dizziness

Bearing the coming of Ruan Miaomiao's last orgasm, Owen couldn't resist falling asleep. He only remembered the confused and regretful face when Ruan Miaomiao pulled out of his body before his consciousness became blurred.

After sleeping for an unknown amount of time, Owen was woken up by a crisp cell phone ringtone. He opened his eyes sleepily and saw that it was already dark, and Ruan Miaomiao was standing by the window, talking on the phone in a low voice. Hearing his tone, Owen knew that the person opposite was Lin Zifeng gave a wry smile weakly, and sat up dragging his painful body.

Ruan Miaomiao seemed to hear the movement, hung up the phone in a hurry, turned around and saw Owen half naked on the sofa staring at himself, his body still had the eye-catching marks after he lost control, Ruan Miaomiao blushed and turned his head away, picked up the scattered things The clothes were handed to Owen.

"Put it on...it's cold at night."

Of course Owen knew that Ruan Miaomiao didn't care about him, but just didn't want to see the evidence of his own crime. How could Owen let him get his wish? He just put on his outer pants, lit a cigarette with his upper body half naked, and looked at Ruan Miaomiao in the white mist. He lowered his head and put his schoolbag on his back.

"Are you going back?"

"Well," Ruan Miaomiao didn't look at him, but responded lightly, "I don't want my dad to worry."

Owen laughed sarcasticly. He really wondered if Ruan Miaomiao told him on purpose. Owen took a puff of cigarette and said sourly, "Yeah, who told him to be your father..."

Owen didn't really want to hit him, but he couldn't control his emotions a little bit. He didn't want Ruan Miaomiao to look at him with nothing but regret, like now.

Ruan Miaomiao frowned, and didn't say much. Owen watched him turn around and walk towards the door, and couldn't help shouting, "Miaomiao!"

Ruan Miaomiao held onto the doorknob, but didn't look back. Owen sighed, and softened his voice as if giving up: "That's not what I meant."

"I know," Ruan Miaomiao nodded slightly, her voice was like a piece of broken ice, she finally turned her head to look at Owen, and said only three words, "...I'm sorry."

Owen saw the apology in Ruan Miaomiao's eyes, but he didn't see the reluctance he expected.

Until the sound of closing the door came to the ears, the worlds of the two were still out of tune.

sorry.Owen understood what Ruan Miaomiao was referring to. He hugged one person and thought about another. As long as he had a little conscience, everyone would still feel guilty.

What Ruan Miaomiao gave him was as simple as his whole body, and he didn't need to think about it at all, and he could see everything in a glance, and even the unintentional harm was so unprepared.

But Owen didn't blame him, it was just that he fell into it wishful thinking, so fast, so without hesitation, he knew that he was doomed and lost, so he was unwilling to force Ruan Miaomiao into this whirlpool.

Owen is not a patient person. He has always been frank about his feelings, and he was a little too hasty. Although he did not force Ruan Miaomiao to possess him, it is an indisputable fact that he is aggressive.

Maybe people live too clearly, which is a bad thing at all. Over the past few decades, Owen understands what a man is like, and his desire for sex almost occupies more than half of his entire thinking. As long as he is slightly stimulated, he will Like a single spark, it quickly engulfed the other half of the so-called reason.

Ruan Miaomiao was still so young that he couldn't even tell whether a man's sex and feelings could be unified or independent of each other. That's why when he faced Owen's bold attack, he was troubled by his loss of control. How could he refuse? I can't restrain my body either, it's not due to emotion, but just the instinct of a man.

Owen suddenly felt a little funny. He forcibly separated Ruan Miaomiao's body from his spirit, and he wanted him to reorganize himself. This was really too difficult.

Owen admitted that he fell in love with Ruan Miaomiao, perhaps not only because of this turmoil, but also when he was willing to compromise under Ruan Miaomiao for the first time. It’s a bit old and unfamiliar, so that his handling method still stays more than ten years ago, and he will forcefully ask for what he wants. Yes, he knows what he wants to hear as a man, and what kind of stimulation he can’t stand the most. With so many years of experience, Ruan Miaomiao's sex and emotion were successfully separated, but Owen's own was inseparable.

Squeezing out the cigarette in his hand, the ashtray was filled with countless cigarette butts at some point. Owen smiled wryly. Maybe the so-called abnormal love in love is nothing more than that.

Owen sighed, he knew he needed time to cool down and settle this sudden relationship.

"Hey, tell me, what did you feel when you narrowly escaped death?"

In the bar, Xiao Ruohan patted Owen on the shoulder. Since that day, he has been unable to get through to Owen's phone, and he wondered if he did something stupid because he couldn't think about it. Until today, when he saw Owen calling, he was shocked and thought it was. A ghost called, and after learning that Owen was not infected with AIDS, the two made an appointment to meet at a bar.

"How can I feel, my whole world view has been rebuilt."

Owen took a sip of his wine and smiled casually.A Ling's phone call still can't be reached, and no one knows what's wrong with him, whether he really has the disease, and everyone in the bar knows that Owen had a relationship with him, Owen watched the people around him cast taboo words at him The line of sight, as if the word AIDS was written on his face, but Owen didn't bother to care about it. If it was before, maybe he would stick the test sheet on his body and show it to everyone, so that he can hunt in the future. The road is unimpeded, but now he won't. Although Owen was not infected, the torment of those few days made him feel like he had a serious illness. His own determination not to return to the hunting ground is the best evidence, so he does not intend to explain or argue with those people.

Seeing Owen's haggard look, Xiao Ruohan couldn't help laughing and said, "Why, you don't seem very happy."

"Can I be fucking happy after being hit by your crow's mouth?" Owen gave him a white look.

"Oh? What's wrong? Did I say something? I don't remember at all," Xiao Ruohan looked at Owen with a raised voice, watched him frown and stared at him, and then smiled evilly, "Let me think about it, you mean Is that true love, or the resentful couple of the seventh generation, or a predestined fate?"

"What do you think?! Is there one of these three who is not torturing people?!"

Xiao Ruohan laughed loudly and said, "Haha, seeing your reaction, I know it will definitely be the last one."

"Thank you for your words, thanks to your crow's mouth curse, I killed three birds with one stone! Are you satisfied?!"

"Such a heavy taste? I didn't see it, did something happen between you?"

Owen took a deep look at Xiao Ruohan, lit a cigarette, hesitated for a moment, and told Xiao Ruohan what happened, because he really needed someone to talk to, Ruan Miaomiao was no longer Owen's prey, for him, Owen is also full of confusion and hesitation.

Xiao Ruohan calmed down after listening, and said slowly: "You mean, because of that kiss, you fell in love with him?"

"It's obvious, isn't it?" Owen put down the wine glass in his hand and looked at Xiao Ruohan solemnly, "If someone kissed you at that time, wouldn't you fall in love with that person? Ruohan, you should understand that it is not ordinary sick."

"So, do you think he kissed you because he loves you?"

Owen shook his head in a panic: "No, no... I don't know... Maybe he isn't, I really don't know..."

"Owen, you are thinking too much, he is just a child, maybe as he himself said, just to calm you down, so he was too impulsive, you are a mature person, you should know that at his age children, they will always do some irrational things.”

"but……"

"But what?" Xiao Ruohan pressed Owen's shoulder and said sternly, "Think about it, if you were the only one who was infected, would he still be like that? That's because none of you were diagnosed, and things turned out like this .”

Owen was speechless, he knew that what Xiao Ruohan said was exactly what he wanted in his heart, but Owen couldn't force himself to admit that that kiss had such an impact on him that it even made him ignore everything around him, Owen He took a deep breath and sighed: "Ruohan, it's not just the kiss that made me fall in love with him, you know me well, I've always been strong, but at that time, without him, I really don't know what would become of him." How, he made me realize that I was so fragile and needed someone to rely on.”

"Is it really difficult for him to be someone you can rely on? Owen, don't forget that he is just a child."

"He can't be a child in my heart anymore!" Owen said with some uncontrollable excitement, "You don't even know how I survived those few days. When I was most afraid, he hugged me and replaced me. I'm strong, and for the first time I long to be possessed, even...not caring that he has someone else in mind."

Owen lowered his head in pain, Xiao Ruohan held his trembling hands firmly: "Even if you love him, so what? You are people from two worlds, there is no future, he is still so young, when he grows up There will be many changes when you grow up. Can you guarantee that you are together, and one day he will not leave you like those children? Besides, the person he likes now is not you, Owen, you are too deep gone."

"But... you also said that this is predestined, right? He said he couldn't control himself, but why not me."

Xiao Ruohan shook his head: "Why he can't control it, you should know better than me. What he can't control is the desire of the flesh, but what you have to control is your own heart. There is no destiny in the world, the so-called destiny But it’s just that you admit your fate too quickly, Owen, you recognize it too quickly, and you take it too seriously.”

"Isn't it good to have someone who can be serious?" Owen raised his eyes and looked at him melancholy, his eyes filled with helplessness.

"It's not bad to be serious. You and I are people who have experienced it. You should know that the most taboo thing about the word serious is to use the wrong person. Owen, you used it wrong. You have already lost before you even started."

"I don't give a shit about winning or losing!"

Xiao Ruohan stared blankly at Owen roaring and knocking over the wine glass at hand, even if the wine spilled on him, he didn't care, but his pupils were trembling hysterically, Xiao Ruohan was silent for a moment, then held his shoulder: "I miss you You should calm down."

Owen seemed to come back to his senses, glanced at him, nodded stupidly, and returned to normal: "Yes...you are right, I really should find a place to calm down, today I am here to say goodbye to you of."

"Are you leaving? Where are you going?"

"The school organizes going to the countryside to support education, and I signed up."