before and after

There was no wind or cloud that day.The sky is blue, clear and lofty.

Liang Xiao was choosing a suit in the closet.Ye Ruixin likes his elegance and always looks after his clothes personally.Liang Xiao couldn't forget which shirt Ye Ruixin liked, and which tie matched each suit best.

Liang Xiao took out the suit he wore on the day of registration.Today's date is so important, Liang Xiao wants to dress something special.Ye Ruixin likes this suit very much, he will be happy.

Liang Xiao sorted out every detail in front of the mirror.Collars, ties, pocket squares, watches, shoes.Decades later, fine and cashmere fabrics are still crisp.It's just that Liang Xiao is slightly thinner than when he was young, and he doesn't seem to fit as well as he did back then.

The funeral was held in a church near the orphanage, and Liang Xiao parked the car in the villa.Go alone on foot.Along the way, Liang Xiao thought about all the details of the funeral. After Ye Ruixin passed away, Liang Xiao refused everyone's help and arranged for his death alone.There is not much left, Liang Xiao doesn't want to miss anything related to Ye Ruixin.

There was still an hour before the funeral, and Liang Xiao had to confirm the remains with the undertaker for the last time.

The coffin was not heavy, and the brown willow wood shone with a faint light.Ye Ruixin was lying inside, surrounded by bouquets of white roses.From afar, he looks so light, as if he just landed.

It's just that the stranger didn't understand him and combed his hair in the wrong direction.

Liang Xiao asked the embalmer to give him some time, and let him and Ye Ruixin be alone for a while.

Holding the edge of the coffin, Liang Xiao combed Ye Ruixin's hair neatly again.His gray hair hadn't grown out yet, and he looked so young, so peaceful.It's like sleeping beside me every day and night.

Liang Xiao stared into Ye Ruixin's eyes, staring at the eyes under the endless sleep.Liang Xiao knew that Ye Ruixin was also staring at him.

In the hazy sadness, Liang Xiao felt the happiness of being with Ye Ruixin.He remembered the oath he made when he was wearing this suit, and the brilliance in Ye Ruixin's eyes at that time.

"Till death dous part..."

Until death makes our love eternal.

When the funeral began, the church was already full of people.Except for a few people who have come into contact with him at work, most of them are the children Ye Ruixin sponsored.The master of ceremonies announced the beginning of the funeral and introduced Ye Ruixin's life.The manuscript was written by Liang Xiao, but it felt so strange at the moment.

The Mr. Liang that the master of ceremonies said was not the Ye Ruixin who had integrated into his life after all.That's just how he looks to outsiders.With a sense of distance, less perverse, sharp edge restrained.

Liang Xiao was lost in memory.It wasn't until the pastor mentioned heaven in the memorial service that Liang Xiao once again realized that this was Ye Ruixin's funeral.

The master of ceremonies dominated the process of the funeral, and Xia Yang stepped forward to recall some past events with Ye Ruixin.The eulogy mentioned their first encounter, mentioned Ear, and mentioned the New Year's side stove.

Afterwards, the children in the orphanage played Ye Ruixin's favorite piece on the violin."Poruna Cabeza" (One Step Away) when they first met.

'The lake is as cold as moonlight.you fall in love with me...'

Liang Xiao recalled Ye Ruixin's words, playing with them gently with his fingertips on the edge of his trousers.

The violin is sharp but not harsh, just like a dancer stepping on tango steps, with noble steps and a disdainful attitude.The end of a song is like a dance without fun, always only one step away.

With the announcement of the master of ceremonies, the farewell ceremony officially began.The people attending the funeral got up and moved forward one after another.They bypassed Ye Ruixin, and walked in front of Liang Xiao.

"Take care."

Simple language replaced gorgeous words. They understood Liang Xiao's feelings at the moment, but no one could share half of it for him.

After the funeral, Xia Yang stayed with Liang Xiao to help the spirit.Ye Ruixin's body will spark, Liang Xiao kissed the coffin at the end and handed it over to the staff.

Cremation takes about two hours.Liang Xiao didn't say a word while waiting, appearing silent and calm.When the staff delivered the urn to Liang Xiao, Xia Yang subconsciously avoided it. He couldn't look directly at Liang Xiao's pain.

Xia Yang drove Liang Xiao to the airport.Except for the carefully placed urn in his hand, Liang Xiao didn't have any luggage.

"Teacher, shall I go with you?" Xia Yang asked again.

"I'm fine, he said it's time for the golden wedding." Liang Xiao kept looking at the urn in his arms, his eyes tender and affectionate, "It won't be long, I promise him."

From New York to Hong Kong, the flight distance is 13000 kilometers and it takes 16 hours.

Liang Xiao didn't feel sleepy at all, and the sense of burnout seemed to have disappeared since the day he lost Ye Ruixin.Liang Xiao devoted himself to the agreement with Ye Ruixin.He understood that he completely owned Ye Ruixin, and the memories of the past spread out at a height of [-] feet, and Liang Xiao unknowingly tightened his embrace.

A sense of happiness filled every cell, and Liang Xiao admired Ye Ruixin's appearance in his memory.How grateful he is for the blessing of fate, allowing him to have these 20 years.He even thanked himself for being alone at this time.

There is no better explanation for the four words of getting what you want.

"Why do I feel sleepy when flying?"

"When the plane takes off, the human body loses weight, and the blood in the whole body stays in the lower body. Insufficient blood supply to the brain leads to hypoxia in the brain, and sleepiness is caused by the regulation of the human body's natural immune system. In fact, the accompanying reactions are more appropriate. There is a sense of bulging. The degree is related to the ability of the individual's physical fitness."

"Doctor Liang, are you an encyclopedia?"

"You asked me."

"Just lend me your shoulder!"

"My shoulders are more comfortable than a first-class sofa?"

"You do not want it?"

"willing."

The shock caused by the landing made Liang Xiao regain consciousness.Liang Xiao didn't know when he fell asleep, he only remembered that Ye Ruixin's voice was right next to his ears, so real.

The plane began to taxi on the runway, and Liang Xiao looked out the window.

Hong Kong, here we come.

There was no time to wash up in the cabin, so Liang Xiao bought toiletries at the airport.How important this trip was, Liang Xiao carefully trimmed the beard that had grown all night, and restyled his hair and tie.

Liang Xiao had never been to this city, and later Ye Ruixin rarely mentioned it.

The red taxi is still the same as in the movie.Humid and hot weather, crowded streets, and dense towering buildings make up this city full of fireworks.

Liang Xiao didn't want to miss any scene outside the car window, he looked at his dream hometown for Ye Ruixin.Has it changed here?Is it the way you are nostalgic?

The taxi stops in front of the cemetery.Liang Xiao looked up at the cemetery that extended to the top of the mountain. The tombstones of all kinds were orderly and spectacular, with the old and the new intertwined next to each other.They are as crowded as the buildings in this city.On the opposite side of the cemetery, there are still tall buildings and thousands of lights.Between life and death, the two looked at each other, silently.For the first time, this city with every inch of land and every inch of gold brought Liang Xiao a sense of depression.He suddenly felt a little bit reluctant, reluctant to keep Ye Ruixin here.

Liang Xiao walked up the steps step by step. Every tombstone here is like a door.In this season, there were not many people who came to worship except for the death and death. Liang Xiao occasionally passed by few pedestrians.Before he knew it, his pace became slower and slower.

Liang Xiao began to estimate the distance uncontrollably, the distance to parting.

As we approach the top of the mountain, the distance between the tombstones gradually becomes wider.Although it is still not comparable to the spacious and quiet cemeteries in the United States, it is much more reassuring than what I have seen before.

With the reduction of tombstones, there are almost no visitors on the top of the mountain.Liang Xiao's eyes were attracted by the four identical tombstones, and the unified tombstone was particularly eye-catching in this cemetery.So much so that Liang Xiao took a second look before he saw the person standing by the tombstone.

Ember.

Hearing footsteps, Li Jin turned his head.

Their eyes meet first, intense but fleeting.Liang Xiao involuntarily looked at the three characters on the tombstone behind Li Jin, while Li Jin stared at the heaviness between Liang Xiao's hands.

He brought him back.

The farther we turn from the past, the more irresistible the voice beckoning us back.Li Jin seemed to be able to see Ye Ruixin beside Liang Xiao. He still looked like a student in his memory, standing beside Liang Xiao with a smile on his face, and introduced Liang Xiao to him.

The past and the past flooded into my heart at this moment, but they could not be condensed into any words.

This tombstone has been covered with dust for more than [-] years. Lying quietly under the tombstone is the violin that was placed by Ye Ruixin's bed.Li Jin stood aside, watching Liang Xiao carefully place the urn.

They know each other's identity, and they also know the meaning of this moment.From now on, under this tombstone are their loved ones.

"How is he?"

"very good."

"That's good."

Liang Xiao didn't stop there, he couldn't continue to breathe in this crowded city, because at this moment he was empty-handed.

The fastest flight will take off in two hours, Liang Xiao reached out his hand to get the boarding pass from his pocket, and then a white hair fell on the sofa.

Liang Xiao reached out to pick up the white hair, and he remembered this white hair.

This is Ye Ruixin's first gray hair.

At that moment, Liang Xiao suddenly realized that Ye Ruixin was dead.That feeling of despair and misery flooded over to him like a flood, and the surrounding air seemed to condense into a solid body, enveloping Liang Xiao's body from all directions.

The tears came too slowly, as if each drop was coagulated by blood.It is too dense to pass through the lacrimal gland.Liang Xiao held Ye Ruixin's white hair tightly, twitching and crying uncontrollably in the waiting room.

If he can get through today, he can get through the rest of his life.

end

When they met, it was each other's most beautiful years.If you add up the scattered memories left by their life together, how much time will it take in total?

One hour?one day?or eternity?

We have never attempted to calculate this relationship, nor does any technical method exist for calculating it.

For Liang Xiao, these memories are part of his life.

Continuous cardiac resuscitation on the transfer bed, calling the central blood bank to negotiate a blood bag, and taking over the doctor to save a life with warm blood.

Liang Xiao won the highest award of the American Heart Surgery Association for his outstanding research results.Liang Xiao then returned to clinical medicine and devoted the rest of his life to his beloved medical career.At the age of 78, he still independently completed a heart transplant operation that lasted more than ten hours. After that, Liang Xiao still gave clinical guidance in the operating room.Lead the team to try their best to overcome the difficulties of life and death.

The memories of 30 years filled Liang Xiao's remaining 20 years.

The phoenix tree in front of the door is already green, and the setting sun reflected on the dense green leaves is shining with golden light, which is dazzling.

Liang Xiao took off the wedding ring in his hand and replaced it with the one he picked 50 years ago.And the other ring belonging to Ye Ruixin, Liang Xiao buried it under the tree together with the former one.

Liang Xiao looked at the sky from a gap in the tree.

The white clouds are like gauze, flowing in strands, just like when he was there.

Extra Facetime Ye Ruixin vs Liang Xiao

The bell rang, and when Liang Xiao picked up the phone, he found that the camera was turned on.It was Ye Ruixin calling facetime.

Press on, and Ye Ruixin appears on the screen.

"Morning, Dr. Liang."

"It's noon." Liang Xiao said.

"Stay away."

"what?"

"Let me see if you look handsome in uniform."

"It's not like you haven't seen it before."

Even so, Liang Xiao still took the phone away.The shirt and tie were chosen by Ye Ruixin last night, but the suit was replaced by a white coat.It is more refreshing and beautiful.

"Doctor Liang, what a handsome boy you are!"

Liang Xiao was a little embarrassed by Ye Ruixin's praise, and he looked at Ye Ruixin with the phone close to him.On the screen, Ye Ruixin turned over on the soft bed, lying on the pillow and looking at the camera.

"Why are you still in bed?"

"I'm fine, I can wake up anytime."

"It's time for you to eat."

Liang Xiao didn't notice how smiling he was on the phone screen, his eyes were all on Ye Ruixin.Watch him fiddle with his hair for a while, appreciate his subtle expressions for a while, and adjust the angle for a while to make himself look better in the camera.

Liang Xiao poked the camera, and Ye Ruixin looked at a small piece of Liang Xiao's image on the top of the screen.

"Why are you poking me?"

"You send me facetime, shouldn't you be looking at me?"

Liang Xiao's words made Ye Ruixin realize that he was admiring himself just now. He laughed and cut Liang Xiao's picture on the screen to a larger size, then lay on his back and held up the phone.

"Doctor Liang..." Ye Ruixin bit her lip, "Does this look your favorite?"

Maybe Liang Xiao didn't understand Ye Ruixin's hints before, but after so many years, he certainly understood what Ye Ruixin was alluding to.The angle he was lying on had a charming smile and bright eyes.He knows he's sexy, and he can easily make himself even sexier.

"is not it?"

Liang Xiao unconsciously held the phone closer, not wanting others to see his private picture.

"I'm working now."

Ye Ruixin smiled and said, "So what? Do you want me to wait for you to come back?"

Liang Xiao laughed, he really wanted to ruffle Ye Ruixin's hair which he was fingering to punish him for his prank.Of course, Liang Xiao still has a lot to do if he goes home.

"Don't make trouble."

"You kiss me."

Saying this, Ye Ruixin poked her own cheek with her finger.

Liang Xiao looked outside the door, and there seemed to be no one in the corridor.

"mua."

"It doesn't count, I didn't kiss."

"Then how can you kiss me if you kiss me?"

Liang Xiao's answer was beyond Ye Ruixin's expectation, and he felt more and more that he had underestimated how quickly Dr. Liang learned to be bad.Ye Ruixin smiled and took the phone closer, the camera got closer and closer, and slowly approached his lips.

Ye Ruixin's lips left a light kiss on the camera, and then moved slowly.Those beautiful eyes appeared on the screen again, and Liang Xiao heard him say:

"husband."

"What?" Liang Xiao asked back with a smile, "What did you say?"

Ye Ruixin pulled up the quilt beside her to cover her lips, but the smile in her eyes was still clearly transmitted through the screen.

"It's time for you to work! Byebye!"

As he spoke, the video was hung up by Ye Ruixin.Liang Xiao looked at the phone in his hand, recalling Ye Ruixin's appearance just now.

He loves him so much. ???????