"

Seeing the surprised look of the people in front of him, Owen sneered, almost the same as the expressions on the faces of those teachers when he went to get the registration form, and immediately began to gossip in the school, saying that Owen didn't know what happened, but he would He changed his mind and started a new life, which made him very embarrassed, and he scolded in his heart that he was under so much pressure to learn from Lei Feng these days.

"Why, I'm an associate professor anyway, what's wrong with going to the countryside to support education? I'm afraid that I will mislead my students!"

Owen glared at him impatiently, but Xiao Ruohan suddenly burst out laughing: "Haha, no, if it was before, I must have thought that you wanted to expand your youth development class to the countryside, and then be surrounded by the countryside The whole city is a revolutionary line with red flags fluttering~~hahaha~~”

"Fart! Shut up your pig mouth!" Owen pushed Xiao Ruohan away, "I'm fucking good already, okay!"

Perhaps the meaning of rebirth is to bid farewell to the old life again. Not only did Owen become a good man, after experiencing this catastrophe, he even felt that he should remember the bitterness and think sweetly, and decided to go to the countryside to support education, not all because of Ruan Miaomiao, more I want to organize my future life.

Xiao Ruohan also stopped smiling, nodded seriously, and sighed: "That's fine, really, you should find a place to wake up, you are the one who fell in love first, if you We are together now, and if the child is going to leave in the future, according to your personality, you will let him go, but what should you do at that time?"

What to do, Owen chewed on the three enigmatic words, as if thinking of the night he burned those oil paintings for a moment, he was also confused and painful because of the departure of a person, he knew that feeling too well, But he was still so young at that time, he had plenty of time to heal his injuries, but now... Owen hesitated.

"Yeah, when you're old, you shouldn't fall in love with someone so hastily, right?" Owen shook his head and smiled wryly.

"Old? I heard you right, you actually said you were old," Xiao Ruohan looked at him jokingly, "However, fortunately, you haven't started yet, haven't you? Take this time to think about it yourself, love It takes courage to be the last person, especially at our age."

"But no matter how brave you are, if you don't have someone to love, it's still bullshit."

"Who says it's not, I've bravely loved such a person in my life, heh, he still hates me in the end."

Owen looked at Xiao Ruohan's desolate expression and stopped talking. He knew that there were so many poor people in this world, but he was not the worst one.

Owen has always dismissed such things as finding stability in the pain of others, but now he has to do so.

After that day, Ruan Miaomiao came to Owen's class as usual. The two of them didn't say much except the embarrassment in their expressions and the communication on painting. Knowing that Ruan Miaomiao had heard about it from Lin Zifeng, there was no need to tell him specifically, because Owen didn't want him to think too much.

When he was still painting Ruan Miaomiao, he drew his side face, but for some reason, the face outlined by the strokes was much more haggard than before, and even the outline of the facial features became deeper and slightly mature. Owen thought it was Because of my own emotions, the painting is a bit out of shape. When I repeatedly raised my eyes to confirm, I found that Ruan Miaomiao was staring at me for a moment.

The two looked at each other for a long time. Owen couldn't figure out what Ruan Miaomiao was thinking at the moment, but he realized that he was not wrong. Ruan Miaomiao's eyes were still clear, but the original childishness on his face had become blurred.

Ruan Miaomiao took the lead to look away, raised her hand and continued to draw on the canvas, and said lightly, "Listen to my dad, you are going to support education."

Owen didn't speak, just nodded.

"Is it because of me?"

Ruan Miaomiao stopped and looked at him, but Owen laughed and said, "Why do you say that?"

"..." Ruan Miaomiao frowned and bit her lip, hesitated, "You should answer my question first."

Seeing his serious expression, Owen had no choice but to shrug his shoulders: "I'm here to evaluate the title. If you want to be promoted to full professor, you have to make some contributions, right? Didn't your dad also go to the countryside to teach?"

"I've never heard of the need to go to the countryside to teach in the evaluation of professional titles, and my dad didn't go to teach to become a professor."

"Oh, yes, I'm not as great as your father, and I'm actively involved in education. I just want to be a professor," Owen said sharply, with a look of coldness in his eyes, "Now you have to answer, why do you think I left because of you?"

"I...don't know, I just don't understand why you chose to leave at this time," Ruan Miaomiao glanced at Owen anxiously, then lowered her head, "I will feel that you don't want to see me..."

"Funny, is it because I don't want to see you, or you don't want to see me at all? I'm leaving, isn't it just as you wish?"

Owen's harsh tone made Ruan Miaomiao look at him puzzled, not knowing where the man's fallacy came from: "What do you mean by that, why come to class if I don't want to see you?"

"Yes, I also find it strange why you can stand here as if everything has happened," Owen didn't know what happened to him suddenly, but seeing Ruan Miaomiao's indifferent expression, he couldn't help but want to vent something, "Are you Did you come here just to see me? You came here just to learn painting, to make your father happy!"

"Is there a difference?! When I come to learn painting, I will see you, right?!"

Owen stood up uncontrollably and shouted: "Why do you always feel that there is no difference in everything? Why do you always think the problem is very simple?!"

"Then why do you always like to be aggressive?!"

Ruan Miaomiao also roared angrily. He felt that Owen was a little unreasonable. He knew that this man was more mature and stronger than himself, but Owen was so realistic that Ruan Miaomiao couldn't breathe. It was the same no matter what time it was. Never give up on the answers you want.Ruan Miaomiao is a kind-hearted person. He has never scolded him with a bad word since he was a child, and no one has made him so angry. But since he met Owen, everything in him has been messed up. His life is no longer pure, and his emotions are no longer pure. It became complicated and out of control. Ruan Miaomiao couldn't really treat the problem between the two as nothing happened, he just couldn't find a reason to convince himself.

"Okay... I won't force you... I won't force you," Owen seemed to be sober and came back to his senses, he sat down and lit a cigarette. He never wanted to quarrel with Ruan Miaomiao, not at all, but he wanted too much , but this person can give him so little, Owen has never been so unbalanced in a relationship, once he is not reconciled, he will naturally explode, "Maybe it's because I haven't slept well recently, which affects my mood, forget it... ...You pretend that I didn't say anything, let's stop here today, you are about to take the exam, I'm leaving, you can also concentrate on reviewing."

After Owen finished speaking, he sighed and put out the cigarette. The sketch of Ruan Miaomiao on the table was not thrown into the trash can as usual, but was quietly folded in half and stuffed into his pocket.

He has never liked photos, because Owen said that photos can only show skills, not emotions.

"Teacher Ou!"

As soon as Owen walked to the door, Ruan Miaomiao stopped him, and said with a blushing face, "I just think that if it's because of what happened that day, you really don't need to leave. I should be the one who left..."

"I'm not because of what happened that day, nor because of you," Owen turned back and smiled at him, "Don't think too much, the exam is the most important thing, even if you have passed the major, if you can't pass the college entrance examination score, you can't extract the file , you should study hard.”

Ruan Miaomiao opened her lips, hesitated to speak, and nodded to Owen.

Owen could see a complicated tangle in Ruan Miaomiao's pupils. Maybe he wanted to ask to keep him, but he couldn't find any reason.

Maybe it's best to leave now, Owen doesn't want to disturb Ruan Miaomiao's life, especially at this time, whether he loves or not, he needs time to think clearly, and Ruan Miaomiao is the same.

The place where the school organizes to go to the countryside to support teaching is a bit remote, and it is in a relatively backward small mountain village, where there is only one school. I heard that Lin Zifeng came to this place when he used to support teaching, and he created a famous The oil painting "Hope in the Far Mountains" won the National Five-One Project Award. After the painting was auctioned, all the proceeds were donated to this place. The conditions of the school have been improved, and the children who go out to go to college from here are also well-off. More and more up.

Owen left his mobile phone and computer at home. Anyway, there is probably no signal in that place, let alone the Internet, so Owen planned to travel light, minus all the cumbersome things, except for the necessary clothes, he only brought a sketch drawing board.

He felt that in that place, he might be able to draw a world-shattering work, even if he couldn't draw it, it would be good to use it as a pastime once in a while.

The day Owen set off, the sun was exceptionally good, just like the day when Ruan Miaomiao took him to get the test paper.

When getting in the car, Owen looked back, and there was no big fluctuation in his eyes.

Because he didn't look forward to it, he didn't wait.